2023

Sunday, December 31, 2023

It's New Year's Eve and I believe this is when I usually try to say something profound or nostalgic about 2023. It was the year of Porter. A year of travel and wonder. A good year full of memories and family. 

I only came up with the following top ten for 2023.

1. Family: Michael, Sean, Rose, and Porter. Especially Porter...

2. Hawaii: An anniversary celebration, visits to our favorite places, friends, and family, the ocean, the beach.

3. Travel: Seattle, the Southwest. Oh, the things I've seen and the places I've been.

4. Annular Eclipse - Midland TX: The awe stopping moment at totality.

5. Friday date nights with Michael: That they have continued for more than 50 years.

6. Belated 50th-51st wedding anniversary party at Arbor Brewing courtesy of Sean and Rose.

7. Museums, zoos, and other places of interest.

8. A day with Cat in Seattle.

9. Photos, creating photo books.

10. Blogging, sharing my thoughts.

• Bonus item: Reading

I am thinking about writing about the strangers I meet in my dreams. Here is the first one called The Professor.

A few days before the end of 2023, I dreamt that I was in college. I lived in a small dorm room. One of my classes focused on observation skills. The professor was an elderly Asian man. His assistant was his even more elderly mother.  The class only had about six students and we went on field trips to look for items of interest. Today we observed ants in a large mound in a forested area. Our professor crouched down with his large magnifying glass to examine the movements of this very large ant colony, while his mother took close-up photos with a vintage Kodak foldout camera. I find myself a bit disappointed that this was a dream stranger and not a memory from my college days.

Saturday, December 30, 2023

The house is quiet. Sean, Rose, and Porter returned to Chicago this morning. No more sharing my chair and iPad with Porter. I will miss them. I'm in the process of restoring the house to normal, complicated a little by all the Christmas decorations, that also need to be taken down and boxed up. I am currently washing towels and sheets. 

Kali has finally left our bedroom and returned to her fuzzy blankie on the family room couch. All is right in her world.

Our house seems to be full of items left behind by guests. Shannon and Darrell left behind a pottery piece (a belated wedding present), Joe gifted them while he was here. Celina and Michael left behind Fiona's blanket when they were over for dinner a few nights back. And Sean and Rose left behind a few gifts from Jackie and Sean's winter coat, which I am sure he is in need of. I already received a text asking me to mail it to him.

The year is nearly over. It's almost time for auld lang syne reflections.  I've noticed people have been posting their top 20 plus for 2023.  Rose's number one was writing for pleasure. For me it was spending time with Porter, although this year's travel is certainly a contender. I believe I may try to come up with a top 20 list, just because...

Thursday, December 28, 2023

Porter woke up at 4am and wouldn't go back to sleep. I took over for Rose and Sean at 6am and spent the next 7 hours feeding her, playing games, coloring, watching several episodes of the Mickey Mouse Club cartoon, giving her horsey rides, and more. My favorite moment was when after setting up my tablet so she could play a video game, I told her to go ahead and blow stuff up, and she proceeded to puff air out of her mouth. As Yoda would say, literal she is.

Last night we went to Union Rep for dinner. Tonight Rose is making dinner. So two nights off from preparing dinners for me. Celina, Michael, Paul, and Fiona are coming by, which should be nice. It will be interesting to see how shy the kids may be with each other.

Poor Kali has been spending all her time in our bedroom. She is leery of Porter. If cats could talk, I am sure she would have a few choice words about what the hell that two foot tall creature is and why is she spending so much time with my human. Kali is on my lap now trying to chill while Porter naps. At least momentarily, things feel normal.

Wednesday, December 27, 2023

Christmas has come and gone, The Chicago Dove-Lannins are still here.and plan to return to Chicago on Saturday. Porter enjoyed opening her gifts on Christmas morning and we enjoyed watching her. Christmas is so much better with a little one in the mix.

Porter has traded her Bluey obsession to the Mickey Mouse Club, which she is now watching while eating oatmeal and a banana slices. The show makes a stab at being educational with interactive counting and problem solving exercises.  Mom and Dad are enjoying opportunities to sleep in while the grands keep an eye on her.

Temperatures continue to be in the high 40s, which feels almost balmy for December. We've tried to get outside daily to enjoy this weather while it lasts. I believe Sean is taking Porter to visit his friend Zack this morning so I may try to get a walk in while they are out.

It's been really nice for me having family here. Especially the little one.

Sunday, December 24, 2023

Saturday's treat was Cherry Stop dried tart cherries from Traverse City. I knew eventually this Traverse City tradition would make an appearance. Today's treat is the last door to open on the advent calendar. It is a North Country chocolate rice krispie treat from Alpena.

A whopping 24 family members showed up for last night's holiday get-together. The only Michiganders missing were Jesse and Cheyne. Crowd-wise it wasn't too bad. There was additional space in our front room that was under utilized and I noticed family tended to cluster in spots in the family room by the dining table that made egress to the kitchen tough at times. We took a group photo that is unfortunately missing Donna and Spence, who had left earlier. 

We had lots of food and desserts. All and all, I felt it went well. But definitely, our next event will be when it's warmer to take advantage of outdoor space. 

Joe left to return to Pittsboro this morning. I missed spending one on one time with him this trip but it was nice going into Ann Arbor and Ypsilanti for a few meals with him, Michael, Butch, and April. He gifted us a beautiful star trails photograph. And added a few tasteful pottery pieces to my growing collection. 

It's always difficult to talk about the loss of another human being but Hal's death on Friday has been on my mind. My heart goes out to Kathy. Over the past few years, the quality of Hal's life declined steadily and as his needs increased, Kathy assumed the difficult task of becoming his primary care giver. I am hopeful she is slowly exhaling and giving herself time to refocus on herself. The one silver lining on this long journey, is that Kathy will be able to travel again. It's been several years since the family has seen her and it will be nice to give her a long over due hug.

Friday, December 22, 2023

Lee's Market Original Beef Jerky from Newport was today's calendar treat. Yesterday's was Michigan Pure Maple Syrup. I suspect Butch will happily claim the jerky.

Last night Butch, April, Joe, Michael, and I headed to the Original Cottage Inn in Ann Arbor. Most of us are big fans of their spicy Mediterranean deep dish pizza. We placed our order but forgot to designate we wanted deep dish. The pizza was still tasty but not what we really wanted. Hoping there will be another opportunity to eat there again.

I picked up the ham and a few sides for tomorrow's event. And made a big pot of mac & cheese today.  I am hoping my hostess chores will not prevent me from having time to socialize.  And I realize that a lot of the stress I endure is self inflicted.

Wednesday, December 20, 2023

Be still my heart. Yesterday's advent calendar treat was Sanders milk chocolate sea salt caramels from Clinton Township.  Today's was a healthier choice - Teffola Bites from Plymouth, which are made of granola , almonds, cinnamon, and cranberries.  My assessment is that the bites are somewhat grainy tasting. I think I will stick with Sanders.

Joe, Butch, Michael and I headed into Ann Arbor yesterday and visited the University of Michigan Museum of Art (UMMA) and the Kelsey Museum of Architecture (KMA).  It was a nice juant into town. Last night, April, Butch, Joe, and I ate Thai food at Basil Babe, which replaced Tower Inn in Ypsilanti. I can't say that I miss Tower Inn but I am sorry that it closed. When I worked at EMU, it was in close proximity to the campus and a nice break from EMU's food court. 

I finally did my pre-holiday grocery shopping today. And much to Michael's delight, the Arborland Krogers now carries hard liquor. It also turns out he may possibly be the first non-employee customer to make a purchase. Our cashier didn't have a security device remover at her register and had to call for assistance. Krogers is not a one stop shop like Meijer but this helps. Let the drinking begin.

Monday, December 18, 2023

Joe is in Michigan and is staying at Butch's and April's house. It was nice to see him today and appreciate that he and Butch were willing to navigate the maze at Ikea this morning. I was in search of a tiny craft table/chairs for Porter.  Mission accomplished.

Today's wintery mix of snow flurries and wind was a good reminder that it is December.  Is it too early to be wishing for spring?

Today's advent calendar item was Hasselman's Honey from Freemont. I am appreciating the diversity of items day to day.

Sunday, December 17, 2023

Happy Birthday, Kathy!  And I'm slipping up as I forgot to mail you a card.

I just heard from Bern and he's tested positive for Covid and isn't feeling well. Shades of me two Christmases ago. Hopefully, Saturday's get-together attendees have the good sense and humanity to stay home if they have any symptoms. The last thing I want is for me or anyone else to get sick.

Today's advent calendar goodie is Detroit's Cermack Pistachio Company's Motown Mix - a mix of nuts and chocolate chips. I will save it for a later snack.

I went to Archilles for breakfast this morning with Michael.  I think it was a guilt breakfast. We have a loose agreement that we would go out once a month as I usually make him breakfast Sunday mornings. Let's just say, I believe the last time we "did breakfast" was in September and it was because Sean & Rose were visiting.

Saturday, December 16, 2023

Headcount is up to 19.  This is when I appreciate having both a family room and a living room.  I am wondering if it will be rude if I put a reserved sign on my armchair.  

Today's advent calendar treat is Mindo Chocolate Makers candy cane buttons from Dexter. Tasty.

Friday, December 15, 2023

Today's advent calendar treat was from Sayklly's in Escanaba. It's advertised as the sweetest store in town.  While I received a fudge pastie, I noticed on their website that in addition to chocolates and caramels, they also carry Yooper Bars that are chocolate bars shaped like the Upper Peninsula. Sounds like a winner. Ja...

Michael and I took advantage of the balmy 50 degree temperatures this afternoon and window shopped Main Street. My only purchases were cherry salsa and gummy bears from Cherry Republic. We stopped at Old Town (circa 1972) for a late lunch/early dinner. I am amused that when we eat there, Michael always makes a joke about eating there back in the 70s.  Like he's an old towner.

We also stopped at the Ann Arbor Art Center and I find myself questioning the trend of galleries in the AA/Ypsi area to have shows focused on topical themes like racism, genocide, or LBGTQIA issues. Or just black artists or women artists. These types of shows certainly have a place but I'd like to also see exhibits focused on portraits or landscapes as well.  Just my two cents.

Ham and a few sides were ordered for pick-up next Saturday morning. I also decided to make mac & cheese. The headcount for the family gathering is currently at 15. A few people have responded that they plan to bring a dish to pass, which will be appreciated. I haven't planned any dessert items yet.  I also need to borrow folding chairs from Butch.  

Thursday, December 14, 2023

Advent calendar day 13 was a disk shaped piece of Dwaar Chocolate blueberry oatmylk chocolate from Keego Harbor.  While I find the  number of calendar items that contain blueberries interesting, this one was not to my liking. Today's treat was Chuck Nibbles sweet and salty s'mores from Troy.  I'll give it a thumbs up - you can't go wrong with chunks of pretzels, salted nuts, corn squares, marshmallows, and graham crackers.

It's sunny today. Too bad it is also not warm. But I do have an urge to go out.

I shredded a six-inch-tall pile of documents today after cleaning out my file box and office in-box. I have a bunch of medical paperwork I need to go through as well, as I suspect much of it can be shredded.  The year-end purge begins.  I had a flash-back to the boxes of medical paperwork we disposed of when Mom passed away. And I will admit to holding on to about 50 years of 1040s.  Sorry Sean...

Tuesday, December 12, 2023

Today's advent calendar gift was hot cocoa mix from the Blu Kitchen in Plymouth. Just add hot milk.

The crotons, palms, and snake plants in our family room seem happy. I moved the hibiscus to our guest room and it is now sharing a window location with my anthurium that flowers regularly. I fear despite it's now lighter spot, it's future is not bright. 

Big shocker. Michael decided to go to a movie this afternoon. We went to see Napolean. There were only two other people in the theater.  Apparently tickets are discounted on Tuesdays - good to know for future movie outings.

Monday, December 11, 2023

Today's calendar treat is Blueberry Coffee Beans Covered in Dark Chocolate from the Blueberry Store (location not listed but they have store in South Haven).  I find this taste combination interesting.

I have been checking a few store sites daily to see if a hard to find item on someone's gift list is available and it showed up as "limited availability" at an Ann Arbor location this morning. I immediately drove to the store (it was still dark outside) believing I was on a wild goose chase. And was shocked when the salesclerk said he had one left (the store had only received two). I had a moment of joyful disbelief  as I paid for my purchase and left the store. I am so used to being disappointed in cases like this that I didn't completely understand what I was feeling.

My shopping expedition continued with a stop at the Dollar store to pick up some holiday decor. As I was standing in line to pay, the person behind me was chatting with the cashier and mentioned she was autistic. The cashier responded that he was also autistic. Not be outdone, the person in front of me announced she was not autistic, but she was a nerd. Is this an example of retail therapy?

After temps in the 50's yesterday, today's temps were in the low 30's, with the wind chill at 22 degrees. I wished I had an extra layer of clothing when I walked to the rec center this morning. Brr...

Sunday, December 10, 2023

Zingerman's Wowza! candy bar hails from Ann Arbor and was also December 9th's advent calendar treat. Or how about today's dark chocolate coconut cluster from Allmade Whole Food Meals in Brighton? The goodies just keep coming.  And here, I always thought Advent was a holy season of waiting for baby Jesus.

A few of my outdoor plants are not faring well indoors. Despite having its own grow light, my once very hearty hibiscus is dropping leaves and is looking spindly (yes, that's a word). And my poor namesake rosemary has diminished into one little dried up twig. I try not to get too attached to my plant friends but still feel like I let them down when they wither away. At a certain point, however, it's time to say goodbye.

Shiv, the neighbor's cat, continues to visit Kali several times a day. She bangs on the sliding glass door to get her attention. And I think Kali likes it. Their little window scuffles bring excitement to her otherwise placid days and nights. 

Other than meal shopping and house cleaning, I bellieve I am done with Christmas prep. Cards were mailed, holiday decorations are in place, and with my shortened Christmas list this year, presents are wrapped and under the tree. And presents include gift cards so a certain recipient can select his own gifts.

Well, I am off to Target to pick up a few, errr, items...

Friday, December 8, 2023

December 8th's advent calendar goodie is Ferris Nut Company's Roasted & Salted Cherries, Berries & Nuts from Grand Rapids.

Bern forwarded a link to a documentary on reversing the Chicago River, which I found very interesting. Without going into a lot of detail, these are a few points in the video that really surprised me. One, is that due to water table levels, during the 1850s and 1860s, city engineers physically raised businesses and sidewalks by about ten feet using jack screws to improve drainage issues. The next is that in the 1860s, Chicago built a tunnel to a pumping station two miles offshore 200 feet under Lake Michigan to improve drinking water quality. And finally, there was a project to reverse the flow of the Chicago River, that was completed in 1900, to clean up the sewage in the river that was being dumped into Lake Michigan. The surprise for me on this one is that there didn't seem to be any environmental concerns about towns and cities downriver that would be impacted by this sewage. Interesting documentary.

I've decided to plan a holiday party on December 23. I invited 18 family members and would be relieved with half showing up.

Thursday, December 7, 2023

There was an issue with my Michigan Health Advantage application. It apparently fell through the cracks. I became concerned when Michael received a welcome letter and packet and I had not. I contacted Nina at Michigan Health yesterday and she resubmitted my app in time for today's deadline. Whew.

Today's advent calendar treat is Fudge du Loche peanut brittle, made in Sault Ste Marie. It was consumed immediately, with just a slight bit of shame.

Michael and I had dinner last night with Brian, an old friend from my EMU days. We realized it had been more than ten years since we had seen each other so there was a lot of catching up on family and other news. Ellen, Jean, Lynn, Brian, and I ( my EMU family) used to meet regularly for lunch or dinner, sometimes with our spouses or partners, but often not. Sadly, Jean and Lynn passed away, their deaths unexpected. And with Ellen living in Redmond, that leaves only Brian and me in Michigan. I'm glad Brian reached out and am hopeful it won't be another ten years till we enjoy a meal together again. He's one of the good guys. I regret not taking a photo last night.

In two weeks Sean, Rose, and Porter will be here, weather and health permitting.

Wednesday, December 6, 2023

Erg Energy anyone?  Today's advent calendar treat is a sunflower fig fruit and nut bar made in Traverse City.

This morning I paused while walking on the track at the rec center to watch an older couple ballroom dance on the basketball court below me. It was such a lovely moment, that I found myself smiling. Later, I took a short walk around my neighborhood watching snowflakes flutterering down and listening to Fade Into You (Mazzie Star), and just breathing in cold fresh air. I look to you, and I see nothing. I look to you to see the truth. Fade into you. I think it's strange you never knew.

Tuesday, December 5, 2023

Day five's advent calendar treat is Fraser peppermint stick tea from Livonia. I am not a tea drinker so am hoping one of our future guests may like it.

USPS delivered my stamps on Monday and Christmas cards were mailed today. I usually try to write a few lines on cards for people I don't see often - I opted to just sign cards this year. Yes, I am getting lazy.

I FaceTimed last night with Sean and Porter. She signed off with a wave and "see you later."  I could feel my heart skipping a beat.

I also spoke to Ellen and Cat yesterday. Cat is still dealing with anemia but finally has a doctor to coordinate her care. Hopefully, her doctor will be able to determine the cause and address it.  Cat also just celebrated her 41st birthday. I still remember driving through rain and fog to Bern and Ellen's home on Merkel for her birth. It was a memorable moment. I've been blessed with wonderful and smart nieces.

Monday, December 4, 2023

Today's advent calendar treat is an Apple+Cinnamon Mitten Bites from Detroit Food Academy, advertised as the granola snack that gives back.

I am disappointed with the USPS. I received notice that stamps I ordered on-line would be delivered Saturday. They were a no show, which I find a bit ironic.

Trying to think of a few cute stocking stuffers for Porter. Maybe a bag of Ms (what she calls M&Ms) and a small toy or craft item?

Sunday, December 3, 2023

December 2-3 advent calendar goodies include Benjamin Twiggs chocolate covered cherries from Traverse City and Simply Delightful caramel corn from Cadillac.  I never realized what a great fun gift advent calendars can be. I sent Porter a Bluey advent calendar and so far she has received a Bluey figure in a Christmas sweater and a crown.  Apparently, Porter is having a hard time understanding the concept of only being able to open one date window per day.

Michael is still coughing, especially at night. I am hoping he finds some relief soon.

It's been a rainy weekend. Water is pooling in the neighbor's backyard behind our home's backyard and I feel grateful that we live at a higher elevation. I find rain, when it is as cold as it's been, makes me feel chilled. It was a perfect night for comfort food so I made spaghetti tonight. Buon Appetito!

Friday, December 1, 2023

It's December!  

So my big activity this morning was moving our bed to clean up three dried out cat vomit spots. This is not a first.  Thank you, Kali.

I received my photo book yesterday. The lay-out looks good but the photos seem a little washed out. I find myself wondering if ordering a glossy instead of matte finish might have made a difference. I also found some typos on one of the pages that I missed when I proof-read the text before ordering. It's disappointing, but despite my anal tendencies I am okay with the finished product. It's an interesting telling of my journey and that was my primary goal.

Rose and Sean ordered a Delicious Michigan Advent Calendar for Michael and me.  I opened the December 1 space today and was treated to two Sweetwater chocolates from Sweetland Candies in Grand Rapids. A fun gift that has me guessing what other Michigan goodies will be revealed in the coming days.

Wednesday, November 29, 2023

The dryness of the air in the house is starting to make me feel like a crusty old woman. My skin is flaky and I'd benefit from some moisturizing. Lips are chapped and my fingers tips are wrinkled and dried out.  Even my sinuses are dry. This is winter.

I am thinking about making a few Christmas desserts this year including Russian Tea cookies (aka snowballs), fudge, and toffee. I purchased ingredients today. I seem to get in the mood to do  holiday baking only sporadically. The last time was probably four years ago while still in Hawaii. I made shortbread and a few other types of cookies. And I baked a lot of banana bread.

I finished and submitted my road trip photo book last week and should be receiving it soon. I am always curious about what the finished book is going to look out. Fingers crossed it turns out well.

Michael is finally getting over a respiratory virus he got while in Chicago. Both Sean and Porter were coughing and sniffling. I had a mild case that listed about 4 days, it's been almost 9 days for Michael. He's been sleeping in the guest room and I love that Kali still goes to bed  with him and then visits me at about 4:30am. Fortunately, I did not develop a nagging cough.

Monday, November 27, 2023

Despite icy conditions in spots on sidewalks and roads, I bundled up and headed to the rec building this morning. I moved more deliberately and managed not to fall. I'll count my venture out as a success. The weight room was busier  than normal and was mostly men. I skipped one machine because the wait was too long.

I started Christmas shopping this morning. I purchased a few items for Porter and Rose and discovered an item on Sean's list is out of stock everywhere. An auspicious beginning.

It's been heartbreaking watching the release of hostages in Gaza and their reunions with families. It's unimaginable to me.

We continue to experience snow flurries. Skies are gray and the landscape is almost monochromatic. The sun hangs low in the sky and the days are shorter now. Sunrise was at 7:39 am this morning. Technically winter doesn't begin until December 21 at 10:27 pm.  This is Michigan.

Sunday, November 26, 2023

Our first snow of the season. I pray this winter be gentle and kind. A season of rest from the wheel of the mind. -John Geddes

Saturday, November 25, 2023

I've been home for four days and am feeling restless. Michael is still ill and is out of sorts because of it.  I feel badly for him,  it's no fun not feeling well. Fortunately, other than a few days of dealing with a sinus headache and currently feeling like there is gunk in my throat, I'm carrying on and am running out of house chores to do.  And watching far too much TV. I've started watching football games, which is not my normal fare. The Michigan/Ohio game is a nail biter so far.

Sometimes I feel like I am not the master of my life. Although I am free to walk out of the house and do something on my own, I find myself making excuses. It's fucking cold (it really is), the stores are crowded (probably are), and so on. Bern's not available to Facetime. I've tried twice. I've already called the Chicago family this week. Kathy has her hands full. Donna is in love.  And I am watching football?

By the way, Michigan won.

Thursday, November 23, 2023

We adopted Kali eight years ago today. She was 8 1/2 years old at that time and came to us with years of not having a permanent family or home. And Michael and I promised her a forever home. And in 2020, she found herself in the cargo hold of a United flight from Honolulu to Detroit. Our promise kept.

Michael and I celebrated a Thanksgiving for two today and our refrigerator is full of leftovers. I don't plan on cooking for the next few days and hopefully I will not end up throwing out food on garbage day (Monday). If I am honest, I'd prefer a Thanksgiving with more people at the table but control over menu items and other factors impacted our decision to stay home. And as it turned out, we returned  from Chicago with the virus Sean and Porter were dealing with while we visited this past weekend. So in the end, staying home worked out.

Tuesday, November 21, 2023

I woke up to what I thought would be an ordinary day but turned out to be a bit of a downer. Michael and I decided to shop for a few last minute Thanksgiving items only to find the car battery died sometime between our return from Chicago on Sunday and this morning. A call was made for Roadside Assistance and after several false notices that help was ten minutes away, someone finally arrived only to declare that the battery could not be revived with a jump. Michael ended up buying a new battery from the guy. Unfortunately, he was left feeling uneasy about the legitimacy of this transaction. Can you spell STRESS?  Meanwhile, I ended up taking an Uber to my doctor's appointment because the car wasn't available. My a1c is at the highest level it has been in ten years and I am not sure why. I've had it under control for several years and these numbers have left me feeling disappointed and frustrated with myself.

To add to all this doom and gloom, Michael doesn't seem to be feeling well. And I fear how this may impact Thanksgiving, his favorite holiday.

Saturday, November 18, 2023

Michael and I are in Chicago for a short visit with Porter, Sean, and Rose. Today's big activity was a trip to Costco in Niles, which also boasts a water tower made to look like the Leaning Tower of Pisa (circa 1932). What I found interesting about this structure is that it is recognized by the Department of the Interior as a historic place. 

After shopping, we headed to Chili's for lunch.  Porter, no surprise, is currently resisting napping and watching Wallace and Gromit with Sean and me. Snacks include a cheezit mix and grapes. Some good news, much to the delight of the adults in her life, she peed in her potty chair twice today. We are an easy crowd.

We return to Ann Arbor tomorrow. And it's been good spending time with our Chicago family. And just when I was thinking about changing my grandmother name to Nana, Porter called me gramma today.  Heart emojis...

Wednesday, November 15, 2023

It's beginning to look like Christmas.  I decided to bring my Christmas decorations up from the basement with no intent of opening the containers until after Thanksgiving.  With little to do today, however, I assembled the tree and hung my wreath. And I am finding foraging through my containers tempting.  A little voice in my head is saying resist, resist, it's not December yet. I ended up buying the 10th and final season of Doc Martin instead. 

Monday, November 13, 2023

My mother used to drop by unannounced and say she was just in the neighborhood. I was thinking about her this morning. Not necessarily related, but I find myself believing that sometimes we have psychic connections with people. There are moments when the phone rings and it is someone you were just thinking about calling. Or unbeknownst to you, someone is not doing well, and you have the urge to check on them. This happened recently to me and sure enough the person I was concerned about was experiencing some serious health issues. Also several years ago, I was visiting family in Michigan over the Christmas holidays and suddenly felt an urgency to return to Hawaii. Michael's Dad died the following week. I am not sure if these events are just coincidences, but the feelings they have invoked are real to me.

Temps are seesawing. It was a chilly low 30 degree walk to the rec building early this morning and a warmish sunny 50-60 degrees by noon. It made me wish I had a cozy sunroom to relax in with a good book. I am guessing there won't be many more days like this one in the near future.

Kali has a thing going with our neighbor's cat Shiv. Every day Shiv visits Kali at our back sliding glass door. They both have a little paw fight on their side of the glass and hiss at each other. The funny thing, however, is that they seem to look forward to seeing each other. I see Shiv checking a few times daily while Kali is alseep on the couch hoping to engage her. And I see Kali checking outside to see if Shiv is on the patio. It's hard not to smile.

Thursday, November 9, 2023

Potty training in a weekend and sleep training are just a few phrases I've heard Sean and Rose use. And I know they rely on YouTube videos to learn some parenting skills. It's a different world from when Michael and I raised Sean. We only owned a small black and white portable TV when he was young and with no cable, were only able to view a few channels with the TV's antenna and some tin foil. No instructive YouTube videos. I may have owned a Dr Spock book. Sleep training was me reading to him nightly in his bed until the drone of my voice knocked him out. And he picked up on how to use the potty by observing Michael and I. As I recall, he was very attached to his potty chair. To the extent that he insisited on traveling with it. I believe we were stricter with Sean than Sean and Rose are with Porter. I used to gently put my hands on the sides of his face and make direct eye contact with him to correct bad behavior and it got to the point that all I had to was give him the mommie look. I used to believe that I had somehow lucked out with him - he was an easy, responsible child. I am well aware, however, that children have their own personalities and many are very vocal about expressing themselves in challenging ways.

We plan to visit Sean, Rose, and Porter the weekend before Thanksgiving. Rose's mother Jackie arrives on Tuesday (11/21) to spend time with them over the Thanksgiving holiday. So lots of time with Porter for the grands is coming up.

Wednesday, November 8, 2023

I've been working on a photo book to chronicle the eclipse/park road trip I recently returned from. I still need to proofread the text. I'll wait, however, for Shutterfly to have a sale before placing my order.

I've started to think about Christmas and gift giving. I'd like to keep it simple this year. A sentiment I've expressed every November for years. Michael and I are at a point in our lives where I think if we need or want something, we shop for it on our own. I continue to add items of interest to my Amazon wish list but the list is more for me than others. Although in truth, items listed are things I'd appreciate having. I don't believe I am particulary original or creative when it comes to gift giving so am appreciative when Sean, Rose, or Michael just come out and say, "I want this."  If life was only that simple.

Monday, November 6, 2023

Today's question - what are you afraid of?  For a worrier like me, it turns out there is quite a lot. I recognize, however,  that worry is manufactured fear. Real fear is something we don't always have control over, like a gun in our face, for example. That said, here are a few things I think about in my day to day activities. At the rec building, I worry that I might do something while I am working out that could impact the meshes that hold my organs in my place or inflame my herniated disk. A fear of potential debilitating pain? I don't think I am afraid of dying but I have thought about what will happen if I die first vs. Michael dying first. And I worry about hurting loved ones' feelings. 

Michael and I are celebrating a Thanksgiving-for-two at home this year. Our family is at a stage where most of my siblings have their own extended families and have created or are creating their own family holiday traditions. Even Sean and Rose have their own Thanksgiving tradition. It's Jackie's holiday with them and they have an annual Friendsgiving with her and a few of their friends. We discussed going out but there are very few restaurants open for dining-in on Thanksgiving in Ann Arbor (Webers, Gandy Dancer).

After dark mornings, it was strange to wake up to some light this morning. No flashlight was needed to walk to the rec center. Thank you standard time? I noticed on the walk home that the wind had picked up considerably. Leaves were blowing all over the place. I suspect to the dismay of all the lawn warriors who spent this past weekend raking up the leaves in their yards.

Sunday, November 5, 2023

I've been thinking (what, again?) about travel. And how I've been saying how much I enjoy roadtrips. The reality is that I also love flying places and exploring on foot. I am referring to two trips Michael and I made. One to San Francisco, the other to Richmond. While we did Uber it to the de Young Museum in Golden Gate Park, we walked miles from our hotel in the Fisherman's Wharf area through China Town to the San Francisco Museum of Art. This took us by businesses like the City Lights Bookstore. I learned later that Jackie, Rose's mother, used to take young Rose there when they lived in San Francisco. We also extensively explored the waterfront area. In Richmond, we did the same and took daily walks along the historic Canal Walk on the St James River.  Our visit included a bus ride to the Virginia Museum of Fine Art and the long walk back to the hotel. We also walked through historic downtown Richmond  and happened upon the Valentine, a museum that has been collecting and preserving Richmond stories for over a century. The director showed us a locked studio filled with Confederate war hero sculptures that were not being displayed because of sensitivity about what they might represent. These accidental  moments are meaningful to me. There is a lot to be said about exploring places on foot. You never know what surprise might be around the next corner.

Saturday, November 4, 2023

I find myself relating to children who sometimes refuse sleep - fighting to hold onto the comforts of the walking world. I wonder at what age children start reading books with a flashlight under their covers to help them fall asleep. When I was young, I recall hiding under the covers with my viewmaster, which had a light in it and looking at reel after reel of cartoons or images of places. And I also used to read late into the night. I still do. Sean and Rose have started putting Porter to bed with her coloring books and crayons. Like reading, I suspect coloring is calming.

Lazy day. I have been watching the Changeling and doing laundry.

Thursday, November 2, 2023

I was home Halloween night to pass out candy to the neighborhood kids. And it was like old times. Families were out catching up with neighbors. The little ones were out with Mom and Dad and older kids were with their friends. I found the trick or treaters polite and enjoyed the variety of costumes.  But I underestimated how much candy I needed and ran out at 7:15pm. A great night and will buy more candy next year.

I occasionally use this space to save information. I've listed below national, state, tribal, historic parks or sites I remember visiting.  I am sure there are many places I've missed but it's a start.

ALASKA

Denali National Park

Dalton Highway Arctic Circle 2011

Iditarod National Historic Trail 2018

Lake Clark National Park and Preserve 2018

Kenai Fjords National Park 2018

Kenai Mountains Turnagain Arm National Historic Area 2018

ARIZONA

Sabino Canyon Recreation Area 2022

Saguaro National Park 2022

Casa Grande Ruins National Monument 2022

Tuzigoot National Monument 2022

Red Rock State Park 2022

Arizona-Sonora Desert Museum 2022

Canyon de Chelly National Monument 2023

ARIZONA-UTAH

Monument Valley National Navajo Tribal Park 2023

CALIFORNIA

San Francisco Maritime National Historic Park 2019

Redwood National Park

Yosemite National Park

COLORADO

Mesa Verde National Park 2023

Great Sand Dunes National Park and Preserve 2023

FLORIDA

Biscayne National Park 1992

HAWAII

Haleakala National Park 2020

INDIANA

Indiana Dunes National Park 1999

KENTUCKY

Mammoth Cave National Park 2017

Abraham Lincoln Birthplace National Historic Park 2017

LOUISIANA

John Lafitte Historical Park and Preserve 2004

New Orleans Jazz National Historic Park 2004

MARYLAND

Antietam National Battlefield 2017

MARYLAND/VIRGINIA/WEST VIRGINIA

Harpers Ferry National Park Service

MICHIGAN

Warren Dunes State Park

Tahquamenon Falls State Park 

Bell Isle State Park

Grand Haven State Park

PJ Hoffmaster State Park 

Holland State Park

Mears State Park

Muskegon State Park

Leelanau State Park

Ludington State Park

Petoskey State Park

Pictured Rocks National Lakeshore 1995

Sleeping Bear Dunes National Lakeshore. 1991 2003

MONTANA

Glacier National Park

NEVADA

Red Rock National Conservation Area

Old Spanish National Historic Trail 2011

NEW MEXICO

Carlsbad Caverns National Park 2023

White Sands National Park 2023

Three Rivers Petroglyph Site 2023

Carrizozo Volcanic Field 2023

Very Large Array 2023

NORTH CAROLINA

Haw River State Park

Fort Macon State Park

Raven Rock State Park

Cape Hatteras National Seashore 1998

Carvers Creek NC Sate Park 2018

Blue Ridge Parkway 2004 2020

Cape Lookout Lighthouse 2022

Cape Lookout National Seashore  2022

NORTH DAKOTA

Theodore Roosevelt National Park

OREGON

Mount Hood National Park

Ecola State Park (Canyon Beach)

Farewell Bend State Recreation Area

Historic Columbia River Highway

PENNSYLVANIA

Gettyburg National Military Park 2017

Independence National Historic Park 2005

SOUTH CAROLINA

Myrtle Beach State Park

SOUTH DAKOTA

Badlands National Park

Mt Rushmore National Monument

TENNESSEE/NORTH CAROLINA

Great Smoky Mountains National Park 2000,2004, 2009

TEXAS

Guadalupe Mountains National Park 2023

UTAH

Goosenecks State Park

WASHINGTON

Mount Rainier National Park 1995. 1996

Mount St Helens National Volcanic Monument 1995. 1996

Fort Vancouver Historic Site 1995

Lewis and Clark National Historic Trail 1995

Wednesday, November 1, 2023

Reflections on my latest road adventure  and my version of the Simon and Garfunkel song, America

Let us be travelers, we'll marry our forunes together.

I've got some gas money here in my bag.

So we packed up our bags and camping gear

and drove off to look for America.

"Butch", I said as he drove his jeep through St Louis,

"Michigan seems like a dream to me now."

It took us three days to drive to Midland, Texas.

I've gone to look for America.

So we looked at the scenery

and the moon rose over an open field.

"Butch, I'm lost," I said, knowing he was driving.

"I'm empty and aching and I don't know why."

Counting the cars on the Turner Turnpike.

They've all come to look for America.

All come to look for America.

And while I am stealing other people's work, these words from Forest Gump resonate with me after watching dawn break morning after morning while on the road. When the sun came up, I couldn't tell where heaven stopped and Earth began.  Amen to these words, despite me not believing in a Christian God.

Monday, October 30, 2023

The trouble with my solo morning walks is that I start thinking about all my insecurities and realize I have a big dose of unhealthy paranoia about my relatiomships with other people. I also think I've lost touch with myself - this perhaps driven by my insecurities. There was something freeing about my recent roadtrip. I was away from the usual expectations from other people and the demands I put on myself. But even in that situation, I found myself questioning how often my brothers may have made decisions because of my presence. Camping vs. a hotel, long strenuous hikes vs. shorter moderate hikes, and restaurant meals vs. food items brought from home - to name a few. Sometimes I wish I could turn off my mind and stop looking for feelings in others that may not even exist. 

Also related to early morning walks - it's still dark when I leave.  Although the switch to standard time on Sunday may remedy that. And I would also like to report the ten turkeys hanging around Scheffler Park no longer seem to be there.  Nor have I spotted any deer in the neighborhood since returning from my road trip. I know they are out there somewhere.

Lastly, I am trying to decide if I will pass out candy tomorrow night or leave a bowl of candy out and put the kids on the honor system. Trick or treat, indeed.  

Saturday, October 28, 2023

This morning, I was vaccinated for the seventh time against Covid. This is over a three year period. And I obviously believe in the efficacy of vaccines and will continue to stick my arm out for whatever vaccinations are recommended.

After a run of warmish days, temps are on their way down. Long sleeves and long pants will once again become wardrobe staples. It's no secret that I do not like winter weather. I remember declaring after moving back to Hawaii in 2015 that I would never move to a cold weather state again. And yet here I am. I guess love for family trumps tropical weather.

I smiled at posts from a landscaper friend of ours who is looking for people to foster plants over the winter. As I look around my house. I see at least nine rescue plants from our patio, some with their very own grow lights. Here's to their survival till Spring.

Thursday, October 25, 2023

I've slipped back to what I call normality - I returned to the rec building yesterday, did several loads of laundry, vacuumed, paid bills, fussed with the plants that are wintering over in our family room, and the list and life goes on. 

This morning I drove to Saline to get a haircut. And I found myself critiquing my driving history.  I used to be comfortable driving and made solo work trips to many Michigan cities, including downtown Detroit.  Additionally, I drove to Chicago by myself to pick-up or drop off Sean when he was a student, and later made other trips on my own. I was able to back into tight parking spaces in Internet 2's garage. And now I need help reversing out of my own driveway - my confidence flagging after a couple of over corrections that resulted in car damage.  I believe the reason for my decline is simple - I don't drive much anymore and no longer have my own vehicle.  Retirement means two cars are no longer a necessity. The only times I drive are to medical and other appointments and occasionally to shop.  

Michael and I walked at Gallup Park this afternoon. My hope was to photograph fall colors. I was surprised that there wasn't as much color as I expected. Nevertheless, I enjoyed spending time with Michael and we managed to walk three miles.

Tuesday, October 24, 2023

I arrived home shortly after 5pm last night. Fortunately, the large pile of "stuff" that I have carried around with me the past three weeks I have been away is slowly being sorted out. I am on my thrid load of laundry - my trip clothing plus my usual sheets and towels. I plan to tackle mail, bills, and other paperwork later.  And I hope to get to my photos later this week.

We travelled 4,390 miles. We touched eleven states: Michigan, Indiana, Illinois, Missouri, Oklahoma, Texas, New Mexico, Arizona, Utah, Colorado, and Kansas. In addition to viewing the annular eclipse in Midland TX, we visited the following National, Tribal, and State parks, plus a few other sites.  These twelve sites includes: Carlsbad Caverns National Park, Guadalupe Mountains National Park, White Sands National Park, Pistachioland, Three Rivers Petroglyph Site, Carrizozo Volcanic Field, Very Large Array, Canyon de Chelly National Park, Monument Valley Navajo Tribal Monument, Gooseneck State Park, Mesa Verde National Park, and Great Sand Dunes National Park. Each place was uniquely different and all had a "wow" factor.  It was an awesome experience.

Sunday, October 22, 2023

We are currently in Macon, MO at a Super 8. I was pleasantly surprised to find the hotel wifi actually works and I don't have to use the hot spot on my phone.  Last night's Day's Inn was pricier and less nice. I also had an issue with the toilet - the chain to the flapper had come off and I wasn't able to reconnect it.  It was a little unpleasant sticking my hand in the toilet tank to flush. We should be home tomorrow.

Today's drive took us through portions of Colorado, Kansas, and Missouri. A lot of pastures, farms and prairie land. If we weren't on a beeline home, there have been some interesting places along the way.  Butch seemed interested in the site of the Massacre of Sand Creek, for example. We also passed through a lot of small towns that had interesting looking small museums. And I've enjoyed reading the historical markers at some of the rest stops.

I am looking forward to sleeping in my own bed tomorrow night and not having to dig through my suitcase for something semi-clean to wear.

Saturday, October 21, 2023

It was a cold overnight despite sleeping in a down sleeping bag with a sweatshirt on. On my trip to the restroom this morning, I encountered deer along the path. They looked a little leery of me but did not run away despite me being only about ten feet away. I suspect they are used to the people camping on their turf.

Butch, Joe, and I met in a Durango city park which was along the route to split up and say our goodbyes. After a stiff Pedit hug we went our separate ways. Butch and I headed to Great Sand Dunes National Park . My understanding is that wind and water moved the sand from the San Juan Mountains into what was once a huge lake covering a valley floor. The dunes span an impressive 330 square miles. This was officially the last National Park we planned to visit.

Butch and I are now making our way home. We are currently at a Day's Inn in Lamar. CO. The terrain is flat again after a day of driving through  the mountains.

Friday, October 20, 2023

Travel fatigue has finally started to catch up with me. I have been away from home since October 2nd. I was in Chicago eight days and on the road another ten days. I'll have to ask Butch how many miles we have traveled. I have no regrets. It's been a wonderful trip with stops at several incredible National and Tribal parks, in addtion to an annular eclipse - the motivation for this trip. I don't see myself ever getting another opportunity to do something like this again in my lifetime. A big thanks to Butch and Joe for making this happen. And also an especially big thank you to Michael for not only holding down the fort, but also being gracious about my adventure. I believe it is hard to be the one left behind.

This morning, we took our time leaving Monument Valley. Photographs of the buttes at first light were beautiful. And an added bonus is that they were mostly taken from the porch of the cabin we were staying in.

Our next destination was Gooseneck State Park in Utah. This small park boasts a view of the San Juan River in a deep canyon.

From there we headed to Mesa Verde National Park in Colorado. Of note for me is that suddenly there were trees on the landscape. Beautiful golden yellow leaf aspens added a punch of color to the pine trees along the route. We found a campsite at Mesa Verde and after setting up camp drove a big loop around the Park that offered views of Pueblo cliff dwellings. Mesa Verde National Park was created in 1906 to preserve the archeological heritage of the Ancestral Pueblo people both atop the mesas and the cliff dwellings below. I found the Park very interesting and appreciated this learning opportunity.

Tomorrow is our last day of travelling as a group. Butch and I are headed to the Great Sand Dunes National Park and then northeast to Michigan. Joe plans to head south to Albuguerque and then east on I40 to North Carolina. It will be hard to say goodbye to Joe.

Thursday, October 19, 2023

We woke up early to watch the sunrise at Canyon de Chelly. Also, Joe was interested in photographing Spider Rock, which was on the south rim of the canyon. I took a few panoramic photos of the canyon's rim just as it started to get light that had a soft pastel look that I really liked. On our way back to our hotel in Chinle, we stopped at one of the overlooks and could see Navajo ruins on the ledges on the sides of the canyon. There were also two pick-up trucks in the parking lot selling jewelry and pottery. I purchased a few bracelets from the woman selling jewelry and Butch purchased a pottery piece from the other. Each woman trash-talked the other. The woman selling pottery told Butch that her aunt, who was selling jewelry, got all her pieces from China. And the woman I purchased the bracelets from told me her niece didn't make the pottery as claimed. She bought it cheap elsewhere and was selling it at double what she paid for it. I couldn't help but smile as I suspect there was probably an element of truth in each woman's claims.

After checking out of our hotel, we headed to Monument Valley Navajo Tribal Park. We drove a 17 mile loop to view towering rock formations. Fragile pinnacles of rock are surrounded by miles of mesas, buttes, sagebrush, and junipers. I can understand why this area is one of the most photographed sites on earth.  After investigating the cost to tent camp or rent space to sleep in our cars, we decided to rent one of their cabins overlooking the park. Definitely, a room with a view. Joe spent some time photographing at sunset and mentioned perhaps shooting star trails later.

I look forward to whatever tomorrow brings...

Wednesday, October 18, 2023

I was up early this morning and walked about a mile round trip to take a shower in the RV section of the campground and discovered the RVers not only had showers, they had flush toilets in a restroom with electricity. And the tenters had a pit toilet with no electricity, which was a bit creepy the two times I shuffled to the toilet in the middle of the night with my flashlight.  After getting packed up, Joe, Butch and I went on a short hike through the lava field, very reminiscent of the black lava formations in Hawaii.

From the Carrizozo Volcanic Field , we headed to the Very Large Array (VLA). The VLA is run by the National Radio Astronomy Observatory and is the most adaptable, hardest working telescope in the world (according to their brochure). It's a fascinating place to visit and has an informative self-guided walking tour. There are 27 huge antennas gathering radio waves traveling through distant space from objects such as galaxies, black holes, and baby stars. A portion of the movie, Contact, starring Jodie Foster was filmed there and I remembered shots of her walking through the large antennas.

From there, we headed northwest toward Monument Valley Navajo Tribal Park.  We got as far as Chinle, AZ. I believe we will be getting up early tomorrow morning to watch the sunrise at Canyon de Chelly.

Tuesday, October 17, 2023

White Sands National Park was on today's agenda. There were miles and miles of great wave-like dunes of gypsum sand covering 275 square miles of desert.  We went on a one mile nature walk through the dunes. Despite the heat of the day, the sand was cool enough to walk on barefoot. Several children were sliding down the dunes using saucer sleds. It was eerie and beautiful looking out at the stretch of white sand with mountains in the distance.

Following White Sands National Park, we stopped at McGinn's Pistachioland in Alamogordo. They have a 30 ft tall pistachio statue. I purchased a few tee shorts for Rose and Porter. 

We then headed to Three Rivers Petroglyph site, which had several rock croppings covered in petroglyphs. The rock carvings are over 600 years old and over 20,000 have been identified in the area. Another climb uphill in the heat and several photos later...

Our final stop today was the Carrizozo Volcanic Field, which we ended up camping at. By the time we found a camping site and got registered, night fell so we will probably do some exploring tomorrow morning.  Amenities in the tent area are a pit toilet and a water pump. There is a building with running water and showers in the RV section, which I personally though was a little unfair but so be it. At $7/night for a tent spot, I shouldn't complain.

Monday, October 16, 2023

Hiking anyone? Today we went to Guadalupe Mountains National Park in Texas. I went on a short hike on my own while Butch and Joe headed to Guadalupe Peak, a strenuous 8.4 mile roundtrip trail with a 3,000 foot elevation gain. They ended up turning back and managed to return to to the parking lot shortly before I finished my hike. As I came off the trailhead, the ranger informed me that my party was waiting for me. And I couldn't help laughing a little. We headed to the Frijole Ranch and hiked the Smith Spring trail which was described as a moderate 2.3 mile loop. The first mile plus was uphill along a canyon wall and I have to admit it was a tough slow haul for me. I was out of breath and my heart rate was in the 130 range.  And I thought, who is laughing now? Fortunately once you reached the spring it was pretty much downhill on the other side of the canyon back to the trailhead. There was a lot of plant varieties, including cacti. The only wildlife I saw was one small lizard, some insects, and birds.

Tomorrow we are headed north to White Sands National Park. I think the plan from there is to start heading northwest in the general direction of Monument Valley, with stops at sites of interest along the way.

Sunday, October 15, 2023  

Today's adventure took us to Carlsbad Caverns. We split up at the cave entrance so that we could each proceed at our own pace. The hike down to the Big Room is 1.25 miles long and descends 750 feet, following a dimly lit and often steep and narrow trail. My toes were sore from my feet sliding to the front of my shoes. The rock formations on the way down and in the Big Room were amazing. Well worth the long walk. Fortunately, there was an elevator at the bottom to take you back up to the surface.

We are staying at a Motel 6 for the next few days, a far cry from the Marriott we stayed at in Midland. That said, it's clean and adequate. Tomorrow, we are heading to Guadalupe National Park, so back to Texas  for a day. Butch mentioned that the high point in Texas is there but I don't know if he will attempt to hike to it. I would hate, however, for this to be a missed opportunity for him.

Saturday, October 14, 2023   ECLIPSE Day!

Butch, Joe, and I headed to a park adjacent to Blakemore Planetarium this morning at 5:30am to set up Joe's telecope and cameras. It was still dark out and Joe began the process of lining up his equipment wearing a headlamp. Over the next few hours, several more tripods with telescopes and cameras dotted the area surrounding us, mostly manned by either middle aged or elderly men. Spectators also began arriving. The partial eclipse began at 10:18am - the edge of the moon touched the edge of the sun. At 11:43am, annularity began with the sun forming a ring around the moon. And at 11:45am, maximum annularity was reached. And the crowd cheered and clapped. It was a beautiful moment visually. And you couldn't help but feel a sense of humanity at the number of people who gathered in spots along the eclipse path to witness this event. And finally at 1:22pm the eclipse ended with the edge of the moon leaving the edge of the sun. It was well worth the drive and I can't thank Joe enough for including Butch and me on this adventure.  I am looking forward to seeing the photo's Joe took. And as an aside, I looked at my brothers and later myself in the mirror and saw three tired sun-burned faces. 

And if you were wondering, Mara was able to take some wonderful photos of the eclipse using the filter Joe made her. She is headed to Big Bend National Park next and then east to return home.

We are headed to Carlsbad Caverns tomorrow and will be staying in the Carlbad area two nights. Stay tuned.

Friday, October 13, 2023

It's Friday the 13th and I am in room 313 at the hotel. I sense a trend.

Yesterday's drive (591 miles) was another long day.  As we entered Texas, there were miles of ghostly looking white wind turbines in the distance fronted by miles of cotton fields. And something you don't see everyday - oil rigs with wind farms behind them. I am glad, however, to see Texas pursuing clean energy. We passed one large solar panel installation as well. 

Yesterday afternoon, we met Joe at Lake Sweetwater Municipal Park, which was about 110 miles from our final destination. Overnight camping was a bit rustic. Campground did have a bathroom but it was covered in bugs that were attracted to the lights. You had to wipe bugs off the toilet seat to use the toilet and the sink had a thick layer of insects in the basin. Temps were in the 90's so it was uncomfortable sleeping weather till about midnight, when temps started to cool. 

We stopped at Blakemore Planetarium in Midland this morning to check out tomorrow's planned eclipse viewing site. Others from several states that were also planning to set up telescopes were doing the same, so we plan to leave early tomorrow morning. I am sure they will be doing the same. I did meet an interesting woman name Mara (from the Boston area) who was travelling alone and had a set-up in the back of her van. She is travelling and living in her van, reminiscent of the movie Nomadland.  I found myself feeling a bit envious at her sense of adventure. She apparently used to be an avid hiker and kayaker. She mentioned hiking the Appalachian Trail among other places. And said she's been around the world twice. And because life does not always play fair, she now has a debillitating disease that limits her mobility. I did not ask her what it is and she didn't share. She says she can only manage about 200 miles of driving a day and now spends a lot of time seated. Fortunately she can walk short distances. Joe made a solar filter for her camera lens and she pointed out how lucky I am to have such a considerate brother. And I thought yup, I do have some wonderful brothers.

Wednesday, October 11, 2023

A sleepless night of listening to Porter scream until nearly 2am this morning. I'm not sure why although I did hear her yell, I want Bluey, and then later I believe, I want Mickey. It took a lot of will power on my part to not intervene.  Then I was up at 4:30am getting dressed and finalizing packing. I am certainly not feeling well rested at all. I received notice shortly after 1:30am that Butch was leaving his house so expect him shortly. It is 5:51 am. 

Much later...   We are at the Oasis Hotel in Springfield, MO. It was a Howard Johson in a former life and is really quite nice for a small town hotel. I believe that Butch drove about 680 miles today. A long day of driving for him.  I found the fields of wind turbines lining I55 for several miles a bit mesmerizing. And I was happy to capture a few photos of the Arch in St. Louis from the expressway as we passed by.

Tomorrow will bring more driving - with 700 miles to go we hope to be within 3-4 hours of Midland Friday morning. Butch is in contact with Joe to coordinate a time and place to meet. I will be interested to know where Joe ended up tonight. I think that he, like Butch, is pretty driven to get to Midland early enough to get the lay of the land for optimal set-up for eclipse viewing on Saturday. And I am feeling pretty lucky to be included on this adventure.

Tuesday, October 10, 2023

Butch decided to wait until tomorrow to head to Chicago so a long day of driving for him. I am alone today at Sean and Rose's house. Porter returned to daycare and Rose and Sean are working from Sean's office at Four Star. I walked to the grocery store and picked up a few snacks for the roadtrip. I also walked a few miles roundtrip to check out a house on Berenice. Having a lot of time on my hands, I put away Porter's toys and vacuumed. I also cleaned the kitchen. Pro cleaning tip - if you can't find a mop, two diapers, absorbent side out placed on your feet works pretty well with dish soap and water. Kitchen floor looks great.  Rose had a few loads of laundry in queue in the basement, so I've tackled them as well.  Housework aside, I've also polished off the remains of a bag of chips and some chocolate covered pretzels. 

I personally still need to shower, run a small load of laundry, and repack for tomorrows departure. The adventure begins soon.

Monday, October 9, 2023  Happy Indigenous People Day!

Clunk, clunk, clunk, the sound of Porter walking across the room in her cast. Despite being fairly new to walking, Porter is gamely getting around on two feet, one of which is encased in a clunky hard cast. We went to the Shedd Aquarium today and she clomped her way through several exhibit halls. I've realized she is only good for about an hour before she starts getting tired and dare I say cranky. On the way home from Shedd, we stopped at a casual chicken restaurant called Roost in Roscoe Village for lunch. If you like fried chicken, biscuits with gravy, or mac & cheese, you'd enjoy this place. And I was a bit surprised that they had a liquor license complete with a cocktail menu of drink specials. I did not imbibe.

Despite a tiring busy morning at the aquarium, Porter refused to nap this afternoon. This is me being petty, but on Friday Rose chided me for not getting her down for her nap so I found today's nap failure a bit ironic.  The atmosphere in the house has been a bit tense at times as Sean and Rose cope with Porter's broken leg, while trying to meet work and other obligations. And while my being here has allowed them to get some work done and get some needed sleep, I can't help but feel that having an extra person in the house for several days has also caused some stress. Porter returns to daycare tomorrow, which should help.

Interestingly, Porter has received puzzles, sticker books, and a stuffed bear from Sean and Rose's wonderful friends. The power of a picture of a two-year-old with a cast. And I've spent hours with her coloring, putting together puzzles, playing computer games, and peeling stickers off sticker sheets. 

Joe let Butch and me know today that we are headed to Midland, TX for the eclipse. Butch will be picking me up in Chicago. I am not sure if he plans to arrive tomorrow or is doing some crazy early morning drive to Chicago on Wednesday. Sean and Rose are talking about dinner at Aloha Eats if he arrives tomorrow.  I enjoy his company, so it will be nice to see him and hit the road.

Sunday, October 8, 2023

Sean took me to see the Barbie movie this afternoon. Popcorn and a small soda: $21. Senior matinee ticket: $7.95.  Enjoyed the movie's message and humor. I'm a Barbie girl in a Barbie world. Life in plastic, it's fantastic.

Cooler temps prevail and I find myself wishing for another blanket at night. I have been sleeping with my flannel shirt and socks on and still feel cold.  

Saturday, October 7, 2023

Rose is enjoying a day out today - her writing group met this morning and she attended a baby shower this afternoon. Sean and I are home with Porter. This morning we went to a couple of open houses and the grocery store, where Porter talked me into buying her a small bag of "Ms" (M&Ms). Plus give her a horsey ride around the store. Apparently I am an easy mark. And she still calls me grandpa. The one time she called me grandma was only because she had just heard her Mom say grandma.

This afternoon, I went to a third open house, that was obviously a flip. All new everything but they did a nice job. And I thought, I could live here. Moving is something that may never happen, however. We like our house and living in Ann Arbor.

Thursday, October 5, 2023

Porter spent the morning at Rush Hospital Pediatrics in south Chicago. The xray revealed cracks in her fibula and tibia rather than breaks, which was good news. She came home with a purple cast, the color her choice, and a walking boot. She should be able to have her cast removed in three weeks. Just in time to fit into her Halloween costume. So far she has been unwilling to put any weight on her leg. Which is understandable after listening to all the adults in the house cautioning her not to this past week. As one of those adults, however, it is a relief to no longer worry about her doing so. These events have left her very emotional. The slightest frustration brings her to tears. We are all just doing our best to carry on and give her a lot of leeway.

I feel some frustration at being housebound this past week. My activity routine has completely come to a halt. I had a glimmer of hope that Porter would want to go to the park, etc. and I would at least get a walk in but she is clinging to the comfort and familiarity at home. And I get it. I thought about heading home this weekend but Sean mentioned how helpful it's been for him and Rose with me being here these past few days. Also daycare is closed Monday for Indigenous People's Day.  And she called me Grandma today and I feel like it's the first time and my heart melted a little.

Fingers are crossed that we get to sleep tonight. Porter was up at about 3-4am this morning, which was a vast improvement over the prior night. She spent some time on my bed watching videos on my laptop before we headed downstairs around 6am to her toys and other entertainment sources. After reading several books to her, I did manage to get her to nap this afternoon. But she is currently resisting all efforts to put her to bed tonight.  Life with a two-year-old...

Wednesday, October 4, 2023

A sleepness night, an unhappy two-year old, tired parents - not a good combination. At 6:30 am this morning, Porter crawled on my lap, laid down, and finally closed her eyes. I could feel her little body surrender after a long night of tears and fighting sleep. I eventually eased her off my lap and positioned her on the couch so she could stretch out. And I find myself wondering if putting a small blanket on her will wake her.  I took a turn with her at about 2 am and she was quite cranky - the slightest mention of sleep would set her off. She was diligently placing stickers of dogs, cats, fish, and other pets in a pet care clinic diorama. I hoped when she said she was finished it would lead to sleep. But Sean arrived for a turn with her and the cycle of resistance resumed. I can't help but wonder if her little body and mind are struggling because she really does not have the context to understand her injury. My primary job during this ordeal is to keep her from putting weight on her leg and comfort and entertain her. I've not always been successful but she's worth the effort and lack of sleep. This a a time to be extra patient and compassionate.

It's now about 8:15am and Michael is heading back to AA soon. I am realizing it will be two to three weeks before I see him again.

Tuesday, October 3, 2023

It breaks my heart to see Porter's frustration with her broken leg - she's uncomforable and has lost just enough mobility to make getting around complicated. If she's on the floor, she moves around by crawling. But is she's on the couch or a chair, she is not allowed to get down on her own over fears she will put weight on her broken leg. It reminds me a little of when I broke my leg and was trying to use crutches to manuever around the house. Not being able to carry things while caring for a 4-year old was challenging. And I found myself angry occasionally at my situation. But at least I understood what was going on. I don't think it all makes sense to her.  So I am here in Chigaco, doing the best I can to give her parents a break by entertaining her and watching her movements to make sure she doesn't attempt to stand. I'm certain there is an old Chinese proverb that applies to this situation - just haven't figured it out yet.

Monday, October 2, 2023

Sean called me yesterday morning to let me know that Porter broke her leg walking down the stairs. Urgent care splinted her leg but she needs to have a cast put on. And Rose hasn't been able to find an appointment with a pediatric ortho doctor in the Chicago area. Which is unbelievable to me. She was finally able to make an appointment in the suburbs - more than an hour's drive each way. I find myself disappointed with the status of healthcare in America. It shouldn't be this difficult to find an ortho doctor/clinic in a city the size of Chicago to put a cast on a two-year old child.

On a more humorous note, I saw two billboards on the way to Chicago that made me smile. One said More than a Thousand Men Die Daily From Stubborness. The second said Save Food, Eat Your Roommates's Leftovers.  

And one more very brief moment in my life series, The Summer I Turned Pretty. In 1964, our family moved from North Platte, NE to Detroit, MI. On the way to Detroit, my father stopped at Warren Dunes State Park for a few nights. Thirteen year old me had lived in a small farming town for four years and was shy and awkward. So I was a bit awe struck by a group of teens, a few playing guitars, at the base of a sand dune, welcoming me to join them. Another one of life's sweet moments in my young life.

Saturday, September 30, 2023

The basement toilet has been gurgling for days whenever anyone flushed upstairs. I decided to do a load of laundry this morning and the water from the washer backed up through the sewer drain in the basement. And Michael is expressing regrets for not calling the plumber earlier, before this happened. This seems to be an ongoing issue at our house and it makes me wonder what's going on in the sewer pipe out to the main drain. And I would dearly love a shower.

I have gone from trying to winter over a few pots of succulents to trying to save several tropical plants this year. I invested in another grow lamp. I believe I have eight plants that will be moving in with us at the first frost. And I feel ready.

Wednesday, September 27, 2023

This morning's wildlife sightings include two deer running across the street in the creek area behind Forestbrooke Pool, maybe headed to Sylvan Park. And the same gaggle of ten turkeys that I've seen multiple times in the Scheffler Park area. This morning they were crossing Edgewood and holding up traffic. There always seems to be at least one that just comes to a stop and hangs out for a few minutes in the middle of the street.

I am making progress on my vaccines. Michael and I both got the RSV vaccine on Monday and I made appointments to get the Covid booster at the end of October.

I've started assembling items like suntan spray, bug repellent, soap, shampoo, sewing kit,  etc for our upcoming trip. I need to ask Butch if he has a first aid kit and find out what he may be bringing so we don't have tons of duplicates.  Toilet paper, anyone?

Tuesday, September 26, 2023

Another flashback moment. When I was a teenager, we lived in a small ranch house in Redford. There was a formica table in the kitchen with a couple of chairs. There was a box radio on the table. I sometimes did my homework there and listened to music. It wouldn't surprise me if this scene was repeated in many households back in the sixties. Our very own Norman Rockwell scene. These days, I suspect kitchen islands have replaced the formica tables of old.

It hit me today that the eclipse roadtrip is only a few weeks away. And I should probably start thinking about what I might need to bring. I have started a pile of camping gear and I did buy a six-pack of underwear yesterday so I suppose that's a start. I don't want to underpack but I don't want to overpack either. Room in the vehicles may be tight.

There is a definite chill in the air today.

Monday, September 25, 2023

There is a Prime series called The Summer I Turned Pretty and I realized I experienced something similar the summer before 10th grade. I was on the cusp of turning fourteen years old. Our family had moved to Redford, Michigan that summer after living in Nebraska. It was 1964. And I found myself in the familiar role of older sister and caretaker to my many younger siblings. As a female, I was fair game for taunting by my older brother and doing odd chores for my father like ironing his uniforms, sewing on patches, and making him toast every evening. My mother was overwhelmed, and I often found myself helping with meal prep and clean-up. One August day, my aunt, who I sometimes babysat for asked me if I would like to go to Bay City to visit family with her and I jumped on the opportunity to get away for a few days. My aunt recruited her son, my cousin Byrnie, to drive me. He was a student at Michigan State and was living in East Lansing. I sometimes slept in his room when I babysat overnight and could smell the light scent of his aftershave on his pillow. My mother dropped me off at my aunt's house and there he was in person - my handsome, smart, and very much older cousin. But here's the thing, he treated me respectfully. Not like some kid he was asked to drive somewhere. He showed me his record collection and played one of Bob Dylan albums to see what I thought of him. He mentioned having to drive to East Lansing first before heading to Bay City. Once we arrived on campus, he took me to my first record store and introduced me to his friends. For the first time in my life I felt like a cute teenage girl not just an appendage of my family. So thank you, cousin Byrnie, for helping me find myself and treating me like a person. You changed my perception of me. I'll save my Bay City experience for another time.

Saturday, September 22, 2023

Michael and I made a dash to Oval Beach yesterday, on Michigan's west coast. It's a 2.5-3 hour drive depending on potty breaks. We enjoyed three hours of water, sand, and sun - a perfect beach day and fitting last day of summer. The only drawback were the several fly bites I received, making me wish I had thought to bring some bug spray.  Following the beach, we ate an early dinner at the Mermaid. They have a wonderful outdoor seating area that overlooks the docks on the Kalamazoo River. It's a peaceful place to sit, enjoy a cocktail, and watch boats out on the water.  We also discovered our friend, John, was in Douglas. He invited us over to tour his latest project house. Walking around his home and gardens, I was filled with home envy. He is a wonderful craftsman and all his home renovations reflect his simple clean lines and sense of style. Following our visit with John, we headed back to Ann Arbor. We arrived home shortly before 9pm. So a very full day, especially for Michael who did all the driving and mimicked Porter by proclaiming "I did it!" when we pulled into our driveway.

Thursday, September 21, 2023

This morning's wildlife count includes one deer spotted at the creek behind Forestbrook Pool and ten turkeys spotted at Scheffler Park, which I suspect are the same ones I've walked by in the past. They don't seem to be anxious when I'm in their "space" so I suspect they are getting comfortable around humans, which may not be a good thing. This has made me think about all the deer I've spotted grazing in Joe's neighborhood early morning.

I plan to look into getting Covid and RSV vaccinations before October's road trip. I am thinking maybe at CVS, because surprisingly neither vaccine is currently being offered at Michigan Medicine. 

I don't have much on my agenda today other than a date with my Swifter Wet. The kitchen and bathroom floors could use a cleaning. And on that note, I also have a date with the NYT crossword puzzle. 

Wednesday, September 20, 2023

Michael and I headed to Detroit this morning for the Auto Show. It's evident we are not the demographic car manufacturers/dealers are targetting. Most of the models on display were larger vehicles like trucks, jeeps, SUVs, and ATVs with price tags in the $35K plus range. There were a few smaller vehicles, but not many.  We checked out the Civic Hatchback, Corolla Hatchback, and a KIA sedan. With the exception of the KIA, prices were close to $30K. I am aware cars cost more these days but I still gasped a little.  And as much as I enjoy getting out of the house, if larger vehicles are the trend going forward at the Detroit Auto Show, I don't believe I will be attending again. Total cost to attend the show: $67 (tickets  $24, parking $20, lunch on site $23).

We are enjoying a spell of warmer weather days. Temps have been in the 70's most afternoons this week. I enjoyed a few hours reading on our patio this afternoon and the sun felt nice.

Tuesday, September 19, 2023

I saw the turkeys again this morning while I was walking to the rec building. I waited and waited and waited as they slowly made their way across a street. Butch advised me that the term rafter applies to domesticated turkeys, not wild turkeys. Something about them roosting in rafters? I honestly don't know what the correct terminology is as a person travelling on a raft is a rafter too. 

While I was working out in the weight room, I looked around and noticed there was a lot of racial diversity in the room. One Caucasian (me), two Blacks, one Asian, and one I couldn't identify. Maybe mixed race. This resulted in me thinking about people who are mixed race and how they may identify. Michael is an example of this - he's half Chinese and half Caucasian. When he's filling out a form that only allows you to select one box, he becomes an Other. In my mind, he doesn't identify as much by his racial make-up as much as where he is from - he's that guy from Hawaii.  When people ask me where I grew up, I usually respond that I grew up an army brat, as if that explains everything.

Dinner at the Gandy Dancer is no longer the special occasion experience that I used to associate with them. And this is not because they missed the notation on my reservation that is was my birthday. There is more to a special occasion than a free dessert.  Here's my assessment. The food was well prepared and plated but lacked pizzaz flavor-wise. Dare I say the food was a little boring. But then I think a lot of people prefer their food a little bland (thinking of my father, for example). Ditto on the server. Our server was fine but there was never a "wow" moment where we felt that he really cared about our dining experience.  The best thing I can say about the Gandy is its location in a beautiful historic old train station next to railroad tracks. In comparison, I used to love eating at Roy's when we lived in Hawaii. Even if I wasn't there to celebrate a special occasion, Roy's consistently made me feel like it was a special occasion with their service and food quality.  And now a little backtracking. I enjoyed my evening out last night with people I love. Thanks for being there.

Monday, September 18, 2023

I believe Saturday's family get-together was a success. We had plenty of good food and good company and people seemed to be relaxed and enjoying themselves. All the prep was worth it. Also, it was such a joy to have Sean, Rose, and Porter here.  Porter makes me smile and I love when she plants her body on mine to watch TV or just because.  We were both up before daylight yesterday morning and she immediately looked  through the sliding glass doors at our still dark back patio and announced, "I want to go outside." And if I had access to some warmer clothes and shoes for her, I would have respionded "Me too."  I did not like saying no to a pre-dawn adventure with a two year old.

I started my birthday this morning by going to the dentist for a cleanig. What can I say, it just happened to get scheduled today. This was followed by a walk at Matthaei Botanical Garden with Michael. It was a bit chilly and wet in spots, but it was nice looking at plants and trees and seeing touches of yellow and red leaves - shades of an autumn to come.

Tonight, Michael and I are meeting Butch and April for dinner at the Gandy Dancer.  I plan to wear an outfit my friend Elaine  talked me into buying when I was in Hawaii in June. I am looking forward to a nice dinner, where my only responsibility is to eat and enjoy myself. 

Michael mentioned that normally we are in Saugatuck this time of year. I am not sure if that is true, but I certainly would have been game to go if he had said it was something he'd like to do. Dinner on the dock of the Mermaid. Yes, please...  Maybe next year.

Friday, September 15, 2023

I saw a rafter of turkeys (had to look this word up) this morning at Scheffler Park on my way to the rec building. I was slightly surprised. I say slightly because I've seen turkeys in the neighborhood before.

I spent hours today prepping for tomorrow's get-together. Lots of cooking, chopping,assembling, and clean-up but I have two large trays of enchiladas set to go in the oven tomorrow and taco meat that just needs to be heated up. I still need to make guac, beans, and rice and cut tomatoes and lettuce. I plan to head to Sam's tomorrow morning for a dessert. Throwing a party is a lot of work.

And some good news, our car is finally home again all freshly painted and repaired.

Thursday, September 14, 2023

Grocery shopping is done thanks to two trips out.  I walked to Krogers this morning and focused on what I needed to begin meal prep tomorrow, taking into account how much I could carry.  Butch offered to take me to the market this afternoon and I was able to pick up some heavier bulky items for Sean, Rose, and Porter's visit - Diet Coke, LaCroix, applesauce packets, oatmeal packets and whole milk.  

I also washed and put clean linens on beds - again in preparation for the Chicago Dove's visit. So I am feeling pretty good about Saturday's get-together. I plan to prep the enchiladas and taco meat tomorrow and on Saturday prep all the taco toppings and make the beans, rice and guacamole.  I am thinking about going to Sam's Club Saturday morning to pick up a dessert. So a lot going on but I feel like I have a plan. My reward is just getting to spend some time with family members I don't see often enough.

Life goes on...

Wednesday, September 13, 2023

Joe reacted to yesterday's post with a list of what vaccines he believes we received that included Sabine small pox revax, TINE, and Typhoid and Typhus boosters. 

I discovered a new series to binge on called You (on Netflix). It brings a little humor to the art of being a serial killer.  The main character is oddly appealing despite being creepily obsessive and violent. Definitely my kind of show as I recall the series, Dexter, for example.

I am planning an end of summer get together on Saturday as part of my birthday weekend. I plan to make the American version of Mexican themed food and drinks. Tacos, enchiladas, beans, and margaritas are on the menu. I am hoping we have our car back by Friday as I have some last minute party shopping to do. I always hate bothering Butch because he already does so much for me.  I have only had a few people RSVP but got a big surprise when Sean and Rose said they planned to come, which means I will get to spend time with Porter. This is the best birthday weekend gift ever!  

Tuesday, September 12, 2023

With the recent talk about flu, covid, and RSV vaccinations, I started to think about all the vaccines we used to get as military kids when we'd relocate to a new place. In retrospect, the vaccines we received for tropical Hawaii make me smile a little given that is part of the USA. I wish I could remember which ones we recieved. I may look for the little yellow vaccination booklet I used to have for verification. In my memory, we were not allowed to swim in chlorinated pools for three days following one of the shots. Maybe a TB test?  But I just googled to see if this is true and the site said you can swim if desired. But maybe back in the 60's, they erred on the side of caution.  Regardless, I do plan on getting whatever vaccinations are available to me. Bring them on.

I took a walk through the neighborhood this morning and tried to be more conscious of what hurts. Most of my aches and pains are mild enough to ignore but this is my list: mild sciatic pain on left side radiating down to my knee area; left side of right foot and big toe felt sore with some pain radiating up my leg, and left knee pain on the bottom right side.  I believe right foot/leg pain may be related to my broken ankle - there are visible bone spurs in the injured area and I would not be surprised if arthritis has developed. I also experience some numbness in fingers and toes on the right side of body. I believe this is related to a pinched nerve (C5-C6).   And I am sure my older sibs will relate to this list.  I actually reduced my walking mileage about five years ago while in Hawaii from 5-8 miles to 3-5 miles because I realized the longer distances were exasperating my pain. I am hopeful that my health will continue to allow me to walk and workout for several more years.

Michael just purchased an EcoFlow portable power station to give us some short-term relief in the event of a power outage. The alternative was buying a generator, which are noisier and require trips to a gas station.  We are not sure if it was the right  decision but at least it is something and will keep the fridge running temporarily.

Monday, September 11, 2023

Much to my shame and a bit of irony, as I pulled out of our driveway to take the car to get damage repaired from my former mishap reversing out of the same driveway, I veered off the driveway and ran over the end of a plexiglass cover our neighbor had placed on their basement egress window. It's cracked and broken. Completely unacceptable and very careless. I am not sure what is wrong with me.  I'm losing my confidence and am feeling sensitive about this. It's almost like the more I try, the worse I reverse. May the force be with me. No try, just do. I've apologized to our neighbor, who graciously said he's not worried about it. I plan to replace the plexglass, however.  

Saturday, September 9, 2023

Michael and I got our flu vaccinations this morning. I am hoping Michigan Med gets the latest Covid 19 vaccine before the end of September as I'd like to get it before travelling again.

I spoke to Kathy this morning and realized when we hung up that it is still unknown whether she will be able to travel to Michigan in a few weeks. I have a feeling it may be a no and while it's disappointing I do get that as Hal's caregiver, she's in a difficult situation. It's ironic that also as Hal's caregiver she is exhausted and could really use a break.

We are scheduled to drop our car off at the collision shop on Monday, so will be without our vehicle for a week. Our fridge and freezer are full so we should be fine grocery wise. And I remind myself that we are within walking distance of two grocery stores if we need milk or anything similar.

I'm caught up on my photo books. I started a second book that begins with my trip to Washington and added some cover artwork.

Cooler temps are here. Fall is in the air...

Thursday, September 7, 2023

Butch and I met today to talk about October's roadtrip. We decided on a departure date of 10/11 with stops in St Louis and Oklahoma City.  We are looking for hotels near these cities. Our final destination is either Alburquerque, NM or Midland, TX. Which will be Joe's call as he monitors weather conditions.  I have also been asked to look at maps to determine if there are any "sites" I want to see on the return trip. Monument Valley looks impressive but quite frankly I would be grateful to go almost anywhere. I am feeling a bit excited about this latest road adventure - my search for America.  And here are a few quotes for the road from Travels from Charley in Search of America. "Lord I wish I could go." "Don't you like it here?"  "Sure, it's all right, but I wish I could go." "You don't even know where I am going." "I don't care. I'd like to go anywhere."  And this one's for Butch, who likes to read historical markers.  "I am an avid reader of all signs, and I find that in the historical markers the prose of statehood reaches its glorious best, and most lyric. I have further established, at least to my own satisfaction, that those states with the shortest histories and the least workd-shaking events have the most historical markers."

I returned to Meri Lou Murray Recreation Center yesterday and was relieved that I didn't notice any detrimental effects from my three week break from weight training. Whew...

Monday, September 4, 2023

Yesterday's flight was uneventful other than I did get a pat down when going through TSA - despite finally getting pre-check status. I ended up having to wait for a female agent to arrive. I am wondering if the zippered pocket on my pants was the trigger as that is where the agent focused. Although I heard the screening agent say it was random.

It's good to be home and I am engaging in the usual activities of trying to get organized. I've unpacked and am doing laundry but still need to go through a pile of miscellaneous items and paperwork and put them away.  I also gained a few pounds while in Redmond. Too many meals out and not enough self control. Sigh...

This morning I went to REI to pick up a camping air mattress I ordered. The directions indicate it's inflated by pressing on an internal pump by hand but it didin't inflate much and I ended up blowing air into it by mouth. Not very efficient.

Today is the last day our community pool is open so Michael and I enjoyed a few hours in the pool and poolside this afternoon. With the pool closure, It feels like the last day of summer even though I know better.

Saturday, September 2, 2023

This morning I set off in search of the Sammamish Rowing Association Boathouse. The turn-off was a bit of a trek down a busy road but I did find the path that led to their boathouse, which by the way was a nice large facility. I felt a little awkward hanging out in their space but did manage to get a few photos that I sent to Michael. I then headed in the direction of Idylwood Park to look at Lake Sammamish, but it turned out to be farther away than anticipated. Instead, I took advantage of an open gate in a condo complex situated on the lake and took a quick look. And yes, I was trespassing on provate property. Including the return trip along the busy highway, I walked about 3.6 miles.

Following my walk, Ellen, Cat, and I went to the Redmond Farmer's Market. I purchased an ankle bracelet and a few other small crafty items  We then went to brunch at the Boathouse Bar & Grill in Kirkland, I am sensing a boathouse theme...   It is located on Lake Washinhton and Seattle's skyline is visible across the lake. It seemed like it would be a great place for dinner and drinks in the evening as it had outdoor waterfront seating.

This afternoon, Cat and I went to Redmond Pride in downtown Redmond. There were several booths either selling merchandise from LGBTQ+ artists or providing support information. I came home with a few gay pride rainbow bracelets, stickers, and pins.  I do not know if there is any significance to Cat attending this event - may be just something to do.

Everone is just chilling right now. I believe there is talk of ordering pizza for dinner.  I am nearly packed for tomorrow morning's early departure for the airport. I tried to pack in such a way that adding frozen Portugeuse sausage at the last minute won't be an issue.

And Happy Birthday wishes to Dad. You are not forgotten.

Friday, September 1, 2023

This morning I went to Marymoor Park, which is downhill from Ellen's home. I walked a path that followed the Sammamish River ending at Lake Sammamish.  The trail is well marked and traversed through mostly wooded areas. In addition to being labeled as an Audubon bird trail, it is also a dog off-leash path which I found a little incongruous. Once I reached the lake, I looped back to the park entrance on another trail that passed by several sports fields. A total of 4.28 miles were walked. Tomorrow morning, I hope to explore the other side of the river. I spotted a scull on that side of the river and I am curious to see what else may be in that area.

Following my walk, I had breakfast with Ellen and Cat at a Pancake House. Cat and I then took the bus to downtown Seattle. Our first stop was the Seattle Aquarium. I enjoyed viewing the many large fishtank displays - several with colorful coral and tropical fish. Following the aquarium, we ate a light lunch at the Crab Pot and then headed to Pike Place Market. And yes, I did stop to watch the famous fish toss. Despite, the market place being very crowded, perhaps due to it being the start of Labor Day weekend, It was fun to browse through the many booth displays. We then headed back to Redmond via the bus (which I'd highly recommend by the way).  Thanks to Cat for her excellent navigation skills and for treating me to the aquarium and lunch. This was an excellent day and a great way to start the first day of my birthday month. 

We had takeout from Taco Time for dinner. I believe tomorrow we are hanging around the Redmond area. Farmer's Market anyone?  It is also my last day in Washington. I return to Ann Arbor on Sunday.

Thursday, August 31, 2023

Ellen and I went to the Issaquah Cafe (in Issaquah) to meet Holly (cousin and Uncle Bern's daughter) for lunch. It was nice seeing her. The last time was probably 1965-1966 prior to our move to Hawaii, so it's been a long time. She mentioned she called dad 2-3 times yearly, which I thanked her for as I imagine he must have loved hearing from her. Uncle Bern lived with her in his final years. She is in the process of making arrangements to eventually move to Ajijic, Mexico, which I find interesting. I also find myself admiring her for her adventurous spirit. And she looked just as I imagined she would. A strong beautiful Pedit woman. I have a renewed interest in meeting the rest of the Pedit women and hearing their stories.

By the way, it's another grey day in Redmond.

Wednesday, August 30, 2023

The drive back to Redmond from Leavenworth this morning was through some beautiful mountain terrain. I regret not having an opportunity to take photos. There weren't many places, however, that Ellen felt comfortable pulling off the road so I could hop out. 

On the way to Leavenworth yesterday, we stopped at Snoqualmie Falls and ate lunch the Salish Lodge, where I ordered a $26 grilled cheese meal. The falls are worth visiting and easy to get to as they are just a short walk from the parking lot. Only $7 plus tax to park. It's not an inexpensive spot to park and have lunch, but I did manage to take a few photos.  

Leavenworth is an interesting little town that is very much geared toward attracting tourists. There was a section that was created to look like a Bavarian village with several shops and restaurants. We went to a German restaurant called the Baron Haus last night for dinner. I enjoyed a sausage combo plate with sauerkraut, red cabbage, and German potatoes. Ellen and I ended up not going to see the Sound of Music - it didn't start till 8pm and we were both tired. And the forecasted rain came down in torrents, so we dodged a bullet weather-wise by not going out.

I guess this is the hump day of my trip - the midway point. Tomorrow I meet Holly in Issaquah. Cat is taking Friday off. I am uncertain on plans. Saturday is my final day, then I am home again.  

Tuesday, August 29, 2023

Today, Ellen and I are traveling to the Bavarian Village of Leavenworth in the picturesque Cascade Mountains for an overnighter. Weather permitting, we will be attending a play tonight. If you guessed The Sound of Music, you are correct. My initial thoughts are that Leavenworth is to Washington as Frankenmuth is to Michigan.  I am just going with the flow this trip. And it's another gray day - this time with some rain as well.

Ellen mentioned this morning that my sense of humor reminds me of her dad's. I am hoping that's a compliment. I believe I could be decribed as having a wry sense of humor. I have also heard that I am quirky and kind. I'm starting to sound like someone I might like to meet some day.  

This isn't Michael's kind of trip, but I know how much he would love to be in the Seattle area so I am adding it to our growing bucket list of places to visit in our retirement years. San Fran, Boston, and Denver are also on this virtual list. I think it's time, however, to add a few European locations as well. Maybe a river cruise? 

Monday, August 28, 2023

Ellen and I went to Seattle today. Ellen recommended going to the Museum of Pop Culture. While I found it interesting, for a movie buff, I believe this would be a must-see attraction. The museum displays a lot of artifacts from several genres of film and music. I found the exhibit on stop gap animation fascinating. And it was fun to see not only Jimi Hendrix's guitars but also costumes and accessories from the Harry Potter movies, Star Wars, and more.  Following the museum, Ellen and I went our separate ways. I walked to the Seattle Center to take photos of the Space Needle and then headed down the steep descent of Broad Street to the Olympic Sculpture Garden. I found it peaceful walking the path through the Sculpture Garden looking at both Tony Smith and Alexander Calder creations with the Puget Sound as a backdrop. Good for the soul moments and I thought about how much Michael would have enjoyed being there. I saw a sign that said "we are all in this together" and I thought - yes, we are...

Sunday, August 27, 2023

Despite what I would describe as a bad week, I made it to Redmond yesterday intact and am now enjoying Ellen and Cat's hospitality, which includes Milano cookies and diet coke. I went for an early morning walk this morning and the haze from wild fires hangs in the air. I've been assured that mountains are usually visible but they are currently obscured by smoke.  My cough lingers but drinking lots of water and cough drops seem to be helping.

By the way, I finally made it to the TSA office on Friday morning and received my Known Traveler Number (KTN) yesterday, which I promptly added to my Delta profile. So should be able to use the TSA Precheck lines on my way back to Ann Arbor. Lines at DTW yesterday made getting through bag check and TSA so time consuming (about 90 minutes), when I arrived at the gate Delta was midway through boarding my flight. There is something to be said for traveling with only a carry-on.

We are heading to see Gran Turismo (gaming movie) in a few moments. Perhaps not my first choice for a movie but when in Rome...

I'm back. The movie was actually pretty good. Prior to the movie we ate brunch food at a restaurant called Cactus, which was across the street from the theater. The dishes had a southwestern theme and there were enough hot peppers in my dish to make my nose run.

Just an observation from my flight yesterday. I got up to use the restroom towards the end of the flight and was surprised to see the last cabin on the plane was fairly empty. I sat in the window seat of the bulkhead row to look out at the world and was rewarded with a beatutiful view of mountain peaks. I sat mesmerized for about fifteen minutes watching the earth below go by as though it was in slow motion. It was clear enough to see mountain crevices and lakes nestled between peaks. Incredibly beautiful and I gained more understanding of the attraction of airplane window seats. When I returned to my assigned seat, I checked the flight tracker, We had just flown over the Rockies near Missoula, MT.

Wednesday, August 23, 2023

The appointment for TSA Pre-check was cancelled after I reversed into the driveway gate and damaged the car. I now have an appointment for an estimate at a collision shop instead. I feel a lot of self blame and shame right now. With a back-up camera, there is no excuse for my careless driving. 

Additionally,  I have not been feeling up to par this week either. I've had some nasal drip which has led to coughing. I initially thought allergies as I believe it is hay fever season but now I am wondering if I may have a cold. Thinking back, I usually don't experience allergy symptoms until late September or early October. I just feel out of sorts and now with my car mishap, a bit depressed. I'd cry if I could produce tears (dry eyes). Nothing like a mid-week pity party.

Tuesday, August 22, 2023

On a whim, I decided to apply for TSA Pre-check. Part of the process is going to one of their locations to present one's identification and get finger printed. I made an on-line appointment for 10am this morning and showed up about ten minutes early only to find their Ann Arbor location was closed. Before long there was a line of four people, also with appointments. After waiting about 45 minutes I gave up and left. I changed my appointment to tomorrow at noon hoping for better luck. But this experience left me a bit baffled that there was not at least a sign on the door providing direction. How rude. Oh well, moving on...

It's surprisingly cloudy and coolish today. I took advantage of the more comfortable temps to repot my basil and wash out small planters for some herbs I am rooting in water in hopes of having a few herbs in pots in our kitchen window over winter.  Basil, rosemary, and maybe parsley?

Our neighbor's cat, Shiv, has been visiting our backyard daily. Kali is interested but unlike Pascal (rest in peace) who used to come up to the screened door to get hissed at, they haven't had any contact yet. At some point Shiv may approach our door and I find myself curious what Kali's reaction may be.

The Meri Lou Murray Rec Center is closed for a few weeks for maintenance, which unfortunately means three weeks of me not doing any weight training - I was in Chicago last week and will be in Redmond next week. This is the point at which Michael will remind me that there are free weights in the basement.  Pfft...

Sunday. August 20, 2023

There was a multi-vehicle accident on I-90 East (Skyway) that closed all lanes of traffic for nearly an hour on our return trip to Ann Arbor yesterday.  Prior to the back-up there was an alert on the message sign cautioning drivers that there was a vehicle driving into oncoming traffic so I can't help but wonder if that's what caused the accident. It looked like at least five vehicles were impacted including a semi. Emergency vehicles were using the shoulders of the highway to get to the scene.  And of course, every once and awhile you would see a driver pull onto the shoulder - for what reason I can't say unless they were trying to see ahead to determine what was causing the delay.

It is good to be home. I am catching up on laundry, changed all the linens, cleaned the toilets, cleaned under the bed (no more dust bunnies and cat vomit - a sign it's been awhile since the last cleaning), and more. I had a burst of energy and decided to take advantage of it while it lasted. The realization that I am leaving again in six days is also motivational. 

My week in Chicago was satisfying and I feel like it was a privilege to care for delightful Porter. Yes, she did tire me out with her endless energy and my need to be "on" all the time but I'd do it again, no questions asked. It was fun to watch all her I did it moments. This ranged from her getting over her fear of going down alone on playground slides to realizing that she could blow up things on a video game I loaded for her on my iPad. And I loved listening to her articulate her needs and chatter with her stuffed animal friends. 

Kali seems happy to have me home. She curled up on my head in the wee hours this morning purring loudly with her little paw on my face, and me grateful we had her nails clipped at her last vet appointment. I feel a little badly about leaving her and Michael again, but it will be nice to visit with Cat and Ellen.

Friday, August 18, 2023

The State Farm agent came by this morning and fortunately it looks like expenses for basement clean-ups two and three will be covered. I personally am hoping a longer-term solution to Sean and Rose's repeated flooding can be found, however. As is normally the case, the best solution is also the most costly, which is a problem for them.

Sean, Porter, and I went to Montrose Park and walked along the Lake Michigan shoreline before lunch and her nap time. Porter seemed to enjoy looking at the seagulls and boats. Unfortunately we got back to the house and realized that her stroller didn't get packed in the car when we left the park. So poor Sean made the hour plus roundtrip drive back to the park while I fed Porter lunch and put her down for her nap. Thankfully the stroller was still where we left it and is now safely in Sean's trunk.

Michael arrived while Sean was on his stroller retrieval adventure and tackled a few unfinished yard projects. Tonight we all went to dinner at L. Woods Tap and Pine Lodge in Lincolnwood. It was a bit pricey but I did enjoy my New York Strip and all the entrees, sides, and drinks were well prepared.  Their web site described them as a supper club - lots of old fashioned wood and photo covered walls. And they were packed.

Michael and I head back to Ann Arbor tomorrow.

Thursday, August 17, 2023

Normally, I find the sound of rain soothing. But when you are in a house that flooded a few days ago, I found myself anxiously looking out the window at the street to assess water levels. Fortunately all is good. 

Today's teaching moment is that the locksmith that came to unlock Sean's garage, patiently explained the whole process of keying locks to me, even showing me his case of different sized/colored pins and how he calibrates which ones to use. I found it interesting to see how locks work. He should do a Ted Talk.

I'm on my own for dinner tonight. Sean, Rose, and Porter are having dinner with one of Rose's new co-workers. I am debating if it's worth trying Tatas Tacos on Irving Park Road or just eating a grilled cheese at home. I am leaning toward staying in tonight and watching TV.

Sean is home tomorrow to deal with the State Farm claims agent that is coming regarding the damage claims from their last two basement flooding events. Rose is going downtown to the Federal Building to pick up her work laptop, phone and ID badge. She just started her new job in July and it seems to be going well so far.  I am looking forward to spending some time with Sean. Oh, and Porter too.

Wednesday, August 16, 2023

Porter and I spent the morning at the Portage Park playground this morning and there's something pretty special when you are with your granddaughter and she throws her arms up and yells, "I did it." when she realizes she's not afraid to go down the slide on her own. And to my surprise after mastering the small slide, she climbed the stairs to the big slides and tried those a few times as well. And then it was me hiding my anxiety seeing her at heights beyond my arm's reach, pushing herself off at the top of the slide. Well done, Porter!  Damn, I love this little girl. 

Not much else planned today. I just put Porter in her crib for her nap and can hear her chattering away to her  stuffed friends. Tomorrow is my last day of being responsible for her. Sean decided to take Friday off so we can all spend some time together before I head back to Ann Arbor. 

Tuesday, August 15, 2023

Porter really loves riding in the wagon. Sean stayed home this morning to take her to her doctor's appointment and when she realized we were going somewhere in the car, she kept tearfully pointing at the sidewalk. Her doctor's appointment went well - she grew 3/4 inch (now 31.75 inches tall) but gained no weight. She is still in the lowest of lowest percentiles on height and weight but checked out well on cognitive and physical skills.

Unfortunately yesterday's rain was enough to flood the streets on Sean's corner which led to flooding once again in his basement. The basement restoration guys were here this morning drying and disinfecting the basement AGAIN. So more frustration and expense. The only bright spots are the water level was only a few inches this time and after the two prior cleanups, there was no damaged soaked debris on the floor. But we were all afraid to use water yesterday evening, so no showers, dishwashing or toilet flushing.  Which reminds that I should probably run the very full dishwasher. 

Sunnier weather made an appearance a few hours ago and I'd love to be outside but am on grandma duty. Porter is currently napping - this after an hour playing with and talking to her stuffed animal friends in her crib. I've been checking her monitor and it was relief to see her finally settle down.

It's also my turn to make dinner. I made and froze chili, which I brought with me so we will be dining on that this evening with rice, cornbread (Jiffy) and salad.

I was thinking last night that the old adage "Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me." is largely untrue. Words do hurt and once said cannot be unsaid. And unfortunately are also hard to forget. Don't go breaking my heart.

Monday, August 14, 2023

Porter and I spent a busy morning running errands and going to the playground - all in a wagon Michael and I purchased at Ace about a month ago. She likes riding in it so much that she actually asked me this morning for a wagon ride. And it turned out to be good bribery to get her dressed and ready to go quicker. She was delighted that she spotted a pink fish at Petco (pink is her favorite color) and that the kitties meowed at her. We also had fun picking out stickers and a coloring book at Dollar General. After hanging out on the playground swings, we stopped for lunch takeout at Culvers and had a very rainy walk/ride home. All in all, despite getting wet, an enjoyable morning.

I try to take comments about my grandparenting in stride - so far today Rose chided me for not finding a container with a lid for her cheerio snack after cheerios spilled on the floor. I felt exonerated when she admitted that all her snack containers are in their car.  Also I allowed Porter to pour milk from her drinking cup into her oatmeal and was told to take the milk cup away from her in the future if she's not drinking it. Porter seemed to enjoy stirring the milk into the oatmeal like a little science experiment. And quite honestly, I'd let her do it again. I was pretty sure I would also be in trouble for letting her wear her sandles today but either Rose didn't care or didn't notice. I guess I'm a bad grandpa, Porter's name for me. 

I discovered a very tiny dead bunny in Sean's backyard this morning. Rabbit hemorrhagic disease virus 2, also known as RHDV2, is an issue in Chicago currently. So tiny, so cute, so dead, so sad...

Wednesday, August 9, 2023

Sitting on the stump under the burden of his father's death and even the mortality inherent in the dying, wildly colored canopy of leaves, he somehow understood that life was only what one did everyday. He seemed to see time shimmering and moving up above him and through the leaves and down around his feet and through his middle. Nothing was like anything else, including himself, and everything was changing all the time. He knew he couldn't perceive the change because he was changing too, along with everthing else.  The Man Who Gave Up His Name - Jim Harrison

Hearing these words in my head is why I love reading.

Tuesday, August 8, 2023

Yesterday's dermatology appointment left me with a few welts on my nose and upper back from the cryosurgery used to removes skin lesions. I had an actinic keratoses on the tip of my nose removed and two benign inflamed seborrheic keratoses on my back (removed because of bleeding from me scratching them).  The examination made me think of the Leonard Cohen song, I'm Your Man.  And if you want a doctor, I'll examine every inch of you.....  I'm your man.  In this case, I'm your woman.

Today, Michael, Butch, April, and I met Donna and Spence for lunch at the Big Boy's on 6 Mile Rd. in memory of Mom. She passed away nine years ago. This was one of her favorite lunch spots and while it seems like a small thing to do, I think she'd appreciate this small rememberance of her. A big thanks to family members that joined me because I did feel a little silly asking. We miss you, Mom.

Sunday, August 6, 2023

Butch and April kindly included me in a couple of their outings this past week. Wednesday, I joined them for dinner at the Red Hawk and a stroll through the University of Michigan campus. They typically play Pokemon on Wednesday evenings. I don't completely understand the game but it's something they enjoy doing together and to me that in itself makes it worthwhile. On Saturday morning, we went to the Farmer's Market at Kerrytown, It was packed and I had a brief moment of questioning myself about whether or not I should be masked up. I purchased a basil plant and green onions, I also  picked up a few Michigan made items for Ellen, who I will be seeing at the end of the month. 

Michael and I are headed to Chicago this weekend. I'll be staying through Friday to care for Porter while her daycare is closed. I think that now that she is older, it might actually be more challenging as she's walking, talking, and asserting herself. It will be an interesting week regardless.  

I have a dermatology appointment tomorrow morning. Fingers crossed that I have no suspicious lesions.

Wednesday, August 2, 2023

I am fascinated by hands. I've been slightly ashamed of my hands for years, mostly because my nails and cuticles are usually untidy and I used to be a nailbiter. I've been doing better - a little effort on my part does make a difference. A few days ago I happened to notice how uneven Kali's vet's nails were and a small part of me silently commiserated. When I first met Michael, I recall admiring his long tapered fingers - an artist's hands? I remember Mom as having sturdy looking hands with neat short fingernails. They matched the practical, sensible side of her. And sometimes the location of a person's calluses are a good indicator of the type of work they may do. 

I found this quote interesting. 

A man who works with his hands is a laborer; a man who works with his hands and his brain is a craftsman; but a man who works with his hands and his brain and his heart is an artist. - Louis Nizer

Tuesday, August 1, 2023

Kali returned to the vet yesterday for a follow-up visit that included her rabies and distemper vaccines. She gained about a quarter pound so the prednisolone seems to be helping. Over the next few months, we will try reducing her dosage from half a pill every other day to three days a week and eventually maybe only two days. If the vomiting comes back, the number of dosage days will be increased. The doctor decided to leave the cyst she has as is. It doesn't seem to be bothering her and the vet felt that it would just refill again if drained. It's also possible that it may dissolve on its own but I am not holding my breath.

We've enjoyed a couple of coolish days. I am not sure how long it will last but it has been pleasant to sit outside. And surprise, surprise, I got some weeding done.

Butch and April's A/C unit has been replaced - he reported yesterday that cool air was coming through his house vents.

And lastly, I spoke to Bern recently and he seems to be getting by despite issues with pain and mobility. I wish I had the resources to be of use to him.  As he sometimes says -  Oh-la-di, ob-la-da, life goes on....

Saturday, July 29, 2023

Just a few snippets...

Our new thermostat was installed yesterday. We are $612 poorer. I felt fortunate that the guy Koch & White sent out was professional, friendly, and seemed like an all-around nice guy.  We haven't been so lucky with a few of the plumbers we've had in the past.

Butch is still without a/c. But it looks like our hot muggy weather is over for now so hopefully he and April are keeping cool enough.

Shannon posted on social media mid-week that they were without power and to add insult to their situation they experienced some basement flooding. Fortunately their power was restored on Thursday so all is well.

Kali returns to the vet on Monday for a follow-up visit. I am hoping she's gained a few ounces. Not to jinx her, but the prednisolone seems to have addressed her vomiting issue. For such a sweet tiny cat, however, she is now producing some unlady like gas. We are blaming it on her meds.

And finally, I need to do some serious weeding. Now would be a good time as the ground is very wet but I can't seem to get motivated.  I am doing laundry instead. And am about to vacuum.

Wednesday, July 26, 2023

Distant thunder, hard rain, wind, and the sound of the alert sirens. It excites me and I have an urge to go outside and stand in the middle of the driveway and experience the feeling this storm brings. And yet that sensible part of me holds me back despite a little but mighty voice saying just do it. Our power is flickering on and off. And I smile at the memory of Michael watering our plants earlier. I still hear a voice urging me to dance in the rain...

Tuesday, July 25, 2023

Adding a new pet peeve..   I was walking by the corner of Platt and Washtenaw this morning and noticed a number of beverage empties, food wrappers, and the sign used by the person asking for money at that location. I'd be hard pressed to give a donation to someone who has no regard for the environment or is respectable to the businesses in that area. Be responsible for your own trash please.

A few other pet peeves are my usual dog related gripes - namely people who do not clean up after their dogs and/or allow their dogs to roam my front yard, including my planting areas. 

Moving on...

Monday, July 24, 2023

This morning at the rec building I was on my seventh workout machine and realized I had that auto pilot feeling one has when you drive to work but don't remember the drive. I believe it's called highway hypnosis. So is this workout hypnosois? 

Saturday night I went to Buhr Park to watch a roller derby game between Ann Arbor and Detroit. Shannon was skating for Detroit. I believe she is a blocker, which looked very physical but also a great way to work out any latent hostilities one might be harboring. I'm glad I went. It was nice to see Shannon not only participating in a team event but also just living her life, which happens to include a love of roller derby. One last thought about this event - it was hot and humid and the arena smelled like old sweat. It reminded me of the smell when you opened your locker in the gym in high school and the odor of your unwashed sweaty gym clothes wafted out. I walked to the park and must admit on my way home the Little Caesar location on Platt and Packard was calling to me. I did not answer.

Friday, July 21, 2023

Michael and I went to the Ann Arbor Art Fair today, followed by a late lunch at Red Hawk. Despite Michael's comments, "you call this art?," we purchased some ceramic pieces. We took advantage of the buses that were shuttling art fair attendees from Briarwood to the fair so all in all an unstressful afternoon. It helped that temps were very comfortable today.

This morning, I had a follow-up appointment with my doctor to discuss my A1c level, which is currently at 7.6.  I was shocked to learn my blood pressure was 110/76 - definitely an all time low for me. Maybe retirement suits me.  I am thinking about changing my diabetes medication to an injectable and plan to contact Blue Cross next week to determine how much my copay might be. I've been taking metformin for several years and the doctor suggested that some of the newer drugs that are on the market are more effective. 

Also, a heating and cooling tech came to our home this morning to check our family room thermostat, which has been blank for the past month. We were hoping it might be a simple fix but it looks like we need a new thermostat. Unfortunately, a replacement costs $351 and they are on back order. I am hoping we can get this taken care of before cold weather sets in. The one positive is that the tech helped me set up the furnace/ac on my phone so I can control the thermostat settings remotely.

Tuesday, July 18, 2023

I have been doing a lot of self introspection lately. This includes reading old blog entries, an old police report, and news clippings looking for tangible evidence of events. I find myself questioning if my memory is distorted. Sometimes when bad things happen, I think I create a version of the incident to help me cope. It's like when someone I love hurts me and then tells me it's my fault, I look for a version that softens the impact its had on me. And it becomes my new reality. This also got me thinking about people saying adversity makes you stronger. And I'm not sure it's always true. It can also make you suspicious and more cautious of people.

When I was walking this morning, I saw an especially beautiful flower garden and thought how much I think mom would have liked it. But I realize that as much as I would like to, I will never see things through her eyes. It's hard to believe she died neary nine years ago. I still think about her often.

Monday, July 17, 2023

The DTE energy consultant came by this morning. His review was't exactly what I imagined but we did end up getting a lot of freebies. He installed 33 new LED bulbs, and some hot water pipe wrap. We were also given six night lights and a powerstrip. Unfortunately our thermostat model is not compatible with the thermostats they will provide at no charge so it looks like I may need to call in a professional for that.  

Another smoky day led to me riding the stationery bike in the basement this morning, during which I watched the last episode of season 2 of the Bear. It ends with their new restaurant opening. I really enjoyed this series. And having a husband who was in the restuarant business for many years, I found the kitchen scenes credible.

I was remembering today how my older brother used to blast Look at that Stupid Girl by the Rolling Stones through my heat vent when I was in high school. Just one more brick in the wall....

Sunday, July 16, 2023

The news reported this morning that smoke from the Canadian wildfires is once again an issue in the Detroit area. Is this an excuse to not go out and walk this morning?

I went to Southfield for lunch with Celina followed by a trip to the Detroit Zoo with Butch and April this past Thursday. It was nice to see Celina and at the risk of sounding shallow, my first thought as she walked out of her work building was how pretty she is. We went to a small Thai restaurant, where we ordered far too much of their delicious food. Listening to Celina talking about her children led to us all sharing photos - her of Fiona and Paul, me of Porter. And I couldn't help but smile. I also like Celina's no nonsense approach to  child rearing.  I also enjoyed walking around the Detroit Zoo. I am not a zoo expert, but in my humble opinion the Detroit Zoo does a good job taking care of not only their animals but also taking care of visitors. The grounds are clean and well landscaped and there are well spaced restrooms and refreshment centers. And my overpriced Icee hit the spot.

We have a DTE energy consultant coming to our home tomorrow to check out our home's windows, doors,etc. with the goal of increasing our energy efficiency. I am hoping they might be able to provide information on smart thermostats as one of our thermostats  is on the blitz and I believe needs replacing.

Wednesday, July 12, 2023

Detective Wilder Parker, first being duly sworn says:  That on or about the 11th day of October, 1969, in the City and County of Honolulu, State of Hawaii, Theodore Shibata, Jr. did maliciously assault Cecelia Rosemary Pedit, with intent to ravish and have carnal intercourse with said Cecelia Rosemary Pedit, by force and against her will, thereby committing this offense of Assault with Intent to Rape, thereby violating Section 768-26 of the Hawaii Revised Statute.

I just finished watching a mini-series on Netflix called Unbelievable in which a teenager is charged with lying about an assault that actually did happen. The scenes where she is bullied into recanting her story by the detectives made me angry. While this did not happen to me after my assualt, the attitude of the men questioning me made me feel like what happened to me was my own fault. There was this mentality that if you wear a skimpy bikini (I was at the beach), you are asking for trouble. And I don't know for certain, but I suspect that being haole didn't help. I also wonder if my credibility might have been questioned if not for the visible facial and torso bruising I had from being punched. My assaulter was sent to counselling and never served time. There was no retribution for all the women he assaulted. I remind myself this was the 1960's. Hopefully law enforcement is more sensitive to these types of cases now and justice is served.

Tuesday, July 11, 2023

I am reading a memoir Rose lent me titled Educated by Tara Westover. It is about a young woman with no formal schooling who self taught herself by studying books. She eventually  gains entrance to college and goes on to earn a PhD.  And it reminds me about the power of books. While I had the benefit of schooling early in my life, I did not grow up with computers. I used a computer at work but my job did not require me to create excel or word documents. After more than twenty years of banking, I had an opportunity to apply for a position at the University of Michigan. And becoming more computer savy was a must if I hoped to get hired. I borrowed how-to books about Excel and worked my way through the chapters until I was comfortable doing simple formulas and creating balance sheets. I am happy to report I got the job I applied for and it changed the course of my working life. I was fifty years old at the time. Later, I attended Excel classes at a nearby community college to hone my Excel skills. It is never too late to learn. 

I had a lengthy dental appointment yesterday, with work done on four teeth. The dentist, who I have been going to for over forty years, shared information about his wife, who was diagnosed with Parkinson's in 2018. How they met, how he proposed, what a wonderful wife, mother, and business partner she's been, and what her current state of health is. How she has moments where she is gone to everyone. He also talked about his daughters. And the love and admiration he has for his family is evident. It touched me how much he shared. A remnder that life doesn't always treat us kindly and most of us have a story to tell.

Monday, July 10, 2023

Michael and I returned home from an extended weekend trip to Chicago yesterday. Originally it was to attend Sean's birthday party. The party was cancelled, however, due to their considerable clean-up efforts to disinfect and dry out their basement. We arrived to the sound of several commercial fans placed in their basement by a company that deals with flooded basments. There was also a large pile of damaged soggy items in their backyard. They didn't have use of their washer and dryer so were trying to catch up on laundry at a friend's house. Not a fun situation to be in with a two-year-old home all week (her daycare is closed for vacation). So we took over caring for Porter so Sean and Rose could catch up on house "stuff" and clean-up efforts. Michael also made a major dent in clearing out weeds in the beds along their backyard fence lines and mowing their lawn.

Porter is starting to talk now - admittedly sometimes I am not sure what she is saying but for the most part she is articulating what she has on her mind pretty well. She also has adopted a name for Michael and I - I believe we are both grandpa. When we'd go anywhere, if she didn't see one of her parents or us, she would ask about the missing person - "Where's Dad? Where's Grandpa?"

Friday, we went to the Lincoln Park Zoo. I had not been there before and liked that it wasn't overwhelmingly big. We arrived about noon and most of the animals had retreated to shady spots in their habitats and were not that visible. It was still nice to get out and walk around with some of my favorite humans.  

Sean selected a restaurant called Smoque BBQ for his birthday dinner - a casual dining spot with outside seating. Everybody ordered ribs, coleslaw, beans, and cornbread and lots of napkins. It's was BYOB so many people arrived with six packs of beer and other libations. 

On Saturday, Michael and I went to a couple of open houses. The second house we looked at was like stepping back in time with lots of large dated wood furniture.  It was also evident that elderly people lived there as it was fitted with a wheelchair ramp and hand railings. It felt dark and claustrophobic when you entered and the discomfort increased when it became apparent an elderly gentleman was laying in bed in one of the bedrooms. I believe Michael and were in and out of this house in record time. I am not sure why we continue to look as I believe in the end, we know Ann Arbor is home.

Saturday evening, we went to Portillo's - another casual dining restaurant that is known for its large slices of chocolate cake. Which Porter seemed to immensely enjoy!  As did I. Dinner consisted of hamburgers, hot dogs, fries and onion rings. 

Sunday morning, I helped Michael bag up yard debris. Then he and Sean went to Home Depot to pick up materials to hang shelves in the basement with the goal of creating storage so that items aren't on the floor. While they were out, Rose, Porter, and I went to a nearby park playground. Around noon, Michael and I headed back to Ann Arbor and our own reality. And just like Dorothy (Wizard of Oz), we entered a trancelike state and could be heard saying, "there's no place like home, there's no place like home." 

Monday, July 3, 2023

We take photos for a return ticket to a moment that is gone. Saw this quote somewhere and thought it rang true.

Sean and Rose's basement flooded again. The pictures he shared made me grimace. So more clean-up and tossing stuff is in their future. And just trying to get it dryed out before mold and mildew start forming. Michael and I had talked about trying to make their basement toilet a little more attractive to users but now we are wondering if it would be wasted effort if every big rain brings the possibility of more flooding. What's interesting is that the basement supposedly has a flood control system in place, that apparently hasn't done much to mitigate the issue. It seems to be a city sewer issue with drains not being able to handle the volume of drainage from heavy rain events pushing the water into basements. I am not sure what the solution is. 

We plan to visit Sean for his birthday in a few days...  "Sucky birthday gift," Mother Nature and City of Chicago...

Thursday, June 29, 2023

It's still hazy outside from the Canadian wild fires. There is an air quaility alert in effect and it has impacted some of my decisions about time spent outside.

Michael and I went to Ikea today and ended up purchasing new dinnerware (plates, bowls, etc.).  Plus a lot of other stuff from the Marketplace.

I find myself a bit baffled by my blood sugar numbers. My first test this morning after 12 hours of fasting was 155 (too high). I tested two hours later after exercising for an hour, no food and my level had risen to 172. I do not understand why it would be higher.  It defies logic. My conclusion is that the metformin slow release tablets I am currently taking are not as effective as the regular metformin tablets I used to take. A conversation I need to have with my doctor. Maybe it's time to talk to an endocrinologist? 

Butch and April ended their road trip a little early due in part to the extreme heat in the states south of Michigan. They returned home today. I haven't had an opportunity to talk to them yet. My tree watering job in their absence was nearly unnecessary due to several consecutive days of rain. My visits were mostly checks on the house and making sure April's hanging plants were watered. I am looking forward to hearing about their adventures.

Monday, June 26, 2023

The prednisolone that Kali is taking has has some smelly side effects - she is gassy and using the kitty litter more often, often pooping on the rim of the litter box. Clean up has been messy. I am sympathetic as I have also had unpleasant side effects with new medications. I am laughing at myself, because I'd like to vacuum but am holding off because I don't want to disturb Kali. Poor kitty...   She has spent about an hour this morning watching the chipmunks on our back porch. For such small critters, their high pitched chirping is pretty loud.

After very little rain this past month, we are on our third day of cooler rainy weather. Last night, a storm swept through with wind and thunder. I noticed some tree branches down on my walk this morning. It's also my understanding that there have been some power outages as well. One plus is that I haven't had to water Butch's trees as often. My trips to his house have been more about checking on his place and watering April's hanging plants.

Friday, June 23, 2023

Going back to my June 9th post in which I wrote that Michael and I went to Palolo Valley in search of the Ka'au Crater Trail. Michael believes this is where I was taken when I assaulted as a teenager. I checked the police report and it turns out he is correct. 

Just as they were turning mauka on Palolo Avenue, she questioned the suspect as to where they were going. Suspect told her that he was taking her up the valley to see some beautiful waterfalls, caves, and landscapes. They kept going until they came to the mauka end of Waiomao Road.

Suspect covered the gun with a large yellow towel and told her that he had to take the gun because there may be some wild boars. She believes they may have walked about ½ mile from the end of Waiomao Road. They then went down across the Waiomao stream and stopped by a large tree on the Ewa side of the stream.

The rest of the report describes the assault. I don't think I am comfortable sharing it yet. Maybe someday. The gun was on the car seat between us. Reading my statement makes me feel like a foolish teenager all over again. If anything, this assault taught me to be weary of strangers but more importantly provided a threshhold for future traumatic life experiences. It took a long time for my visible facial and torso bruising to heal from this assault and years before I felt closure. Ironically, it was finally going to the Police Department more than 50 years later to get copies of the police report that brought some finality for me.

I don't know for certain, but based on an obituary search, I believe Ted Shibata Jr died a few years ago. I used to wonder if his family knew he was a bad violent man. 

Wednesday, June 21, 2023

Happy Summer Solstice! Summer is officially here although admittedly Memorial Day always feels like the beginning of summer in much the same way that Labor Day signals its end.

Kali's nodule turned out to be a cyst that was filled with a clear gel, which the vet admitted she had not seen before. It's usually yellow. Of more concern is that she continues to lose weight. She is down to 6 pounds (last May, she weighed 8 pounds). Her body doesn't seem to be absorbing her food and it doesn't help that she continues to throw up regularly. I am not sure how to help her gain weight but the vet prescribed prednisolone in hopes it would increase her appetite and decrease her vomiting. Fingers crossed.

Just a few observations on my last few weeks. Being in Hawaii was a bit unreal. Places and people were familiar and at times it felt like I had entered a time warp. I must admit I was surprised by how much my valley friends welcomed my short return.  I was included in morning walks, meals out, and even an entire day of gallery hopping and shopping with a woman I chatted with only occasionally when I lived in Hawaii. I was also warmly welcomed at the Aina Haina Library with enquiries about how Sean is doing. It's reaffirmed my belief that there are warm good people in my life. 

And then I came home to a visit by Sean, Rose, and Porter. And an anniversary party.

Tuesday, June 20, 2023

Thursday's overnight flight from Honolulu to Detroit went smoothly. It was our first time in Comfort Plus - seats were a little larger (but still uncomfortable for sleeping) and we were provided with headphones instead of earpods, which did cut down on noise when watching movies on the entertainment system. Butch picked us up Friday morning from DTW and it was nice to be in our own home again. I felt a bit of pressure to get organized, however, as Sean, Rose, and Porter were scheduled to arrive around 5pm. I made an easy make ahead dinner of crockpot chili and rice and managed to get unpacked before they arrived. Porter was high energy after being in the car all afternoon. She seemed to remember the house from a prior visit and immediately headed to her bedroom to pull out toys. She was constantly on the move re-exploring the house but after a bath eventually settled down for the night.

Saturday morning, we put Porter in a wagon we have and all went to the Sylvan Park playground. After her afternoon nap, we headed to our community pool and splashed around for awhile. Michael made us burgers and tater tots for dinner. 

Sunday morning, we ate a big breakfast and headed to the playground at Gallup Park., Porter seemed a little overwhelmed by Gallup's playground, which has a numbers of structures with slides and climbing features. We headed back to the house for lunch, a bath, and her nap. At about 4:15pm, we headed to Corner Brewery aka Ann Arbor Brewing for our 51st Not a Surprise Anniversary Party.  There I was greeted by family - Butch, April, Celina, Jerry, Marilyn, Christopher, Stephen, Tricia and boyfriend Larry, Donna and boyfriend Spence, Elizabeth, Darrel, Shannon, Joel, Elizabeth, and friends Cheryl and Kate. Sean and Rose had ordered appetizers and served a delicious cake from Zingerman's.  It was a wonderful evening connecting with everyone and celebrating our 51 years together. A big thanks to Sean and Rose for all their work organizing this event. 

Porter slept in Monday morning. Then there was a mad rush, as Sean and Rose went through the house collecting belongings and getting everything packed up and in the car. Michael and I met them at Archilles for breakfast - we said our goodbyes and they headed home to Chicago. The house seemed overly quiet when Michael and I returned home.

Kali has a vet appointment this afternoon. While we were in Hawaii, Butch and April noticed she had developed a lump on one of her haunches. She does not seem to be in any pain. Hopefully it is nothing serious.

Thursday, June 15, 2023

Last night's dinner at the Outrigger was the perfect last evening in Honolulu. We had a table overlooking the Pacific and were treated to a lovely sunset. We received leis from Leslie and Peter and Bo and enjoyed a  nice dinner talking and laughing. I couldn't have asked for a more enjoyable evening.

This morning I went for a walk around the neighborhood with Sharon. She gave me bubblewrap for the vase Genny gave us. I also went to the Post Office to mail another box to myself. We received a couple of gifts last night and there was no way they would fit in my suitcase so I resorted to a second flat rate box. The first was mailed yesterday containing purchases I've made over the past week.

On the way back to the Hollenbecks, we stopped at Kawaikui Beach Park for some last looks at the ocean. Aloha 'Oe.

Michael is currently skinny dipping in the Hollenbeck's pool as he didin't want to pack a wet suit in his luggage. I am his lookout.  Our old neighbors, Sharon and Michael are kindly driving us to the airport at noon. I'll be back tomorrow to talk story.

Wednesday, June 14, 2023

Michael and I are celebrating our 51st wedding anniversary today and it seems appropriate that we are back in Hawaii for this occasion. On our way to Queens Beach, we stopped at Calvary Lutheran Church for a quick selfie. They no longer use the original church structure (where we  got married 51 years ago) for services, it's now used as a day care for children. Otherwise, we would have gone inside for our photo op. A new more open church that overlooks the ocean was built for services and I've heard it's a backdrop for many weddings.

This is also our last full day in Hawaii. We spent about three hours chilling in the Queen's/Kuhio Beach area getting in our last beach time before returning to Ann Arbor tomorrow. It felt a little sad packing up our beach bags for the last time but we have had a nice few weeks catching up with old friends and neighbors and exploring both our old haunts and a few new ones.

Tonight we are joining Leslie at the Outrigger Club for one last dinner. Friends, Peter and Bo, were also invited to celebrate our 51st anniversary. A bit of a milestone.  Regarding our anniversary, an old friend Jennie described our union best - at some point the words Mike and Sugar became one word. I met Michael in 1968, and a long lasting connection was made. Here we are today after many trials and joys together. This must be what love is.

Tuesday, June 13, 2023

Today was busy. I met Arlene, who I used to walk with, at 5:40am and we walked to the Millers, who are also old walking buddies. At 6am, Sharon joined us for a walk around the neighborhood. Arlene went home after a few blocks - she's had some health issues that cause her to tire quickly. Sharon and I continued our walk, stopping to say hello to every cat and dog in the neighborhood so it was pretty slow going. I spoke to old neighbors Deb and Mark, who were walking their dogs Harley and Boogey, for a few moments as well. After our walk, I visited with Sharon and her husband, Mike for about an hour. I enjoyed watching the dozens of parrots and java finches that visit their backyard bird feeder. Their yard is also fabulously landscaped with crotons, palms, tillandsia, and other beautiful tropical plants. I then headed back to the place we are staying and ran into another neighbor, Elaine. We share an interest in the art scene in Hawaii. She mentioned a few galleries she thought I might enjoy and then offered to go with me.So I spent the day driving around Honolulu with her visiting galleries and shops. We started at the Fishcake Gallery in Kaka'ako, which had an ecclectic mix of artwork, jewelry, and furniture. I ended up purchasing a book about local artists and a ceramic spoon. We then visited the shop next door, which had some interesting items as well. From there we drove to South Shore Mall and visited a few stores. I purchased a dress at A-Line. Following a light lunch at Tango, we went to Cedar Street Gallery. I found a small Mark Mitsuda glass vase that matches a larger one I purchased at the Downtown Art Center in Honolulu in 2019.  Elaine then took me to one of her favorite clothing shops, Nui Mono, which has unique clothing all designed by women. I couldn't resist purchasing a beautiful tunic top from them. Lastly we stopped at a shaved ice place in Kapahulu, which as they say here was ono.

We later met Leslie for dinner at Kono Brewing. So a day socializing and enjoying seeing old friends and exploring some of Honolulu's creative and interesting shops.

Monday, June 12, 2023

We relocated today to a friend's house in Niu Valley. Leslie returned from Greece today. Prior to picking her up at the airport, our morning was spent washing the sheets and towels we used, remaking the bed, vacuuming, and tidying up her place. And of course packing up all our stuff.

In addition to letting us use a spare bedroom, the Hollenbecks are also loaning us a car to use the last few days we are in Honolulu. And did I mention they have a pool. I admittedly will miss the privacy and comfort of Leslie's apartment as we had it to ourselves. And while I've enjoyed exploring Kaimuki, Niu Valley will always be home.  We did, however, end up eating dinner at a restaurant in the Niu Valley Shopping Center as it felt uncomfortable poking through their refrigerator and cupboards.

Sunday, June 11, 2023

I went for a walk this morning that included window shopping in the town part of Kaimuki. Michael tracked me on his phone and we ran into each other on 12th Avenue.  Three places I had an interest in visiting are no longer in business. Gecko Books & Comics was replaced with a boutique called Red Pineapple. The popular Koko Head Grill is now Chubbies Burgers. And the 12th Avenue Grill is now a breakfast/brunch restaurant called Koko Head Cafe. So a lot of changes on that street alone.

Michael announced that he is burned out sun-wise so we engaged in some retail therapy at Target. We found some cute tops for Porter, a sun dress for me, and an aloha shirt and T-shirt for Michael.  We also walked through Macy's Ala Moana. I tried on a few items but made no purchases.

We just chilled and did laundry when we got back to Kaimuki. Hunger hit at about 4pm so we headed to CPK at Kahala Mall. We were told the wait time to be seated would be 10-15 minutes at about 4:15pm, it was a few minutes before five when we were finally seated. The waiter told us we just squeaked in for happy hour, which ended at 5pm. I think I might have argued that we were there in time if happy hour prices were not honored. Michael and I may be turning into grumpy old people.

Sauturday, June 10, 2023

No big adventures today. We went to Kawaikui Beach Park for a few hours this morning. It was quite windy, my chair blew over everytime I stood up. Michael has a lot of memories surfing in front of the park and swimming in a sandy area called the Blue Hole.. Alas, no board but he did get an opportunity to watch the surf and surfers.

From there we drove to Kailua to visit Michael's cousin Carol and  tour her new home. It was nice seeing her and Michael was able to catch up on what was happening on his side of the family. I realized while listening to them talk how much family dynamics change with the death of a primary person or persons. On the Dove family side, that would be his Aunt Wanda. On the Pedit side of our family, it would be our parents. 

On the way back to Leslie's apartment, we stopped at Zippy's and I finally purchased a small haupia cake - which I promptly dug into straight out of the box. Pretty sure my blood sugar level has been impacted. But I uttered one word, Ono...

Friday, June 9, 2023

We got hardcore this morning and headed to the Wa'ahila Ridge Trail at  the top of St Louis Heights. The 2.6 mile trail is rated as easy but was far steeper than we expected. My heartrate on my Apple watch was 120bpm and I was huffing.  After .25 miles, we turned back and explored several side trails instead, and were rewarded with views of Palola and Manoa Valleys. Total mileage walked - 1.5 miles.

Our Manoa Valley adventure began with a drive through the University of Hawaii campus. From there, we drove by Michael's childhood family home on Woodlawn. We then headed to Lyon Arboretum, but there was a back-up of cars waiting to park for the Manoa Falls hike, so we turned around. We found out later that you need to make advance reservations for the arboretum so I am glad we didn't wait to pursue going.

We then headed to Palolo Valley in search of the Ka'au Crater Trail. Michael believes this is where I was taken when I assaulted as a teenager. I have to admit, the area did not look familiar to me at all so I am not certain if it was the correct trail. Regardless, we stopped, took a picture of the trailhead and then headed back to Kaimuki. I'll check the police report when we get back to Michigan to see if the name of the trail is identified.

And of course, we spent a few hours at Kuhio Beach before heading to dinner at Roy's Hawaii Kai. We sat outside, ordered drinks and shared appetizers, a salad, and dessert. A beautiful evening overlooking Maunalua Bay. This was our just the two of us anniversary dinner.

Thursday, June 8, 2023

Yesterday, Michael and I had lunch with Genny Heuer at the Elk's Club. She used to babysit Michael's nephew and niece back in the late 60's, early 70's. Nanu was very fond of her and we ended up talking much of the afternoon. She is a potter and moved back to Hawaii just before we moved back to Michigan Like two ships passing.  She brought us a few of her pottery pieces. It was nice seeing her again and catching up on old times.

Today we visited the Honolulu Museum of Art (HOMA). I especially enjoyed the collection on display in the Arts of Hawaii Gallery - Reframing the Landscapes of Hawaii. Additionally, the Rebecca Loiuse Law: Awakening, which is an immersive experience that celebrates Hawaii's deep connection to pua with hanging strings of dried flowers and other plant matter was a pleasant surprise. It was like walking through a fairy land.

We also managed a few hours at Kuhio Beach. Just another day in paradise.

Tuesday, June 6, 2023

This morning, Michael and I headed out to Hunananiho (formerly known as Waimanalo Bay). We, of course, stopped at all the scenic lookouts along the way to take photos, which included the Halona Blowhole, Halona Cove, Sandy Beach, and Makapuu Point. Beautiful day for the beach - not a lot of wind and Waimanalo Bay was relatively calm. I had no trouble getting in and out of the water which can be an issue when the surf is breaking on the beach.

On our return trip, we stopped at the Aina Haina Library so I could say hello to the library staff and the Friend's volunteers. It was heartwarming to see everyone again. I volunteered a few days every week at the library when we lived here and they were (and are) a wonderful group of women I came to love.

Monday, June 5, 2023

Michael and I walked to City Mill this morning to have a key copied. Not the most scenic walk but the Kaimuki business district does have its charms. It gave us an opportunity to see what businesses survived Covid and what's new.

Michael wanted to get a boogie board so we headed to Hawaii Kai via Kalanianaole Hwy. Along the way, we stopped at Kawaikui Beach Park (a park Michael has surfed at for many years) and I found myself looking at beautiful Maunalua Bay. A few photos later, we proceeded to Costco. Boogie board was purchased.  Our next stop was Ross, where we purchased a handful of items including shorts, a belt, and more. From there we headed to a friend's home in Niu Valley to drop off a portrait Michael had painted of his daughter. He kindly lent Michael fins. Our last stop was Kahala Mall. A few more purchases were made and we are now back at Leslie's apartment chilling. 

I believe dinner tonight will be leftovers from last night's dinner at the Outrigger.

Sunday, June 4, 2023

This morning started bright and early with a walk around Diamond Head. A few hours later and sore feet, we ate breakfast at Zippy's Kahala. It was hard not to smile at Michael's choice of portuguese sausage, eggs, and rice. And of course, Tabasco cauce. 

I also walked up to a nail salon on Koko Head Ave. for a mani/pedi. The manicurist foot-shamed me for the callous build-up on my heels. I believe her words were something to the effect that its been a long time since my feet have had any care. A comment that I deserved.

This evening we met Sharon and Michael Miller for dinner at the Outrigger Canoe Club. We sat out on their lanai and were treated to a beautiful sunset. It's been three years and it was wonderful seeing them both again. We were invited by the Hollenbecks to spend our last few vacation days in their home in Niu Valley so I made plans to walk with the Millers Tuesday morning at 6am. Just like the old days.  I also need to get in touch with another walking buddy, Arlene, as well to say hello.

Saturday, June 3, 2023

I woke up at 3:30am this morning. I haven't adjusted to the time difference yet but there was also the sound of roosters crowing despite it being dark outside. I wish I felt comfortable walking in the dark as it would be nice to get a walk in before it heats up outside. Last night when I went to bed, Mango, Leslie's cat, was asleep on my side of the bed and refused to move. My attempts to nudge her out of my space were met with her biting me.I ended up sleeping with my head at the foot of the bed so she could keep her spot.

The Hollenbecks invited us for a continental breakfast this morning at their home in Niu Valley. Michael helped their daughter get a rowing scholarship at Cal Poly so there was a lot of rowing talk, followed by surfing talk, followed by news updates about families in the valley.. Afterwards, we walked to our old home on Kawaikui. The current owner, Jack, very graciously took us on a tour. It was nice to see the repairs and cosmetic changes he's made. Ceilings are now white and he put in new floors. Outside, the front patio is now covered and there is now a wall around the property, which provides much needed privacy.  It's my understanding that Jack and his partner Gabby have done much of the work themselves. We also visited Peter and Bo. It was interesting listening to Peter and Michael reminisce about growing up in Niu Valley. Peter's family used to live across the street from Michael's family back in the 1960's.

On the way back to Kaimuki, we stopped for groceries at Foodland and despite knowing how high food prices are, we still gasped at the final bill.  

Friday, June 2, 2023

Today started with a short walk around Leslie's Kaimuki  neighborhood. We were mobbed by a flock of chickens and roosters, saw trees laden with mangos and plumerias, admired colorful hibiscus - all signs we are back in the islands. We also walked by one of the homes we rented back in the 1970's. Definitely a trip down memory lane. Later we stopped at Longs for suntan spray and beach chairs before heading to the Kuhio/Queen's beach area. It was like time had stood still - the familiarness of it all.

This evening, we went downtown for the First Friday Gallery Walk. We started with dinner at Murphy's Bar and Grill, a favorite when we used to live here. After dinner, we visited the  Downtown Art Center, which was hopping with activity. It's a large space with multiple gallery rooms that had several shows running concurrently. I was encouraged to see this revival of the art scene in Honolulu. We ended our downtown adventure with a visit to the Hawaii State Art Museum, which I normally love going to, but tonight was disappointing. Much of the gallery space was closed due to renovations. Regardless, it was an enjoyable night out.

Thursday, June 1, 2023

We arrived safely in Hawaii after a ten hour flight from DTW. Other than our flight being delayed 90 minutes, travel was non-eventful. There was a moment right before landing when I saw the mountains through the plane window, that I felt a jolt of emotion and probably would have teared up if my eyes weren't so dry. I realized on the drive from the airport to Kaimuki that Honolulu will always be familiar and full of memories.  On a more humorous note, I have already spotted 3-4 cockroaches and Leslie's cat is a maniac. She's bitten my feet multiple times.

Tuesday, May 30, 2023

I spoke to two of my sisters yesterday and it was nice catching up. But more than that was listening to the sound of their voices. It made me wish I had recordings of the voices of all the family members we have lost over the years. I guess it would be awkward, however, to ask my siblings and other family to record something for me for the future. 

As I slowly collect items to pack, I remind myself there are drug stores in Honolulu that sell products like shampoo, bath wash, and sun tan lotion so there is no need to pack them. We go to Chicago often enough, that I keep a small container of similar products there.

In an effort to lessen some immediate house chores when we get back, I changed linens on all the beds yesterday and vacuumed. We did a small grocery shop today with the thought we could shop for perishables like milk and eggs when we return. I plan to give houseplants a good soaking tomorrow with the hope they will ony need to be watered 1-2 times while we are gone. Michael congregated our outside potted plants in one spot to make watering them easier. I am hoping this prep will make life a little easier for Butch as he helps us out with Kali and the house  in our absence.

Monday, May 29, 2023

As I was walking this morning, I found myself staring at the ground looking for tripping hazards as I carefully placed each step. My vigilance paid off - I got home safely. 

I also found myself thinking about people's special places (a carry-over from yesterday's thoughts). I associate Dad with his desk, for example. When I think of Mom, I see her sitting on her front porch. Michael's mother was often in her kitchen. Michael is usually crouched somewhere in our yard working on a garden bed or his backyard pond. If in the house, he is usually in his basement studio. I spend hours in our family room or if outside, in a beach chair on the back patio. So maybe special places aren't the places that awe us in some way, they are our everyday comfort spaces. Where we exhale for a few moments...

Sunday, May 28, 2023

Elizabeth celebrated her 3rd birthday yesterday. I enjoyed seeing her in her birthday dress, her delight at her birthday cake and being sung the Happy Birthday song, and lastly her response to opening her gifts. She played her role as the birthday girl perfectly. 

We have been enjoying warmer weather and our community pool is open - it's definitely feeling like summer. One benefit is that I have a little color in preparation for our trip to Honolulu later this week. Which reminds me, I'd better figure out what to pack.

There is a part of me that believes I should visit Dad tomorrow to honor him on Memorial Day but I suspect both the roads and the cemetery will be busy. Perhaps another time when things are quieter. I wish I knew a place that was special to him while he was still alive. But then if someone asked me if I had a special place, I am not sure what my answer would be. There are many locations over the years that have touched my heart or soul in some way. 

Saturday, May 27, 2023

I woke up this morning feeling a little sore. I tripped while crossing the street yesterday and used my hands to break my fall. Ended up with scraped palms and a bloody left knee. Fortunately no broken bones. I haven't fallen in a while and I found myself laying in the road for a few seconds to assess the damage before rising and stiffly heading home. Phone and glasses also survived.

Thursday, May 25, 2023

Michael and I head to Honolulu next week. Oddly, I currently feel more anticipation at seeing Sean, Rose, and Porter when we return. This is not to say that I don't look forward to being back in Hawaii. It will be like saying hello to an old familiar friend and I am sure I will experience joy as we visit our old haunts. I suspect, for example, our first Friday there will include a few hours at Kuhio Beach. And later a trip into downtown Honolulu for the First Friday Honolulu Gallery Walk and dare I say with giddy anticipation, dinner at Murphy's Bar and Grill. The Millers are treating us to dinner at the Outrigger on Sunday night so at least on our first weekend there we will be well fed.

Our patio container plants are coming along. We have a mix of annuals and perrenials includa a yucca, jasmine, crotons, ferns, grasses, succulents, and chives. We also mulched the garden beds yesterday. Hopefully, all will survive us being gone a few weeks. 

Tomorrow, I head to Canton for Elizabeth's 3rd birthday party. It will be nice to see family.

Wednesday, May 19, 2023

Michael and I got our sixth covid vaccination this morning. My first five vaccinations were Pfizer, this one was Moderna. And I am not sure if it is a coincidence, but I noticed my face was flushed and warm for about an hour afterwards. Fortunately it was short-lived. 

I bought new prescription glasses today at Costco and was shocked that they only cost $45 after insurance.  Which for progressive/transition lenses seems quite economical. I think Michael may be getting closer to replacing his glasses as well.

The rec center I go to has a big sign in the strength training room asking users to wipe down machines before and after use. And although this doesn't impact me personally, I find myself slightly irritated that one of the trainers does not clean equipment while working with clients. In my opinion she sets a bad precedent with her trainees. Feeling petty...

The countdown to Hawaii has begun. Our flight is in 12 days. In the past, it's always felt like home.I wonder if I will feel differently now that we no longer have physical living space there. I miss Niu Valley.

Tuesday, May 16, 2023

Even flip flops track in a lot of yard debris as evidenced by all the small leaves and grass I vacuumed up in the family room this morning. I also half-assed mopped the kitchen floor. I say half-assed because I didin't remove the kitchen rug or stools when I mopped. I just mopped around everything. Surprisingly the kitchen floor wasn't all that dirty, it was mostly coffee drips. I don't mop often but I do sweep nearly daily so I suspect that helps.

I rode the indoor bike for an hour this morning and only earned 3 exercise minutes, which I find annoying. I may go for a short walk later to make up for it. 

I am always impressed by the temperature range this time of year. I woke up this morning to a chilly 46 degrees but a high of 79 degrees is predicted late this afternoon. A whopping 33 degree temperature change in less than twelve hours.

Wishing I could give Porter a hug right now.

Monday, May 15, 2023

I had a nice Mother's Day with no cooking or kitchen clean-up. We ate breakfast at Archiles and an early dinner at Zingerman's Roadhouse. The flowers I received from Sean, Rose, and Sean are still perky and beautiful. We also Facetimed with them Sunday morning. Porter made a few appearances but for the most part had her own agenda, which is fine. "Grandma and grandpa, I got better things to do this fine morning then looking at you."

We've been enjoying several days of summery weather and I've been trying to soak up as much sun as possible on our back patio. And yes, I've been using sun protection products, especially on my face. Michael has been going on long bicycle rides and constantly works on yard projects. I like our new planter box. We still need to purchase soil and plants for it but it's a nice addition to our yard. 

I am looking forward to Sean, Rose, and Porter's vist in mid-June. They arrive the same day we return from Hawaii so I expect there will be a bit of a rush to get the house back to normal when we get home from the airport. I plan to change linens, etc. prior to us leaving for Hawaii, which should help. And then there is the six hour time difference and resulting jet lag.  Yawn...

Saturday, May 13, 2023

Mother's Day - a holiday I had celebrated for years for my mother. I never felt it was about me. And as Michael points out, I'm not his mother. I did, however, receive a lovely bouquet of flowers this year from Sean and Rose. I was momentarily confused when the box arrived and even asked Michael why we were receiving flowers. And then I read the card with the flowers wishing me a Happy Mother's Day and the light bulb went off. Admittedly I was touched by their very nice gesture as I had no expectations. I did tell Michael, however, that I'd like to go out tomorrow for breakfast. Even McDonalds will do.

One of our neighbors built us a raised flower bed. He had discussed it with Michael about a week ago and showed up in our yard this afternoon with his tools and construction materials. We are blessed with kind much younger neighbors who seem to view us as that older couple that might need a little help. Another neighbor (next door) has included us in his mulch order.  He has also invited us to a few backyard parties that he and his wife have hosted. It's nice to know neighbors are looking out for us.

Wednesday, May 3, 2023

I am currently reading The Witch Elm by Tana French. I read a lot of crime fiction, some not well written. So it's always a pleasure to read a book that is so beautifully written. It makes me appreciate how good story telling can draw you into a scene. It had been months since I'd been in a car or been anywhere much outside my apartment, and the sudden torrent of speed and colors and images was way more than I could handle. Patterns kept popping up everywhere, frenetic and pulsing, dotted lines leaping out at me from the road, strobing rows of railings zooming past, grids of apartment-block windows replicating themselves manically into the air; the colors were all too lurid and had a shimmering electronic zing that made my head hurt, and the cars were going by much too fast, whipping past us with a ferocious whoosh and smack of air that made me flinch every time.

I no longer walk with Butch mornings so instead of conversation with him, I find my thoughts running amok. Sometimes I play a what-if game. What if I still lived in Hawaii? What if I was wealthy? And so on. This morning my thoughts had me questioning the concept of loneliness, which to me is not always the same as being alone. Does everyone feel loneliness? And what is it really? The dictionary's defines loneliness as the state of being alone and feeling sad about it. But I believe it can be something more existential and is related to our purpose in life or lack there of.  Or to our connection to people in general and the isolation we feel. Walks with deep thoughts...

Joe has been researching best viewing sites for two future eclipses (October 2023 and April 2024). And I am very much looking forward to sharing these experiences with him and Butch (or whoever else joins in). I am grateful.

Tuesday, May 2, 2023

We returned from Chicago Saturday night. It was a nice few days and I enjoyed the time spent with Sean, Rose, and Porter. Porter's 2nd birthday celebration was cancelled again. This time because she had a cough that was keeping everyone up at night. A benefit of Michael and I being there is that it allowed Sean and Rose to sleep-in on both Friday and Saturday mornings. We did manage to go out to dinner on Friday night at Bavette's Bar and Boeuf in downtown Chicago to celebrate Sean and Rose's 5th wedding anniversary. We chose Bavette's because that is where we went a few nights before their wedding five years ago. Coincidently, we sat in the same booth.

It's interesting to see how much Porter changes each time we see her, which is about every six to eight weeks. She recently went in for her two-year-old check-up and she is only in the 3 percentile for height. Our tiny girl  is finally walking, however, and it's hard not to smile as she navigates around the house. She is using more words and calls Sean Dad and Rose Mamaw (which she also calls me). And she shakes her head and says "no" to every question she's asked. I love every hug and conversation we share.

Tuesday, April 27, 2023

Revisiting my old photo albums has had one good outcome. It's made me realize how rich Sean's childhood was. He was surrounded by extended family - spending a lot of time with uncles Butch and Joe and aunts Donna and Tricia. His cousin Cat was also frequently in the picture, especially when they were both younger. Michael and I attended his sporting events and other pursuits over the years. And in addition to summer travel, we spent a lot of time outdoors at various parks in the Ann Arbor area. I am only three albums away from finishing this project, and it's been an enjoyable journey.

Michael and I head to Portage Park today to visit Porter, Sean, and Rose. Porter is celebrating a belated birthday on Saturday, It is also Sean and Rose's fifth wedding anniversary.  It will be nice to spend a few days with them.

Monday, April 24, 2023

As I go through my old photo albums, I've noticed a pattern. Summer after summer  had the following sequence of events: Sean's family birthday celebration (often at Hudson Mills), Sean's birthday party with his friends (usually in the Chesterfield backyard or PuttPutt), a camping trip at PJ Hoffmaster, and a trip to Chicago to visit April and John.  Occasionally there were trips out-of-state: Glacier, Hawaii, Oregon, and California, for example. I've had some trouble identifying people - particularly Jerry's sons when they were younger. And I've been inconsistent with some last names - accidently using Curby instead of Stephens on older photos of Donna. I am more than half-way through my albums and have nearly filled our garbage bin with the empty albums, which are surprisingly heavy.

I noticed when I was walking home from the rec center this morning that it was sleeting. Not nice, Mother Nature...

My verse for today is from Leonard Cohen. I loved you when you opened like a lily to the heat; you see I’m just another snowman standing in the rain and sleet who loved you with his frozen love, his second hand physique, with all he is and all he was a thousand kisses deep.

Friday, April 21, 2023

Despite the rain this morning, I went for a walk. And it felt nice.

After several years of indecision, I am finally deconstructing the photo albums I've assembled from roughly 1968 - 2001. They filled three large very heavy plastic tubs, took up lots of shelf space, and were a pain to pack on our last two moves. I purchased photo boxes at Michael's a few days ago. I plan to store the photos by year and am currently in the process of removing photos and labeling them, which by the way is a tedious process. And my writing hand has been complaining. It's an interesting process  and it is hard not to reminisce about all the family get-togethers, and travels both within Michigan and out of state. Travels that have taken us to North Carolina, New York, Florida, California, Hawaii, Oregon, Washington state, and more. I expect this process will take me 2-3 weeks and it will be a relief.

Lydia was euthanized this morning when it was discovered she had a fast growing tumor. She had stopped eating and drinking. By the way, Lydia is Butch and April's cat. I used to call her Hitler cat because she had a strip of black fur above her mouth that looked like a mustache. I asked Butch how he was doing. Apparently okay as he mentioned he already moved on and went on to suggest that he had little reaction to mom and dad's deaths as well. No tears or lingering thoughts. This is not to say he didn't miss them. If he disputes these comments, I promise I will print a redaction.

Sunday, April 16, 2023

I am looking at a cardinal perched on a tree limb in the backyard. I really enjoy having a family room that looks out on our backyard. I've watched many bird species, squirrels, rabbits, chipmunks, neighbor cats, and more from the comfort of my chair. I can see the moon on clear nights. And pretty much have a front row seat for watching seasonal changes throughout the year. It's very calming.

Our summery days finally ended with temps on their way down this upcoming week. And it's okay. I got lots of outdoor time. I may be driving to the rec center tomorrow, however, instead of walking. I can be such a wimp sometimes.

Saturday, April 15, 2023

If you go down in the woods today, you're sure of a big surprise

If you go down in the woods today, you'd better go in disguise

For every bear that ever there was 

Will gather there for certain because 

Today's the day the teddy bears have their picnic.

I find myself quietly singing this song to myself nearly everytime I go for a walk in the woods. Which by the way I did not do today. Sean used to have a small toy radio that you would wind up and it would play the Teddy Bear's Picnic song. And I guess it stuck with me. Another rhyme that often runs through my thoughts is Who Killed Cock Robin, which is a little grim but I remember reading it repetitively because Sean liked it as a child. It's odd what our thoughts drift to. Interestingly, these are memories from Sean's childhood, not mine. The songs I remember most growing up are the ones my mother used to sing. My Gal's a Corker and Pretty Red Wing come to mind. That said, when asked about my mother, her singing isn't something that immediately comes to mind. I remember her more for her story telling and always thought she could write an interesting book about growing up in the south and her later experiences as an army wife. With eight children...

Last night, Michael and I ate at Old Town in downtown Ann Arbor. On the way home, I spotted someone in the backyard at the Luczak's home so we stopped uninvited and had a nice time despite what turned out to be a family get-together with Martha's parents, their daughter Claire, Claire's husband, and Tom's brother, Doug. Tom and Martha were both extremely gracious and I'm pretty sure would have been happy to have us stay for dinner, which we declined. The Luczak family are good people. Tom and Martha are the parents of Grace and Claire, two of Michael's rowers when he coached at Piioneer.  I miss socializing sometimes.

Thursday, April 13, 2023

We've enjoyed a stretch of summery weather this week with temps getting as high as the low 80's. And I've tried to spend as much time as possible outside. A few walks around the neighborhood, a walk at Hudson Mills Park, and several relaxing moments reading on our back patio - not a bad way to enjoy the sun and blue skies. And yes, I've already chided myself for my spotty use of sun screen.

I finally met Fiona today. A tiny dark eyed and dark haired human who easily melted my heart. Celina was visiting Butch with Paul and Fiona this morning and invited me to come by. It was also nice to see Paul, who is nearly four months older than Porter, but looks far older than his petite younger cousin. I enjoyed watching Grandpa Butch interact with his two grandchildren. His gentleness and patience made me smile. And lastly, it was nice to catch up with Celina. She has returned to work part-time - a question I had last week.  I don't envy the balancing act of caring for two children and working but she seems well. I really love seeing the wonderful woman and mother she has become.

Bern and I have been exchanging descriptions of our "nightmare" dreams. His dream may actually be related to an incident that happened to him when we lived in Germany, which I found interesting. I'd reveal what causes his night terrors but realize it may be private and not my story to tell.  In my case, my recurring dream of being lost, stranded and alone late at night with someone stalking me, isn't based on an actual event in my life. Although admittedly my fears may be related to multiple incidents I've experienced over the course of my lifetime. 

I finally returned to the fitness center this week - I've only been spending about 30 minutes there to do some strength training as the weather has been favorable for walking outside. Going forward, I'd like to go 3 days a week. I realize that there are always going to be interruptions to my fitness routines -  illness, trips, medical appointments, etc. but all I can do is try to be active when I can even if it is just a walk around the block.

Monday, April 10, 2023

I continue to enjoy Neil Gaiman's stories. I just finished reading a Tale of Two Cities about a city dweller who finds himself in what he believes to be the dream of the city in which he lives. His surroundings feel familiar but he is lost and doesn't know where he is. A familiar nightmare for me. One in which I often feel menaced. I've woken mid-dream feeling unsettled to find myself chiding myself for not carrying my phone in these dreams. 

I spoke to Bern yesterday and Kathy a few days earlier. When you think about their geographic locations, they are at opposite ends of the United States. It was good talking to them and getting small snapshots of their lives. Kathy is currently dealing with Hal's health issues. But I was happy to hear that she is going to a Jake Shimabujuro concert with a friend in a few weeks. His music will be a joyful escape for a few hours. And Bern seems to be coping with his own health issues in his own way. I give him a lot of credit for all the research he does. He makes me question how accepting I am of my doctor's recommendations. Although that said, I have resisted taking some medications so maybe there is some fiestiness in me after all.

Saturday, April 8, 2023

Some more words of wisdom from the National Park Service. Trails often look more flat on the map. It makes me happy that whoever manages their Instagram account has a sense of humor.

Michael and I headed to Bandemeer Park this morning to watch Pioneer HS and Huron HS row. It was cool and sunny today, high 40's, low 50's at most. I was surprised to see a young man in shorts doing push-ups by the rapids while his girlfriend took a dip in the river. Much hardier souls than me. I had on both a sweatshirt and a jacket with jeans.

Last night, Michael and I joined Butch and April at Real Seafood. I enjoyed a dinner out with family and it was nice to catch up. April was off yesterday (Good Friday). Celina hasn't returned to work yet following Fiona's birth but healthwise is doing well, which is relief after all the stress and ill-health she encountered prior to and following Fiona's birth. I also enjoyed the photos April shared of Fiona and Paul. 

Wednesday, April 5, 2023

Bern gifted me 2 huge volumes of the Sandman collection some years ago. I realized today that I am nearly at the 2/3 mark. This is where Dream and Delirium finally find their brother Destruction, who left the Endless years ago. Neil Gaiman is a good story teller. And I am appreciative of the visuals in the books that accompany the content.  Which reminds me, Sean finished illustrating Godzilla Rivals: Bioliante vs. Destoroyah, which is set to be published on May 10th. Order your copy now at your local comic book store.

It hit 70 degrees today for the first time this year. It's cloudy and rainy but the air feels wonderful. Both sliding glass doors are open in our family room to let the breeze in. I went for a short walk earlier this morning and got drizzled on and it felt great. I'm sure it's just a spring teaser but I'll take it. Even Kali couldn't resist sitting in doorway taking in the outside scents and the sounds of birds.  I noticed that robins are once again building a nest on our outdoor porch light. They have nested on either our front or back porch every spring that we have lived here so they must have some connection.  

Thursday, March 30, 2023

Today is Porter's 2nd birthday. Michael and I planned to be in Chicago this weekend to celebrate but because I  was there for two weeks earlier this month helping care for Porter after Rose's surgery, we will celebrate her birthday belatedly in late April. Fortunately, Jackie, Rose's mother is currently vsiiting them so perhaps they will have a small birthday celebration with her. It's hard to believe, Porter is already two years old. Has it really been that long since I held her as a newborn?

Sean and Rose will also be celebrating their 5th wedding anniversary when we return in April. Their wedding was such a joyous event. It's hard, however, not to think about how much they have been through in their five years of marriage - Sean's cancer experience, their home purchase, the birth of Porter, just to name a few. All the more reason to celebrate their love. 

Time and milestones go on and on. A reminder to chase the things that inspire you to create, give you hope and a glimpse at a better life, happiness, and love.

Tuesday, March 28, 2023

I'm caught up on laundry and the plants are watered. Michael and I also made a Sam's Club run today. Of course, I forgot to bring my shopping list and still need to pick up a few items but they are items I can easily pick-up elsewhere. 

I also need to get back into an exercise routine. It feels like for every step forward, I am taking two steps back. I was able to get a little walking in while in Chicago but mileage was far less than my normal average. I picked up what seems like a slight cold in Chicago - I believe from Porter who had the sniffles. So I opted to ride our indoor bike today but it will feel good to return to the recreation center.

Missing my little Chicago buddy, but it is nice to be home.

Sunday, March 26, 2023

Last day here, we return to Ann Arbor tomorrow. It's been an interesting two weeks with Porter. I taught her a few words - please and help me.  She helped me pick up her crayons today and brushed my hair. I marvel sometimes at her utter joy in the smallest things. And it was hard not to smile as I watched her push herself off the floor to a standing position walk a few steps in one direction, turn around and walk back, and then sit back down - she repeated this manuever about twenty times before becoming too tired to pull herself up to a standing position. I will miss her when we return home.

Michael picked up Rose's ebike today and she is outside giving it a try. It's pretty nice looking and I believe she will get a lot of use out of it.

Sean has been working weekends trying to get two jobs done to meet deadlines. He is under a lot of pressure and I am hopeful he's able to get what he needs to do done. I am trying to mind my own business but it is hard not to see how stressed he is. He lost working time dealing with Porter's fall a few weeks back and Rose's surgery last week. In part, I guess this is one of the reasons Michael and I are here.

Friday, March 24, 2023

Another 4am morning with Porter. She is ravenous when she wakes up which makes me wonder if she's going through a growth spurt. All I can say is that she knows what she wants and seems to value socializing over sleep. Intellectually I am aware that she is getting rewarded for these late night and early morning wake-up calls but the heart does what the heart wants to do. 

I just checked and Michael is less than an hour away. It will be nice to see him. And he will be here just in time for the weekend.

I watched what I believe was the final episode of Dear Edward this morning. An excellent and heart tugging series. And I've decided I'd like to read the book. Normally I prefer reading the book first but am always happy to make exceptions. Station Eleven is another series I watched before reading the book. Admittedly part of my interest in this series is that it takes place in Michigan and I found myself trying to correlate the locations featured in the book/series with locations in on the western side of the state along Lake Michigan. Ironically the series was filmed in Ontario, Canada with the fictional Severn City Airport actually located at the Toronto Pearson International Airport.     

Wednesday, March 22, 2023

I was up at 4:30am this morning and watched cartoons and colored with Porter. She woke up crying. I kept hoping she would conk out but it wasn't meant to be. Sean mentioned, however, that she fell asleep in the car on the way to daycare but apparently did not nap this afternoon at daycare. I am hoping this means she will sleep through the night. (Hah!)

Today I went with Rose to Aloha Eats and Trader Joe's - we took the bus, which of course for me, was exciting.  Rose was finishing an article she was writing about Aloha Eats and wanted to review her notes with the owner. Yesterday, we walked to Kilbourn Park so I could check out its greenhouse. From there, we walked to Moonwalker Cafe on Belmont and Karlov. We returned via the bus.

On Monday night, friends Tim and Tara came by for dinner. I made teri beef, rice, and mac salad. Tonight friends Josh and Pam came over. They brought dinner with them (chicken and some sides). I've always been impressed by how kind Sean and Rose's friends are.  Other friends have been leaving dinner items at their front door. Very helpful for Rose as she recovers from her surgery.  She is now able to lift her arms but is still not supposed to lift any weight over 5lbs. It's been difficult for Porter as she doesn't understand why her Mom is unable to hold or lift her.

Sunday, March 19, 2023

Rose ventured out with her girlfriend to get a mani/pedi and do some shopping. I imagine it feels good to get out of the house.  Porter is currently napping after sitting in her crib conversing loudly with her stuffed toys for nearly an hour. I was concerned that she would never settle down.

While I am happy to be here caring for Porter, I must admit feeling a bit antsy to get out by myself to walk or shop. Perhaps this coming week now that Rose is recuperating.

I did something completely out of character yesterday. I purchased an Esther Shimazu sculpture piece from a gallery called Pagoda Red in Chicago. I've admired and coveted her work for several years after seeing it on display at the Hawaii State Art Museum in Honolulu. For me, this purchase was an extravagence, but every once in a while maybe we should treat ourselves.

Friday, March 17, 2023

I looked for something green for Porter to wear to childcare for St Patrick's Day this morning and had to settle for some blue and green striped socks and blue green pants with a white shirt. It was that or her green bathing suit. Which given how cold it is outside, seemed wildly inappropriate.

I've spent the day hanging with Rose and helping her with her drainage tubes. I also scratched her back for whatever it's worth. We also walked  to Burger King for lunch and Walgreen's for a prescription she needed to pick up. Another big day in Chicago. We are currently binge watching Law and Order. 

I made dinner last night - enchiladas, rice, chips, and guacamole. Generally, I am trying to make myself useful and tend to Porter and Rose as much as possible. Sometimes, it feels like I should be doing more. I know Sean is stressing about project deadlines and Rose about her inability to hold her child. Things I can't do a lot about other than being here for their little family.

Thursday, March 16, 2023

Rose's surgery went well. I've been helping her with her drainage tubes and bandaging. We've been spending our days sitting on the couch watching movies and documentaries and going for short walks around the neighborhood. So lots of bonding moments. I like it but do feel badly for her. She has lots of incisions and stitches that are making movement uncomfortable.

Porter got her first time-out yesterday at daycare. She dropped her cookie and was impatient with Titi about replacing it. I've noticed she's gotten bossy and sometimes has a little attitude so I get it. I've been trying to ask her do some things for herself. If she is sitting on the couch and wants something on the coffee table, for example, I tell her to get it herself. I've also discovered she loves playing horsie (riding on my shoulders around the house). Our slower paced activities are playing with her new tea set, sticking stickers in her sketch pad, and coloring. It's good to be a grandma.

Monday, March 13, 2023

Michael and I arrived in Chicago this afternoon. We were last here in January. It's always a bit surprising to see Porter's developmental changes between visits. She is now taking unassisted steps and has learned and is using more words. It's hard not to melt a little when she puts her arms out to you to be picked up. And the sound of her laughing makes me smile.

Rose's surgery is tomorrow morning. It sounds like the next few weeks will be difficult for her, especially with a toddler. No lifting or raising her arms. But I guess that's why I am here,

Saturday, March 11, 2023

There seemed to be a lot packed into the last four days.  Wednesday, I was on a clear liquid diet and drank the first 64 ounces of the PEG solution, which resulted in several trips to the bathroom. Surprisingly, despite a lot of stomach noises I slept pretty well and woke up Thursday morning and starting at 6am drank the second 64 ounces.  Results were as expected. At noon, I checked in for my colonoscopy - it went smoothly. The gastroenterologist removed five polyps and I am waiting for biopsy results. There's this little part of me that wants to know more about this part of the procedure. Afterwards, Michael took me to the Northside and I broke my fast with pancakes. 

Yesterday, I felt tired for much of the day. Much to Michael's chagrin, the toilet we had repaired on Monday started leaking again in a different place. I noticed the leak when I was doing a load of laundry and discovered all my Tide pods were stuck together and oozing. I looked up and realized there was a steady drip of water through the bathroom floor above me. A different plumbing company was called and another repair was made and paid for. I had a doctor's appointment yesterday afternoon. I like my "newish" doctor. There's a gentle kindness about her that I appreciate. 

Monday, March 6, 2023

Michael called a plumber because the tank was dripping on our toilet only to be toilet shamed by the plumber. He basically indicated our toilet was cheap and badly made and wouldn't guarantee his work. We got an earful about how all the big box stores like Home Depot are selling sub-quality products and if we decide to replace our toilet to give him a call and he'll hook us up with his distributor. I found myself really not liking the arrogance of this guy.

Saturday, March 4, 2023

A few nights ago I received a text with a photo of bloodied Porter that Sean and Rose had taken in the emergency room. Porter stood up in her high chair and apparently swan-dived off and hit her head and the side of her face. She got a head scan and stayed at the hospital to nearly 1am "under observation." Sean took her to her regular doctor yesterday and after an examination said she seemed fine. I must admit I grimaced at all the blood matted in her hair and dried on the front of her smock. I am sure this is one of many injuries to come. But it's still hard to take in. And she will always be my sweet little trooper. 

Last night's winter storm left what looked like six inches of snow on the ground. The neighborhood was buzzing with the sounds of snow blowers this morning as people got out to clear their sidewalks and driveways. But to add insult to injury, neighborhoods once again lost power last night. Butch's among them. Fortunately, his power was restored today. 

White snow laden plants and trees looked beautiful against clear vivid blue skies this morning.

"I wonder if the snow loves the trees and fields, that it kisses them so gently? And then it covers them up snug, you know, with a white quilt; and perhaps it says, 'Go to sleep, darlings, till the summer comes again." — Lewis Carrol

Thursday, March 2, 2023

I just watched an episode of Dear Edward (series on Apple TV) and it's one of only a few TV series that evokes an emotional response from me. New Amsterdam, another TV series did the same. And it made me think about lines from books and songs or scenes from movies that are memorable and make me tear up. 

These words from the book Shutter Island, “He wanted to ask her what sound a heart made when it broke from pleasure, when just the sight of someone filled you the way food, blood, and air never could, when you felt as if you'd been born for only one moment and this, for whatever reason, was it.”  

A movie moment for me is the closing scene in American Gigolo where Michelle visits Julian in prison, her hand touches his forehead through the glass that separates them and she says, "I had no choice. I love you."  Music swells...

And then there is Mazzy Star's Fade Into You. "I want to hold the hand inside you, I want to take the breath that's true. I look to you, and I see nothing. I look to you to see the truth."

Our responses to art, music, literature, and movies are like windows to our souls. We smile, we cry. And I believe that's why people create. And I am thankful.

Wednesday, March 1, 2023

I saw this tweet from the National Park Services and haven't stopped laughing. "If you come across a bear, never push a slower friend down…even if you feel the friendship has run its course.⁣⁣"

Tuesday, February 28, 2023

I mapped out my timetable for next week's colonoscopy last night. Only clear liquids starting Wednesday and I start drinking the first 64oz of the magic potion (eight oz every 15 minutes) at 6pm that evening. I begin the next 64oz Thursday morning. My colonoscopy is at noon. Hopefully, slightly doped up me will make it to the Northside before they close at 3pm to eat pancakes. In Hawaii, my after colonoscopy choice for pancakes was at Zippy's Kahala. 

The news reported that DTE is providing a $35 credit to customers who were without power for 96 hours. The credit doesn't apply to us as we didn't quite make 96 hours but I don't believe it covers what most people spent due to the outage. Butch's power was finally restored yesterday.

Monday, February 27, 2023

Power was restored last night. Our house is warm. I vacuumed and did laundry today. Shades of normal. I am looking back at our 4 day outage as a learning moment. I certainly do not want a do-over but there are things Michael and I could have handled better. Especially in regards to what we powered with the generator a neighbor loaned us. The refrigerator was a given but we should have plugged in our router, for example. And I'm embarrassed to admit that I was unaware that because we have a gas water heater, we had plenty of hot water making showers possible. We are considering purchasing a generator, however. 

We can finally enjoy our refinished front room floor. I realize that I have a bias toward hardwood floors but I'm loving how it looks.

I've been binge watching the Good Fight and find the show well written and intelligently witty. The shows I am watching were filmed in 2018, so a lot of the back story, humorously addresses Trump's presidency. I like that the series also addresses a lot of serious issues including immigration, gun control, and women's rights.

Saturday, February 25, 2023

It snowed overnight - it's like a slap in the face as we enter day three of no power. The house is cold and dark. But I have much to be grateful for. Michael went out yesterday and bought wood for the fireplace, which while not providing a ton of heat at least makes the room feel cheerier and a bit warmer. Also, last night our next-door neighbor checked to see how we were doing and about an hour later another neighbor he had contacted brought us a generator and a space heater. So for a few hours last night, I felt a sense of normalcy (until the gas ran). Today's chore list includes looking for more firewood and buying gas for the generator.

And my sense of gratitude continues. Last night we went out for dinner and I enjoyed eating a hot meal in the warmth of the restaurant. And as I sit here wrapped in my down sleeping bag trying to count my blessings - I realize it's nice to have a phone that provides a hotspot that allows me to access the Internet on my computer. A small luxury but nice nevertheless.

Wednesday, February 22, 2023

We are in the middle of an ice storm right now, and the electricity has been flickering on and off. Fingers are crossed that we do not lose power. And I can't find the awesome flashlight Donna gave me so I am feeling like a contrary little kid that can't find a favorite toy. 

Our front room floor was sanded and the first of two coats of polyurethane was applied this morning. The refinishers are back tomorrow to apply the second coat. I am wondering if I am supposed to tip the two workers. I have not tipped plumbers or furnace maintenance guys in the past. It's a bit of a conundrum as I'd like to do the right thing.

With the birth of Fiona, I've been thinking about Porter's cousins. And it's occurred to me that we have a very blended family. I had already decided to create a birth announcement page for my annual photo book so it seems appropriate to also create a cousins page. My thanks to Butch, Shannon and Leslie for providing photos. Also a big congratulations to Celina and Michael for the latest addition to their family. I look forward to meeting Fiona.

Monday, February 20, 2023

My thoughts turned to an old bank customer today. Sueko was someone I considered a friend.  She was a good kind woman. Over the years that I knew her, I listened to her many stories about her family's experiences living in a Japanese Internment Camp during WWII. When she was in her 80's, she moved to Chicago to live with her daughter. We exchanged a few letters and I eventually traveled to Chicago to visit her. Sadly age had caught up to her and it took her awhile to recognize me. But I remember holding her frail hands in mine and it makes me smile. She died in 2005 at the age of 94. She was a memorable human - her gentle kindness and demeanor made a lasting impression on me. I looked up her obituary today and it looks like her family buried her in Ann Arbor. I've been thinking about searching for her gravesite as I think I'd like to pay my respects. 

Tomorrow marks the 8th year anniversary of my father's death. The years have softened my memories of him and when I think about his often unkind words and actions, it is with some humor.This does not discount, however, any hurt he caused anyone else over the years. I believe everyone had their own experiences with him and it's up to them to deal with any lingering feelings. My disclaimer...  That said, I loved the guy and appreciated his intelligence. And I enjoyed listening to his stories about his childhood and army career. Or at least the disclosures that didn't fall in the category of not being any of my goddamn business. His words, not mine. I miss you, old man.

Also, tomorrow is my older brother's birthday. An intelligent, slightly older than me guy. Shh, don't tell him but his birthday card is still sitting on my kitchen counter waiting to be mailed. Sorry bro...

Thursday, February 16, 2023

I feel oddly accomplished today. Michael and I spent the last few days pulling up the carpeting in our front room. This was followed by the tedious process of removing carpet strips, staples, and nails. Fortunately the hard wood floors below the carpet look great and I made arrangements today to get the floor refinished next week. Additionally, I posted an ad on FB Marketplace to get rid of the carpet we pulled up and surprisingly  four people responded. A fellow came by a few hours ago to pick the carpet and padding up. This is good news, as disposing of it ourselves meant cutting it into strips small enough to fit into our trash bin - a tedious process.

After a run of sunny days and temps above normal, winter weather has returned. Butch assures me that winter will be over in six weeks. I can live with that.

Monday, February 13, 2023

Michael's 75th Birthday weekend is over. We went to dinner at Ruth Chris (Michael's pick) on Friday night. Steaks were delicious, atmosphere and service were excellent - I'd go back. On Saturday, Butch celebrated his 70th Birthday with a hot dog and chili lunch at his house. It was really nice seeing Celina, Paul, and Michael. Celina is due next month, I've heard it's a girl and they may name her Fiona. Paul is adorable, by the way.  On Sunday, I made pork chops and mashed potatoes for dinner and a pineapple upside-down cake for dessert (again Michael's choice).  Butch, and April joined us. It was a pleasant quiet evening. I don't know how Michael felt about his birthday but it seemed to be how he wanted to celebrate it. And in the end, that's what counts.

Birthdays are often uncomfortable and disappointing. Expectations run high. I think if birthday celebrants were open about what they want or expect, the world would be a happier place. Something I plan to do, by the way.

Thursday, February 9, 2023

Butch and I joined the Meri Lou Murray Recreation Center this morning, the much less expensive cousin of the WCC Fitness Center. It has a track and weight equipment - I think I will be fine. An added bonus is that it is only about 1.5 miles from home, so very walkable once the weather warms up. 

I cleaned the grating under the fridge today and was surprised at how much grime I brushed off. Tools included my new long skinny lint brush, a flashlight, and the vacuum.

Michael took control of his birthday dinner - we are going to Ruth Chris tomorrow night for steaks. Works for me.

Wednesday, February 8, 2023

I cleaned the refrigerator interior on Sunday. I also decided to clean behind the fridge and this led to me also pulling the dirty grill off the front of the fridge to clean the condenser coils under the fridge. I was able to vacuum a layer of lint and grime from the coils that were visible but after watching a few DIY YouTube videos realized I needed a coil brush to do a more thorough job. The brush was delivered today. It is also useful for cleaning the lint guard in the dryer. Another few tasks to add to my list.

Michael celebrates his 75th birthday on Sunday and Butch is celebrating his 70th on Saturday. Both a reminder to me that we are all getting old. Plans for both birthdays are modest. I remember celebrating both Mom and Dad's 75th birthdays with some fanfare and am hoping Michael won't be disppointed. 

Our tax related docs were sent to the accountant on Monday and our returns have already been prepared. I am hoping to have a few quiet moments tomorrow to review them before signing off on them to get filed. 

Temps were above freezing today and I ventured outside for a walk around the neighborhood this morning. I put my headphones on and listened to the Samdman as I walked.. For the most part, sidewalks were clear of ice. Just being outside felt good. I am looking forward to warmer temps.

I took the plunge today and made plane reservations for a June trip to Honolulu. We are hoping to celebrate our 51st wedding anniversary while there. Dinner at a table overlooking the ocean sounds pretty close to perfect.

Saturday, February 4, 2023

I have to remind myself when I return from a trip that it's okay to relax. It's not like I need to get things done before heading back to a job. That said, I've spent the last few days changing and washing bedding and towels, which included wrangling a clean duvet cover onto our comforter. Additionally, I washed and folded nearly two weeks of dirty clothes. I noticed yesterday that now would be a good time to clean the refrigerator as it's currently fairly empty. So I've added it to my list. Lastly, I spent some time sorting through mail and getting documents together for this years tax prep. I am trying to decide if I should tackle taxes myself this year or go with the accountant we've used the past few years. 

Last night, Michael and I found ourselves talking about our time caring for Porter while her parents traveled. Our conclusion was that it was a satisfying experience. Even when she was difficult, it was hard not to smile a little at how much she made her opinions known. I sure do love that little girl.

Thursday, February 2, 2023

Michael and I returned to Ann Arbor today. Kali is glued to my lap and we are already falling back into old routines. 

Sean and Rose returned home safely yesterday. They were  elated to see Porter again. As I backed away so they could reconnect with their daughter, I realized how much I am going to miss her sweet little smiles. And how much I loved Porter snuggled with me when we were sitting on the couch. And how much we both giggled at the word peepee when I changed her diaper. And many more moments. It's been a tiring but rewarding week.

Wednesday, February 1, 2023

Eight nights down...  Sean and Rose are flying home. Life takes you to unexpected places. Love brings you home. I am looking forward to our Chicago family's reunion.

Tuesday, January 31, 2023

Seven nights down, one to go. Last night, I discovered a possible link between Porter waking up in the middle of the night and Friend yowling. Porter's crying seems to lead to the cat yowling, not necessarily the other way around. She was a little crabby this morning about getting dressed, hopefully not a harbinger of what kind of day/evening we have ahead of us.

I woke up to a sunny, deceivingly cold day. I've been spending far too much time indoors this week and am feeling a bit blah. Granted, I also have a cold, which doesn't help. 

Sean and Rose arrived in Paris yesterday. Hopefully they are enjoying their last few days in France experiencing as much as they can. As happy as I am for them to have had this time in Europe, I am looking forward to their return tomorrow. I cannot even begin to imagine how Porter will react. And given how clingy she has been with me, I suspect she will not let Rose out of her sight.

Monday, January 30. 2023

Six nights down, two to go. Porter had PT this morning and made it clear she would prefer sitting on grandma's lap over practicing standing with no support from a sit-on-the-floor position. Something I can't even do without using my hands for leverage.

We must be tiring Porter out as she not only took a long nap yesterday, she also slept through the night again. I find myself wondering if there is a link between the cat yowling and her waking up at night. Friend has been relatively quiet these past few nights. Or, I am just looking for a cause and effect relationship that may not exist. I am pretty sure, for example, that I could make a case for our cat Kali only barfs when she eats.

I took a second covid test this morning to be on the safe side and tested negative again.  I have moved on from the nasal drip stage to coughing. Woohoo...

Sunday, January 29, 2023

Five nights down, three to go. And yes, I am counting. She slept through the night again and I am hoping this is a streak. (Ha, ha, ha...) I continue to be amazed at how well she is holding up without her parents. She greets us with a smile every morning. And while it's clear she is manipulating us, we don't care. We are just trying to keep her happy and make it through another day. 

I, unfortunately, have a cold. The nose drip started yesterday. The result of a home covid test this morning was negative but I am still worried about all the close contact I am having with Porter. But it can't be helped. Like I said, five nights down, three to go.

Saturday, January 28, 2023

Four nights down, four to go. Not that I am counting. After nights of interrupted sleep, Porter slept through the night last night and I am grateful for the added rest. Caring for a 22-month old is both an amazing and  exhausting experience. And despite her not being able to articulate her needs all the time with words, she communicates with head shakes, hand gestures, big smiles, and when needed  taking us into the kitchen and pointing at where her snacks are kept. It's as if she's saying, get with the program, Poppy and Nani. And I never thought I'd feel the relief I do when she poops.

It's cold and snowy in Chicago. I've only managed to get one short walk in since being here and the sidewalks were an icy mess. I've resigned myself that getting some dedicated exercise while here is not going to happen. And am also slightly amused that my fitness center membership expired this past week. This means that when I return to Ann Arbor next week, it will truly feel like I am starting over. I remind myself, however, that we have enough fitness equipment in our basement to make a go of it without leaving the house, if need be.

From the photos Sean and Rose have posted, it looks like Angouleme is a very scenic historical town, with lots of artwork painted on buildings. They are there because Sean was invited to participate in the Angouleme International Comics Festival, which from what I've read is the second largest comic festival in Europe. He's held several workshops for kids while there and it looks like they have been well received. He has a book signing today. He and Rose leave for Paris, Monday morning. All and all, a wonderful experience for both of them. 

Wednesday, January 25, 2023

Sean and Rose left yesterday evening and arrived safely in France this morning. France is ahead of Chicago by seven hours. Their trip was not without drama. While checking in online late Monday night, Rose discovered that France requires visitors to have at least six months left before their passports expire. Both Sean's and Rose's expiration dates were one month away. Yesterday, their departure date, was spent scrambling early morning to get an appointment with the passport office in downtown Chicago to renew their passports. After calling repeatably and being told there were no appointments available, Rose managed to get a 10:00 am appointment due to a cancellation. After a two hour wait, they received their new expedited passports. A mad dash to get packed and to the airport followed but they made it. Their experience makes me believe in miracles...

I am not sure Porter understands that her parents are missing yet. We kept to her normal schedule last night and again this morning. Fortunately, she slept well and was cheerful when she woke up. I can't help but think, however, that at some point she'll realize they are gone. And I am uncertain what her reaction will be. 

Monday, January 23, 2023

Michael and I drove to Chicago on Saturday, instead of Sunday as planned, to avoid the snow flurries predicted over the weekend. We woke up yesterday to about an inch accumulation and it continued to snow on and off throughout the day. By mid-afternoon, however, most of it had melted. I do not know how Michigan fared, but based on a photo Butch sent me, it looked like Ann Arbor got a few inches.

Sean and Rose leave tomorrow and there is a flurry of activity as they catch up on laundry and other work or house related responsibilities. And packing, of course. I am hoping Porter adjusts to their absence but know full well how confusing it will be.  All Michael and I can do is carry on with her normal schedule and provide comfort and love.

Porter had PT this morning. Following her PT, Michael and I went with Sean to drop her off at childcare - primarily to see what route he takes. Afterwards, Michael and I spent most of the day driving around neighborhoods north of Portage Park to see if any were areas we'd feel comfortable living in. The Skokie/Lincolnwood areas came out the winner of today's explorations. By the way, I should mention that we are not committed to the idea of moving. We love our home in Ann Arbor but are leaving ourselves open to the possibility of moving to be closer to Porter. We also grocery shopped for Rose, picking up a lot of items for Porter. If anyone is hungry for oatmeal or Gerber fruit and vegetable pouches, we've got you covered.

It's strange to think this time tomorrow, Sean and Rose will be at O'Hare waiting for their flight to France.

Monday, January 16, 2023

Sean and Rose leave for France on Tuesday 01/24. Michael and I are caring for Porter in their absence. I am slowly working my way through a mental list of things I'd like to get done before going to Chicago. Today's task was a trip to Costco to cancel my membership. This decision was made because Michael and I only went to Costco once in 2022. After a walk through the store, however, I decided to downgrade my membership level instead. I am taking the attitude that this will be the test year for remaining a member. 

Speaking of memberships, this is my last week at the Health and Fitness Center at WCC and I find myself feeling sad about it. But I really want to give the Meri Lou Murray Recreation Center a chance. And this little voice keeps whispering, it's going to be fine.

Michael's organizational efforts have resulted in increased efficiency in not only his office/studio but also our furnace/laundry/storage/workshop areas.  Nicely done, Dove. And I was able to repurpose a shelving unit that was in the closet in Porter's room (aka guestroom). I laid it longways on the floor and it is perfect for her toys and books. Doting granny at work...

Winter is starting to wear on me. I look in the mirror and wonder if I look as tired as I've been feeling. 

Wednesday, January 11, 2023

Butch has been going to the WCC Fitness Center nearly every morning since the beginning of the year. And I can't keep up. I decided not to go this morning with the thought that I'd catch up on sleep, but I found myself awake at my usual time. And feeling a few regrets about not going. 

Michael and I went to Ikea today. He decided to upgrade his office/studio space with new work tables and other accessories. And it looks great. While at Ikea, I looked at a few storage options for the toys and art materials that are kept at our house for Porter. While I didn't buy anything, I did find one I liked that may become a future purchase.

My thoughts have turned to tax preparation. I feel like I am fairly organized but like every year of my adult life, I am impatiently waiting for tax documents to appear. 

Monday, January 9, 2023

I have been working to complete my 2022 photo books and find myself ending the year with several pages of photos of Porter. I create these photo journals for myself. But I like to think that someday, Porter may skim through them and say, look, it's me.

Between this blog and my photo books, I have a record of sorts dating back to 2004, that I occasionally use for reference. If I count the photo albums that I used to assemble before the digital age, I have several more years of history. And I get that when I die, this bit of my history will likely end up in a dumpster. Perhaps I should amend my will, and request a huge bonfire instead. Smoke to ashes...

My membership at the Health and Fitness Center at Washtenaw Community College (WCC) ends in a few weeks. Despite loving this wonderful facility, I plan to downsize to the less expensive Meri Lou Murray Recreation Center. I'll let you know how I adjust (or not) in future posts. I've been going with Butch to WCC and I'm not 100% certain yet whether he will renew his membership or switch to the Rec Center as well.

I dreamt about Dad last night, which is unusual. He was directing people to move boxes for him (no surprise there). I have tried to look for meaning in this dream and am coming up empty. Maybe it's because there is no meaning. Quoting John Lennon, A dream you dream alone is only a dream. A dream you dream together is reality.

I know it's only January but I am counting the days to warmer weather. 

Monday, January 2, 2023

I have always had melancholic tendencies. I feel love, happiness, and other emotions, but an underlying sense of sadness permeates my life. It's not unusual for me to suddenly tear up. I appreciate order, quiet, and loyalty. And I believe myself to be a steadfast, pragmatic, and stoic person. I don't know what other people feel or experience so I don't know how common my feelings of sadness are. But they are real to me.

And Mom, my thoughts are with you today. Happy Birthday.

Sunday,  January 1, 2023

My resolution this year is to just be myself,  whoever that may be...

Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year. - Ralph Waldo Emerson