september

It's not the end.

It's only a new beginning. Kind of. But at the same time, as we move on.. why do I feel like the end is near?

On second thought.. it was not yet a new beginning. Not just yet - at least at that point in Caratime. It was only September.

I was actually expecting a new beginning as soon as the event chain finished, but I never imagined that it will take a little more time to experience a real new beginning.

September was the month when we were only starting to revert back to the start of Year 3. Not literally because we're not time travellers. I'm not quite sure though if, considering how things will unfold in the coming months, we would call it a success. But at least it’s safe to say that we have finally cleared out everything and started fresh.

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At this point Cara went on another hiatus with the group, thinking that it will save him from his inconsistency. I remember how we’ve lost him for a month, how we’ve thought it was the end. I wanted him to remain a leader, but.. actually I was not really serious with keeping him as a leader! The moment he started his hiatus, it was just another normal day in September. I easily went back to what I do like nothing happened. Since then, I went on to try a lot of things I never did in a long time.

But as the days went on, the thought of Cara kept lingering me every time. I thought it did not matter to me. I was just being serious these days.

But he kept coming to my mind all the time.

Well, fine.

I now admit.

I missed him.

I wanted to see him again.