I Am Not a Number

I keep a deep grin on my face, and watch as the clock ticks by

Everything seems great, from the perspective of another eye.

Avoiding alone time is how I cope;

Maybe if I pretend, there will be some hope.

I’m overjoyed with laughter, when i’m with my friends,

But little do they know, as soon as they leave, it always ends.

“Did you eat yet,” my mom says when I return home

I stay silent, leaving my thoughts to roam.

Calories, calories, calories:

They're all I count,

Leaving me to wonder, will I ever amount?

The scale glares, like a demon; it haunts me.

My food screams, “Don’t do it!” when I just want to be free.

This is a bumpy car to be in,

Feeling like you can never win;

With every “I’m fine”, I lose a little more of my twinkle and shine.

But don’t you worry, don’t you fret,

I’ll soon be jumping with joy and shouting with glee.

Finally, I can get back to being me!