Written 7/19/11
Tomorrow is my 79th birthday. Last year I had no idea that I would be here or even on this earth. My doctor told me after my chemotherapy and radiation treatments to go and do whatever I wanted. Barry and I went to Rome, saw Jakob and visited many churches, fountains , the Vatican. One day we took a bus and went out of Rome to another city and had a great day and saw many sights. The next month Jenny, Sadie and Melissa and yours truly boarded a plane and went to Costa Rica. Another great trip. I finished up the summer going to England with Nolan especially to Liverpool so he could visit where the Beatles were born then on to London for another week. Upon returning home, I visited my oncologist, and after taking test he felt the cancer was in remission and with that I continued to live my life to the fullness.
Three months later, it was November and I had a pain in my left arm and was diagnosed with coronary heart disease (C.A.D.) and into surgery I went to find out I had a 95% closure of my artery and had a stent implanted. It was a shock to me (more than the cancer) but have accepted it. I am not afraid of dying but that my family will find me dead and 'Rigor Mortis' will have set in and they'll feel bad that no one was with me-if this happens it's all right - my soul will be where it's suppose to be with my John and the rest of the family. This is not morbid, this is how I feel, if there is not a hereafter that's o.k. too-who knows? Not ME.
By the way, today I feel great-BUT I am not given more days on this earth just to go places, but it's not a bad thought either - I MUST be of some service for the last few years of my life. I have been blessed with the BEST family in the world and I MUST give forward. I do believe for every good deed the return is tenfold-though it might not be noticeable it will be within me. MY birthday wish it to obtain my goals and continue my faith in God.