I took yesterday to be in my feels. Gave myself down time to allow the flow of the mixed feelings.

I watched an amazing series on Netflix called Live to 100. It connected me to my grandparents whom I loved fiercely. They were my role models and both lived long fulfilling lives, my grandma 89, my Papa 95. I highly recommend everyone watch it and see how it speaks to you. It definitely got my wheels turning about my priorities in life and how I can do better.

I know I’m dealing with broken trust from my medical team and possible uncertainties of any long term effects this over dosing my have effected my body/kidney, but I can’t help but be excited God woke me up to enjoy another day.

I can’t control what happened to me, but I can control how I allow it to make me feel, and for how long. Honoring our feelings and making space to process is so important.

For me and every other Jew in the world, it is a New Year today. We celebrate it with something sweet as a reminder of how sweet life is each and every day. It is the beginning of the high holy days, a period of reflection and sacrifice of letting go of the old and welcoming the new. I read somewhere it is giving yourself a break from worry and reminding yourself that God has us always. When people ask how I’m able to stay hopeful despite what life throws at me, I simply answer, my foundation of trust in God has been my only constant, and I am grateful for the good, the bad and the ugly. It means I am still alive to love and serve others and myself.

So Shanah Tovah! May you and your family have a sweet new year, filled with love, joy and good health. 

Taken at Mendenhall Glacier, Juneau, Ak Aug 2023 💜