march
I’ve sent several messages. I’ve texted him a lot of times. I’ve shared stories in case he’s interested. I’ve also sent heartfelt greetings just to make him feel that I was there.
Yet, it seemed that all the efforts I made were in vain.
Did I just experience a full 180? Because this time, I was the one starting the conversation, and he never responded like he used to.
I was just hoping for an answer. Even just an acknowledge receipt. Like responding with ‘noted’ or something.
Until one afternoon, when I came back from a one-week leave.
I received a message that he would no longer want to continue.
Why did it have to hurt?
I may not really, but.. I thought everything were going really well. What did I do? What happened?
The reason: He’s not yet ready to be in a serious relationship. He said he needed time to grow as a person, because he did not want to be that guy who would do the same mistakes he did in the past. I understand. And I was willing to wait.
But at the same time, I have to agree with my friends, whom I luckily was able to still sit with every break time - if one wants to start a relationship, then he had to be ready. He was the one who made the first move, but he was also the one who desired to give up on this.
It could likely still be me. I don’t know. Maybe I’m only overthinking. But what can I do? Although this could have blossomed into a true relationship, I chose to let this one slide and move on. I had no choice.
And it happened just in time for something better.
Elsewhere in the world, someone just went through his redemption arc.
He’s back.
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