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My name is Liz. I am sixteen years old, and I have no idea how I would have made it through the past few years of my life had I never discovered Fame.
My name is Liz. I am sixteen years old, and I have no idea how I would have made it through the past few years of my life had I never discovered Fame.
For me, Fame has always been something to identify with. Not that I’m extraordinarily talented in any areas of the performing arts, though I do enjoy them. I’m a less-than-graceful dancer, a forgetful actress. The only type of performing art worth mentioning that I have participated in has been my singing. I’m a mediocre guitarist, but I have a decent enough soprano voice that I have gotten several awards for it. However, severe stage fright often keeps me from indulging in much performance outside of my high school’s choir.
For me, Fame has always been something to identify with. Not that I’m extraordinarily talented in any areas of the performing arts, though I do enjoy them. I’m a less-than-graceful dancer, a forgetful actress. The only type of performing art worth mentioning that I have participated in has been my singing. I’m a mediocre guitarist, but I have a decent enough soprano voice that I have gotten several awards for it. However, severe stage fright often keeps me from indulging in much performance outside of my high school’s choir.
When I first discovered Fame, it was the year 2009 and I was only fourteen years old. I’ll never forget the night my mother came home from grocery shopping and handed me the DVD, the original 1980 film. The idea of a school set especially apart for kids talented in the performing arts fascinated me, and I fell in love before I even put the DVD in the DVD player.
When I first discovered Fame, it was the year 2009 and I was only fourteen years old. I’ll never forget the night my mother came home from grocery shopping and handed me the DVD, the original 1980 film. The idea of a school set especially apart for kids talented in the performing arts fascinated me, and I fell in love before I even put the DVD in the DVD player.
Goosebumps sparkled over my body from beginning to end. At every clip, I was thinking, “That’s me. That’s how I feel.” Doris’s stage fright and wavering, shy voice during her audition brought me humbly back to my first voice test in chorus, to determine whether my voice was alto or soprano. Another area of identification with Doris was her crush on an upperclassman, Michael, often resulting in embarrassing herself. If there’s one thing I’m guilty of, it’s of ending up hopelessly smitten with an upperclassman that was kind to me, and embarrassing myself later when I talk to him again. I did that when I was in the seventh grade, finally scrounging up the courage to talk to my crush, who was a bit older than me, and I always talked to him about the most unimportant, dumb things, or I’d take any opportunity to talk to him. Later I’d always feel so embarrassed or stupid about it.
Goosebumps sparkled over my body from beginning to end. At every clip, I was thinking, “That’s me. That’s how I feel.” Doris’s stage fright and wavering, shy voice during her audition brought me humbly back to my first voice test in chorus, to determine whether my voice was alto or soprano. Another area of identification with Doris was her crush on an upperclassman, Michael, often resulting in embarrassing herself. If there’s one thing I’m guilty of, it’s of ending up hopelessly smitten with an upperclassman that was kind to me, and embarrassing myself later when I talk to him again. I did that when I was in the seventh grade, finally scrounging up the courage to talk to my crush, who was a bit older than me, and I always talked to him about the most unimportant, dumb things, or I’d take any opportunity to talk to him. Later I’d always feel so embarrassed or stupid about it.
While there were other several small identifications, I cannot think of anything that I indentified with more than Bruno Martelli. I’m no keyboard prodigy, nor am I much of a composer, but nearly every word that came out of his mouth was something I had once said myself. I recall a conversation between Bruno and Angelo, his father, in the cab, that still brings eerie goosebumps to me because it not only felt like a conversation I had had with my mother once, but it felt like conflicting thoughts I have had in my own mind. I remember it going a bit like this…
While there were other several small identifications, I cannot think of anything that I indentified with more than Bruno Martelli. I’m no keyboard prodigy, nor am I much of a composer, but nearly every word that came out of his mouth was something I had once said myself. I recall a conversation between Bruno and Angelo, his father, in the cab, that still brings eerie goosebumps to me because it not only felt like a conversation I had had with my mother once, but it felt like conflicting thoughts I have had in my own mind. I remember it going a bit like this…
Bruno: Not my age, nobody’s my age! Maybe I’m ahead of my time. Maybe I don’t think people will like my stuff.
Bruno: Not my age, nobody’s my age! Maybe I’m ahead of my time. Maybe I don’t think people will like my stuff.
Angelo: Hey. How do you know what people will like, huh? How do they know if they don’t hear it? Bruno, how can they recognize your talent, give you scholarships, and record contracts, son, and awards?
Angelo: Hey. How do you know what people will like, huh? How do they know if they don’t hear it? Bruno, how can they recognize your talent, give you scholarships, and record contracts, son, and awards?
Bruno: Maybe they don’t, maybe I die and get discovered and my ghost gets the Grammy.
Bruno: Maybe they don’t, maybe I die and get discovered and my ghost gets the Grammy.
It’s hard to describe just how eerie this scene always is for me, because of how my mom has always told me that I can’t afford to be so shy about sharing my musical work with people if I want to be a performer at all, and how I don’t feel that my music is the kind of thing people will want to hear, but then there’s that little voice in my head that tells me, “Well, you know, if no one hears it…” Later, when I started watching the TV series, I also felt a strong identification with Bruno’s disgust with contemporary pop music and how its lyrics often hold very little emotional meaning.
It’s hard to describe just how eerie this scene always is for me, because of how my mom has always told me that I can’t afford to be so shy about sharing my musical work with people if I want to be a performer at all, and how I don’t feel that my music is the kind of thing people will want to hear, but then there’s that little voice in my head that tells me, “Well, you know, if no one hears it…” Later, when I started watching the TV series, I also felt a strong identification with Bruno’s disgust with contemporary pop music and how its lyrics often hold very little emotional meaning.
With this film, I remember always being fascinated with the raw realism of it, how they sugarcoated nothing and left almost no issues unaddressed. I felt that I had been changed forever by those few hours.
With this film, I remember always being fascinated with the raw realism of it, how they sugarcoated nothing and left almost no issues unaddressed. I felt that I had been changed forever by those few hours.
A few short weeks after seeing Fame for the first time, I had a very real experience that now reminds me more of Fame than it did at the time. I had my second solo/ensemble vocal contest, in which I had a solo to sing. I was very excited, and not nervous in the least, because I had done one the previous year and scored a perfect 1, which is the highest available score. However, I was almost late, and my solo room was on the top floor, and I ran up the steps, in heels. I made it to the performance room in just enough time, but I was panting for breath. The judge told me to take my time catching my breath before I performed, but, I only gave myself about a minute to catch my breath, feeling as if I was waiting too long. So, I started my solo partially out of breath. The first verse went well, and I remembered all the techniques Mr. O (nickname for my choir director) had taught me. Then I waited through the piano’s part between verses, and took a breath to come in, but the words didn’t come to me. I had forgotten the entire second verse. My eyes widened and I brought my finger nervously to my mouth and chewed at my fingernail, feeling my face turn bright red. My accompanist even played the second verse intro twice waiting for me to come in, and I didn’t, until the pick-up for the last verse, which went fine, but I was absolutely mortified.
A few short weeks after seeing Fame for the first time, I had a very real experience that now reminds me more of Fame than it did at the time. I had my second solo/ensemble vocal contest, in which I had a solo to sing. I was very excited, and not nervous in the least, because I had done one the previous year and scored a perfect 1, which is the highest available score. However, I was almost late, and my solo room was on the top floor, and I ran up the steps, in heels. I made it to the performance room in just enough time, but I was panting for breath. The judge told me to take my time catching my breath before I performed, but, I only gave myself about a minute to catch my breath, feeling as if I was waiting too long. So, I started my solo partially out of breath. The first verse went well, and I remembered all the techniques Mr. O (nickname for my choir director) had taught me. Then I waited through the piano’s part between verses, and took a breath to come in, but the words didn’t come to me. I had forgotten the entire second verse. My eyes widened and I brought my finger nervously to my mouth and chewed at my fingernail, feeling my face turn bright red. My accompanist even played the second verse intro twice waiting for me to come in, and I didn’t, until the pick-up for the last verse, which went fine, but I was absolutely mortified.
The judge spoke to me afterward, which he technically wasn’t supposed to, to calm me down, because I was very rattled over the whole deal, and didn’t even want to return later to sing in my group ensemble. My parents took me out of the building to talk with me, calm me down, convince me it was no big deal. Once I had calmed down a little, I began to relate my situation to Fame, remembering the beginning scene where Montgomery forgets the rest of his monologue. I also recall Ralph screwing up his stand-up act near the end of the movie, and what Montgomery told him, about how performers will always have tough breaks and that life goes on and there are always other chances. This encouraged me to go back to the building for my ensemble, which, I am proud to say, scored a 1, which, despite my faux pas, so did my solo.
The judge spoke to me afterward, which he technically wasn’t supposed to, to calm me down, because I was very rattled over the whole deal, and didn’t even want to return later to sing in my group ensemble. My parents took me out of the building to talk with me, calm me down, convince me it was no big deal. Once I had calmed down a little, I began to relate my situation to Fame, remembering the beginning scene where Montgomery forgets the rest of his monologue. I also recall Ralph screwing up his stand-up act near the end of the movie, and what Montgomery told him, about how performers will always have tough breaks and that life goes on and there are always other chances. This encouraged me to go back to the building for my ensemble, which, I am proud to say, scored a 1, which, despite my faux pas, so did my solo.
When I started to watch the Fame TV series, just this past fall, around September or October 2011, by chance of finding the DVDs at a local general store, I fell in love with Fame all over again. Sure, there were different characters and some of the characters I had grown to adore in the movie (like Ralph Garci) were either not there at all anymore or weren’t important, but it still held the same messages and still had what was most important for me, Bruno Martelli. As silly as it may sound, he was one of my main reasons for watching it, because I got such a kick out of his character.
When I started to watch the Fame TV series, just this past fall, around September or October 2011, by chance of finding the DVDs at a local general store, I fell in love with Fame all over again. Sure, there were different characters and some of the characters I had grown to adore in the movie (like Ralph Garci) were either not there at all anymore or weren’t important, but it still held the same messages and still had what was most important for me, Bruno Martelli. As silly as it may sound, he was one of my main reasons for watching it, because I got such a kick out of his character.
For me, Fame is a place to feel at home, to feel like I could identify with someone, even if that someone wasn’t someone I knew personally.
For me, Fame is a place to feel at home, to feel like I could identify with someone, even if that someone wasn’t someone I knew personally.
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