This page is a digital collection of my journal notes, day-to-day witchcraft notes, etc. This is due to my tendency to lose books, pages, etc., and digital is much harder to lose, so I feel safe collating my information here.
Witchcraft Notes Early July
Did Ghost Hunting with C, D, R, A, V and her friends.
Found a Ghost called 'Corey' under the peir, peir might also be a portal or just a bit fuckin weird. There is a 'portal' up on the grassy hill in a circle of trees.
Ghosts didn't really like R (Our theory is he had just gotten rid of a very powerful 'Watcher' and the spirits could feel that)
Would ot go near D (We found out why later)
Went around Chloe's house some time afterwards, was taught how to make Black Salt and its uses, cleansed and protected my eye necklace, and was taught how to create a Protection Jar, Anti-Anxiety Jar, as well as introduced to Candle Magic, Crystal Magic, and given a very basic introduction to Witchcraft/ The Craft.
Crystal Notes 17-Jul-2023
Cleansed my Obsidian, Amethyst, Rose Quartz and Silver Leaf Jasper yesterday (16th), left to charge in the sun while I went to work
Re-Cleanse and charge on August 1st (Didn't happen as I forgot when August 1st was lol)
Programmed Obby for protection and healing from trauma and general trauma protection. Felt disassociated, headachey, and a bit drained afterwards.
Programmed Amethyst (Less connected with, however now I feel very strongly connected to my Amethyst as I carried it in my jacket for a week), for general spiritual protection. Was fine afterwards.
Amethyst's energy is deep, but bright purple, Obsidian is like a maroon red.
'Tried to meditate but not enough energy, trying to do too many things too fast?'
Did a pendulum, with the question, 'Which stone would be best for me to use right now?'. Expected the trauma healing stone that I felt a connection to at the time, however, several different times, including moving the stones around, I got Rose Quartz (Self-Care and Self-Love).
I also used the Amethyst to 'Open' my Third Eye chakra, and felt a BIG surge of black and purple energy surge up and then got a blinding headache. Made myself ill or was already ill, but got worse almost immediately.
Late July
Expanding my Craft knowledge, started watching plenty of Witch Youtubers/ Tiktoks, while trying to keep a grain of salt in mind as any effects are their personal interpretations and such.
Tried the Pendulum more with my necklace (Unsure if it is accurate) and due to the fact I have a lot of butterflies/ Dragonflies acting oddly around me at work and at home (Could just be odd actions), I asked if 'Anyone' was willing/ trying to communicate with me. Barachiel, Ariel, Lamassu, and Marut possibly???, as well as Welsh Deities, were attempting to reach out.
Divination 02-August-2023
Started by receiving new runes from Chloe, and activating them with my energy/ aura, by seeing it with what I am now calling my 'Artists Eye' (due to being able to 'see' more clearly when I am creating) as a white-blue glow in my chest, then pushing some of that energy into the stones, filling them with my energy.
Started communication by asking Odin (On Chloe's side) to assist in making contact with the Welsh Deities - as he had the day before over discord - and he did so. As I kept 'talking' I felt Chloe's Mum's white Pegasus statue behind me fill with something, and started getting the 'Horse' rune repeatedly. Quickly, I realised Rhiannon was getting in contact with me. Over the period we were there, she offered a partnership once I 'move and grow', (Which I agree with due to events the day afterwards)
Later, Rhiannon asked me to go outside, and the rain lessened and quickly became sunny, where I saw a Corvid. While it COULD have been Odin, it was only one, alongside a smaller bird, and I got a very strong connection to it, as well as repeated 'Hagalaz' rune. This, I immediately clocked, was Bran, whose symbol was a raven. Due to Bran's Ravens being the ravens that were said to be the original ravens in The Tower of London, and the connotations of their leaving, I assigned Hagalaz to Bran. He also offered a partnership, once I moved and grew a bit, which I also believe that I need to progress in reading The Mabinogion. (I had also just started the First Branch, which tells the tale of Arawn, Pwyll, Rhiannon, and Pryderi, when Rhiannon tried to contact me).
Finally, Rhiannon left, and Bran chatted for a little time, him and Rhiannon asking why my 'Energy and body aren't harmonious' (I had started dissasociating due to a LOT of influences (Possibly Apollo and Odin on Chloe's side, Bran, Rhiannon, and something else on mine)), as well as almost literally saying 'Restore health, thanks for communicating, we'll do partnership later'.
Divination 03-August-2023
Cleansed my runes after letting Drew touch them, and 'Bercana' dropped (Renewal). Reminded runes we weren't reading just yet, and to calm down. No more dropped.
Did some more Rune Reading afterwards, however, most of it was garbled. Rhiannon and Odin showed up for a bit, however, neither could create very strong connections. I believe that connections to deities are like a phone connection, and just like a phone connection here (Tilbury), it is incredibly static and interfered with due to the factories (Another reason why I was repeatedly told 'we can only work with you once you move'). However I also believe that Lewis Graham (And the house in general) give off VERY bad vibes, and while it isn't abusive, the house in of itself interferes with communication.
I also feel I need to do a LOT more research into runes to get a clearer understanding of what's happening.
Below are Messages of the day that I sent to Chloe to explain when I talked to the 'Thing' at the bottom of the garden:
But the lowdown is, I chatted to the Bottom of the Garden Bloke, and he doesn't like Rhiannon, or got confused, because it kept asking 'Horse? Where Horse?'
Also it doesn't understand what a name is, so it's definitely an It, and it 'wants to watch', but Idk what
Also Odin popped in for a bit, him and Rhiannon basically told me, communication is really fuzzy here, which is why they're aksing for me to move, which is fair, but that they're still here and around. Rhiannon was in and out, I think because I don't have anything much to invoke her so the connection was static-ey, but Odin gave a hard 'I am here' I think to talk for Rhiannon because I could invoke him using the runes straight up
But yeah the Entity at the bottom of the garden is a bit of a cunt as well. Told me to look at the tree, I asked what for, and it just went 'Sticks'!
And I got a really hard 'Look Up'. But idk why it asked me to look up.
also don't worry I told it to fuck off, thanked it, and then salted the room and played metal music lol
Yeah but shit was a bit mental when I kept getting 'Horse? Where Horse?'
Oh! And it kept saying my name a bunch real clear, and 'Call Him', and telling me what to do, so I noped out real fast
It also kept crawling around my room which was gross
After this interaction, I re-salted my room (Put Black Salt on the window we keep open, and on top of the door, while blasting 'Scene Queen') and made sure it could not get in.
Dream 04-08-2023
The entity was watching me through the window. I didn't sleep well.
Altar Notes 06-08-2023
Today, I went to find some things to create an altar for Rhiannon, using my 'intuition' as requested, to see what she would like. It's mostly little trinkets, as I do not have the space nor access to create a fully-fledged large altar, however, I believe it is sufficient so far, as after cleansing and energizing, I could feel her energy flitting around it. Here are the items I collected;
A white horse figurine, I thought white with a gold/blonde main to be good, as it incorporated a white horse, plus gold as a colour.
Gold moon necklace. Wrapped the necklace around the horse statue's neck and it feels happy.
Bottle of rainwater from the first day I communicated with her. Full of moss and stuff.
Golden snake ring. The ring is too small for me but I may be able to edit it.
Wooden plate/serving thing. The wood gives good vibes and earth/ foresty vibes, as well as being perfect to make this basically a makeshift jewellery holder.
09/08/2023
Rune Reading attempt
23/08/2023
The past few days have been incredibly interesting spiritually. Firstly, I and my boyfriend have moved house as we were already going to do. I have set up my Craft stuff in the attic/loft Office, as well as my art stuff, too. I have one of my guitars and a bookshelf down the end of the alcove and have claimed it as my own.
I can feel two curious House Entities in the house (here before we moved in so I don't particularly want to banish them). This is the Alcove Guy, a semi-masculine entity that vibes around my bookshelf. He is a tad defensive, though I think he may just be scared and confused as to what is going on, however, has calmed down after the past couple of days' action. The next is Light Boi. This is an entity that is at the end of my hallway, near my door, that just likes to hang around my hallway light and turn it on and off, even without anyone being in the hall. They are completely gender-neutral, and a tad investigative, though they don't really leave the hallway.
About three days ago, while looking for a sofa, I was drawn to an Egyptian-looking cat statue repeatedly. While joking it was 'definitely haunted', we took it home, which is when the internet broke, and the washing machine broke too. We had to call two guys out to fix them, who both separately said that the devices were broken in extremely rare and odd ways.
On Monday, we (CosmicJinx and myself; TheWelshWitch) attempted to commune with both our deities, and then with the statue, as we felt some form of energy from it. Cosmic went first, as advised by both Rhiannon and Odin, and I was told by Rhiannon 'Communicate at your own risk, and without our protection'. The entity wasn't hostile at first, in fact, we believed it to possibly be a deity, however, I DO NOT think it was. We tried to communicate with it, however, it was mostly just pushing boundaries and pissing off our deities. The energy grew incredibly negative in the room incredibly fast, with Rhiannon being furious after the Entity touched my altar, and pulling a LOT of energy from the side of me where she was stood, to either get me to notice, or to physically manifest herself.
There was a lot of diety work and entity work in this session, and whilst I believe that both myself and CosmicJinx weren't ENTIRELY prepared (myself especially), the fact that we had our deities around (And later Thor popped in) helped a lot.
This event ended with me having to seriously learn some banishment, containment, and intuition listening, as I had to salt the entire attic (Besides Bookshelf Guy's corner), as well as the next day having to pull up wards, ask Rhiannon to bless the house and cleanse the everloving crap out of it before things got too bad.
Today (23rd), I believe either a haunting or malicious entities were entering my home as called by the Cat Entity. There was a lot of negative energy still left over from Rhiannon and Odin fighting, and the Cat Entity fucking with the energies in the room, as well as when I went into the attic (The as-of then ONLY semi-protected area) there were sounds of doors moving and creaking (I do live in a flat, however, this was IN the house), as well as footsteps running up the stairs and an intense feeling of things 'Looking' at me.
So as such, I decided to use a Warding Ritual from a member of the Coven Goethe's Garden. I will elaborate on this in 'Spells and Jars'
24/08/2023
Some weird fuckin shit happened in Therapy today. My therapist is a practitioner in multiple different spiritualities (aside from being a licenced professional), and while I have started to become a witch, I have been updating her on my Craft week by week and she just allows me to have a safe space to talk, and provide advice if I ask. However, today, when speaking on how I believe Rhiannon has been with me for a VERY long time (I have a certain history with white horses), I spoke on the fact that sometimes when I was very injured or low down, I could hear a woman talking to me, who would often sound like my mother, or much older than me. I spoke on the clearest event where this happened, before I even knew what the craft was when I fell off my bike and hit my head when I was little, and smacked my head. All I could hear was white noise until I heard a woman yelling at me to 'Get your bike out of the road, it's going to get run over!'. I pulled it out of the road, head still extremely fuzzy, and a black car came speeding past.
At the same time as telling my therapist this, the light flickered strongly. I didn't mention it, thinking it was just a storm or something, however, my therapist was shocked, and told me that the light had only flickered one other time, when a young girl was talking about her nan, the fact that she missed her, and the lights flickered. My therapist told me then that she would take that flickering as a 'Yes, that was me', from Rhiannon.
We then kept talking about the subject, talking about some personal events and Shadow Work as a form of my own homework for therapy, and I spoke about how I felt that Hekate was calling to me as well (LONG history with snakes, a 'key' keyring for my 21st birthday, strong attraction to Morgana from BBC Merlin, and dreams of a shadowy woman speaking to me when I was having two months of nightmares after some serious personal trauma), however, I spoke on how I felt afraid to work with her, due to how strict and strong of a teacher she is, as well as the fact that as she is strongly associated with baneful magic, I feel afraid of myself for wanting to use baneful magic.
After talking for a while, I talked about how it felt both scary and incredible to have had the Forgiveness goddess to have seen everything in my life and still believe that I deserved to be forgiven, that none of the things that happened were my fault, and that I was very happy that she was my 'guardian', or following me around, and the lights flickered again. I believe that she is happy that I am noticing her more, accepting her more, and accepting and forgiving myself, more.
07/09/2023
I started Tarot the other day.
I've never felt so called out in my life, crikey. I also clicked a lot better with it than I did with Runes.
08/09/2023
I started preparing for Samhain and Mabon today, by buying a pumpkin candle, more herbs for any spells I find, and a 'mushroom' light. I need to research traditional methods, but I noticed a lot of association between Mabon and Apples, as the second harvest, I have apple and toffee loose tea, and will brew a pot of that, and light my pumpkin candle in celebration, if I am not working, lol.
Besides Mabon, I have started making more 'Reusable Spell Candles', which may just be Spell Candles honestly. In a tealight, I put herbs, salt, and a bay leaf with sigils, fill them with energy and associate a job for them (So far I have Money Abundance and Luck Attraction), then allow the tealight to burn for however long it takes for the wax to melt fully. Then, the herbs mix fully with the wax, becoming a full-spell candle. This I can then leave burning, or blow out and relight any time I need a bit of luck or money, etc.
I also bought a Mortar and Pestle today, as well as herbs, a jar for my salt, and some dishes for burning candles and incense and such, so I can properly start workings.
10/09/2023
Really excited today!
I've been being called by what I hoped was Hekate for A While, with a LONG history of snakes, some links to black cats, and always having lived at a crossroads, as well as some dreams of a Tall Gothic Woman helping me talk through a traumatic event, HOWEVER, I was very hesitant to confirm about it for a while, until today.
Motherfuckin STOATS. I HAD A STOAT DREAM, the DAY after doing a Tarot where Hekate told me I'd done a good job on researching her as much as possible.
Time to start building another Altar!