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是时候说再见了
是时候说再见了
It's time to say goodbye
It's time to say goodbye
It's time to say goodbye. 就如去年这个时候的毕业季一样。
这不知从何而来的眼泪，为什么会控制不住地流下来？
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面前的车停下，走下来一位女士，Nicole。她是我自从刚来普渡这里就好心让我借住的住家，发自内心的善良，不会把我当外人。在普渡上学的过程中遇到重要的节日她们家也会邀请我一起参加家庭聚会，之前去Wolf Park、复活节的活动……
我：（迫不及待地分享）你知道吗，这个四月发生了好多好多事情！我有好多好消息要分享……
达特茅斯之行，创业的想法，学术会议上得到的荣誉……这些我都事无巨细地和她分享了。
Nicole耐心地听下去，坐在身后的Marni（她的小女儿）正自顾自地把玩着车上的小零件。
Nicole：那这些，会影响到你的暑假的计划吗？或者是，你下一年的计划？
尽管我知道哪怕我尽量避免去讨论这个话题，她很想知道这个问题的答案。回想到上一次见面的时候和她坦白我其实在申请转学的时候，她跟我说：
“你知道吗？我上次和Josh（Nicole的丈夫）去Colorado的时候，其他人听说我们是普渡来的，很惊讶，说'wow you come from Purdue!'”
我虽然能够理解普渡在这里的名声，但是我确实有离开的理由。同时那是我也不确定我能不能真的拿到offer，所以并没有太多的反应。
回到现在，我叹了口气：……我要离开普渡了
Nicole：已经成为了改变不了的事情了是吗？
我：我从刚刚来到这里的时候，就已经做好决定了。I love this place, but this doesn't stop me from reaching my goal.
Nicole：I see, we will miss you.
……
（临走的时候，我们都知道这是暑假开始之前的最后一面）
Nicole: Jing, can I have a short pray for you?
我：嗯嗯
Nicole: （闭上眼睛）Thanks God let us meet. Thanks God let us had a great time together...
我：（不知道为什么眼泪开始蹦出来）
Nicole: ...I pray Jing best luck for her finals, hope she will have a great summer, and have a bright future in her next school. Amen.
我：（哽咽）Thank you so much. It's great to be with you all, families... Thank you!
Nicole: Thank you~ It's also good to talk with you and learn from you!
It's time to say goodbye.
就如去年这个时候的毕业季一样。
就如我当初在毕业演讲时提到的一样，大家各奔东西，分道扬镳。
It's time to say goodbye, just like the graduation season at this time last year.
These tears that came from nowhere, why can't I control them from falling?
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A car stopped in front of me, and a lady, Nicole, stepped out. She kindly let me stay at her place when I first came to Purdue. She was genuinely kind and did not treat me like an outsider. During my time at Purdue, they would invite me to family gatherings on important holidays, and I attended events at Wolf Park and Easter celebrations...
Me: (Eager to share) Do you know, so many things happened this April! I have so much good news to share...
My trip to Dartmouth, my entrepreneurial ideas, the honors I received at academic conferences... I shared all these details with her.
Nicole listened patiently, while Marni (her little daughter) in the backseat played with some small items in the car.
Nicole: Will these affect your plans for the summer vacation? Or your plans for next year?
Although I knew she was curious about the answer, I tried to avoid discussing this topic. Recalling the last time we met when I told her that I was actually applying to transfer, she said:
"You know, last time Josh (Nicole's husband) and I went to Colorado, other people were surprised when they heard we were from Purdue, and said 'wow you come from Purdue!'"
Although I could understand Purdue's reputation here, I did have reasons to leave. At that time, I wasn't sure if I could really get an offer, so I didn't react much.
Back to the present, I sighed: ...I'm leaving Purdue.
Nicole: So it has become something that cannot be changed, right?
Me: I had made up my mind since I first arrived here. I love this place, but this doesn't stop me from reaching my goal.
Nicole: I see, we will miss you.
...
(As we parted, we both knew this was the last time we would see each other before the summer vacation began)
Nicole: Jing, can I have a short prayer for you?
Me: Yes, sure.
Nicole: (Closing her eyes) Thank God for letting us meet. Thank God for letting us have a great time together...
Me: (Tears started to well up in my eyes)
Nicole: ...I pray for Jing's best luck in her finals, hope she will have a great summer, and have a bright future in her next school. Amen.
Me: (Choked up) Thank you so much. It's great to be with you all, families... Thank you!
Nicole: Thank you~ It's also good to talk with you and learn from you!
It's time to say goodbye.
Just like the graduation season at this time last year.
Just like what I mentioned in my graduation speech, we all go our separate ways.
（？）
没有人：（探头）哟，怎么哭啦？不是说要维持高冷形象的吗？
我：明明我知道一定会离开这个地方，明明知道我并不会留下来，明明已经避免和这里更多人打交道了。但是为什么……
没有人：哦，我还以为你为了转学不会在意这些小事的呢
我：小事？I'm not a sh*tty ba****d！真心待我好的人，我怎么会不知道！？这里的住家也是，我的Research Group也是（*，我还没有想好instructor那边该怎么说尽管人家知道这样的可能性）虽然我不是多愁善感的人（？），但是她们想要我留下的心意我怎么会不知道！？
友人A：冷静，是人总会要分离，每个人不过其他人生中的过客罢了。再说了，这个又不是永远都见不了面了，你不是也承诺如果有什么需要你的地方你可以来帮忙吗？你当然也可以改变主意选择留在这里啊。
我：……我已经做好心理准备了，既然已经下定了决心了，就不能轻易动摇。我会离开的。再见了，普渡。
(?)
No one: (Poking their head out) Hey, why are you crying? Weren't you trying to maintain a cool image?
Me: I knew I would definitely leave this place, I knew I wouldn't stay, and I tried to avoid interacting with more people here. But why...
No one: Oh, I thought you wouldn't care about these little things because you wanted to transfer.
Me: Little things? I'm not a sh*tty ba****d! How could I not know about the people who genuinely care for me!? My host family and my research group, too (*I haven't figured out how to tell my instructor even though they know about the possibility). Although I'm not a sentimental person (?), how could I not know about their intentions for me to stay!?
Friend A: Calm down, everyone has to part ways eventually, and we are just passing by in each other's lives. Besides, it's not like you'll never see each other again. Haven't you promised that you'll help if needed? You can also change your mind and choose to stay here.
Me: ...I've prepared myself mentally, and since I've made up my mind, I can't waver easily. I will leave. Goodbye, Purdue.
黑客松达特茅斯后碎碎念
黑客松达特茅斯后碎碎念
After HackDartmouth thoughts
After HackDartmouth thoughts
一开始决定参加HackDartmouth其实是抱着纯属体验来玩的心态的，所以过程中压根没有去看奖项，对奖项一点也不了解
昨天被拿到的三个奖都是有相对应的物品的，以至于直到晚上确认奖项之前我都以为奖品仅仅就是我手上拿到的东西
事实证明，我错了，毕竟谁会去看奖品的Description啊！这实际上真的是一个Founder Starter Kit，包括直接承诺的credits（我可真太需要这个了，值回路费）和portfolio等等
负责人这周就会联系过来兑现并处理下一步的事情
这场活动大部分参加的人都是来自波士顿和纽约附近地区的，包括但不限于来自哥大、NYU、BU、BC、Colgate等大U和文理学院的学生，当然也有达特茅斯本校的学生（我这次在的队伍里就有达特茅斯的Junior）
实际的Hackathon过程其实并没有表面上说的那么平淡，在我的视角里实际上发生了不少的事情：
1. 有人错拿了我的行李箱，来来回回找以至于工作人员因为这个都认得我了
2. 由于自己是全校唯一来参加的，坐车两小时到芝加哥坐飞机到波士顿再到达特茅斯，前后各住了一晚上再回来，每次我跟别人说的时候别人都很惊奇
（当然，这一趟的奖品直接值回机票+住宿钱，甚至还超了不少，更别提那些无法用数字衡量的价值了）
3. 在我一开始差点决定要solo hack（一个人做项目）之前，其实有一个男生跟我聊了项目的注意，因为他更希望做AR/VR，由于我们都没有办法妥协于是就没有组成队。颁奖之后他特意来找了我，再一次问并且听了我描述我的项目idea
4. 台下队伍被恭喜的时候可能因为戴帽子看起来太像工作人员，握手闲谈的时候没有被注意到，结果人家转身准备的时候队友上前戳了人家提醒道：“我们还有一个队友呢”
5. 虽然这是我的第一个Hackathon，但是队友们都是参加了不少次（有第6次的），除了提供Idea和实现部分功能的时候，其实大部分都是从队友那里听说过去的东西以及学习到了经验。即便如此，Demo的过程中每次介绍，队友都会特别提出这是来自我的inspiration（以及我正在写书的事情）
甚至，我的名字也直接出现在了Project Description的灵感来源上
6. 哎呀哎呀果然还是没有爆照的习惯，还是给自己打个码好了
（有的时候真觉得自己活在小说里）
……
其实创业的想法今年年初就有了，只是一直在沉淀以及原计划暑假的时候再开展项目（这个学期20学分+写书+同时进展的科研项目+其他琐碎的事情真的有点开始顶不住了）
创业刚开始肯定是麻烦且困难的，包括启动资金，人脉上的联系等等，在Honor college的research fair上页也联系到了初创投资项目的负责人，只是一直迫于时间的原因没法详细规划和开展，这一次的founder starter kit是一个意料之外很好的开始和booster
奖品的书我在回来飞机上看了，虽然没有仔细看详细的内容，但单是大致框架和流程就已经给我打开了新世界的大门
书中还有对一些成功创业的人的采访，这其中还有一些不陌生的名字
……
真的是，有的时候明明已经累得想躺平了，却又不知道哪里来的信念和机遇又让自己忙起来了
╮(￣▽￣)╭
At first, I decided to participate in HackDartmouth just for the experience, so I didn't pay much attention to the prizes and had no idea about them.
The three awards I received yesterday all came with corresponding items, so much so that I thought the prizes were just the things I received in my hands until I confirmed the awards last night.
It turned out I was wrong. After all, who would read the description of the prizes? This was actually a Founder Starter Kit, including promised credits (which I really needed, making the trip worthwhile) and a portfolio, among other things.
The person in charge will contact me this week to fulfill the prizes and handle the next steps.
Most participants in this event were from the Boston and New York areas, including but not limited to students from Columbia, NYU, BU, BC, Colgate, and other large universities and liberal arts colleges, as well as Dartmouth students (I had a Dartmouth junior on my team).
The actual Hackathon process wasn't as uneventful as it seemed. From my perspective, a lot happened:
1. Someone mistakenly took my suitcase, and I had to look for it so much that the staff recognized me because of it.
2. Since I was the only one from my school participating, I took a two-hour bus ride to Chicago, then flew to Boston and finally to Dartmouth, staying overnight before and after. People were always surprised when I told them about my journey.
(Of course, the prizes directly covered the cost of flights and accommodations, and even exceeded them by a lot, not to mention the invaluable experiences I gained.)
3. Before I almost decided to solo hack (working on a project alone), a guy talked to me about his project idea, but he wanted to do AR/VR. Since we couldn't compromise, we didn't form a team. After the awards, he came to find me again, asking about and listening to my project idea.
4. When the teams were being congratulated, I might have been mistaken for a staff member because I was wearing a hat, so I was overlooked during handshakes and small talk. When the person turned around to prepare, my teammate reminded them, "We have one more teammate here."
5. Although this was my first Hackathon, my teammates had participated in many (one had been to six), so most of the time, I learned from their experiences and stories. Even so, during the demo, my teammates always mentioned that the inspiration came from me (and that I was writing a book). In fact, my name appeared directly as the source of inspiration in the project description.
6. Oh, I still don't have the habit of posting selfies, so I'll blur myself out.
(Sometimes, I feel like I'm living in a novel.)
...
Actually, I've been considering starting a business since the beginning of this year, but I've been waiting and originally planned to start the project during the summer break (this semester's 20 credits, writing a book, ongoing research projects, and other miscellaneous tasks are becoming overwhelming).
Starting a business is undoubtedly troublesome and difficult, including startup funds, networking, etc. At the Honor College's research fair, I also connected with the person in charge of an early-stage investment project, but I couldn't plan and execute it in detail due to time constraints. This Founder Starter Kit is an unexpected and excellent beginning and booster.
I read the prize book on the plane back, and although I didn't read the detailed content, the general framework and process opened the doors to a new world for me. The book also includes interviews with some successful entrepreneurs, some of whom have familiar names.
...
It's true that sometimes, just when I'm tired and want to give up, an unknown source of faith and opportunity gets me busy again.
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黑客松达特茅斯 - 第一次黑客松经历
黑客松达特茅斯 - 第一次黑客松经历
HackDartmouth - First Hackathon experience
HackDartmouth - First Hackathon experience
HackDartmouth首战告捷！
Hackathon ❌ free T shirts & sticker -thon ✅
半夜的frozen，半夜发面膜，只看到男（指男）女（指女）老（指Senior上至Graduate）少（指First Year Freshman）敷着面膜在路上飘着，像个幽灵一样
这第一次参加Hackathon的项目就是AI writing helper 我是真的真的很想写书（并且自己已经准备了不少了），过程总觉得现在的工具缺点功能，于是就给自己写一个写书的工具啦～ 但是肯定不是AI拿来写，而是让AI做冗余的事情，自己只负责写书，字还是自己一个个亲手敲的
由于自己确实已经写了书，并且也在demo阶段展示出来我那庞大复杂的设定让每个judger都感叹一句
细节什么的就不过多描述啦，总之是成功得到了队友的力挺
+自己狠狠地体验了一把prompt engineering
+和队友沟通每次提出的idea都能被认可
+队友每个人性格都很好
Demo的时候，由于时间不够了，Judger说“我只给你30秒”的时候感觉自己要凉一半了
开头我就直接喊出来（因为周围环境很吵）
“AI写的文字没有灵魂！” 30秒结束了，人家确实是来不及听下去了，但是人家突然掏出名片给我说他很感兴趣，因为他也是一名作者，他十分赞同我说的话！全队都震惊了
在队友传着名片拍完照之后郑重地递给我的时候，我的感受是难以用言语形容的 第一次参加拿三个奖感觉都有点受宠若惊了呢（挠头），我人都躺在沙发上了，起来了三次
两方Sponsor奖特别惊喜，完全没有想到自己的主意会被business investor看中！（幸好熬夜做准备的时候做了市场调查 (￣▽￣)）
另一个是队友取得花里胡哨的域名（不是Saga）得的奖 原本熬夜的时候，以为自己要通宵了，第一次和monster和红牛然后前前后后给自己灌了四五瓶monster（加上早上的）和一瓶红牛
结果到四点半左右的时候还是睡着了，六点半起来
咳咳，一个队伍最强的状态，就是不知道谁带谁，因为每个人的存在都很重要 然后就是在这个比赛总分前十奖肯定已经不错啦！只是这会让我下次更有野心的呢[Doge]（没得前五有点可惜，我看中了人家的switch lite咳咳）
我：（对没有人）你知道吗？学计算机的能力是有极限的，
没有人：所以呢？
我：所以我，决定创业啦！（计算机还是要学的，作业还是要做的……） Project一定会继续做下去的，已经有创业的想法啦～
salute🫡
First victory on my First Hackathon!
Hackathon ❌ free T-shirts & sticker-thon ✅
Mid-night Frozen, late-night face masks, seeing men (referring to males), women (referring to females), seniors (referring to Senior and Graduate students), and freshmen (referring to First Year Freshman) wearing face masks wandering around like ghosts.
The first Hackathon project I participated in was an AI writing helper. I really, really want to write a book (and have prepared quite a bit for it), and I always felt that the tools available were lacking. So, I created my own writing tool! But the idea isn't to let AI write the book, but to have AI handle the redundant tasks while I focus on writing the book, typing each word myself.
Since I had actually written a book, during the demo, I showed off my vast and intricate settings, which amazed each judge.
I won't go into too much detail about the project, but it was successful, and I received strong support from my teammates.
+ I experienced prompt engineering in depth
+ Every idea I proposed was approved by my teammates
+ All teammates had great personalities
During the demo, due to the lack of time, the judge said, "I'll only give you 30 seconds," and I felt like I was about to lose it.
At the beginning, I shouted out (because the environment was noisy), "AI-written words have no soul!" The 30 seconds were up, and the judge didn't have time to listen further, but suddenly, he took out his business card and said he was very interested because he was also an author and agreed with what I said! The whole team was shocked.
After my teammates took pictures with the business card and handed it to me solemnly, my feelings were indescribable. It was overwhelming to win three awards in my first competition (scratching my head), and I even lay down on the sofa, getting up three times.
The two sponsor awards were particularly surprising, as I never expected my idea to attract the attention of business investors! (Thankfully, I did market research while preparing for the competition late at night)
Another award was for my teammate who secured a fancy domain name (not Saga). Initially, I thought I would have to pull an all-nighter, so I drank four or five cans of Monster (plus one in the morning) and a can of Red Bull.
However, I still fell asleep around 4:30 am and woke up at 6:30 am.
Ahem, a team's strongest state is when it's unclear who leads whom because everyone's presence is essential. Ranking in the top ten overall in this competition is undoubtedly impressive! But it will make me more ambitious next time [Doge] (it's a pity we didn't make it to the top five; I had my eyes on that Switch Lite, ahem).
Me: (to no one) Did you know? There's a limit to one's ability in computer science.
No one: So what?
Me: So, I've decided to start a business! (I still need to study computer science, and I still need to do my assignments...) The project will definitely continue, and I already have ideas for starting a business!
Salute🫡
将Undergraduate Spring Conference的真实经历写成小说的形式
将Undergraduate Spring Conference的真实经历写成小说的形式
Novel-styled real experience: Undergraduate Research Conference
Novel-styled real experience: Undergraduate Research Conference
混乱的桌面前坐着一个目光平淡，不紧不慢盯着屏幕的人，此人正是友人A。
宽松的连帽衫套在身上，刚洗完澡的毛巾随意搭在身后的椅背上，桌面上的手机震动了一下，友人A拿起了手机。
“你在哪里啊，还有十分钟就到我们了！”看着队友发来的消息，她自然知道这意味着什么。Undergraduate Spring Research Conference的Research Talk，这是她的第一次，也是队友的第一次。每组Research Talk都会有专门的小房间，还有对应的听众，Judger、Professor和其他的Mentor，如此重要的场面迟到了损失的可就不是一点两点了。
“On my way！”迅速穿上准备好的白衬衫，再套上一层外套，友人A迅速从冲下楼。
十分钟？不，是十三分钟。她心中计算着，从宿舍到目的地走路需要十五到二十五分钟，走路过去的选择肯定排除。友人A看向车站，转角迎面过来了一辆bus，是Gold Loop。
Gold Loop，如此特别的路线，正如其名，是从宿舍到达教学楼最快的bus。预计大概要十分钟就能到。友人A暗暗摇头，不行。根据Gold Loop到目标教学楼的路线来看，它需要经过至少五个转角和四个红灯，外加上中间还有学生上下车的可能，最后到达的时候肯定至少十五分钟已经过去了。上次就是因为相信了这个玩意结果导致midterm迟到的下场早已给她留下了深刻的教训。
骑自行车？确实是个不错的选择，并且是最有可能按时到达的交通工具之一。然而，自行车并不是最完美的选择。十二点，正中午，太阳暴晒，天气预报上显示的温度为27摄氏度，80华氏度，这么热的天气下她可不想汗淋淋地出现在空调房的小房间里，心不在焉地演讲。
那就只有，ve——（被打断），小绿摩托了，咳咳。电动摩托，哪怕兜着热风都相对凉快，且迅速。至于代价，相比于Research Conference迟到而言，已经不算什么了。
到了教学楼楼底下，友人A看了一下时间。11:51，不错，还有9分钟。接下来只要慢慢走……
等下，楼梯在哪里？
友人A虽然不是第一次来到这个教学楼，但是她从来没有上过楼，这里的楼梯更是隐蔽。她冲进了中间的图书馆，终于找到了二楼的楼梯。上楼之后发现，这里意外地平静。也是，图书馆嘛，她的匆忙显然和周围环境的寂静格格不入。
这里的图书馆看不见多少人的踪影，坐在窗口前小哥百无聊赖地手撑着头。他也只是过来打工的而已，毕竟单是在这里坐着摸鱼，工资也是按小时结的。
“Excuse me, do you know where 214 is?”友人A走向了图书馆员的窗台前，对着玻璃窗口的缝隙，向小哥问道。
“Er em.”小哥缓慢地从桌子上起来，看向桌子的一角，“emmm......”一会，他又慢慢地看向另一个角落，似乎是在地图上寻找。
大哥啊！我急着去Research Presentation啊！拜托你快点吧！！！友人A心中急道。
终于，小哥抬起头来。就在友人A以为她能够得到答案的时候，小哥转身走进了里面的房间。友人A听到小哥问，“...she asked where the 214 is...”
“Oh. What does that for?”真正的图书馆管理员的声音传来。
“It's for undergraduate spring conference”友人A连忙道，完了完了，时间要来不及了。
“Oh, it should in H（另一个教学楼）……”
我走错了！？？？那一瞬间友人A开始怀疑人生，她计算着从她现在的教学楼跑过去大概要多少时间。
“…… and S（这个教学楼）, you mean this one?”图书管理员平缓地问道。
“Yes……the S one.”友人A松了一口气，“Can you bring me there?”
“你要找的那个地方在那个门的后面，”图书管理员出来，带着友人A走向对门，指着门说道。“谢……”
“但是，你推开这个门警报就会响。”
“那……”
“所以，”图书管理员拿起手中的钥匙，“我用这个钥匙帮你打开。”
说罢，图书管理员推开门，友人A往前一探头。面前正是Undergraduate Research Conference的现场。
“这是你要找的地方吗？”图书管理员问道。
“是的是的谢谢！”友人A感觉到了什么叫做柳暗花明，连忙谢过图书管理员，往周围扫视。突然，她像是找到了什么，快步走上去。
面前正是她的队友和指导老师，往日穿着随便的他们今天终于换上了衬衫。他们没有怪责友人A，反而说道，“马上就要到我们了哦”
正当友人A一脸茫然的时候，指导老师笑着对她说道：“快去签到吧。”
“哦……哦！好！”友人A走向了一个立着牌子的小桌前，面前的女生问道：“你是Presenter（演讲），Judger（评审员）还是Mentor（指导员）？”
“Presenter。”友人A回道。女生示意让友人A刷校卡，过程中她看向面前的名字贴纸的分隔的盒子问道：“你叫什么？”
“Jing”
Sitting in front of a chaotic desk was a person with a bland gaze, staring at the screen at a leisurely pace. This person was none other than Friend A. Wearing a loose hoodie, with a towel casually draped over the back of the chair after a shower, the phone on the desk vibrated. Friend A picked up the phone.
"Where are you? We're on in ten minutes!" Looking at the message from her teammate, she knew what it meant. The Undergraduate Spring Research Conference Research Talk was her first time, as well as her teammates'. Each Research Talk would have a dedicated room, with an audience, judges, professors, and other mentors. Being late to such an important event would be a huge loss.
"On my way!" Quickly putting on the prepared white shirt and a coat, Friend A hurriedly rushed downstairs.
Ten minutes? No, thirteen minutes. She calculated that it would take 15-25 minutes to walk from the dormitory to the destination. Walking was definitely not an option. Friend A looked at the bus station, and a Gold Loop bus appeared around the corner.
The Gold Loop, as the name suggests, was the fastest bus from the dormitory to the academic buildings. It was estimated to take about ten minutes. Friend A shook her head, not good enough. According to the route of the Gold Loop to the target building, it would need to pass through at least five corners and four red lights, plus the possibility of students getting on and off. By the time it arrived, at least fifteen minutes would have passed. Last time, trusting this bus led to her being late for the midterm, which taught her a valuable lesson.
Riding a bicycle? Indeed, a good choice, and one of the most likely means of transportation to arrive on time. However, the bicycle was not the perfect choice. At noon, with the sun blazing and temperatures at 27°C (80°F), she didn't want to appear sweaty in an air-conditioned room, giving a distracted presentation.
So, the only option left was the electric scooter, which was relatively cool and fast, even when surrounded by hot air. The cost was nothing compared to being late for the Research Conference.
Arriving at the base of the academic building, Friend A checked the time. 11:51, not bad, 9 minutes left. Now, all she had to do was walk slowly...
Wait, where are the stairs?
Although it wasn't Friend A's first time in this building, she had never gone upstairs, and the stairs were well-hidden. She rushed into the central library, finally finding the stairs to the second floor. Once upstairs, she found the place surprisingly calm. Well, it was a library, and her haste seemed out of place in the quiet environment.
There weren't many people in sight in the library, and the guy sitting by the window looked bored, propping his head up with his hand. He was just here to work, after all. Just sitting around and doing nothing, his salary was calculated by the hour.
"Excuse me, do you know where room 214 is?" Friend A approached the librarian's window, asking through the gap in the glass.
"Er, um," the guy slowly got up from the table, looking at one corner of the table. "Emmm..." After a while, he looked at another corner, seemingly searching on the map.
Dude, I'm in a hurry for the Research Presentation! Please hurry up!!! Friend A thought anxiously.
Finally, the guy looked up. Just when Friend A thought she could get an answer, he turned and walked into the room inside. Friend A heard him ask, "...she asked where room 214 is..."
"Oh. What's that for?"
"It's for the undergraduate spring conference," Friend A hurriedly said, Oh no, oh no, there's not enough time.
"Oh, it should be in Building H..."
Did I go to the wrong place?!?! For a moment, Friend A started doubting her life, calculating how much time it would take to run from her current building.
"... and Building S, do you mean this one?" the librarian asked calmly.
"Yes... the S one." Friend A sighed in relief, "Can you bring me there?"
"The place you're looking for is behind that door," the librarian came out from behind the desk, leading Friend A towards the door, pointing at it as she spoke. "Thank..."
"But, if you open this door, the alarm will sound."
"So..."
"So," the librarian picked up a key from her hand, "I'll open it for you with this key."
Having said that, the librarian pushed open the door, and Friend A peered ahead. It was the scene of the Undergraduate Research Conference.
"Is this the place you're looking for?" the librarian asked.
"Yes, yes, thank you!" Friend A felt like she had just gone from despair to joy. She quickly thanked the librarian, looking around. Suddenly, as if she found something, she quickly walked forward.
In front of her were her teammates and mentor, who usually dressed casually but today finally wore shirts. They didn't blame Friend A, instead, they said, "It's almost our turn."
Just as Friend A was looking confused, her mentor laughed and said to her, "Go sign in."
"Oh... Oh! Okay!" Friend A walked to a small table with a sign. The girl in front of her asked, "Are you a presenter, a judge, or a mentor?"
"Presenter," Friend A replied. The girl signaled for Friend A to swipe her school card. During the process, she looked at the divided box of name stickers in front of her and asked, "What's your name?"
"Jing"
“呼——”终于演讲完了。AI和教育，这个主题似乎得到了出乎意料不错的反响。友人A松了口气，回到了指导员旁边的座位上。
要知道，她昨天在群里问要不要合作练习的时候，队友回道“我已经把我的部分大声说出来练习了好几次了，不用担心。”结果到现在她倒成为了一点也没有练习过的人。
还好，还好，自己的临场发挥是不错，友人A暗中庆幸。指导员探头过来，“Hey Jing，你真的是第一次参加conference吗？”
友人A自然而然地回道：“对呀。”
“Wow真的吗! You've done a really great job!”指导员感叹道。她带的这个小组原本只是Learning Community（学习社区）的必修课上的一个Project而已，没想到顺其自然竟然能够成功走到今天，以及成为未来长时间研究下的开题。
原定的演讲中是不会问观众任何问题的，但是在队友介绍的过程中，友人A心血来潮，在轮到她介绍Methodology的时候，她用了一个问题开头——
“在场的人谁有尝试使用过ChatGPT？”
在场的人互相对视了一下，然后齐刷刷地举起手。友人A十分惊喜，顿了一下，沿着这个话题继续介绍了下去。
不紧不慢地绕道房间的后面接了咖啡，拿了小饼干，回到座位的友人A回想到刚刚的一系列举动。‘呃啊，我刚刚说了啥来着，’演讲完的友人A成功进入了失忆的状态，‘…呃啊算了，不管了！’
这咖啡熟悉的水味，嗯，是星巴克的咖啡。走出门外，队友们兴奋地讨论刚刚的演讲，友人A出门前顺手又接了一杯咖啡。‘比起饭堂和图书馆的那些……呃，咖啡因来说，这个算喝的顺口的了，啊这熟悉的味道……’
“AI is a tool to help us, not destroy us. 干的漂亮！这个总结也太棒了吧！”队友惊喜且兴高采烈地说道，要不是珍惜“好久没喝的”（指昨天才喝完）咖啡，友人A差点就把咖啡喷出来。
“我这个真的是演讲的时候心血来潮，过程中突然想到的。”友人A回道，但是嘴角也忍不住地上扬。
“而且你看见了吗？好像就我们组有那么多的feedback和comment，剩下的都是象征性地评价和问问题而已。”另一个队友凑上来说道。
将剩下的咖啡一饮而尽，友人A笑道：
“Great job guys (￣∇￣)”
"Phew—" The presentation was finally over. AI and education, a topic that seemed to have received an unexpectedly good response. Friend A breathed a sigh of relief and returned to her seat next to the mentor.
You know, when she asked her teammates yesterday in the group chat if they wanted to practice together, one of them replied, "I've already practiced my part out loud several times, don't worry." But now she had become the one who hadn't practiced at all.
Fortunately, her on-the-spot performance was good, and Friend A was secretly relieved. The mentor leaned over and asked, "Hey Jing, is this really your first time at a conference?"
Friend A naturally replied, "Yes."
"Wow, really? You've done a really great job!" the mentor exclaimed. The group she led was originally just a project for a required course in the Learning Community, but unexpectedly, it had naturally progressed to today's success and even became the starting point for a long-term research topic.
The original plan for the presentation didn't involve asking the audience any questions, but during her teammate's introduction, Friend A was suddenly inspired. When it was her turn to present the methodology, she started with a question—
"Who here has tried using ChatGPT?"
The audience looked at each other, then raised their hands in unison. Friend A was pleasantly surprised, paused for a moment, and continued her presentation along this topic.
After getting a cup of coffee and some cookies from the back of the room, Friend A returned to her seat, recalling her recent actions. 'Uh, what did I just say?' Friend A, who had just finished presenting, had successfully entered a state of amnesia, '...Uh, never mind, it doesn't matter!'
This coffee had a familiar taste, yes, it was Starbucks coffee. As they walked out of the room, her teammates excitedly discussed the presentation, and Friend A grabbed another cup of coffee before leaving. 'Compared to the caffeine in the cafeteria and library... uh, this one is smoother to drink, ah, this familiar taste...'
"AI is a tool to help us, not destroy us. Great job! That conclusion was amazing!" One teammate exclaimed excitedly. If it weren't for the cherished "long time no drink" (meaning just finished yesterday) coffee, Friend A would have almost spat it out.
"I really just thought of that on the spot during the presentation," Friend A replied, but the corners of her mouth couldn't help but curve upward.
"Did you see that? It seems like our group had so much feedback and comments, the rest were just symbolic evaluations and questions," another teammate chimed in.
Finishing the rest of her coffee, Friend A laughed:
"Great job, guys (￣∇￣)"
插曲：
我：（愧疚）“说实话，我其实没有练习。”
那个说自己练习了很多遍的队友：“哈哈哈哈我也是，但是没想到效果还是不错的！”
我：“？”（有种被骗了的感觉）
Interlude:
Me: (guilty) "To be honest, I didn't practice at all."
The teammate who claimed to have practiced many times: "Hahaha, me neither, but the outcome was still surprisingly good!"
Me: "?" (Feeling a bit deceived)
Writing
Writing
小说大纲万字纪念
小说大纲万字纪念
10k-word Novel Outline Commemoration
10k-word Novel Outline Commemoration
七年级开始的时候就想写小说了，笔名在那个时候就想好了
每一次都是拖延结果到最后突然就有了新的想法，又因为自己要忙别的事情，结果到了高中毕业了连一个像样的东西都没有出来
（其实最大放弃的原因是写感情线）
【写书】/【写小说】便沉积在我的long-term todo list的最底下
然而不行啊，拖下去不是办法，毕竟不同年龄段看到的东西和想法是不一样的
我必须现在开始写
不会写爱情线，那就不写。
回想起刚开始萌生写小说想法的时候，
那个时候的自己还真的是天真，想到的都是大爽文才会有的设定：
主角一路升级，谁拦打谁
就是龙傲天，就是无敌，从来不会经历挫折
尝试定一个核心思路，但是又希望自己的孩子（主角）有着至高无上的追求
……
是天真吗？不清楚，但这一定能反映那时候的我：想要变得很强、莫欺少年穷，得到其他人的称赞却透露着无知和迷茫
现在看来，这不一定是坏事
我决定用大女主，写成长
写着写着，变成了双女主
再写着写着，两把刀架在了两位女主的脖子上
再写着写着，几把刀又捅在了其他的角色身上
再写着写着，……
咳咳，不知道从什么时候开始，我认为刀子是必不可少的东西
什么叫做：
「自古深情留不住，
唯有刀子得人心。」
或许只有经历了挫折和刻骨铭心，才会换来真正的成长吧（笑）
写角色设定和平生经历的时候，ta这一生一定会有或多或少的遗憾
如果ta的名字留在这个世界上，那么世人只会知道ta的名声：
要么青史名留，随着时间的流逝被神化
要么遗臭万年，无论当年的真相
越是尝试去刻画一个角色，我越是佩服金庸先生
从语言描写，到角色形象，越是尝试去理解，我越能感受到自己文学的浅薄
好了，不立太多flag了，大纲还没有完成呢（预计完成会超过2w字）
完成之前不考虑投稿，更不考虑公布自己写的内容和题材，如果你在未来的某个时刻看到小说上面写着这段话，这大概就是我写的某个篇章的后记：
“不是所有的故事都是圆满的结局”
“结果是交给世人的答卷，只有当局者知道书写的过程”
Since the beginning of seventh grade, I've wanted to write a novel and had already thought of a pen name.
Each time I procrastinated, I suddenly came up with new ideas but got too busy with other things. As a result, by the time I graduated from high school, I hadn't produced anything substantial (the biggest reason for giving up was writing the emotional storyline). Writing a book/novel sank to the bottom of my long-term to-do list.
However, this can't go on; different age groups see things and have different ideas. I must start writing now. If I can't write about love, then I won't.
Recalling when I first thought of writing a novel, I was naive, considering settings only found in enjoyable reads: the protagonist leveling up and defeating anyone in the way, being invincible and never experiencing setbacks. I tried to establish a core idea but wanted my child (the protagonist) to have the highest aspirations.
Is it naive? I'm not sure, but it reflects my desire to become strong, earn others' praise, and reveal my ignorance and confusion.
Now, it might not necessarily be a bad thing. I decided to write about a strong female protagonist's growth. While writing, it became a story of two female protagonists. As I continued writing, knives were held against both protagonists' throats. Then more knives were stabbed into other characters, and so on.
Cough, I don't know when, but I began to think that "knives" are indispensable. What is:
"Deep love can't be kept,
only a knife can win one's heart."
Perhaps only after experiencing setbacks and unforgettable pain can one truly grow (laughs).
When writing a character's background and life experiences, they will have regrets, big or small. If their name remains in the world, people will only know their reputation: either immortalized in history and deified over time or vilified for eternity, regardless of the truth back then.
The more I try to portray a character, the more I admire Mr. Jin Yong. From linguistic descriptions to character images, the more I try to understand, the more I realize the shallowness of my literature.
Alright, I won't set too many flags; the outline isn't even finished yet (expected to exceed 20,000 words). I won't consider submitting or disclosing my content and themes before it's done. If you see this passage in a novel someday, it's probably the afterword of one of my chapters:
"Not all stories have happy endings."
"The outcome is the answer given to the world, only those involved know the process of writing."
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