08 | be the main character.

Be the Main Character.

by Rhyah Austrie Reyes

Only if I can transform myself in just 10-seconds just to not get comments that will make my heart break into a million pieces:

“You are so fat.”

“You are more beautiful when you lose weight.”

“You are the person qualified for extra rice.”

These are their only choice of words that made me go back into the cage wherein I am filled with insecurities that I don’t know how to fight.

Growing up being that ‘chubby girl’, some were calling me cute, “oh wow, thanks for being honest, that’s true.” Kidding aside, the back of my bone carries the weight of the world from people I know that I should lose weight just because I get to run slower than their expectations.

Before, as I open my eyes and lift the voices behind my ears, I get to hear that some kids were fitting the societal standards and they do not even have to deal with these hateful comments anymore.

Being a bearer of the fire watered with self-love, this suffering felt like there’s no consolation, for most of the people will come to judge you as if you do not deserve to be in their circles.

Shortly Over There

Back when it was in December 2019, I forced myself to lose weight to stop getting these bad comments making my life miserable. From 69 kilograms to 55 kilograms, the body-shaming I’ve received turned to:

“You are more beautiful when you were chubby.”

“You look so skinny.”

“Is small the size of your shirt now? That’s unbelievable.”

In this world full of bad mouthful citizens, where should WE fit in?

The pile of confidence has turned into the darkness where silence meets the screams through a window pane. Even in turns of love, I remembered one of the guys with whom I had a talking stage before where he will point out that I should lose some fats juggling beneath my body.

People always think that it is easy to burn those calories and ignore those insecurities, in order for you to fit their standards. Society has been so messed up to the point that it is making a lot sick within their own souls.

The life filled with compassion became the life succumbed to dilemmas of the life seeking acceptance. Truly, people’s hearts are as fickle as falling petals, especially those who are experiencing bittersweet sorrows.

They pressured us that we gotta be all these things leading us to lose sight of who we were when we listened to the opinions of people.

Be YOU!

As I tried to change who I am, I thought the others would accept me for who I am and after a while, I realized I don’t know how to be anything but just show them who I am.

Do not be blinded by other people’s opinions and live your own life. Which is why this is the main reason to surround yourself with those who are grateful and accept you for who you are.

For us to be able to change the game, this is a reminder to always be kind and love one another. Learn how to embrace diversities that will mold us to have a chaotic-free life and know that you are beautiful.

~love, rhyah.

alliteration, anaphora, euphemism, epistrophe, flashbacks, foreshadowing, hyperbole, imagery, oxymoron.