this site is to organise and format my situation relating to
tumblr users nezemny ( zirka ) and pseudolife ( anarchy. )
by formerly stlkawares.tumblr.com, now stlkawareness.tumblr.com.
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this page is my most recent callout, and an update / overhaul of both past and latest events.
below, i intend to cover current allegations / accusations between myself and nezemny aka zirka.
i am being fully transparent in all of this, and will do my best to ensure this is conveyed. i won't be addressing assumptions, only fact or disproving assumptions.
important: anarchy has said she's not read any of my callouts. it's possible nezemny hasn't, either. she doesn't know what i've confirmed or taken responsibility for. this will become evident in what will be mentioned below.
this is a long page. largely because nezemny had much to say, while also saying a whole lot of nothing. please be patient, your time is greatly appreciated. i promise there's worthwhile, legitimate and discernible evidence.
current standing allegations:
- enablement of stalking ( it also hasn't been proven that nezemny & pseudolife haven't stalked me / my blogs for 7 months. ) given he's in possession of countless screenshots of my blogs, it's entirely possible.
- concealing one or more stalker's identities / protecting them.
- spreading slander & lies / defamation.
- nezemny has accused me of lifting the entire aesthetic of one of his blogs in the past.
he's also accused me of stealing headcanons from him.
- selective and self-serving activism.
- harassment.
IMPORTANT INFORMATION.
they've had countless chances to communicate with me over the last 7 months and have chosen not to, despite knowing how uncomfortable their actions were making me. they've also had every chance to completely remove me from their space and instead chose to invade mine. the sheer amount of screencaps nezemny has of posts from my ghost, as well as other blogs, even as far back as 2019, should speak for me on this. accuses me of watching him, but has an entire folder of screenshots of me from many years back.
i made a post on the 9th of january 2024, which they both have revealed they saw, pleading for them to leave me alone - they did not, as nezemny is shown here spreading lies about me well into march, 2024. anarchy continued to block blogs she couldn't possibly have known about, due to being blocked herself, meaning she was also getting information from stalkers ( such as my close friend's private blog. )
i reached out to anarchy in the early hours of the 10th of may to talk. after one exchange, she stopped replying to me. this was because i refused to succumb to her gaslighting and manipulation and instead requested they give me the urls / names of the stalkers. she didn't. you're more than welcome to make up your own opinion, the chat will be made available.
i opened conversation with her on discord on the 11th. this carried on into the 12th, which was when i heard nothing back. i gave anarchy 40 hours exactly to respond, and when i heard nothing i prompted her saying if i didn't hear back by my time the following night ( the 14th ) i would have to take another route. i did not hear back and thus made a callout, that can be found here. the sideblog it was on was deleted, so i remade and the reposted version. they've remarked on me bringing this into the public eye, despite their continued silence and increasingly concerning behaviour.
anarchy was blocked on discord, and blocked on the blog i'd reached out to her on.
on the 17th, approx. 3 days after i posted the callout, i received an anonymous message, someone claiming to be a former mutual of nezemny and of others associated with him / his friend group. i will link it here. as you can see, they claim nezemny had slandered me and put serious accusations against me such as stealing, graphic style / aesthetic lifting, and watching them. i reached out to this individual via ims, we exchanged discords and they proceeded to send me evidence of all of this re: their own conversations with nezemny at the beginning of the year, which shows him slandering me well into late march, completely unprompted.
on the 18th of may, i decided to reach out personally to nezemny / zirka directly via my callout blog, as it was the only blog i own that wasn't blocked by him. i hadn't been able to personally reach out until this moment, and reaching out through anarchy didn't go well so i decided to do this. i gave zirka my discord and told him to add me, and that this would be the last chance to return it to a private conversation that could hopefully still be resolved. i've since learned there was never any hope of this being resolved privately.
continuing later into the 18th, nezemny added me on discord and i accepted the invite. he said nothing. i opened the conversation and firmly stated i had no interest in being gaslit or manipulated and that i wanted both sides to be able to discuss their concerns and issues without being shut down, and that there was no point in us even trying to talk if that was going to happen - which i'd already experienced with anarchy.
nezemny never replied. he claims, as you'll later see, he's been open to resolving this privately despite never reaching out to me. it took me messaging him on my callout blog to make it happen. he also claims that i've made it clear i don't want to resolve it due to public involvement. i will quote him, to maintain transparency. "i was fully willing to work with her to bring this to a private conclusion, but she's made it clear through repeated public involvement that she doesn't want that." public involvement came when anarchy never responded to my prompt in discord, despite giving her, altogether, 66 hours to reply to me ( which is just under 3 days / 72 hours ), which was when the callout was posted at approx. 11pm on the 14th. they had just under 3 days to tell me "we have a lot going on irl at the moment and will try and get back to you by x date." they never asked this of me, and outside of this i wasn't prepared to give them time to otherwise 'get their story straight' or to further ignore and evade me like they've already done.
DISPROVEN ACCUSATION AGAINST NEZEMNY.
i want to get this out of the way. i'd previously, wrongly, accused nezemny of stealing a character detail. briefly, in november, i made an original character. shortly after this, i noticed nezemny had blocked the blog. then, i went on to learn he'd given one of his muses ( ghost ), which is a duplicate of my main muse, the same name for his middle name. due to everything going on at the time, briefly mentioned in my callout ( vagueing, threats and a number of blogs blocking me ( mutuals of the one mentioned in this context post, after i approached them re: what i felt was graphic style lifting ), i become concerned i was being watched / stalked. at the time, i felt it was evident to me he'd stolen it upon seeing it when blocking me. i have since learned and seen proof that nezemny did in fact have the middle name for his ghost since july 2023. it wasn't stolen, and was a coincidence and it wasn't okay for me to jump to accusing him of stealing it. however, due to everything else leading me to believe he was stalking me, i did.
DISPROVEN ACCUSATION OF THEFT AGAINST ME.
with the stealing of my oc's first name disproven, the only other theft accusation towards him that i'd put out was the pursuit of posting a meta on a mental health disorder relating to his muse, again, ghost. for context, with no heads up or pre-emptive "i'm working on this" posts ( as nezemny admits, which you'll see later ) meaning i couldn't have seen it coming, this meta of his came 3 hours after i'd made a post on my dash hinting to mutuals i was working on a meta relating to the exact same disorder.
i'd also made a post days prior, stating i intended to write a meta on it. this disorder is canon for ghost, it is lore, it simply has never been given a name. as someone who has the disorder, i can tell you nothing else but this disorder replicates the symptoms exhibited. there is no misconstruing that. the delusion one is dead / has died / has come back comes under one of the many avenues of cotard's syndrome, non-negotiable. nezemny has accused me of stealing this "headcanon", despite having never seen him mention it prior and having proof that i've mentioned it privately prior to the "receipt" he claims as september 2023. i also, again, have the disorder myself and it's canon to ghost's lore. i did not need to "steal" this, i live it every single day.
nezemny did not invent this, it is not claimable. the symptoms ghost exhibits cannot be confused for anything else. due to me believing nezemny was stalking me, i believed he'd seen me post it and decided to copy it right after me mentioning it. although i have seen proof he did indeed mention it in september 2023 privately, i have also discussed the disorder and its symptoms privately months earlier than this. for some reason he believes proving it was also in his muse's bio prior to september 2023 proves i stole it. which again - it's canon. the disorder and the symptoms exhibited by the character are canon fact, and therefore cannot be a headcanon and cannot be stolen / claimed. i don't care that he wrote it, or talked about it ( despite it being highly misinformative ). i cared that it was hours after i'd mentioned it - the entire point of this single thing is that i felt it backed up my belief that he was stalking me. he claims regardless of the time of posting, i would've accused him of "stealing" it from me. i've never given him reason to believe this, only that i believed he'd copied the idea of discussing it / turning it into a meta hours after i'd posted saying i was working on it. he also claims i've stolen other headcanons but has not provided any evidence or foundation for this.
FULL TRANSPARENCY.
for the next part of this, that gets into the more extreme side of nezemny and pseudolife's behaviour, which includes doxxing my closest friend, i am going to be completely honest about how i found this next part, which nezemny called his "rebuttal", as i know they'll try to label it as "stalking," since they've also attempted to deflect my own accusations on them by accusing me and my friend of "mass stalking." don't worry, i'll get to explaining that too. do bear with me, there's an immense amount to go over. it's taken days upon days to make sense of it all.
in the early hours of the 19th of may, i was debating whether i'd hear back from nezemny after messaging him. being proactive, i started a list of things that'd been disproven, things that'd been proven / confirmed and things that had yet to be proven or disproven. i listed what i mentioned re: my original character's name as yet to be proven / disproven. i hadn't heard back from nezemny, who claimed he had proof it wasn't taken from me. i remembered in the discord messages i'd been sent of what nezemny had previously said about me, he'd said:
but specifically, "i have to link every single headcanon i make about ghost to a receipt image of when i conceived said headcanon". i thought that, if this is true, i can go back to the headcanon post re: his ghost being given this middle name and there'll be a link to the receipt! if it could be disproven or proven, it meant i could at least move onto other accusations. this wasn't accessed by circumventing his block on my other blogs, he didn't have me blocked on my callout blog and thus i looked there - a blog he knew of at the time. i'm not sure if this was the original headcanon but i located it and sure enough, found the name to be linked. i did not look at or for anything else, solely this.
unexpectedly, rather than solely "proof", i was linked to an entire "rebuttal", as nezemny had phrased it, against my callout. i was never made aware this existed and stumbled across it at random because i was trying to find a receipt, that nezemny had said himself existed, to prove / disprove an accusation since he wouldn't communicate with me. not only was the accusation disproven, but 45 screenshots worth of lies, twisted words and false accusations were also presented. 45 SCREENSHOTS! i want to stress here that it's important to note both zirka and anarchy have insisted they have a lot going on in real life, and that my "beef" with them doesn't come before that. but zirka has enough time to write 45 screenshots worth of 99% ( the 1% being the oc name ) lies about me. not only that, but proceeding to link onto a whole other carrd made by anarchy, wherein she covers every detail of my private conversation with her, doxxes my closest friend's ip address and accuses them of stalking. i'm not going to sway your opinion. let's go over the evidence. brace yourselves. this is going to be lengthy. i've also maintained the screenshots as full shots, rather than cropping. some haven't been featured, either due to irrelevance to this callout or as the topic had been covered already.
anything blacked out is to protect my friend's identity, random blogs they've mentioned who have no involvement in this situation whatsoever, and my own blogs i don't want accessible outside of my main. they also posted my discord username for anyone to access. i need to stress they did not black out anything, despite me never naming their other blogs myself - they proceeded to post a handful of past blogs i have no idea how they located and ensured everyone else could access them too. they've also remarked on me using cropped messages - because i didn't think people wanted to read huge paras of private conversations. but since they want the details so badly, i'm prepared to use my time to do that. and since they didn't bother to black out their friends' information, i won't. this is for you, the reader, after all, to warn you of their dangerous, harmful, psychologically impactful and generally disturbing behaviour. what i will do is add the text bigger underneath because not only is nezemny harmful but he's also a dyslexic's nightmare.
i'm going to stick to the facts with all of these and avoid any assumptions or useless information. nezemny has never spoken to me personally. i've spoken once to his friend, anarchy, and she made the decision not to respond to me despite being given close to 3 days to do so. i made a post on the 9th of january, which i will go over in a moment, pleading for them to leave me alone and stating their excessive blocking of blogs they had no way of knowing about came across as stalking. despite this post, no one ever reached out to me and nezemny either continued to stalk me himself, or enabled those who were despite knowing it made me highly uncomfortable.
the first para is a lie. he was never willing to come to a conclusion, it took me warning him via my callout blog that i'd take this further if he didn't stop hiding behind people and talk to me personally - for him to add me, and then not reply. the only time i fully came out publicly about this ( the callout on the 14th ) was after they didn't respond.
you'll later see anarchy even make a thing of my "11 messages" that i sent of "pure vitriol" where, again as you'll read later, were me trying to "hash" the situation out - aka have a discussion in detail. anarchy is the one who came to me, despite the situation and accusations, with a nonchalant and insensitive attitude, even going as far as to make a joke after gaslighting and manipulating me to try and discredit my suspicions of stalking. whilst confirming someone was stalking me. but at least i had the dignity to let them both know the callout existed, by tagging them in one of my posts on the blog as well as sending nezemny an ask via the blog. whereas this was completely unmentioned. nezemny likes to play into the idea i never gave him nor anarchy a chance to defend themselves, when i might remind they were the ones that chose not to reply to me, more than once. i've already disproven a lot of nezemny's claims, yet he doesn't include any of that and continues to promote me as some kind of villain.
i made a post on january 9th warning my mutuals ( no more than 20 people at the time if that ) of brenna (141s), nezemny and pseudolife. none, save for two, were mutuals with her at the time and i know one soon unfollowed because they agreed with what i believed. i believed brenna had lifted my graphic style, which i go into detail about here and also the red flags i saw in her behaviour re: her response. i'd seen anarchy / pseudolife vague about "murdering [my] entire career" and that she'd "murder for bren" ( which they're now pushing the narrative that it was just a joke! i misunderstood, of course! silly me! that people say things like that about a total stranger all the time haha! )
i'd also seen another mutual vague physical violence towards me, which was also included in the post. nezemny wants me to name them so badly, but i never did because as you'll see, this was posted on the 9th of january and by then, this person had only said one thing and then pretty much left their blog entirely, never said another thing about me. notice how i never followed up on them, because of this. you'd think i'd have been suspicious of them too... it's almost like i didn't believe them to be stalking me.
the post was recently made private, as i'd hoped we'd moved on, but events mentioned in the callout led me to becoming very concerned i was being stalked as recently as this month ( may. ) note: anarchy had made a point of requesting i remove all names and mentions etc, but when nezemny saw i had ( i'd privated the post prior to her saying this, mind you ) he tries to imply i'm trying to hide something. either way, since he wants it public again so badly, here. this is the link to the private post. i have nothing to hide, and i don't need to explain why he and anarchy were singled out - it's clearly explained in the post.
i've never tried to claim anyone guilted brenna into blocking me. i don't care that she did, i still believe she lifted from my style. anarchy admitted she told her to. but because i was blocked, when the carrd graphics weren't removed a few days later i grew impatient and posted to my mutuals to advise them not to follow brenna, anarchy or nezemny & myself at the same time. i've told anarchy i believe i jumped the gun and was regretful for that, as you'll see in the discord messages. however, because i couldn't communicate with brenna due to the block, i could only assume she didn't intend to remove them. had she not been encouraged to block me, i might've been able to ask and we all could've moved on. that being said, i still stand by not wanting my mutuals to follow her and myself at the same time. the post served its purpose. zirka goes on to say he recognised me from one fandom and anarchy another. i did not recognise either, and still have no clue who they are.
as for brenna's re-designed promo, i didn't feel threatened and felt sufficient changes had been made. it was done, and i sought to move on. full transparency, i won't be including the screenshots of my graphics, nor the messages for the sake of space. you can find those both here.
nezemny, despite anarchy declaring he's never stalked me, says he proceeded to look through my commissions blog. in fact, he'd put one of my commission posts in this "rebuttal" that required a significant amount of scrolling to locate, as it's currently 5 years old. i have not posted on this blog in two years. he makes petty remarks about my stuff, despite me stating here that since 2022 ( aka two years ago ) "i've largely focused on narrowing down my graphic style to be completely uninspired by anything but my own ideas." so no, he won't have seen any "signature styles" prior to 2 years ago. the rest is dramatised. no one was "hunted." i wanted to know who was supporting brenna to block them for my own comfort. i circumvented the block to find out, to avoid following on other blogs. through doing this, i went on to see vagues via anarchy and another mutual. nezemny did not vague me at this time. but because of his connection to those who had, and given he'd blocked me, i wanted to make sure nothing continued. turns out, other things started to happen instead.
this is apparently a gotcha moment because i call nezemny a turnip because i'm now starting to notice a pattern in ooncerning behaviour, because he's not slick about it. nezemny lacks a timestamp here. mind you, he was blocked, so either he obtained it through circumventing or someone did for him, it's worth noting. "for the record" is a reference to the aforementioned meta stuff. so i assume this was around early january. some of the tags will be covered later.
please bear in mind i have 4 posts from nezemny's blog, over a 7 month period. count how many he has of mine throughout this. there are others that i won't be showing for space. i'll count how many, by the end. personally i think it says all you need to know. and since he won't name those stalking me for him, there's no way to rule out it isn't him. re: my posts, i never backtracked. one is showing my mutuals nezemny blocked a new blog, this month in may, within 24 hours of it being put on the dash as a simple link. one is me expressing how uncomfortable and distressing knowing i'm being stalked has been. i'll put the full image up.
on the side, the rest of this is dramatised again. i'd explained to anarchy, as you'll see in the messages page, i only checked to see if he'd blocked me in hopes of catching him out. because i believed he was stalking me. the end. it doesn't get deeper than that. as for blog hopping, i felt so uncomfortable i had to keep moving but he just kept finding me. let me make this clear: i couldn't care less about nezemny blocking blogs of mine he happens to see around. as confirmed in my callout by anarchy, one or more people, if not nezemny or pseudolife themselves, have been stalking me since october last year. why can't this dude understand that him miraculously finding / blocking blogs he has no possible way of knowing about, unless he or someone else is stalking me / reporting back to him, is suspicious and disturbing. not to mention over a 7 month period!!!!! i caught him blocking a new blog within 24 hours, which means someone had to be regularly checking my blog.
again, he has no timestamps. i created this blog on the 9th of may so i imagine the first was posted on the 10th and the second i'm not sure. i don't know what he means by backtracked. i did not care about name dropping, and told my mutuals to unfollow if they interact with either nezemny or pseudolife. equally, i wanted it to stop and had debated what i could do. upon seeing i wasn't blocked by anarchy on my new blog, i reached out - as per my callout.
this is completely irrelevant but i'll post it for context. the harassment was anarchy threatening to "murder [my] career" and to generally... "murder for bren," and a friend of brenna's saying "ROUND TWO. and there better not be a round three or else i'll take off the gloves and start swinging bare knuckled : )" which can be seen in the private post. the latter was referring to round two of brenna posting a promo, since she'd personally offered ( i didn't ask / tell her to per my messages ) to take the previous ones down and redo them. but no, the murder stuff was a joke even though it was never stated as such, how silly of me to call it harassment. nezemny tells me to stop "looking at our blogs." you know, so they can freely shit talk me, spread slander about me and continue to stalk unnoticed - all of which have been confirmed in one way or another. this dude actually said "just look away and pretend it isn't happening." you, that is reading this, have all the proof to show it did and has happened.
to save space, the next screenshot i miss is literally a screenshot of the post above on the left, highlighting anarchy's and the other friend's vagues, with nezemny stating i never "went after" their friend who, as i said somewhere above - left me alone so i had no reason to months later, and how the post isn't even about nezemny so why was he featured. the post itself explains, i don't need to waste time on that.
for clarity, my post is on the left. i did notice through ghost notifs. i saw there was a ghost notif, and i circumvented it to find who'd blocked me in favour of supporting brenna, to avoid them on other blogs. the end. to me, it's very clear in the post. nezemny states he's known of me for 4 years, when i have no clue who he is. i kept an eye on them between october and very early november. as in... a couple of times i checked their blogs. nezemny is trying to deflect here by comparing me checking his blog for signs of stalking or vagueing ( which we've all seen he absolutely had been slandering me privately ) to one or more carrying out surveillance on me consistently over a 7 month period. you'll see later he also tries to accuse my friend of, as anarchy had put it, "mass stalking". for checking for vagueing and signs of stalking during relevant periods of time. this isn't comparable. at all. lots of this has already been covered in the callout and what not, that he clearly hasn't read. blocking people isn't a controversial take, but enabling one or more people to stalk, keep tabs on me and report back to him about me is 100%, especially over a 7 month period.
the next couple of screenshots cover something i've discussed already in this post, re: the white lines at the bottom. and a handful of others covering the oc name which doesn't need to take up anymore space. he repeatedly doesn't understand why i continue to check whether he's blocked me on new blogs. because i believed he was stalking me and wanted proof. again. the end. that's it.
full transparency that i skipped the screencap of a mutual telling me nezemny had posted a meta re: the disorder as aforementioned further up. that's all it was. i don't know why he's confused i questioned him circumventing the block. he had ( as you can see from this entire thing ) countless screenshots of things i'd posted, despite being blocked. regarding the context: i believed he'd copied me in writing this meta at the same time. i felt he could've only seen it by circumventing the blog. this was before i'd suspected someone else being involved.
nezemny at one point, i don't know if he still has it, put "do not stalk" in his rules and had a statcounter hidden. aka when the rules were clicked on, the ip was collected. it doesn't matter if he wrote something, which i never even saw, warning people about it. if people don't see the post and click on the rules, their ip is collected. the end. the rest is his interpretation. what actually happened was a friend, who he freely name drops in this and who will become immensely important later re: anarchy, clicked on i assume his rules when looking for signs of me being mentioned ( a dni i guess since it's a rules page ), during a period when they had every right to be concerned for me, and their ip address was collected. anarchy also had a hidden statcounter in place. this is extremely important for later on. they then came to me and expressed concern over nezemny having a statcounter they knew nothing about, prior to clicking on the rules page. they expressed concern about doxxing - something anarchy would make them right on.
the racism part is put out because of a promo he'd made of a call of duty character "farah karim." as you'll see in the private post, he makes her, an asian / middle eastern character, heavily orange. i had no clue, nor did my friend, about this individual he mentions, it was nothing to do with that. apparently i'm privy to the information though... that i don't know about. not sure how he figured that. my friend also never divulged? any details of this. if they learned of it, it was never passed onto me. i genuinely had no clue they were exploring an old blog, but judging by my issues with nezemny and pseudolife at the time, and that it was seemingly apparent they were problematic individuals, it's no surprise my friend explored something insinuating a racism claim. i don't know, i never saw the post myself, nor was it mentioned. it's really not that far fetched? like he's able to completely deflect and trivialise 7 months of stalking but a friend looking out for me is just too much to comprehend.
this is the "vague" he mentions. i had nothing to do with finding out, as i said, it was a friend concerned for possible slander ( which has been proven to be true ) checking his blog. they spoke to me after, concerned about doxxing. i'd like to remind whoever is reading again, to take note of how many posts he's taken from my blog.
it's important to note "theft" is the wrong use of wording in my post. you can clearly see i'm heated whilst writing it. what i'm referencing is that he posted about it at the same time as me, which made it look like he'd seen me saying i was going to post a meta about it and decided to do so too, and then proceeded to "claim" a canon fact as his own.
we've gone over the meta thing already. again, nezemny thinks i need to steal a concept aka a mental disorder from him that is already canon and that i personally suffer from. i also did not get screenshots of it, those were sent via a mutual who never was a friend and who simply thought i might be collecting evidence on nezemny. he even references further up this mutual sending the screenshots to me. the meta itself was posted on january 9th. this is the date of my supposed "callout" post that featured him. the mutual had accessed nezemny's blog, knowing i was building evidence, saw the meta and sent it to me. there was no "gathering" anything. this was the first and last time they ever looked at his blog, and i can only imagine did so because of my stalking concerns and because they too had been blocked by this individual they did not know.
nezemny is equating "looking out for a friend" a couple of times with enabling one or more people to continuously watch my blog for 7 months. it's not the same, plain as day. again, look at the number of posts he has saved from my blog.
transparency. skipping a few screencaps here re: the meta. i've covered it and don't need to take up further space. nezemny trying to tell me what "verbiage" is "enough" to reference a delusional disorder i personally suffer from wherein the symptoms are solely exclusive to this disorder.
nezemny accuses my friend of feeding me headcanon concepts they allegedly found through nezemny. which is entirely false. if you just use your head and look at the time stamps in correlation with the statcounter nezemny himself posts later on, you'll be able to see my friend was only ever on his blog during periods of my discomfort believing i was being stalked and at the time, copied / vagued about.
he thinks it's weird of me to insinuate he wants to be me in my post, when at the time he was using a name i'd given my oc, was claiming i'd stolen from his half-arsed misinformation which, again, was the only headcanon post ( save for the oc name one ) i ever saw. i've since learned he was proclaiming i "hate his guts" to a mutual, shortly after this incident with the meta. finding and blocking every blog i so much as whisper about. how weird of me to think this dude was obsessed with me. /s.
i don't get why he keeps thinking he has these gotcha moments. i had like 20 followers, if that, none of which save for 2 followed brenna at this point and had already seen what she'd done and moved along. me namedropping did nothing. i'm glad nezemny put the date of october 9th in his text above, as this allows me to point out that, when i posted about what brenna had done, it was october 8th. so the day after, i posted noting how, after already name dropping brenna, her mutuals were now softblocking me. the 8th was also when brenna's new promo dropped, and her mutuals were making vague threats towards me and she never discouraged them. again, not far fetched why i posted to complain about people being completely ignorant to what's in front of them.
mhm! i sent him an anon. same way i'd send anyone one, re: this issue, unless i'm close to them. it possessed no harassment, nor was it rude or hurtful. i checked his blog once, following the month after everything happened re: my oc as i was still wary of having things copied from me, and found this promo at the top. none of this is far fetched. i noticed the colour to be completely off and, unlike nezemny, i said something about it. the fact that he never responded to the anon message, nor did he delete the promo at the time or make any changes to it speak volumes. he says this like it's another gotcha moment. like yeah, i saw something very off about how he'd made farah dark orange, when she isn't, and i said something. big whoop. i don't sit idly by and say nothing when i suspect there may be some level of colourism or racism at play these days. i politely and respectfully pointed it out, and he did nothing about it. sit on that for a while. i didn't touch his blog again until early jan, re: the meta situation. i didn't intend to touch his blog again, either - as i said, a mutual sent me the meta.
like... he made an asian character who's natural skin tone looks like this ( picture on the right ) and made it this ( picture on the left. ) congrats to nezemny, he figured me out on my discouraging horrendously-screwing-up-poc's-skin-colour efforts. as someone who has made many mistakes with skin tone in the past, i point it out when i'm able to discourage it / help people recognise their own mistakes. the racism part comes in when he did absolutely naught about it.
nezemny ran this by his friends and they gave it the thumbs up. that must mean it's okay! /s. it's ok because he has lebanese family! /s. he then deflects by somehow making this about me coming "after" him ( look at that anon, am i coming after him? ) because i have farah as a muse ( and have done since 2020. ) i'll also briefly add that this is the scene the second promo image is from, for those reading to form their own opinion. it isn't her natural colour, as you'll see in the picture i put. nevertheless, i have no interest in utilising racism and colourism as a petty "add on" to the "can of worms."
he goes on to deflect in the next few screenshots, which i don't care to lose space to. note that the above happened less than 6 months ago. he pulls up edits of mine that are 4 years old from 2020, wherein i whitewash farah. another gotcha moment, apparently, with nezemny revealing he has the url of a multi that was barely used by me at the time and was extremely low-key. me whitewashing a character, which i've taken responsibility for and have since worked immensely hard to improve on ( i can be seen talking about this here ) 4 years ago apparently equates to him making her dark orange like above within the last 6 months. which he then proceeded to never change, and even now is excusing with "my family is lebanese." he goes on to show edits taken from my 2-years-inactive commissions blog, to show an edit i made of two woc i wrote at the time, emphasising how off their colour is. a post that, as of right now, IS 5 YEARS OLD. and one of the oldest posts on that blog, meaning he really had to scroll and scroll and scroll to find it. all any of this says is that nezemny is in fact selective and self-serving in his activism, wherein he's speaking up about it 3-5 years later and never bothered to mention it at the time, but excuses his own mistakes, refuses to change them and has tried countlessly to deflect onto my age-old mistakes i've since taken responsibility for and tremendously improved my psd skills to avoid it happening again. but we're about to get very comfy with nezemny's age-old grievances, don't worry.
first, i'll cover this fixation nezemny has in that he believes my friend was "mass stalking" him ( in anarchy's words. ) to start, it's a false accusation. as stated, my friend only ever checked his and anarchy's blogs during periods of time where something was happening and they wanted to look out for me. nezemny will go on and on about how people have only been doing the same for him. except my friend did it approx 6 times ( on nezemny's blog ), as shown on his statcounter, between october ( twice ) and january ( three-four times. ) over a 2 month period with 2 months in between ( seeing as october and january flags up. ) again, all at times when i suspected either theft, vagueing or stalking.
i don't need to add anything here. nezemny states at the bottom of his own text exactly why my friend was checking the blogs. again, it's not some wild mystery or gotcha moment. they never tried to hide their identity or conceal their presence. anarchy has previously mentioned to me about there being a vpn involved, which i've had explained to me is literally in place so that when they go to buy things online and what not, they're not directed to specific sites. the vpn in question has absolutely no involvement in them checking nezemny's or pseudolife's blogs for signs of vagues, theft or stalking. it's for shopping purposes. this also adds up in that they came to me after learning about the statcounter, to express concern for their safety as their vpn isn't reliable - because it doesn't exist for them to evade statcounters.
"crawling all over my links" they appear three times in one day, solely in regards to this "callout" post he's referencing. "mass stalker" is an obscene thing for anarchy to have put out there, when these two sat back and enabled people to watch me for SEVEN MONTHS STRAIGHT.
i've blacked the information out in case it has any relevance to actual locations. on this specific one, i don't know. regardless, i stand by my point. they haven't touched his blog since january. why is he so hung up on this? when he's even acknowledged it's around the time if not on the day something happened. there's nothing to hide here. i could easily be like "no it wasn't them, you're mistaken" when? there's no point. this changes nothing.
i never evaded a block to contact anarchy. i wasn't blocked on the blog i reached out to her on. the end. anarchy has described my messages as "pure vitriol", which is her excuse for not responding. the pure vitriol in question you will be able to read yourself and make your own judgement. i was responding to someone who'd gaslit me, claiming i'd incorrectly come to the conclusion of stalking whilst also confirming they'd been enabling one or more people to stalk me for 7 months straight. nezemny stands by doing nothing wrong. nezemny links to anarchy posting the lengthy, private dms. the link isn't on here, but i will post the conversation myself on a separate page. nezemny phrases my closest friend looking at his blog a small handful of times during a couple of periods of unrest in a way to try and mimic my phrasing of his 7-month-long stalkers "reporting" on my every single breath. like they're comparable. half the time, my friend never even mentioned looking. it just shows he has no comprehension that what happened wasn't okay and that he is 100% wrong for enabling that behaviour.
they perceived me as a threat because i warned my followers against following them and me at the same time, informed them of how they'd harassed ( initially ) and stalked me and because i refused to sit down, be quiet and struggle in silence. he doesn't understand why i was commenting on the fact that people were blocking me in favour of supporting someone who, in my eyes, had clearly lifted my graphic style. people that were also vagueing me.
now, to those reading this, you're about to see the real reason behind nezemy's drive relating to this entire thing. not brenna, not racism, not even stalking. although the stalking bit is quite ironic for this next part. nezemny has accused me of "lifting [my] whole aesthetic from [him]". just to be sure the claim is seen, nice and big down below.
don't forget this second one, either, wherein nezemny explicitly accuses me of "stealing [his] aesthetic for ghost face." this one is real important, we'll come back to this!
first and foremost as stated in this, i never knew of nezemny prior to october last year. i didn't know he existed. now, seeing this url... i still never knew he existed. this is not a url i'm aware of having come across, i personally actively avoided other non-scream related ghost faces and my entire aesthetic for him was absolutely from scratch, save for one or two edits i can provide evidence of the inspo for. one of which, nezemny claims has been stolen from his own.
truth be told, i don't need to dignify any of this with a response. i've always maintained i never stole from nezemny and never knew of him, and i can prove it. but first, literally the only similarity is that the colour scheme is red, black and white / grey. how embarrassing that nezemny thought, because we shared a colour scheme, on a promo he didn't even make and absolutely will have requested for that colour scheme to be used to the artist or at the very least, encouraged them to go ahead with it, that i "stole" from him. what's more interesting is that he'd made this huge thing about me asking brenna not to combine all the assets i use and how he'd said that i'd "claimed" these assets and implied i felt i owned them, despite me clearly stating in my messages with brenna i do not own any of them nor claim them as my own save for when combined together in a specific way. so i'm unsure which one it is. because it sounds a lot here like nezemny is trying to claim the colour scheme of red, white and black.
i want to hold off on what's blacked out for a moment, to get to the root of this and DISPROVE NEZEMNY'S ACCUSATION that i "stole [his] aesthetic for ghost face" and allegedly lifted my whole aesthetic from nezemny's ghost face. something he's held against me for 3 years now.
here is the coldest, hardest reality. the promo he shows that he had commissioned was made in 2021. i have proof of edits i made, exactly the same virtually as the middle one of mine, that were made in 2020. with the same psd, same colourings. i will post them below.
in fact, see where he says "EACH ONE OF THESE WAS POSTED AFTER I GOT MY COMMISSION"??? hate to break it to you, but this one was posted on december 11th, 2020. as you can see, by the date at the very bottom of the promo. there, hopefully that's easier to see.
oh and let's not forget this, posted november 4th, 2020. same colour scheme, same psd all along.
and these! posted 11th of feb, 2021. didn't nezemny say may for his?
OH! and we can't forget these, from november 19th, 2020. and it's kind of ridiculous you should try and take credit for the one on the left of my promos that you showed.
anyway, i'm sure i don't need to keep going to prove how unreliable, inconsistent and outright false nezemny's narrative is. i knew from the moment i saw that accusation that i have never once seen nezemny's ghost face, nor did i steal his aesthetic from him. in fact, if i might be a bit cheeky here... one might say he lifted MY ghost face's aesthetic, or that hell, maybe the commission artist he paid for unknowingly did ( if he personally requested the aesthetic himself. ) i mean, i was a popular ghost face rper - the promo i posted in december got 48 notes. the one in february, posted less than 2 months before nezemny's graphics, got 64 notes! hate to be the bearer of bad news for nezemny, but i've had no clue who he was all along, have never stolen a single thing from him, and he's been writing me into a villain narrative for the past 3 years. and to think we're not even finished yet. i might remind that in the next part, nezemny in fact states that it is i who has beef with him.
if this wasn't compelling enough for you, redirect yourself to this page, where i show myself reaching out to the artist themselves who zirka commissioned, stating he personally requested the aesthetic - you know, the one i have shown i had prior to him.
because this ( left ) was the base, which is entirely original in its design, by me. and this ( below / purple and blue ) was the inspiration behind my concept. so you know, you're quite literally taking credit for my own creation right there.
you will see this supposed "blackmail" attempt in the messages page. note how nezemny just completely resigns in this section. he is the poor soul who has not been stalked for 7 months straight, who has not been harassed by threatening vagues, who has not been stolen from once by my hands, and who has not ever been in any danger, because as you can see, and if you've read the callout you'll also have seen, that the ball has been in nezemny and pseudolife's court this entire time. had nezemny stopped blocking blogs he couldn't have known existed, save for stalking or someone reporting back to him for 7 months consistently, and gotten on with his life instead of constantly invading my space, with every new blog INCLUDING A PERSONAL / NON-RP BLOG, knowing it made him look like a stalker and that i felt threatened, uncomfortable and distressed by such, none of this would've ever happened. i'll remind again, the sheer amount of screenshots he's got from my main blog, among others, dating back to 5 years ago. but no, not a stalker.
nezemny has clearly shown in this that he is in fact obsessed with me. he claims i didn't want to resolve this, when i've given them chance after chance, which i've proven, to fix it. he continues to enable stalkers to watch my every move, as well as those of my closest friends, if he or anarchy isn't doing the stalking themselves. he continues to conceal their identity and protect them from being outed for stalking. he believes and continues to stand by the idea that he has done no wrong, and that i in fact am the problematic one, who solely wants nezemny to stop blocking blogs he cannot possibly know exists and to stop enabling stalkers that come to him with my url. for anons, he can block the ip. or outright tell them to stop bringing my name into his space. you'd think for someone who wants me to "leave him alone," he'd stop indulging my urls and name being brought to him. just as i had requested and proven mutuals and friends alike to stop doing. but he loves it. he loves that his friends defend him without any evidence shown.
he's boasted about how many of my blogs he has blocked, which can be found here, he's openly and without being prompted slandered me to someone i don't know within my rpc, placed fake allegations against me then backtracked on them, defamed me and assassinated my character and all the while pursued a narrative where he is the innocent victim, plagued by someone who refuses to be bullied, told to keep it to herself and to stay quiet. nezemny has even shamed me in this more than once for bringing this into the public eye, instead of struggling with it in silence, when they chose not to respond to me. nezemny is extremely problematic, enabling stalkers and indulging obsessive and unhealthy behaviours. i do not care that nezemny talked about me in privacy, i care that he spread lies and falsely accused me of serious things. i care that, despite securing a chance for me to explain myself, they manipulated the narrative to make me look like i was wrong for pursuing justice. that, through this "rebuttal" he wrote out, clearly having enough time to do so but not enough time to explain this to me privately, he tried to silence me.
he tried to make me look like a villain, and he tried to downplay what he and anarchy did. i won't be silent, and i'm prepared for any repercussions this might hold. i have nothing to hide. i hope any who took the time to read this will not be ignorant because of what they've been "told", and that people start to see nezemny for the problematic rper he really is. now, as for anarchy, which heavily involves the discussion of doxxing, make your way over to this link. i promise it will be much shorter. oh, and zirka? "harassment" means to disturb or bother someone persistently. i'd say 7 months is persistent enough. so yes, you without a doubt have extensively harassed me. since you insist i am the one who must move on and ignore the blatant slander i now know you dished out about me, and pretend you're not enabling and encouraging stalkers in the rpc, you must face with how i choose to cope with it. overall, i counted 22 separate posts nezemny had obtained from various blogs of mine, some of which he was blocked on, others he searched through to find what he did. some weren't featured, but i have them all saved. and 8 different blogs of mine were mentioned in his overall "rebuttal" against my accusation of stalking. bear this in mind when reading about how i apparently am the one that cannot leave him alone.
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