Yunagi

1
Whenever I look at the world...
(I often feel)
like I'm empty.
I always smile when I talk.
But that's just a habit I got from copying a kid I looked up to in elementary school.
"But, I..."
[The least I] want to do is be kind to myself.

2
There is nothing good about feeling pain. But I sometimes seek for it.
"Maybe a part of me wants to just be pitied. It can feel comforting."
"Maybe it's unusual. But it's important to me."

3
Hope is complete by virtue of being alive.
"I don't feel hopeful because I don't feel despair. No matter how hard or hopeless things become."
I always find myself.

4
I blame everything on myself. It makes me fed up.
"Before I sleep, I sometimes wail... but... once I wake up, I just don't care about it anymore."
"Thank god I have a simple mind!"

5
Hatred is the feeling I hate.
(I tell myself it's not true. And pretend not to see it.)
But...
I hate tomatoes even more.