I still have a vague awareness of somewhere.

I don’t understand it, but after I was defeated at Castle Oblivion, I lingered somewhere. I had intended to control the darkness, but I think I was the one controlled. I conceded defeat after fighting with Riku and I was extinguished. Perhaps, even more than wanting my heart, I was allured by the darkness?

Unlike Even and Dilan who were still unstable, after I awoke, I was fully conscious and had time to think clearly. And I keep thinking about it even now, although it’s still hazy.

What was that darkness? I feel like I still want the power that Riku had for myself. I had intended to take control of it, but instead I was defeated and erased.

In the end, Riku used the darkness I urged him to command, so he did not fall into our grasp. If I’d had that strength for myself, maybe none of this would have happened.

This world is beautiful and tranquil. It is this world that I wished for. But there may have been tranquility in the darkness, too.

Even now, I am seized by these thoughts. Perhaps I am not qualified to be an apprentice.