Caylin Vollmer -

My artworks have stemmed from either emotion or current interests. Some of my pieces have been outlets for me and with those pieces specifically I want them to be outlets for other people as well. I want my art to be a distraction, a sense of comfort, a place of rest for people that have gone through or are going through similar situations that I am going through. I want my art to convey to people that it is going to be okay because I personally use this small amount of optimism to keep myself going and keep myself alive. Within my works there is a theme of distraction with these ideas of juxtaposition and depictions of altered realities.

One of the darkest themes within my body of work is about suicide. I have personally struggled with that myself and with people close to me and I think it is something that isn't talked about enough in a way that shows it as an issue. I think it has been very romanticized in a way, just because of how many people are struggling with mental illness. Distraction may not be the healthiest way to cope with mental illness, but it is the most accessible and with that then comes my art because I create works that I like and the whole art making process for me is a distraction and so I want my art to be a distraction for others. I want my art to inspire others to create and use art as a distraction and an outlet as well.

A majority of my works are depictions of various body parts and there is a large focus on eyes. The reason for that focus on eyes is because I find them to be very captivating and the way in which you can see emotion just through someone's eyes is mesmerizing to me. I think the intricacies of the human body are so unique and so detailed and that is what I like to incorporate into my works. I use a lot of dark color schemes because I enjoy dark colors and the contrast that they can bring. Within the inspirations behind my works I am inspired by a lot of manga artists and authors, specifically Junji Ito and Gege Akutami. That inspiration within my art then leads to my growth and the changes I have gone through. Part of the changes I have gone through is realizing and seeing that I am my own person and I should not let other people dictate my life and so when faced with people that are pushing me into this mold they created for me I am going to push back. I cannot stand being told how to dress and act and what views I should follow because what gives someone the right to dictate the life of someone else. I am often told that I need to be careful on how I present myself so that I am not berated or judged negatively when I go out in public and into the world, I am told I need to appear classy so I don’t draw attention to myself and to all of that I say “Why?”. Why do I need to present myself a certain way, what is wrong with the me now and the way I present myself? I want to push boundaries like this not only with myself, but with my art as well because in no world am I going to confine myself to what others want for me. I make dark and bloody art and art that calls out homophobes because I want to support people that are simply just living and upset the people that are trying to control others. Something I live by is ‘if something is not harmful to you such as a form of art or media then you do not have to subject yourself to it’ and I think this is something a lot of people don’t think about and it really shows in a lot of cases. You have the power to control what you consume and I feel like that is the epitome of my art and my existence.