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Author's Postscripts

‘Profundis’ in numbers

Meaning of the title

프로푼디스 = Profundis = the depths = deep, abyss, pit, bottom, deep sea. Profundis refers to Mazzaroth, where Almuten is located. It’s also an apocalyptic worldview itself. It is also meant to show the grim situations that characters find themselves in. From Yugeon’s point of view, Shinje’s twisted love is the abyss, and from Shinje’s point of view, Yugeon is the abyss. 

Nietzsche said. 

“If you gaze long into the abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you.”

“He who fights with monsters must take care lest he thereby become a monster.”

The Awakening Management Headquarters commits monstrous acts such as conducting biological experiments and kidnapping people in the name of catching monsters. 

Hunters also treat guides as if they are tools and exploit them without any guilt. 

Looking at Shinje and Taein’s past (both were recipients of scorn and disgust from the guides when they were vulnerable) and guides who had regarded Yugeon with contempt, guides were also never just one-sided victims.  

Shinje loves Yugeon in a twisted way. He himself knows this, and he monologues that he knows only this way because he is a deep-sea fish that has lived his entire life at the bottom of the deep sea. But he also doesn’t have any intention of reflecting. 

Pushing the other person to the limit and then letting them free, slowly suffocating them and isolating them, making them think of nothing but their tormenter, but have no intention to kill them.....

Doesn’t it resemble the way Almuten plays with humans? 

Love and Hate

The main theme of ‘Profundis’ is love and hate. I wanted to write a story in which the characters who had already lived a miserable life meet each other and proceed to ruin their lives even more, hurt each other, hate each other terribly, but still, I wanted to write a love story nonetheless. 

Love and hate are contradictory emotions. But I think it’s also possible that love and hate can exist at the same time. 

There are plenty of contradictions in my work. 

Almuten means ‘the most powerful star’ in astrological terms. Whenever we think of stars, we always imagine them high up in the sky. However, Mazzaroth, Almuten’s den, is described as the lowest and deepest place (abyss). There’s even a deep sea in Mazzaroth in the place where the sky is supposed to be.

In order to be freed from the abyss (=to rise above the surface), you must first face the abyss (=go down to the very depths).  

A guide, who are usually considered useless in raids since they are non-combatants, became essential for killing Almuten.

Shinje intended to die with Yugeon, but changed his mind at the last moment.  

Yugeon saved Shinje because he hated and loved Shinje to the point of wanting to kill him. 

TMI related to work

Chan suffered the least misfortune out of the four gongs, so his way of thinking is also the most ordinary. Either in a good way or a bad way. 

He didn’t want Shinje to bring Yugeon in their mess, and he was the one who rejected Yugeon most openly at the beginning. 

In Chan’s point of view, there are several descriptions such as, ‘I don’t want to win, but I don’t like losing; I don’t want to lose the guide to someone else, but I don’t want to put in the effort pursuing him’, like that. 

I would say it’s craftiness and selfishness that he naturally possesses because he had a normal childhood and grew up in an ordinary environment. (I don’t want to work, but I want to earn a lot of money~ I know everyone has thought of something like that at least once in their lives. ^^)

Because of the guilt of not being able to protect his little sister, he is unconsciously soft towards children (Yugeon and Heesu) who are 10 years younger than him. He also thinks that if his little sister had survived and grown up safely, she would have been around their age. 

I sincerely hope that even after reaching the end of this story, Yugeon, Shinje, Taein, Chan, and Heesu will remain in your memories. Thank you for joining us on our 7-month journey to find the light from the depths of the abyss.  

Be always happy. Thank you!

Q & A

Apart from what was mentioned in the novel, does Chan-nyang often go to Yugeon’s room? (in the form of a cat).

What does Taein wear when he sleeps? / I’m curious about the kid’s pajamas!

Please tell me the color of Taein’s underwear. 

I’m curious what Yugeon does when he’s happy or excited!

What’s Yugeon’s fetus* name? 

(*태명; temporary name given by a pregnant mother while the baby is in the womb until the baby is born.)

(*곰곰(이) - seriously, deeply; but 곰 also means bear, so the name has two meanings, i think.)

How did Chan come to make the decision to join Shinje and build Erewhon after being discharged? 

I’m curious about the guiding fit rate between Yugeon and Erewhon members! / Chan or Shinje, who is more compatible with Yugeon?

Chan is a cat, so does he hate dogs…?

What kind of books does Shinje like? I wonder if he enjoys reading philosophy books lol. 

What is Taein’s gloves replacement cycle?? I wonder if he uses a pair until they wear out, or if he changes them every day!!

I’m curious about the movie genres that kids like! / I’m curious about the main characters’ favorite movie genres!

What does Chan-nyang do when he goes to Yugeon’s room? I’m also curious about Yugeon’s reaction when he found out that the cat was Chan, and everyone’s TMI too. ㅎㅎㅎ

I’m curious about the TMI of Erewhon guides before Yugeon came! / Have Team 1 ever done something like double penetration with the guides before? 

I think Yugeon secretly likes sweet things, but what kind of reaction will he have if he drinks something like Starbucks Frappuccino? / I wonder how Yugeon will react when he eats new food!!! Whether it’s a super spicy food or a sweet drink that Yugeon likes! And I’m also curious about how the four would think watching Yugeon reactions lol

If someone writer knows becomes romantically involved with a member of Erewhon, would you oppose the relationship with this member? Who would it be, and why? (I think I’ll pick Heesu… ㅎㅎ)

In terms of looks alone, out of the four who did Yugeon like more? / Who’s the most handsome out of the four? Who fits the writer’s taste the most, and who’s Yugeon’s? / Who’s the closest to Yugeon-ie’s type? Just the look!!! (absolutely not thinking about personality X) / Among the gongs, whose face Yugeon likes the most?

Among the characters, the one who objectively has the most beautiful looks is definitely Shinje. The writer’s taste is Yugeon and Taein. I like black-haired cold-looking men.   (óωó

Does Chan… like catnip?? Sometimes when he finds something like an empty box, does he ever feel like he wants to get in and sit there? / Has Chan ever tasted churro? / When Chan finds a box, does he go in without realizing it? Does he feel ashamed after that? ㅋㅋㅋ / Does chan sing when he’s happy? 

I wonder what the kids would have been like if Profundis had been set in modernverse instead of a guideverse! / If Erewhon members and Yugeon grew up in an ordinary world instead of this universe, what would they have majored in and what job would they have? / If Erewhon members + Yugeon and Heeseong were ordinary college students, what would their majors and personalities be like? / If the kids were college students in a peaceful world, what college department would they all be in? And how would they meet each other? / If the kids were ordinary college students or office workers, what majors or jobs would they have? 

[Oops ^^ Did my car offend my classmates? I apologize. I’ll try to drive a different car from now on. ^^] 

The next day, he rolled into the campus with a Rolls Royce. 

Shinje is often described as a flower, but if you had to pick one flower that would go well with him, what would it be? 

What drinks do Erewhon members order when they go to a cafe? 

What would be Shinje’s favorite outfit?

Erewhon members’ favorite color / Profundis kids’ favorite color or matching color / Do you have any symbolic colors in mind for Erewhon Team 1 and Yugeon-ie?

I’m curious about the positions Erewhon members like. / Yugeon’s favorite position? / What are Shinje and Chan’s favorite positions? / What position does Yugeon like the most? And out of the four, who’s the most compatible with him? / What are the gongs’ preferred positions? 

(*Taein’s ‘standing’ and Shinje’s ‘standing’ are not the same, but i'm not going to google the exact name for sex positions. ^^)

This is a personal question. Is there anyone who likes mint chocolate? ㅎㅅㅎ I like mint chocolate. ♡♡ 

(*don’t really know what those slangs mean)

Those days, did Yugeon eat well? Alone or together? ㅠㅠㅠ

What do Erewhon members and Yugeon prefer, cold noodles with spicy sauce, or with broth?*

(*bibim-naengmyeon - cold noodles with spicy sauce, mul-naengmyeon - cold noodles with chilled broth)

I wonder if anyone from Erewhon Team 1 has ever been in a relationship? And what their dating style is like. ♡ / How old were they when they had their first time? 

Who’s Eise’s favorite gong? And why!!!

I’m curious about the size ranking of four gongs (cough) / I wanna know about the size below for Erewhon Team ^^; First place is Chan? / Can you tell us the size of four gongs based on Yugeon-ie’s hand. ㅎㅎ / Who’s the biggest…? That.. that big thing..... ㅎㅎ

I want to know about the skinship that Erewhon team members prefer!

What do Shinje and Chan think of each other and what feelings do they have for each other? 

(*these days - main story) 

Please tell us the behind-the-scenes for Profundis!

Then I thought it over again. If the Hunterverse or guideverse ever existed in real life, I feel like their reality wouldn’t be as exciting and cool as it often appears in creative works. Aren’t those people who have to endlessly hunt monsters that no one has any idea when they will disappear, and those who have to suffer terrible pain if they are not guided, all struggling in despair?  

From there, I started to map out Profundis. If my previous work, Dead Man Switch, is the story of people who suddenly encounter disaster in a closed space while living ordinary lives, Profundis is the story of a world decades after a disaster struck and where everyone has become accustomed to it.  

Was there any difference from the initial setting? 

What’s your secret to writing those scenes very hot and dirty? 

What do you think of whenever you see nicknames* related to your works or your pen name? 

(*i think ‘nicknames’ as in usernames?? Not really sure)

Are the kids hairy? 

The first time the main characters had a wet dream, and the content of the dream? 

How did Munyeong unni and her guide start dating?

I’m really curious about the design and color of Yugeon’s underwear. Just to imagine, writer-nim. 

I wonder how Shinje will react if Yugeon calls him hyung. 

Have Chan ever tried to have sex with the beast body? 

What does Yugeon-ie usually think about before going to bed or when he tunes out of his surroundings? 

I’m curious about Chan, Heesu and Yugeon’s sleeping habits. 

If Taein, Chan, Heesu, and Shinje used perfume, what would they use? / I wonder what kind of perfume Taein, Chan, and Heesu use! 

If Yugeon was an Esper, what would be his rank and ability?

What would the gongs do if they got jealous? ㅎ…ㅎㅎ.. *(^-^)*

Who’s the most gluttonous among Yugeon and the four gongs? I’m also curious about each of their favorite foods. 

Does Chan-nyang’s family nag him to get married when they visit during the holidays? ㅎㅎㅎㅎㅎ Please tell me if you have any anecdotes from the holidays ^,~

Was Erewhon’s uniform Shinje’s idea? What were the team members’ reactions?!

Chan: Just give me a T-shirtᅳᅳ The chest buttons look like they might pop even if I tugged a little hardᅳᅳ

Heesu: Ah, I don’t like the colors, I’m a spring warm tone…

How did the older brother hold onto the guiding without any other contact? Even if the rank was low, didn’t he have any thoughts to take it further? 

Writer-nim, I’m curious about Profundis kids’ zodiac sign… ♡ 

Their favorite snacks..!!!!! Can I also ask about writer-nim’s favorite snack??!!!!!!!

Where did Heesu memorize Yugeon’s body size (height, weight, feet)? How? Did he look into it? 

How old is Almuten??????

Besides Yugeon, does Shinje also act pretty in front of other people? When is there a time he acts cute? Does Shinje’s acting pretty work well on other people at times like that? Or were they just more creeped out? 

If there’s a time when Heesu uses his abilities for a trivial thing, when would it be?!

Does Taein ever laugh…? 

I wonder if the kids prefer to drink more, smoke more, or if they don't like anything at all. I’m also curious about the type or brand of alcohol/cigarette…♡

Since when has writer-nim been a genius? 

I’m kinda curious about Yugeon’s way of thinking when building relationships with people while staying at Erewhon! (I think Yugeon-ie, who politely and without hesitation calls someone nuna, is very cute…)

Is Yugeon’s guide rank a spoiler? 

How many out of 10 cola cans can Yugeon shoot? 

How many points would Yugeon give to his own appearance? 

I’m curious about Yugeon’s body parts that Erewhon Team 1 likes!!

Have the four gongs ever had someone they had grown attached to emotionally in their past? 

Where do the four gongs think guiding is between relieving sexual desire and recharging vitality…?

I wanna know Yugeon’s favorite bread or snacks. Also fruits and vegetables. He wouldn’t have had a chance to eat much, but… ㅠㅠ

What flavor of meringue does Yugeon like? Meringue sprinkled with strawberry powder, or banana-flavored powder, and so on! 

Will Yugeon be indifferent even when dating? 

Is there a real person you reference when creating the gong characters?!

Where do you get your inspiration when you write the smut scenes? 

Profundis / Dead Man Switch AU

What if the main characters of Profundis fall into the world of Dead Man Switch?

Is it the situation where they transmigrate into a different world with the settings and abilities from the original world intact, or is it an AU? 

If it’s the former, I think it will be very favorable for the protagonists of Profundis. Since they come from a world where fighting monsters the size of buildings is a daily occurrence.....

Not to mention the Awakened (although Taein might suffer unexpected mental damage from zombie filth), even Yugeon will be able to easily take care of himself.

+ If you stock up on food, you can survive without much difficulty. It might be a little uncomfortable because he can’t use a firearm, but it won’t be too much trouble if you give him a knife. Homemade bombs can also be made if he gets materials from a lab room or something.  

If it’s the latter, then we will follow the College AU setting.....

The day the incident occurred: The business administration class had no lecture that day so he had nothing to do, but Shinje had remained on campus. (I think there’s a subject called management strategy theory or something… I don’t know. ^^ If I say it’s the end of semester, it’s the end of semester ^^) 

With his infamous Rolls Royce parked in front of the engineering building, Shinje was waiting for Yugeon to hit on. He knew something had happened when he heard screams and saw people running. He could have left the campus alone if he wanted to since he had a car, but Yugeon was still inside and he had to take him with him, so he went inside the building instead of driving out to safety. 

Yugeon was still stuck on the program since he had yet to finish his final assignments. He was the type to put all his focus on one thing at a time, so he wasn’t aware of what was happening outside. Until the pretty, wealthy, and genuine looking senior who had been trying to flirt with him these days came running in with a desperate look on his face that he had never seen before. 

Taein, the law school student, grasped the situation only after many of the fellow law students who continued studying cases with exhausted faces even though they heard the chaos outside became victims. He tried to smash the zombie’s head with anything he could get his hands on. It was then he realized that the thick law books could be deadly weapons if he put his mind on it. He tried to contact his mother and sister while holding a blood-soaked tome. 

Turns out, Chan, the physical education student, had a separate mind and body. Even while having a mental breakdown, his body continued to move, knocking zombies out of his way and bashing their heads. No, this is fucking crazy (1 kill) What the fuck (2 kill) What’s wrong with these bastards;;; (3 kill) Euaaaah shit (4 kill) Fucking out of nowhere? (5 kill) 

Heesu from visual design department was still pretty calm even while the people around him were dying. However, the moment he saw his Macbook smashed by a zombie, his expression completely changed. He hacked away the zombie’s neck again and again with the corner of his Macbook, and kept doing it even though the neck was already separated. Wow… This is fucking annoying. Hey… you know what? Even if you were alive, I would have killed you. 

After that, he adapted really well as if he was born in the apocalypse universe from the beginning. The zombie incident he encountered while living a boring life was so much fun. Anyone would be reluctant to have him as an ally, but it would be much scarier to have him as an enemy. 

What if the main characters of Dead Man Switch fall into the world of Profundis?

I think Hohyeon would be a guide from the Awakening Management Headquarters. A dark red uniform would look good on him. His abilities aren’t that strong (possible to cover up to F-C ranks, but it drops off rapidly from B and higher), but he’s mentally strong and calm, so he’s often mobilized when Espers run wild out of control. He hasn’t been able to find someone who has a high fit rate and good compatibility yet, so he’s just working as a support team guide. Without a fixed partner, he always gets called in at any time… Shitty classes, shitty career. He cusses out internally a thousand times a day, but always has a business smile on the outside. Pretty much a sad soldier’s life. 

Yeongwon would be an independent Hunter. Rank would be A or S. Ability would be future sight. The ability is so overwhelmingly strong that he is seeing the future at all times, driving him crazy when he starts to mix up with the present. It is not uncommon for people with mental abilities to have their personalities entirely messed up or have their minds broken when they fail to overcome their abilities… (like Heesu) 

The two first met during a mission. It was Hohyeon’s first time on the field. Originally, it is a rule that guides are not to be sent out to the field, and in particular, unlike Hunting Orders, the center does not send guides out of the headquarters building… The sight of the blood and flesh splattered and the corpses of the monsters strewn about, he was already half-freaked out, but the man he saw for the very first time spoke to him very familiarly, and calmly, with blood all over his face. 

“Hello, guide… You are here? You managed to survive. Why are you still alive?”  

Of course, the fit rate between the two would be a huge number, right? 

Translator notes:

Hello! Thank you for sticking around until the very end. Many many thanks for reading my very lacking TL, which I know is littered with many many errors. I'm currently editing the whole thing a few here and there, double checking with offical webtoon translations, and with my friends' advice. This project is something I just decided to do it on a whim and I'm very glad I managed to complete it. tbh, I didn't think I would be able to. lol. 

A tiny bit of regret I have about this project is that I decided to use google sites to host my tl.... cuz it doesn't have comment section ヽ(;▽;)ノ (it's pretty lonely) but my friends told me that "if you have comments, you will be distracted and wouldn't have finished the project" lololol..... which is painfully true.......... but still.... lol 

Another little regret (and a little pissed/sad) is that this TL ended up on one aggreg@tor site. ಥ◡ಥ) i don't understand why ppl read on those sketchy ad riddled sites, like why do you want to give money to them lol.  i feel a little guilty like it's on me for not taking precautions. like using googledocs or wordpress to host.  

so yeah please support the author if you are able! on google play books, it's like 2ish dollars a volume! ⋆˙⟡♡

Go to the next page for the novel promo webtoon. It's my first time cleaning/typesetting a webtoon, but I'm pretty satisfied with how it turns out! 

oh, i just started a new project, this time i'll be hosting it on a private site.^^ free to read btw, you only need to send request to access. (i'll probably list the novel on novelupdates only a little later, since it was just released in Feb.) more info here!