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3 Lists: WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?
GRATEFUL FOR WHAT IS WHAT'S NOT.
AND A FEW THINGS I LOVE.
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▪️WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?
1) Cardiovascular
- High heart rate & blood pressure
- High cholesterol
2) Neurological – TBI (traumatic brain injury)
- Psychiatric problems and disturbances
- Seizures semi-regularly
- Addiction affliction
- Long-term brain chemistry imbalance of Dopamine
3) Gastrointestinal
- Nausea
- Vomiting
- Digestive problems
4) Sleep & Eating problems
5) Acknowledge & Validate
- My feelings of:
- Hopelessness
- Crippling fear / Afraid of the world
- I feel like I Wasted my life
- I am Unhappy & in pain
- Meaninglessness & apathy
- Nihilism
6) CLINICAL
- PTSD - trauma
- ADHD - stimulus
- bipolar II - mood swings/depression
7) PERSONAL
- I don't feel Loved
- I don't feel Wanted
- I don't feel Liked
- I don't feel Respected
- I don't feel Trusted
8) SOCIAL
I can't be Honest about this. I can't tell anyone. I don't even know what to say. No one would believe me anyways.
9) Only I can do something. No one else can make me WANT to LIVE!
Too Risky to tell anyone what's really going on. I would be force out of my safe place. Rehab, Treatment, Jail? No matter what I still have to live with myself.
Enough about all that's wrong with me physically, mentally & spiritually. I'm grateful because it could be worse.
▪️List of Problems I Don’t Have:
- Schizophrenia / Psychotic Disorder
- Somatic Symptom Disorder
- Gender Dysphoria
- Personality Disorder
- Paraphilic Disorder
- No mental retardation / autism
- No handicaps
- I have my hands & feet & fingers
- No cancer – any kind
- No genetic disease
- No contagious disease
- No major injury
- No broken bones
- I could have been abused more
- No legal troubles
- No money trouble
- Not in jail
- Not in a mental asylum
- No bereavement
- No harassment
- No car crash
- I've never been robbed
- I've never been murdered
- my dogs have not died
- Not homeless
▪️A FEW THINGS I LOVE
- Jeff & Marty, emotional support animals
- My apartment (safe space)
- Piano
- Xbox
- Performing
- Writing
- Video making
- Watching my own videos
- The VA
- My personality
- My character
- My empathy
- My skills
- Science
- Philosophy
- Theology
- Psychology
- Math & statistics
- JWST (James Webb Space Telescope)
- Fermi Paradox
faith CAN MOVE MOUNTAINS
Cardiovascular
High heart rate & blood pressure
High cholesterol
Neurological – TBI
Psychiatric problems
Seizures
Addiction
Long-term brain chemistry
Dopamine disturbance
Gastrointestinal
Nausea
Vomiting
Digestive problems
Sleep & Eating problems
Acknowledge & Validate
My feelings of:
Hopelessness
Crippling fear / Afraid of the world
Wasted my life
Unhappy & in pain
Meaninglessness & apathy
Nihilism
CLINICAL
PTSD - trauma
ADHD - stimulus
bipolar II - mood swings/depression
PERSONAL
I don't feel Loved
I don't feel Wanted
I don't feel Liked
I don't feel Respected
I don't feel Trusted
SOCIAL
I can't be Honest about this
I can't tell anyone
No one Believes me
Only I can do something. No one else can make me WANT to LIVE!
Too Risky to tell anyone what's really going on. I would be force out of my safe place. Rehab, Treatment, Jail? No matter what I still have to live with myself.
Enough about all that's wrong with me physically, mentally & spiritually.
I'm grateful because it could be worse.
List of Problems I Don’t Have:
Schizophrenia / Psychotic Disorder
Somatic Symptom Disorder
Gender Dysphoria
Personality Disorder
Paraphilic Disorder
No mental retardation / autism
No handicaps
I have my hands & feet & fingers
No cancer – any kind
No genetic disease
No contagious disease
No major injury
No broken bones
I could have been abused more
No legal troubles
No money trouble
Not in jail
Not in a mental asylum
No bereavement
No harassment
No car crash
I've never been robbed
I've never been murdered
my dogs have not died
Not homeless
Jeff & Marty, emotional support animals
My apartment (safe space)
Piano
Xbox
Performing
Writing
Video making
Watching my own videos
The VA
My personality
My character
My empathy
My skills
Science
Philosophy
Theology
Psychology
Math & statistics
JWST (James Webb Space Telescope)
Fermi Paradox
faith CAN MOVE MOUNTAINS
Enough about all that's wrong with me physically, mentally & spiritually.
I'm grateful because it could be worse.
List of Problems I Don’t Have:
Schizophrenia / Psychotic Disorder
Somatic Symptom Disorder
Gender Dysphoria
Personality Disorder
Paraphilic Disorder
No mental retardation / autism
No handicaps
I have my hands & feet & fingers
No cancer – any kind
No genetic disease
No contagious disease
No major injury
No broken bones
I could have been abused more
No legal troubles
No money trouble
Not in jail
Not in a mental asylum
No bereavement
No harassment
No car crash
I've never been robbed
I've never been murdered
my dogs have not died
Not homeless
Jeff & Marty, emotional support animals
My apartment (safe space)
Piano
Xbox
Performing
Writing
Video making
Watching my own videos
The VA
My personality
My character
My empathy
My skills
Science
Philosophy
Theology
Psychology
Math & statistics
JWST (James Webb Space Telescope)
Fermi Paradox
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