The Hour of Happiness
The feeling of euphoria came to me during a drive to school. I listened to music for an hour while cruising down the highway. The warm beautiful weather may be the reason for such a feeling. It was similar to the feeling a child gets when they are taken to the zoo for a field trip with their class and all their friends. It was like I was experiencing something new and exciting. But there was nothing new or exciting about my drive to school. I have commuted to school everyday for the past 5 years. Why did this feeling come to me now?
This feeling is something I long for. It’s the reason I made all those sacrifices in the past and the reason I make the decisions today. I wish to be happy. Forget about the money and Joneses status. I want to grow up and be a kid again. I want to be in that feeling where the world is amazing and full of magic and adventure. Not the adult who stresses about the disgusting world we live in. I wish to see the beauty and magic again. That hour's drive to school was the same as all the others besides the most important factor… my mood.
I will continue to make decisions in favor of my mental health. Happiness should be a feeling that should be normal to feel. I won’t feel this forever. Matter of fact it didn’t even last the whole hour. It probably lasted only ten minutes. But I remember the feeling and pondered on it for the remainder of the fifty minutes. I thought of all that happened today to lead up to my happies seconds. I thought about my family, my dogs, and my job. I thought about the past, the present, and the future. With all these thoughts coming in my mind trying to figure out why I feel euphoric at this time. And I came to realize I was just grateful for my life.
February 26, 2024