Why ?
I arrived on this planet over seventy years ago. My first memory was when I was about two years old in a pram looking out at my surroundings. I don't remember being born, much like everyone else and I either had amnesia from a past existence or didn't have any previous existence at all. There wasn't any intelligence in me to even ask the question till I was about four years old when one day I asked my mother how old I was, thinking that I was quite ancient. Then the questions continued and never stopped.
What was I? where did I come from? Where was I headed and why did I have this incessant feeling that something wasn't quite right? In other words was I really an amnesiac or did I have no past and my only future was death with all the fear attached. The doom and gloom of futility. What was I supposed to do? Just live for a short time and then just fade away and die or was something being hidden from me in my amnesia.
The world and its man made systems didn't make any sense and still make absolutely no sense to me now. Human beings kill all life including each other and are supposed to be the most intelligent species on the planet. Something is wrong and there must be a reason why we are all in this extremely low mental state that we don't even recognize....
Many human beings talk about awakening, which suggests to me that we are all asleep in this life.... Why?
A first concept!
How did we all get into this sleep state? Whose stupid idea was it to start with amnesia and then spend the rest of the life trying to figure it all out in a short space of time and then do it all over again. All human beings are trying to find peace, happiness, freedom or whatever, why? because we don't possess any of them.
The second concept is that we are all here to learn. Learn what? How to love. If so called 'God' is love, then why have human beings been created to go through endless time acquiring something that is supposed to be their true nature. Sadistic and masochistic comes to mind and everybody blindly follows the same trail.
I think both concepts emanate from that very mind which causes the condition.
Last night I had an intense dream about some ridiculous drama which was so strong that when i woke up after it I felt the need to go back into the dream to sort the problems out. Fortunately this mental condition wore off quickly but left a negative feeling for some time.
Is this what the mind is capable of? Is this what we are experiencing in so called physical life? Yes! and the answer is to wake up out of this dream in order to eliminate our illusory mental drama.
We believe we are human beings living a life of mental drama and physical suffering. It is accepted and hardly ever questioned and for that very reason we never escape. This is a false reality that was created over many years starting with amnesia as a new born child. But!
There is a 'splinter in the mind' that eventually becomes unbearable and the process of awakening starts to grow and blossom.
Why would God, Perfect Consciousness or whatever you want to call it, decide to create human beings in a sleep state and then have them spend their whole existence trying to wake up. Stupid idea!
If there is such a thing as reincarnation or transmigration of souls, why should there be amnesia at the beginning of each life.
If the mechanistic and scientific concept that we live a short life and then oblivion turns out to be true then I say, 'what a waste'.
To be locked inside a system that every human is trying to escape does not leave me with a sense of love and care.
It all seems very unintelligent and childish which makes me feel that there is a very different explanation than the ones given in religions, philosophies and spiritual traditions and science.
In my life I have discovered three things.
1. The bulk of humanity is asleep and living an illusory and deluded fear ridden existence.
2. Humans cannot express their true nature in the state they are in.
3. The true nature of humans is pure consciousness and consciousness is one.
So whatever caused this deluded amnesia that gives rise to separation, there is a great need to escape its prison and return to our true nature.