I open my eyes and I see you. In cloud, mountain, tree, and sibling, there you are.
I close my eyes and I hear you. From wind, bird, piano, and sibling, there you are.
I cannot escape you; but why would I want to?
You are beauty, glory, joy, ecstasy, and the shiver up my spine when I feel your touch upon my soul. You are something truly wonderful.
A word like love can never fully contain your essence, but it will have to do, for you are warm and sublimely wonderful love.
You radiate in birth and death, in moans of pleasure and cries of agony, in our happiness and our pain, in the hidden moments of beings we are too proud and stubborn to truly see. You radiate from every particle of creation; for every one of them is an act of love.
I feel this every moment and it overwhelms me. It pushes me to the brink of sanity and I am not sure I want to step back.
I cannot escape you, and I do not want to.
I know you want me to tell your story, our story, my story, but I feel so inadequate. I am small and foolish. I have, do, and will fail to love. My words are trivial. I fear that I will fail to convey the you that reveals themselves to me.
But you do not care, do you? You do not want success, only effort. There is no ultimate triumph in creation, just more life and more love.
So you call and reveal, sharing your love, your being, with no expectation of response. But how could I not respond? You flood my soul and I cannot possibly contain it within.
I cannot escape you, and I never will. Thank you my friend.
October 21, 2012