Vanessa Zeiser

The Red in the Green and Blue

I've rejected all attention

My own reflection I avoid

As I've molded all my focus

on to you and this void

A dark pit steeping

From my stomach to my chest

Thinking of you my breath

Heaves me to distress

I hear a loud barking

A banging at my door

Heavy soled feet

Marching on my creaky floor

I drag buried memories

That I refuse to endorse

I'd spend years of forgetting

If it meant no more

Of haunted dreamless nights

I repent to with new white sheets

But nothing so clean

Will ever help how dirty you've made me

I'm helpless in the face of justice

I've made jealous of dry eyes

My weeping displaces

Every tear that you've cried

I'm matter of no substance

You've corrupted my soul, body, and mind

Lifetimes I would spend

If I looked for what's now impossible to find

I've lost all my colors

Painted as Red as you

Oh how I miss the purity

Of solid greens and blues