By C.H

For you I would paint my face of ash a shimmering gold 

For you I would dim my extremely contagious laughter 

For you I would straighten my cloudlike coils 

For you I would drown my sorrows in weight watchers tv dinners 

For you I would hide my ancestral curves in the shadows

For you I would would refine myself until I fit your preferred for 

For you I would sit idly by the phone for hours 

For you 

For you I destroyed myself and rewrote my entire existence 

For you I crawled into the shadowy corners of the world 

For you I became a side character in my own movie 

For you I turned placid 

For you I hid my scars 

For you I shed tears 

For you I disappeared 

For you I bled 

For you 

You are no longer my assignment 

Nothing 

I do 

Will be 

For you

Again. 

For me I will unveil my complexion

even when it is not luminescent 

For me I will paint my smile as it is 

even when it is not 

For me I will nurture my curls 

even for prestigious events 

For me I will love my figure 

even when I want to hide 

For me I will wear my hips with pride 

even when they are deemed inappropriate 

For me I will by my truest self 

even when the role fits like a glove 

For me I will be readily unavailable 

even when I so desperately want to wait 

For you 

For me I will let my scars 

Be just that 

Scars 

For me 

I will 

Never

Bleed

For You 

Again