By Riot M.

I look out the plane window

over the expanse of the plains

this is the last time 

i ever leave my home 

i can’t help but feel sad 

when looking over all 

that i could have done 

in life 

i regret not telling

people that I was sorry

i regret not marrying 

them when i had the chance 

i regret not hugging my 

parents more

i regret not living 

life to the fullest 

i regret not being 

more social 

i regret going 

to those parties 

i regret telling those 

people i loved them 

i regret being easy 

to manipulate but 

i guess i wouldn’t be 

as wise as i am now 

i regret being rude 

to my family 

i regret not leaving 

them sooner 

i regret my relationships 

with toxicity 

i regret being the 

reason people cried 

i regret not making 

them cry harder

I'm glad i shut them out

i’m glad i kept 

them at a distance 

i'm glad i got to be there when 

she died 

i'm glad i got to say goodbye 

to my dad 

i'm glad that i lived 

happily 

i'm glad that i stayed confident 

even when the voices 

got so loud 

i'm glad that i never 

let them win 

i'm glad that i stayed 

true to myself 

and never let others dictate 

who i should’ve been 

i'm glad that 

i got payback 

i'm glad i forgave him 

i'm glad that i 

apologized even when

it was too late 

i'm glad that i kept 

my word 

i'm glad that i broke 

that promise 

i'm glad that i kept 

those secrets 

i'm glad i ratted

them out 

i'm glad they were 

able to be mad 

at me 

i'm glad they didn’t die 

I’m glad that I’m dying on my own terms