Assuming I pass, I am certain that never in my life would I ever consider working on an audio-based industry. The things I said from my Blog No.1 remained if not got worse as I start to finish the requirements on this course. I cannot explore new music without the thought of judging the production quality of their tracks instead of enjoying and analyzing them as pieces of art themselves. I also cannot fathom to watch my favorite Tech-Youtubers when they talk about audio stuff. It reminds me of my experience dealing with my own equipment and spending miserable hours trying to understand the differences with every adjustment I made. I feel like this course was not weak at all. I think I am the weak one. I know I am not the smartest student in my batch, but never have I felt stupider in my academic career with this program. I also felt like, I was only trying to finish the course more than wanting to learn the lessons from it. I do not understand it either. I think I got too intimidated after the first assignment, and everything just went downhill from there. I know I performed poorly, despite gaslighting myself I am doing good because I can see how bad the others are doing as well. Like in assignment 1 where almost half of my classmates submitted a “sabog” audio output. I was only being nice with my peer review submission and only mentioned the ones who did good and great. Yet, all of that changed when the grades came in and the timeframe for assignment 2 started. The blogs where fun to write, because I think I am just trying to rant to Sir Al while also being graded for it. It is almost humorous in sense that I get to say what I want know I cannot fail the task because that is how it should be. I do not have that much to say already and I am only at 300+ words at the moment.
Maybe on this section I will just say things that I regret throughout the journey of this course. First, MY HEADLINE/TITLE FOR ASSIGNMENT 1. When Sir Al replied to my message, I understood immediately what I did wrong to get a grade of 70/100. I used “BLOG 1” as my title without knowing there are specific tasks that were supposed to be named like that. After that interaction I just then tried to explore the course page in the portal, and there I saw in the Assignments Section “Blog 1: Midpoint” staring at the idiot that is me. It was a stupid mistake, honestly, and that kept me awake until 5AM in the morning.
Second thing I regret, is something really out of my control. I wished I inherited the gene that my aunties’ have to acquire their skills and talent to sing. The multitracking project was so embarrassing that I almost convinced myself not to submit anything. It was really a matter of “para sa grades” that I built up the guts to submit something. Like, hell! I cannot even listen to that piece of crap again. I kid you not, I will delete that track from my SoundCloud account after receiving the grades for this course—assuming I pass.
Lastly, I want to say I regret that I failed to follow my plans for the final project. I only did the whole thing in a span of three nights. I tried to do the whole poem, but it was taking too much time and I had other final projects I needed to submit—animation project in MMS 176, which I also did not finish and submitted an incomplete output. Geez, these production courses are killing me more than I could have anticipated. Maybe I was just not meant for BAMS after all. But I cannot quit now, I am already a senior next trimester; and I know how hard it is to restart from zero.
I am almost done completing the 700-word minimum requirement, so I will just use all of it to thank Sir Al. Thank you on how accommodating you are throughout the whole course. Even if I thought you were being unnecessarily mad on your E-mails, which I cannot really blame you given how much easy of an instruction you provided for us, and some of us still managed to mess things up and made it more complicated for your review. I am not entirely that disappointed with how I dealt with the course, I know for certain that I enjoyed aspects of it. Thank you and I hope to make use of the lessons you gave us in the future. Who knows, maybe I will remember what I learned about acoustic treatment and sound staging when I am assembling my dream of having home theatre setup. Again, thank you, and good luck to all of us.
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