2/26/2024

I had a very strange dream this morning - a continuation from a dream recently. I didn't remember when I had the first dream, but in the dream I remembered that I was in the setting before (probably in a dream as well, dreaming a dream in my dream?). I dreamed that I forgot to check on Lee since I prepared for my trip (wih my family?). It was a while when I thought of checking on Lee again. I called him and the phone kept playing his saved messages. He didn't answer the calls. I talked to Brad or someone about the uneasiness of not being able to reach him. I was with two of older cousins and a bunch of other people and decided not to stay with them. They went on to their destination and I went to check on Lee in the end of a strange street. I saw the lady who didn't want to be seen again. She with a young girl and another man this time. I felt that I saw her in the previous dream too. Then I examined the door next to her, supposed Lee's room? Then somebody came out to tell me that Lee died. He said that Lee died in January, and later on he changed it to February.  I tried to ask him the details and he showed me some of his scribed records. He showed some up and downs of Lee's conditions. I could feel my emotions. Then, suddenly, I woke up.

How could I dream a such strange dream after Lee died at home more than 8 years ago? Maybe it's time to write... 

3/14/2024

I am not sensitive about dates. However, yesterday, I just realized that wow, tomorrow will be our wedding anniversary! And after a rush morning moment with my bad temper about Michelle's insistence on getting her blanket when we were almost late for her school, I just realized that today would be our 10th anniversary if Lee was still alive! It would be a special day, wouldn't it?

I went to get my Herbalife supply and I saw the big bag of wellness drink provided by Mermaid. I give thanks to God about Mermaid's big love! I felt so much loved every time I saw that big bag! How blessed I am with my little sister's love. My another sister is also full of love. Honestly, my family is a family full of love, the main reason is our Mom! On such a meaningful day, I am very grateful for the most loving people in my life - Mom and Lee!

Then, I turned on the computer, this song started to play - a song shared by A-Jen!