but then the epiphany ...
but then the epiphany ...
Because about 9 months after my birthday on an early autumn school night it was dishes night for me and just as I was finishing, and while looking down at the sink full of dirty filthy dishwater which was now suddenly swimming with 'old country begotten' oily dark colored eel-like things, and while the 'Italiano' parent in the living room was once again screaming at another sibling for some apparent infraction, it happened . . .
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Slam -
it hit me like a canon ball -
the now famous -
SOUTH MAIN STREET, MECHANICVILLE, NY
DIRTY DISHWATER EPIPHANY !!!
The lord was now showing me that the grace period - the fun stuff - the 'astonishing beyond belief' stuff - was now over!
AND HE WASN'T KIDDING!
The 'heaven sent ambrosia delight consciousness without even trying' thing would now over time be replaced, and to such an extent that within five years I would scarcely even remember it!
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I was now being shown that my future was going to be drastically different than these last 9 glorious months have been. And in an instant I was being shown that the sins of various ethnic relations - in my case 'South Main Street dirty dishwater kin folk' - would for some reason be slung around my neck like an albatross for me to bear for the next several decades, thereby making my life anything but a walk in the park.
And I didn't know it at the time but it all had to happen. Because the 'truth had to hit the fan' – just to get a lot of religious stuff right out into the open for all to see. These were just the rules. And I also didn't know that this would be just one of many premonitions over the years that would unerringly come true.
Once when I was ten year old kid I was standing in a relative's South Main Street tire shed in the late afternoon and just looking at all the old tires and then when I looked down at the concrete floor I saw a big huge rat sitting right in front of my right sneaker and just staring right at my big toe. I ran fast. Another premonition. And guess who that turned out to be ...
And I also didn't know it at the time that right after this 'epiphany' in early fall that many members of another one of the humanity's illustrious ethnic groups - my paternal half - would now begin to descend like flies for the next several years and to such an extent that even eventually graduating in the spring from high school was no longer assured. Behind the back stuff you wouldn't believe.
And it was all because of this 'real religious stuff' that showed up out of nowhere on my '74 birthday and lasted the entire spring - they like many others couldn't help but notice it. Because on some days the 'light from above' that would be pouring thru me was simply attention getting. And the assurance it provided, as well, of a wonderfully divine future. But they were the only 'group' who then responded by turning into nothing but a bunch of jealous green shitting irreligious bastards.
And I also didn't know it at the time that strange 'filial' curses unique only to them had been leveled against me as a child and would now take decades to decipher and which I would be forced to endure. And plenty of their spirit world apparitions - at least one every couple of years - would keep the ball rolling just for fun.
But this would all be religiously revealing stuff!
As would be the witnessing of the many varieties of 'demonic skill sets' that can be wielded by a lot of so-called everyday hard working tax paying law abiding so-called citizens. But these 'skilled' individuals can be hard to spot - they're well disguised. And it is all really quite surprising, and insidious beyond description, and if left unchecked can destroy other peoples lives. And, interestingly enough, psychology 'shrinks' know absolutely nothing about this stuff – they don't even know that these 'skill sets' even exist!
BUT NOW THEY WOULD !!!
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And speaking of 'going thru hell' - I also didn't know it yet (how could I have) but I would indeed, in June '95, find myself literally surrounded by the Infernal Regions Themselves for six long hours! And there's proof!
And I also didn't know it yet but I would have, in time, a slew of all kinds of 'divine assistants' and lots of other forms of divine help - even the souls of historic Hollywood personages and former monarchs - just to get me thru it all. And TV Land too!
But on this September evening I didn't know any of this. All I knew then was what I was then being shown, that …
THE GRACE PERIOD WAS NOW OVER -
FOR WHATEVER REASON -
AND THAT I WOULD NOW GO THRU HELL !!!
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I then turned away from the kitchen sink and walked out the front door into the warm and dark autumn night and sat down on the front lawn not far from the power pole and while facing the house began to quietly and religiously weep.
I KNEW WHAT I HAD JUST BEEN SHOWN!
And as I quietly sat there - as I remember it I just kept saying to myself over and over again, tears streaming down, “God please no, anything but the sins of the guin.. ” - the family pet suddenly nuzzled his canine nose right into my right cheek. It being dark out I hadn't noticed him before. He just suddenly appeared right next to me at just the right time. Ears back and all loving he then just put his head right into my arms. He somehow knew what I had just been shown.
THE GOOSE BABE !!!