I initially picked up the pencil to communicate ideas, and put to paper what I was thinking, from stories, songs, and games. If I had an idea, I would draw a sketch into my notebook in school and then bring it back home to flesh out my creativity. This creative process felt therapeutic, and it became evident overtime that the work I was producing was an indirect reflection of my emotions. This was my only form of venting, in a culture that disapproved any sensitivity from a boy. I myself was a sensitive child, and I hated myself because of it. I would cry in front of my peers and the reaction I got conditioned me to feel less of a man, as a result, I suppressed my emotions in my teen years. I stopped growing attached to new people and bottled up as much as I could. If I never got attached, I could never get hurt. I was an emotionally distant person and felt disconnected from myself, but I feel I must share the experience I underwent. Toxic Masculinity is a problem in the United States for male youth and my art displays my experience and what others are experiencing.
The work contains a singular figure in an array of mediums, colors and positions. The non-confronting positions, the soft lighting, the vibrant and dramatic color use, to show the disconnection and internal conflict that I felt. These works narrate a journey of reflection, enlightenment, and dread.
Remniscing Artist, Graphite on Drawing Paper; 11 x 14 in.
Pondering Artist, Acrylic on Canvas; 18 x 24 in.
Clairvoyance, Digital Photography, 16 x 9.
2020 Series: Desolate Shade, Digital Photography
Defeated Artist, Digital Photography.
Dissassociation, Digital Photography.
External Wounds, Digital Photography.
2020 Series; Blue Lamp, Digital Photography
2020 Series; Figure Stands, Digital Photography.
Ideal Man Self Destroys, Digital.
This Boy, Acrylic on Canvas, 16 x 20 in.
I Me Nowhere, Acrylic on Canvas, 24 x 36 in.
Ascension, Digital Photography.
Enlightenment, Digital.
Descension. Digital.
The Inner Light, Digital.
The Flickering Inner Light, Digital.
Broken Pieces, Digital.
The Self Destruction, The Intrusion, The Tears, The Garden, Acrylic on 4 11 x 14 in Canvas. 22 x 28 in.
And in the End. Graphite on Drawing Paper. 11 x 14.
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