death note - mello x murray

INTIMACY

He gets a bit jealous sometimes.

QUALITY TIME

He loves the attention you give him even though he’ll never admit it and he doesn’t like when others try to take your attention away from him. Mello may seem like he’s trying too hard to be intimidating and commanding sometimes, but he really just wants to make sure your attention is on him. Overall, softest hard-boy.
He may even take you to a shooting range if you want. He justifies it by saying it’s good for you to know how to protect yourself but you’ve figured out he just really likes standing behind you and helping you with your stance.

ACTS OF SERVICE

Mello would be one of the best chefs you’ve ever come across and cooking lessons/dates would most certainly be a thing.

RECEIVING GIFTS

Mello’s not really one to give or receive gifts but he would spoil you rotten in any way that he could. This may actually be with gifts or he may simply offer to rub your feet as you both relax on the couch or he’ll offer to cook your favorite meal if you’re not feeling well or to help make up from a fight.

PHYSICAL TOUCH

He may not seem like he enjoys it at first, in fact he almost never lets you touch his hair, but playing with his hair is Mello’s weakness.

MOOD SWINGS

During those times when you’re upset for no reason at all, he would automatically think it was something he did and has to fix it immediately. He’s confrontational enough to simply go up to you and ask you what’s wrong and what he did, but doesn’t quite understand when you tell him that nothing happened, you just feel that way.He kinda thinks you’re lying just to spare his feelings and presses you more. This effectively puts you in more of a bad mood, making him think that there was in fact something wrong in the first place. All you can tell him is that “sometimes this just happens, it’s not rocket science!” In reference to your seemingly out of nowhere anger.You thought he would understand more, seeing as he’s a pretty emotional person. As it turns out, his emotions are usually driven by something like an action or event so it’s a little hard for him to understand that you’re just down because that’s what your brain does sometimes, especially when he’s as insecure as he is and worries that it’s his fault.You might have to separate yourself from him for a while and wait until you pep up a little bit so that you can properly explain what’s going on without being too snappy. When you both eventually calm down, you can sit him down and talk about what’s going on.He understands after an explanation from you and apologizes for being so pushy and accusatory. He’ll do his best to accommodate for what your feeling but there will always be that part of him that still worries it’s his doing and you’re too nice to tell him that.

Mello has no problem showing affection to his Dearest, no matter where they are or who’s around. When he’s clingy and the two are out in public, he places an arm around their waist and they reciprocate with an arm gently around his upper back (sometimes his scars can be sore, so his lover is always careful when touching him). He likes to kiss them, but making out is reserved for home. He doesn’t want to be somewhere they can’t let it get carried away, & he loves to let it get carried away. When his Love is showering , he likes to jump in with them. Showering together is one of his favorite things, especially when he feels clingy. He likes having someone he can be complexly exposed to and still feel safe. They always tell him the water ripples are beautiful cascading down his scars.

“Kiss me.”——“You damn idiot,” you sighed in clear frustration over your boyfriend’s latest injury.You were kneeling in front of Mello, who seemed to be doing all he could to avoid eye contact with you as you wiped off the blood from his forehead.“You’re usually smarter than this, Mello,” you continued.“I didn’t ask for one of your lectures. All I wanted was some ice. I’m fine!”You sighed again. “Sorry for worrying...”There was a long pause then while you carried on cleaning up his wounds. This was becoming too normal of a routine for your liking. The negotiations, the long absences, the fights. It was all becoming more than you could bare. Mello must’ve sensed something similar in you since his gaze softened a little once he finally decided to look at you.“Look, I just have a lot on my mind. I didn’t mean to snap.” He explained in a whisper.You only gave him a smile that looked less genuine, and more jaded. Like you had given up.“I’ll get you a bag of ice for your eye,”But before you could turn and walk away, he grabbed you by your wrist.“Kiss me,” he softly demanded.With that smile still on your face, you leaned forward to give his lips a swift peck. Then you retreated to the kitchen without another word. Mello sat back on the sofa with a huff. He wouldn’t be too surprised if you decided to leave in the middle of the night and never come back. He was sure that this wasn’t the life you expected to have. But he also didn’t want to give you up just yet.

• He is a closet cuddle lover. Any kind of affection is well received, it reminds him that you care for him. You are one of the only persons he doesn't have to continuously impress, you don't care about his Genius status. Mello loves hugs, he loves feeling your warmth, he loves hands making circles on his back, he loves curling your hair in his fingers. However, he always denies it. There is always a certain softness to his face when you hug him, though.• After the explosion, half of his body was covered in scars. He doesn't like you to see them. He thinks they are disgusting: wrinkled skin in a reddish brown; they are dry to touch and have a general nightmarish appearance. Still, he loves when your fingers wander across his scars. The skin is almost insensible, but he can almost feel the tingly graze of your fingertips. Then, he feels loved.• Mello doesn't sleep much. He is always immersed in something: he is either studying, or trying to untangle Kira's Case, or investigating an SPK leak. It is the perfect way to run away from nightmares. He has a lot of them: that's why he only goes to bed when he is extenuated, and only sleeps four or five hours. He hates the burning, the nausea, the tears that such dreams bring.• His kisses are extremely passionate. It doesn't matter if they are rough and fast, or soft and slow, they always feel deep. Mello has a hard time hiding his emotions and he just loves you too much. Still, he is afraid he might hurt you. He knows he is dangerous, and he knows his actions are usually too violent; his fear makes his touches more rigid, he is always holding himself.

- he likes to dress you up. One day he just came to you asking if he could pick out some clothes for you and, intrigued, you allowed him to do so. Any loose money that he had to spend, he spent it on you. Curious, you asked him what brought this up and he told you rather huffily that he found it cute when you matched him that one day you wore this leather jacket he bought you, and he wanted that to happen more often.- Mello kicks and flails a lot in his sleep, so it became a bit of a difficulty when you two started sharing a bed. Eventually, though, you learned that if you kiss and nuzzle this little spot on his neck, he’ll soon calm down. You think it’s because that’s a sensitive spot of his and it lets his unconscious self know that you’re there.- You see, Mello doesn’t usually respond well to any kind of criticism, even if the person is just trying to be helpful. It either makes him feel too babied if they’re going easy on him or he feels like they don’t care enough when they’re super blunt. If you want to give him helpful criticisms, the best way is to be gentle yet honest, always supportive of his improvement in any area he might need work on and offering ways to do so. It makes him want to improve himself for him rather than for the sole purpose of being the best. He still has a long way to go, but you’re going to be there for him every step of the way.- He’s actually really flexible. It doesn’t exactly surprise you since it would make sense for his lean body type, but it is a bit startling when he just. Does a split. ‘Cause he’s bored. How he can do that with those leather pants, you have absolutely no clue. His flexibility also helps in other activities...like couples yoga! :D(Name): yeah, but can you touch your toes?Mello, bending over: Obviously. See?(Name): *smacks ass*- Mello’s hair gets caught in everything. You’ll be walking down the street and suddenly Mello won’t be by your side anymore, but yelling for you to wait up while he’s pulled back by his hair which happens to be caught on a sign post. He even verbally considers cutting his hair, but there’s no real bite behind that threat. He knows he would miss his long hair and having you run your fingers through it.- He’s an attention whore (big surprise there). He tried — key word tried — to be subtle about it towards the start of your relationship but he eventually gave that up altogether once you two got more comfortable with each other. He straight up went from “I’m kinda cold...I’m not saying I want you to hug me or anything but, like...I wouldn’t mind, I guess.” Right to “(Name). Cuddle me.”- Mello tends to get very skittish around crowds after he got his scar, paranoid that people will stare. So, naturally, you and Matt have devised a plan that whenever Mello shows signs of being uncomfortable in a crowd, the two of you will perform a two-man show in the middle of the street or wherever the hell you are, not only taking the attention away from your scarred boyfriend, but also amusing him to no end, as he won’t be able to stop laughing in the way back to the apartment.- Mello absolutely adores when you take charge of a situation, whether that’s normal for you or a rare occurrence, he can’t get enough of it. One time when you and Mello went to Wammy’s to visit the others you and Near were having an intense discussion and, since you were pretty passionate about the subject, you were taking no shit when Near tried to interrupt you to bring up his own point. You literally just shushed him and kept talking which is something that no one has ever really done before, but of course you didn’t know that. Mello was smiling like an idiot the entire rest of the visit and you had no clue why at the time.- Okay, so fireworks are a no-no for this man. It’s just...he hates being reminded of the day he got his scar, and when a firework sounds all he can think of his being trapped under rubble, fire licking and melting his skin. It’s really the only time he doesn’t care about appearing vulnerable because he just wants to get out. If you’re ever to get surprised by a firework show or something similar, don’t panic. He might, but you have to balance him out. Just get him out of there ASAP as possible and check up on him once you get back to the apartment.

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

The most straightforward among main three of Wammy’s boys. His interpretation of own feelings is excellent and he makes sure everybody around knows about them. If he hates you, you’ll feel a burning hole in your back whether it is because of intense staring or literal bullet. If he loves you, you’ll be surrounded by abundance of affection.
When it comes to person he loves, Mello is very vocal. Words do matter, they oblige you and put responsibility on your shoulders. That’s why he loves to brag about his dearest to the closest friends, and even acquaintances know about this one special person. Another important thing is nickname, which Mello chooses based on the brightest features of character/appearance. Baby, honey, dearest are common too but he feels that they deserve exceptional treatment and exceptional nickname.
He absolutely loves physical affection. Skin to skin contact gives him weird sensation right in the head as if he can physically feel neurons releasing dopamine. It also helps with keeping his anxiety under control.
By the way, sometimes inferiority complex gets the best of him, and in these moments he is extremely capricious. For the same reason Mello may act like his loved one deserves everything, while he can go with bare minimum.
He is great at reassurances. The second he realizes his loved one is insecure, upset, lost, the gears in his head start zealously turning. The words he uttered are always spoken in the right tone and able to touch the necessary strings of the soul. At the same time Mello always has doubts in the efforts made.

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

Friendship with Mello carries spirit of 80s-90s. It’s a wild ride he once invited you to and then you couldn’t get off. Stuff gets messy, stuff gets hot, but it doesn’t matter until you both have fun.
He will roast you so much and will never get offended if you roast him in response. Mello aims for a good laugh only. His favorite entertainment is to go shopping together just to critic each other’s outfits.
You better move that body when he drags you on the dance-floor. Blasting music and colorful lights make him feel like a fish in the water so Mello will try to teach you dance. Yes, from the easiest ones to Michael Jackson’s moonwalk.

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

Cuddles are essential for relationship with Mello. He enjoys snuggle up to his loved one on calm evenings, when there’s nothing to disturb the peace. Warmness of loved one’s head on his chest and smell of their skin calm him down better than chamomile-mint tea. He loves to listen to the sound of another person’s heartbeat as well.
Mello has one pet peeve tho: frequent head pats and hair stroking lead to greasy hair and this is exactly what he hates. If they put hand on his beautiful blond locks, he will take them by the finger and place their palm on his lips. This is a small but very loud gesture.

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

The thought of settling down never popped up in his head. Mello is way too young, he wants to live his life to the maximum without thinking about another dirty plate in the sink or how long it takes to make boiled eggs. Based on this you can say he doesn’t like to do any housework. His cooking skills are decent but he prefers creative mess to boring order. Mello likes to help someone in kitchen when he is in the good mood.

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

Nervous type he is, Mello doesn’t want to end this relationship. But he has to. But he can’t. He is indecisive and hesitates on the way to them. Hell, if they are in good mood or overly excited, Mello won't say a word about break up. In his mind it has to be like pulling a tooth – painful but necessary, - but real life doesn’t work that way. When the moment finally comes he cannot keep his voice steady. Mello tries to end it as fast as possible and hold back a scream because yelling at his loved one is something he promised he’ll never do. Actually, I can see him doing something impulsive to blow off steam. Breaking random stuff, for example, or shooting bottles.

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

No. Getting married is too much. He can’t see wedding bells ring no matter how hard he tries. Every day he becomes more confident in thought that strong sincere relationship do not need bureaucracy in the form of marriage. The only time you need a marriage certificate is during the divorce process. Mello isn’t 100% sure but pretty close to this percentage. If his loved one insists on marriage he will immerse in conflicting feelings. Then his next actions will depend on many factors but Mello definitely will try to explain his position and convince them in its validity.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

Mello is on the rougher side when it comes to both physical and emotional affection. Childhood in the orphanage, involvement with the mafia, psychological issues, and responsibility placed on his shoulders taught it is necessity to be tough to survive in this world. When he lets his guard down nasty inner voice keeps reminding Mello about situations in which it could be a critical mistake. This leads us to the next point.

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

Here he comes, another touched-starved male with trust issues. Mello needs time to get used to soft touch of other’s person hands. Sometimes he puts too much strength in his hugs and it may come across a little rough. Likes them anyway, takes initiative 90% of the time.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

It completely and entirely depends on his gut feeling. Something elusive tells him whether to trust a person or not, it’s not a rational decision. As soon as this strange sensation appears, he will immediately calmly utter three treasured words, and it’s not even so important for him to hear them in return. Mello just wants another person to know that they have become an integral part of his life.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

In addition to being easily jealous, Mello is scary as hell when someone is hitting on his loved one. If he witness such insolence, he will be extremely vocal and, well, unexpectedly rude. He is not afraid to get physical too.
If it’s his loved one who is acting flirtatious, Mello will be pissed off as well. His feelings are explosive mix of disappointment, anger, malcontent. It’s better to get off his way and let him cool a little before trying to explain anything or make excuses. In a fit of jealous rage he may say some terrible things which he’ll regret later.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

The most passionate kisser imaginable. He loves to kiss and he knows how to do it properly so why would you complain. He tends to forget about personal boundaries in process so make out sessions can get really… touchy. Anyway, loves to shower his loved one with kisses all over them, but lip smooches are his favorite. At the same time Mello doesn’t care where they kiss him because of solid fact he is being kissed.

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

He is so awkward. Calm/gentle/kind children are ok, but if he has to deal with angry little shit who throws tantrum whenever possible, he will flip out. Being around his own children is more or less bearable but don’t expect much when it’s someone else's kids annoying poor man. Mello definitely will teach his favorite one all of the swear words as a joke.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

On a free day no matter who wakes up first you will spend another hour in the bed cuddling. Then life will pour cold water on you when Mello gets frustrated with making breakfast. This may grow into small quarrel but most of the time he pulls himself together and you two find a satisfying compromise. During breakfast on work week you rarely hear any plans for the day from him but he stays curious about your schedule just to see if he can catch you for a lunch or a short call. Nothing special, really.

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

Night is his favorite time of the day. Neon signs, coolness, slight buzz of a big city work as a charm on Mello, he feels free from people’s staring, empty chatter, and daily duties. If he could show the world as he sees it to his loved one, at least approximate image, dim reflections of pale moon in the high-rises’ glass, he would. So to do it he takes them on late night walks and rides, new places every time.
Cafes and restaurants are another of his weaknesses, not only pastry shops, but also small diners with food that would seem boring to many. Take-outs are frequent too because chilling under the lilac sky and stargazing with Mello are 10 out of 10.
Don't let yourself be fooled, he likes to stay inside as much. Thanks to Matt, you’ll spend most of the time playing video-games and drinking pop until one of you starts yawning.

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

Mello is straightforward within adequate limits. You wouldn’t expect person to blur out “I hunt a Kira with my genius rival that works with FBI and Japanese Police” at any point of your movie night anyway, right? He does not pretend and does not resort to excessive secrecy but prefers to reveal facts about himself one by one.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

Quickly gets angry, quickly cools down. Sadly, he his emotions are too strong and he does not know how to handle them and it often ends in heated argument. Even during a quarrel he feels his actions are hurting you but it’s not something he can stop at the click of a finger. After everything has settled down he is extremely remorseful and tried to make amends but Mello never ever promises to change. Why you make ask? In that case actions speak louder than words.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

Remembers the stupidest things. He can’t remember any important dates like the day you started dating but will remind you about the most embarrassing thing you did in high school. Hell, he forgets your number sometimes but can describe the exact clothes you wore on that rainy day when car splashed you.
Unknown forces help Mello in choosing a birthday present. He has no clue what you wanted and if you wanted anything at all. Surprisingly, it always hits the mark.
Tried to write down “important” stuff about you once. Failed miserably. Decided to never do it again.

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

The first time when they confessed their love to him since Mello rewound this moment in his head like a hundred times. He remembers what color sky was and what song was playing on the background and those little details made this moment more beautiful than the masterpieces of the Louvre. Joy overwhelmed him and he couldn’t get this picture off his head for a few days too.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

Not that paranoid protective and obviously doesn’t need to be protected However, he will be fluttered if person showed that they care. He will freak put if they don’t answer his calls or messages for hours and in the case of real danger he will take that gun and shoot someone as a warning.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

He puts more effort in the beginning of relationship and its amount slowly declines with time. The closer he gets, the less he needs to try to cover up his sharp edges and imperfections or try to distract person with some kind of mask, mannerism, maneuver. Playing nice in early stages of dating gives him chance to throw the bait, to show he is able to be that datable material. A completely different question is whether a person wants to stay with him in spite of his inner demons.
Mello likes to surprise them with something special on anniversaries. Expect romantic late night motorcycle ride, car dates with take-out, and, of course, gifts. He likes to make/buy a presents person will like, something they wanted for a long time but couldn’t afford.
Acts extra-extra after anger tantrums. He knows he fucked up, okay, he just can’t control himself. Yes, it’s a lot easier to cover up consequences with huge bouquet and box of chocolates than to correct behavior learned over the years.

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

If you ever had to deal with person stubborn as a donkey, you’ve seen demo-version of Mello’s behavior. Making compromises is not his strategy, so get ready for “this is the only right option”, “I said what I said”, “Yeah, go ahead, I’ll do it my way”. He immediately begins to sulk and spill his sassiness all over the place if things don’t go his way.
Doubtful impulsive decisions are most likely the cause of constant arguing and problem mentioned above. At first he does something (to say the least) stupid with impressive confidence. Then, after hours or days, his brains finally comes up with reasonable arguments but now it’s too late to back out.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

It’s obvious Mello likes to take care of himself. His sense of style is indisputable, he sticks to it and never fails to embellish the picture with shiny jewelry or other accessories. There may be dirt on his leather boots and soot on fur hood but they only complete his conceived image.
Probably has one company from which he buys all the hair care products. Feeling of easy combing through smooth silky hair before bed is another of his a little happiness.
How does he have such perfect face despite eating chocolate everyday? Mello is fond of beauty creams, masks, serums, and he doesn’t allow a single pimple ruin his day. Also, he uses different healing creams to soften the scars.
He would love to mess around with loved one trying new beauty products. There’s nothing better than taking care of each other.

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

Yes, yes, yes. It doesn’t matter why they are not in his life anymore, he feels devastated. All attempts to distract himself fail as he goes back to thinking about them every five-ten minutes, and not only thinking but overthinking. Sometimes his thoughts throw him back to the past, first meeting, first kiss, and it gnaws Mello even more.
If they left for some reason, he will try to get them back. A chance meeting in the evening is completely planned, he also rehearsed his lines in the head more than a thousand times just to stay calm and avoid going off on tangent.
If they died, he will attend their grave for a few months. It doesn’t help much. He becomes incredulous and gloomy, scaring everyone around with frequent mood swings and defiant behavior. I can see him growing more actively aggressive and acting like he doesn’t have anything to lose too.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

Because of his chocolate addiction, Mello has to visit dentist’s office quite frequently. The problem is he hates dentists and everything about them. The sound of a dental drill makes his skin crawl.
Mello can pull off any style, rock any outfit. He can dress up in trash bag and be fabulous as always. You can splash that man with the dirtiest water and he will still shine bright like a diamond. Unholy beauty.
He was that kid that got the highest score on Facebook picky sheet. He hates broccoli, never eats mushrooms, avoids pickles. Name any controversial food – he doesn’t eat it.

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

Mello can deal with pushy people but manipulators drive him nuts. As soon as he notice the smallest attempt to manipulate him, he will lash out. So you have to be the master manipulator to twist him around your finger or the batshit crazy person to pull an obvious manipulation on him.
Absence of communication. He won’t play mind games and try to guess your thoughts, so you better speak out your mind.
Oh, Mello doesn’t want a person who nods to everything he says. Sharing personal opinions plays a big role in relationships and he won’t agree to lose such way to connect.

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habit of theirs?)

Mello sticks to adequate sleeping schedule. His lifestyle forces him to break it from time to time but he quickly makes up for sleepless nights. He doesn’t even get moody or irritated. On the contrary, his reactions slow down, and the only thing he is interested in is comfortable bed.
Speaking of comfort, Mello likes to wrap himself in fluffy blankets. The more pillows there are around him, the better his mood will be in the morning.
Dark chocolate rich in magnesium can help you sleep better so Mello prefers switch from milk chocolate to dark in the evening. It is not uncommon to find a wrapper foil on the nightstand in his bedroom.