When you are a new Mama, (from birth to 5 years of age), your body is trying to balance hormones, body changes, and deficiencies in vitamins and minerals.  

These can lead to Postpartum Depression or Postpartum Anxiety. 

Now, reading this you may think to yourself, "I'm a new Mama, I wake up 3-5 times a night with my baby. It is no wonder I have issues concentrating or struggle with motivation. I literally am providing life for this young human and you're telling me now, that I'm moody and have depression and/or anxiety on top of this? I feel like I am holding all these spinning plates on poles and if I stop for one second, I'm going to drop them all and life will cease to exist."

This is a little dramatic, but not far from what I felt when I became a Mama. I felt I was the only one qualified to take care of my babies, the only one who could calm them down, and the only one to help them. I held my husband (their father) and the rest of my support system at arms length. I am superwoman!

It wasn't until I couldn't hold up my plates anymore and my plates or balancing act fell apart. I realized then, that I never needed to do this on my own. I do have an amazing support system that I can rely on. 

I admitted to having seriously dangerous thoughts, depressed feelings and admitted to resenting my children.  I got into therapy, I let someone else tend to my children's needs. I got on medication. My youngest is now 4 and while I am working on this balancing act of life, I am by no means perfect. Some days are better than others, but I am doing my best every day.