...so, I took a test 

Well, more like I underwent an assessment, to be more accurate. 

This assessment was a comprehensive set of questions and scenarios as well as an interview to clarify results. 

After a week or ten days the findings came back in the form of a thorough psychological report. 

What are the findings? I hear you ask! 

...I am ‘Autistic.’   

The signs were all there. The genetics too! I have three confirmed children, ‘on the spectrum,’ as they say.  

Why a spectrum? Autism is classified usually as autism spectrum disorder (ASD), at least in DSM-5 (5th edition of The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders is the handbook used by health care professionals in the United States and much of the world as the authoritative guide to the diagnosis of mental disorders).  

It is a vast array of characteristics, functioning, processes, and behaviours that range from, 'nonverbal' to 'savant.' A ‘neurodiversity’ that makes up and estimated 15-20 percent of the population.  

Famous politicians, scientists, actors, and businesspeople have all been part of this cohort, many of them going undiagnosed for most of their lives. And just as many attributing this very ‘disorder’ to their successes, innovation, creativity, and genius. 

Discovering this aspect of myself has been enlightening and transformative. The journey of self-discovery is often a complex one, but uncovering my autism has provided me with a fresh perspective on my past experiences and a newfound understanding of my present behaviours. 

The assessment process itself was a combination of introspection and guidance from a professional who specialize in neurodiversity. The extensive set of questions and scenarios allowed me to reflect on various aspects of my life, from social interactions to sensory experiences. The interview, on the other hand, provided an opportunity to delve deeper into my thoughts and feelings, offering insights into patterns and tendencies that might not have been obvious on the surface. 

The arrival of the psychological report brought with it a mixture of emotions—relief, validation, curiosity, and perhaps a touch of apprehension. It wasn't merely a label; it was a roadmap that helped me navigate my strengths and challenges. The report highlighted my unique strengths, shedding light on the skills and talents that are often associated with autistic individuals, such as attention to detail, pattern recognition, and a deep passion for specific interests. 

However, it also acknowledged the challenges I might face in certain situations, like navigating social nuances or dealing with sensory sensitivities. Armed with this knowledge, I hope to be able to develop strategies and techniques to manage these challenges more effectively, allowing me to thrive in various aspects of my life. 

But beyond the practical implications, the most powerful impact has been on my self-perception. Embracing my autism allows me to shed any lingering feelings of inadequacy or misunderstanding. I'm learning to view myself through a lens of self-compassion, recognizing that my differences are not deficiencies but unique qualities that contribute to the rich tapestry of human diversity. I am, proudly neurodiverse! 

Making the the choice to share my journey with others hasn't been without its uncertainties. Opening up about being autistic may well lead to varied responses—from those who offer unwavering support to those who struggle to understand what it truly means. However, each interaction is an opportunity to foster greater awareness and acceptance. It's a chance to challenge preconceived notions and celebrate the beautiful spectrum of human experiences. 

The journey of discovering my autism is becoming a profound chapter in my life's story. It has empowered me to better understand myself, embrace my authenticity, and advocate for greater acceptance of neurodiversity. This revelation isn't an endpoint, but rather a new beginning—a stepping stone towards a future where all individuals are celebrated for how they think, how they see the world and, who they truly are. 

...the journey continues!