this site is to organise and format my situation relating to
tumblr users nezemny ( zirka ) and pseudolife ( anarchy. )
by formerly stlkawares.tumblr.com, now stlkawareness.tumblr.com.
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below, i intend to cover current allegations / accutations between myself and pseudolife, aka anarchy, as well as what's been proven / confirmed and what's been disproven.
i am being fully transparent in all of this, and will do my best to ensure this is conveyed. i won't be addressing assumptions, only fact or disproving assumptions.
important: anarchy has said she's not read any of my callouts. it's possible nezemny hasn't, either. she doesn't know what i've confirmed or taken responsibility for. this will become evident in what will be mentioned below.
this callout has two purposes: to get justice for myself and my friend, and to say that i feel both zirka and anarchy are extremely problematic. hopefully, by reading the evidence you'll make up your own mind and go from there. at the very least, i am done being quiet about it.
current standing allegations:
- enablement of stalking ( it also hasn't been proven that nezemny & pseudolife haven't stalked me / my blogs for 7 months. )
- doxxing.
- concealing one or more stalker's identities / protecting them.
- harassment.
IMPORTANT INFORMATION.
they've had countless chances to communicate with me over the last 7 months and have chosen not to, despite knowing how uncomfortable their actions were making me. they've also had every chance to completely remove me from their space and instead chose to invade mine.
i made a post on the 9th of january 2024, which they both have revealed they saw, pleading for them to leave me alone - they did not, as nezemny is shown in this post spreading lies about me well into march, 2024. anarchy has continued to block blogs she cannot possibly know about, due to being blocked herself, meaning she's also getting information from stalkers ( such as my close friend's private blog. )
i reached out to anarchy in the early hours of the 10th of may to talk. after one exchange, she stopped replying to me. this was because i refused to succumb to her gaslighting and manipulation and instead requested they give me the urls / names of the stalkers. she didn't. you're more than welcome to make up your own opinion, the chat will be made available.
i opened conversation with her on discord on the 11th. this carried on into the 12th, which was when i heard nothing back. i gave anarchy 40 hours exactly to respond, and when i heard nothing i prompted her saying if i didn't hear back by my time the following night ( the 14th ) i would have to take another route. i did not hear back and thus made a callout, that can be found here. the sideblog it was on was deleted, so i remade and the reposted version.
anarchy was blocked on discord, and blocked on the blog i'd reached out to her on.
on the 17th, approx. 3 days after i posted the callout, i received an anonymous message from someone claiming to be a former mutual of nezemny's and of others associated with him / his friend group. i will link it here. as you can see, they claim nezemny had slandered me and put serious accusations against me such as stealing, graphic style / aesthetic lifting, and watching them. i reached out to this individual via ims, we exchanged discords and they proceeded to send me evidence of all of this re: their own conversations with nezemny at the beginning of the year, which shows him slandering me well into late march, completely unprompted.
on the 18th of may, i decided to reach out personally to nezemny / zirka directly via my callout blog, as it was the only blog i own that wasn't blocked by him. i hadn't been able to personally reach out until this moment, and as trying to extend a branch through anarchy didn't go well i decided to do this. i gave zirka my discord and told me to add me, and that this would be the last chance to return it to a private conversation that could hopefully still be resolved.
continuing later into the 18th, nezemny added me on discord and i accepted the invite. he said nothing. i opened the conversation and firmly stated i had no interest in being gaslit or manipulated and that i wanted both sides to be able to discuss their concerns and issues without being shut down, and that there was no point in us even trying to talk if that was going to happen - which i'd already experienced with anarchy.
nezemny never replied. he claims, as you'll see on the page for his callout, he's been open to resolving this privately despite never reaching out to me. it took me messaging him on my callout blog to make it happen. he also claims that i've made it clear i don't want to resolve it due to public involvement. i will quote him, to maintain transparency. "i was fully willing to work with her to bring this to a private conclusion, but she's made it clear through repeated public involvement that she doesn't want that." public involvement came when neither responded to my prompt in discord, despite giving them, altogether, 66 hours to reply to me ( which is just under 3 days / 72 hours ), which was when the callout was posted at approx. 11pm on the 14th. they had just under 3 days to tell me "we have a lot going on irl at the moment and will try and get back to you by x date." they never asked this of me, and i wasn't prepared to give them time to otherwise 'get their story straight' or to further ignore and evade me like they've already done.
ANARCHY'S MOST SERIOUS ALLEGATION YET.
i'm not going to detail it in this moment, as i want to get everything else covered first. but yes, through navigating nezemny's rebuttal, i located a link on it to a carrd made my anarchy which was deleted shortly after i'd gone on it. this carrd held a link, that was accessible to all of at least nezemny's followers, and when you clicked on this link it took you to an image of statcounter information, detailing my friend's ip address. this was made available to the public, despite my friend having no involvement in this situation save for checking their blogs for signs of trouble. anarchy doxxed them. the fact that it's now been deleted has no relevance - they are in possession of a screenshot of my friend's information, down to their internet provider, and made it accessible via nezemny's rules. it doesn't matter whether no one but i saw it, if that's an excuse they attempt to use. it was used with malicious intent, to doxx my friend, otherwise the information would've been blacked out. why does anarchy have this? why has she kept it? if not for leverage or to threaten. i will not tolerate my friend being brought into something that doesn't involve them, nor the use of their private information for anarchy or zirka's benefit. it is disgusting anarchy would ever even consider posting such information.
FULL TRANSPARENCY.
i explain on the other page how i located this very random rebuttal etc, that i previously knew nothing about, and my discovery of it was wholeheartedly unintentional. who knows how long my friend's ip could've been up, had it not been discovered by me. the carrd was taken down after i spent a significant amount of time on it. i can only assume anarchy noticed this through some sort of tracker and privated or deleted it.
ANARCHY'S REASON FOR NOT REPLYING.
i will go over what i saw on anarchy's carrd she'd made, prior to it being taken down whilst i was still on it. this was never something intended solely for my eyes, as you can see it was linked on nezemny's rebuttal which he even states was placed in his rules for any of his mutuals to see. i'm not going to comment on assumptions, and will only be proving or disproving fact. please bear in mind that anarchy has accused me of "pure vitriol". my private messages to her and to nezemny will be on a separate page.
proof the carrd was made unavailable.
nice of anarchy to state her name and business, to prove this was written and made by her. also nice of her to let me get screenshots before taking it down. in this, she covers my initial approach through ask via a blog i wasn't blocked on. i'll post clearer shots of the asks i sent. i sent these in the early hours of the 10th of may and anarchy responded some hours later. i gave out my discord. this was the first time i'd ever spoken to anarchy.
anarchy shows the ask she responded with. mind you, she fails to show the ask where she states she "won't be very big brain celled" - in response to me having concerns about her or her friend potentially stalking me.
i might point out that anarchy was actually quite jovial. you'll see in our exchanges she even makes a joke at one point about discord formatting her message. she replies in what can only be perceived as a nonchalant and insensitive attitude. why would she not wait until she's woken up more? it's odd that she decided to imply she'd be having this conversation whilst still tired / not thinking alertly. regardless, i ended up going to sleep on my end and the conversation continued some time later. she goes on to post our entire discord conversation on the carrd which, as i've said, i'll post separately on a different page.
anarchy had used the phrase "can hash this out tomorrow" to me, regarding discussing this issue. to hash out means to speak with others about something, to talk something over in detail or to have a discussion. i was under the illusion that we would, in fact, discuss in detail. what instead ended up happening was anarchy making a list of things she wanted to go over, often deflecting and even outright trivialising how i got to stalking in the first place, whilst literally admitting to me that she knew one or more individuals had been stalking me for 7 months and reporting back to nezemny.
i was met with gaslighting and manipulation, wherein she tries to convince me i've misunderstood the situation, that it's all just a "good ol' chat" and silly me! it was all one big misunderstanding! since she wants to insert a narrative that i was vitriolic, when really i was furious i was being met with a nonchalant, inappropriate to the situation and insensitive attitude. i was gutted to read what was basically anarchy shutting down my every concern, whilst also implying my concern was correct because i was in fact being watched for 7 months. she gets to the end of what she's said, accusing my friend of dishonesty and of "mass stalking" for watching out for concerning behaviour around specific events that involved either anarchy or zirka, and effectively ends her message with a cease and desist, where she suggests a truce be proposed ( despite me having not spoken to nezemny yet ) and that i should delete any mention of names / urls, not discuss it with anyone, and that if concerned friends come to me with evidence of harassment, theft or slander i should tell them off or ignore it.
vitriol is far from the right word. i was livid. i had really, genuinely hoped anarchy would pass my message on to nezemny, and we would be able to have an adult discussion. instead, i was met with the wall that is anarchy, and am again being painted as a villain for being angry about something i was rightfully angry about. after 7 months, a confession of someone stalking me and reporting on me to nezemny, among other insensitive comments like "this whole situation has gotten a little crazy," had me furious that she so quickly had suggested a "truce" and was so eager to have me be quiet and move on.
you'll see i never threatened anarchy with a callout blog. my exact words were "i'm going to have to take this another route." at the time, i had no clue what i was going to do. she specifically mentions "11" messages in total that i send, when as i say i'd been expecting to "hash this out" and had a lot to unpick from not only her message, but to get my own concerns across. it's as though she's suggesting i bombarded her with these awful, vitriolic messages when in actual fact, they were valid and she simply refused to accept any wrongdoing.
re: this, as i've previously stated on the other page, i saw anarchy's tag when 141s posted their re-designed promo. or rather, a ghost note - same as nezemnys. i know of countless people who look to find out who has them blocked re: a ghost note, i know in the 12 years i've been on tumblr it isn't a "fucking creepy" thing to do. i simply wanted to know who was supporting someone i believed to have lifted from my graphic style, so i could block in return. i have a handful of blogs and wanted them blocked there, too. i circumvented the block to do this, but in turn, anarchy decided to make that vague threat. oh sorry, "joke". this was when i saw anarchy's tags in her reblog of said promo, where she wrote "i would murder for bren" and "in fact i'm considering murdering someone's entire career rn uwu". she even goes as far as to try and blame my friend, who literally had no clue who she even was at the time, for feeding information to me.
now for the most important part of anarchy's callout. i was fucking horrified to click on this link and be taken to a picture of my closest friend's ip address. completely accessible to any and everyone who accessed the "rebuttal". why did anarchy have a picture of my friend's ip? why had she posted it? this was, in every form, doxxing them. i immediately informed said friend, who told me that if they weren't in the stronger headspace they were in at that moment, they easily could've broken down about something like that. the one and only reason anarchy would've singled that one statcounter section out, with the ip address visible and clear, is to use it for malicious intent. she saved my friend's ip address and kept it. no, no, that's not what a stalker would do at all /s. anarchy doxxed my friend's ip address, and despite the carrd being taken down, she's shown she's more than prepared to do it and make that information accessible to anyone. i hopefully don't need to stress to whoever is reading this of the awful things that can come from doxxing. below, you will see the page i was taken to, with the ip address visible. i myself have blacked it out, save for the country itself, primarily to show it was very specific. but it showed every detail, down to the internet provider.
even with this individual being my closest friend, i didn't know the specifics of this information about them - because it was theirs to rightly keep private from people on the internet. anarchy thinks it's creepy that my friend checked her blog a small handful of times, over a two month period during events that directly involved me and my comfort, only to obtain said friend's ip address, hold onto it for 8 MONTHS AND THEN PUBLICLY MAKE IT AVAILABLE.
how can anyone believe these people and their constant lies and downplaying of serious things? their manipulation and gaslighting. they have no proof of anything. in fact, any proof they do have is unequivocally against their own damn selves. all nezemny managed to prove is that my accusations of him copying me in writing out a meta and stealing a muse's name were wrongly made. to which i have acknowledged and taken responsibility for. everything else, both here and on nezemny's section, is lies. down to attempting to use old graphics against me. yet, they both continue to refuse to acknowledge their own mistakes, false accusations and outright lies.
i am horrified to know my friend's safety had been compromised and their privacy invaded in this way. when they were never involved, save for their ip popping up a handful of times for reasons already stated. when she's the one with a statcounter, evidently hoarding the ips of anyone who might challenge her or cause opposition against her. she goes on to post this.
she states she's not bothered to read anything in my callout, which shows her complete refusal to even consider what she and zirka did was wrong. that post would've gone up regardless, my silence was never going to be bought. but it says a lot she thinks my reasoning is solely because i got "upset" they didn't respond within x amount of time. again, belittling and trivialising my reaction to learning i am in fact being stalked.
regardless, anarchy has committed to concealing the identity of those stalking me and continues to protect them. she then claims my request ( regarding how they could improve the situation ) for the stalkers names / urls was a threat and blackmail and that i tried to bully her into silence. when i gave her every chance to speak up! these two just can't pick a story to keep to. her, the one who wrote the cease and desist. the one who has held onto my friend's ip address for 8 months solely to use it for doxxing purposes. was that a threat to keep me silent? i've had my friend's permission to push this, even if their safety is put in danger for it. because we don't tolerate "leverage" against innocent people.
anarchy thinks she's untouchable. she's got ip addresses and she's got friends who will overlook and ignore every single mistake and problematic behaviour so she remains unchallenged on it. she's all set. she's written a narrative where i am supposedly the villain, just as nezemny had, using words like vitriol, aggressively, threatened and lashed out. she completely glazes over the fact that she shut me down, belittled me for suspecting stalking whilst also confirming it at the same time, tried to make me keep quiet about all of this, was insensitive and inappropriate towards me - someone who she and zirka had made extremely uncomfortable and feel unsafe in an environment where they should only feel safe, and acts like they weren't given more than one opportunity to communicate but instead decided they did nothing wrong and i was the problem. as stated in nezemny's section, the ball has been in their court this entire time. anarchy protects and defends stalkers, enablers obsessive and unhealthy behaviour for her own benefit, has doxxed someone completely uninvolved in this situation who was only trying to look out for me and has supported zirka through every step of his own actions.
i won't be silent, and i'm prepared for any repercussions this might hold. i have nothing to hide. i hope any who took the time to read this will not be ignorant because of what they've been "told", and that people start to see pseudolife for the problematic rper she really is, enabling stalkers and indulging obsessive and unhealthy behaviours - and who is someone that's revealed she'll doxx someone without a second thought. anarchy never reached out to my friend, never inquired about the statcounter blips and jumped straight to doxxing them, despite me already explaining to her there was never negative intent behind them doing so.
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