The Secrets of the Universe

You could assume I’m smart or not,

But I always thought

If I found the universal truths,

I’d found all I’d ever sought

Truths and absolutes

Origins and reasons

An ongoing pursuit

Throughout life’s tides and seasons

But how could knowledge fill a hole

That enshrouds a human soul?

Would information dead and cold

Satisfy ‘til I grow old?

I thought if I only knew

How we all came to be

The secrets of me and you

Would reveal themselves to me.

Itching to at last uncover

The reasons for the universe

A burning yearning to discover

Who and what created first

And who is the reigning being

That presides over it all?

What or who is ever-seeing?

Who decides our rise and fall?

Why are we who we are?

And what makes our stories ours?

Not the placement of the stars

Not mere seconds, weeks, hours

Why is abstraction in humanity?

Why are we arranged this way?

Oh, then I think that maybe

Peace would be mine to stay

Or the reasons for our imperfections

I could never fix them

But I could make connections

Examine roots and stems

If I could only know what happens

Once we all have died

Understanding the world’s systems

I could rest and sigh.

And repairing my mind

There seems to be no end

I had thought in there I’d find

The way to be content

Or maybe it could outline

The thoughts of all my friends

And the desire to understand

You, your heart, your thoughts

If I could just hold your hand…

You’re an instinct I forgot

A completely foreign land

You were designed and wrought

But god! I am a damned fool

With my never-ending thinking

Thinking I could be full

Knowing reasons and beginnings

Even little children know

Circles don’t go in squares;

Yet still I say, “No, no, no”

And fill air with more air.

But, no, that cannot satisfy

My needy, restless head

But I’ll never know how those hows and whys

Until I’m gone and dead;

And at last a revelation

In your heart and eyes

I don’t need all revelations

Or the secrets of the skies:

Every secret to sweet bliss

Rested in your lips.

I discovered in a kiss

As I held your hips

To think I almost missed

With my head in the clouds

What research and lists

Could have never found

By doing, doing this.

The questions I have will take many more lifetimes to answer anyway.