Why Do I Dream
Poem - by Lisa Timpf
For Emma
I dreamt you again last night
and your eyes gleamed
brown-gold, like in the springtime
of your years, when you propped
paws on the window ledge,
looking into the house,
your gaze inviting me
to come outside and play.
If only we’d known
how fast time flows.
All too soon, I found myself
taking you for that final ride.
At the door, I turned back
to where you lay
on the vet’s steel table
still, as though sleeping,
and I imagined, absurdly,
just for one frozen moment,
that you might pop up
from your lofty perch,
and follow.
My heart leaped
like the twilight rabbits
you loved to startle,
and I yearned to say, I take it back,
it was all a mistake, I wasn’t ready—
but some things can’t be reversed
and besides, for your aged body,
it was time, and time.
Since that day, I’ve tried
to loose the leash that holds you to my heart
yet still at night I dream you,
and you feel close,
as if your soul might track me
as you voyage through the stars,
as if a whistled call might bring you
racing home again.