When we change track in a relationship and move on, or when we lose someone we love, it's not usually an all-or-nothing situation, and it's often really difficult to remember all the reasons things weren't lovely when we're having to navigate a new path. 

I wake in the morning

and see no more you,

already forgetting 

what we went through.

Alive and alert 

but the danger is new

not remembering why

I can't miss you.

I'm reminiscing

and all confused...

whatever was it

that caused my bad mood?

The pain multiplies 

on hearing your voice,

I'm sure I believed

that there wasn't a choice.

Discarding yesterdays

and what they mean;

they can't hurt any more,

when relegated to dreams.

I must know what I want

after all this time?

it's like a lost password

I didn't recite.

Now you aren't with me,

I'm unable to heal;

Can't move my life on 

or change how I feel.

I must gain resolution,

or whatever I do,

every tick of the clock

will remind me of you.