The Empress Reversed

Smother me in stars

Shadow me in sunlight

Submerge me in the sea

Scrawl me in the snow

Your eyes are beautiful as a Cepheid variable that twinkles in the blanket of stars

Your personality is the fire of the sun that warms souls with its sunlight.

Your emotions are deep and as volatile as the sea

Your presence in my life is just as ephemeral as snow

Smother me in stars

Shadow me in sunlight

Submerge me in the sea

Scrawl me in the snow

You hide so much from me that it is the endless array of stars

You have a sun to you that burns all those you need with its sunlight

You are peaceful and freeing as the sea

You are a constant, always there and coming back like snow

I love the stars

I love the sunlight

I love the sea

I love the snow

I don't love you

This is not love—

It is pain, emptiness, dependence, and monochrome.

This is not love.

You brighten a day just as soon as you end it

You whisper a sweet nothing one day before laughing it away

I am desperate.

craving

biting into the forbidden fruit of my love and labour to plant new seeds

You are not.

I say I am not hurt, and I think I'm not

But you with those shining eyes

that warm soul

that peaceful, freeing spirit

that consistent version of you

are still the same person as the you with the endless unknowns

that burning demeanour

that volatility that upends

the you who is only a part of a moment

It is simple, and it is plain.

I need to get away from the stars, the sunlight, the sea, and the snow.

I need to get away from you.

The oh-so-gentle and loving you.

I need to stop going to you.

The oh-so-insensitive and unknowing you.

Thank you for being the recipient of my cruel and selfish feelings