I was there in the beginning. I watched as you first rose on your legs and looked around at the world. I saw your eyes full of wonder and delight, and I was happy. I looked into your soul and I saw myself. I knew that you were alive and full of love. I knew that the cycle of life was beginning again, here on this small rock in the middle of the universe.
How can I begin to tell you how I felt on that day? You were not my first born, not even on this planet. You are not my youngest by any means either, and yet you are so eternally precious all the same. You are my child. More than that, you are myself. We are one, linked forever. What you feel, I feel. What I know, you know. We are love incarnate. We are life.
There are so many things I want to say to you. I have tried many times, through messengers, through your hearts, but the words never come out right. But how can they? What words can possibly do justice to all of this, to all I feel? But I will try. I cannot do otherwise. I love you so much, my precious children. You deserve to know and feel that love. So hear me now, in these words, but more importantly, in the voices in your heart.
I know you wonder why. Why are you here? Why are you alive? You know the answer. You’ve seen it so many times, in the eyes of a lover or a child, watching the sun disappear and the moon rise. You’ve felt it on the wind. Say it with me now. Let the word form on your lips. Love.
It’s that simple, isn’t it. Love. And yet it’s the hardest answer there is, because it isn’t neat or easy. Love is hard. It can be as painful as it is joyful. It is confusing and complex. True love is more than romance or intimacy, more than marriage, friendship, or family. True love is forgiveness, acceptance, compassion, understanding, but you know all this. You can feel it in your soul. So why don’t you accept it? Is it too hard for you, too difficult a path?
It’s your path to take. It’s who you are. Take heart. Be courageous. Live up to all you are. Be the love that you are.
Do not fear death. It is only a door, a transformation. Listen to those among you who have seen it’s light. They are guides. Look into your hearts. Look at the world. Feel it. You know that death is not an ending. Dare to believe it. Dare to embrace the unknown.
Life is an unknown. What lies beyond your life is an unknown. Do not let this make you afraid. Embrace it with all your might.
Do not believe in me because you are told to. Believe in me because you feel me in your heart. Believe in me because you feel me surrounding you, holding you. Do not be afraid to embrace me. You can do it if you try, if you let yourself. There is no secret to it. Just let yourself feel life and love, and you will feel me.
Do not listen to the preachers and prophets because they tell you that you should. Do not follow a teacher because you are afraid to be on your own. If you believe the message to be true in your heart, then listen to the messenger. If not, reject him, whomever or whatever he may be.
Trust yourself. Trust your heart. She will not fail you. Believe in your own goodness, in your own loveliness. For that is what you are. Love and goodness brought to life. Turn your eyes inward, and you will see it is true.
But what of evil you ask. What of all the pain and suffering? What of all the senseless tragedies? What of war and destruction? How can this come from love? How can this come from love brought to life?
And yet what does evil bring, but goodness to fight it. When are you most heroic, most courageous, but at those times when life seems its most awful. Can you not see the balance in this, the perfection?
I know how frightening this seems to you, but look beyond the surface. Search your heart, and you will feel the balance of life, the necessity of all things, even those that seem horrid. All things have purpose and meaning. All are part of the beauty of life, no matter how ugly they may seem. Quiet your heart and you will feel this in your own life. Embrace what you know to be true, no matter how terrifying it may seem. Embrace the balance of life.
How I long to share with you all the secrets and joys of the universe. I long for the day when you will join me in experiencing the wonder of all creation. I cannot wait to see the love and joy in your heart on that day.
There are so many things I want to show you. The beauty of so many other worlds, so many other beings. The glory of the birth of new life, new stars, new galaxies. You cannot begin to imagine the power and intensity of the feelings and emotions you will experience at such events. It will overwhelm you, just as you are relishing in it.
October 8, 1995