Storytelling, salves
Storytelling, salves
To
love you is to fade daily. To leave you
is to die sooner.
"Death Wish," Josh Alex Baker
Triangle of Sadness, people of intensely varying classes are stranded on an island and a hierarchy is formed. Mulholland Drive, divided into two realms: one of dreams, and one of reality. The Handmaiden, escaping, escaping, tricking, escaping, which truth is the truth and thus which world is the real world.
I have a vague memory of reading a book called Delirium in middle school wherein love is considered a disease, much like how lovesicknesses is treated by Boccaccio’s author voice in The Decameron. (An “affliction,” Professor Shemek calls it in her first lecture, "The Decameron's World in a Frame." Something to recover from.) In Delirium, scientists have found a cure for love, injected once one turns eighteen. Though we have not yet discovered such a thing, there are presumably salves for the aftermath of a particularly sharp heartbreak. Drawing a parallel between Boccaccio’s author voice and the brigata, both of who are attempting to escape pain, it is reasonable to name storytelling as one of such medications, though a temporary one from which we must eventually part. In this case, is it really an absolute salve, or an aid to revelation?
Scene of the Narration of the Decameron, Salvatore Postiglione.
YOUNG, HOPELESS, AND rich, the seven women and three men of the brigata squat in luxurious palaces that have been abandoned by their previous owners, presumed escapees or dead. They become somewhat hedonistic in their desperateness to escape their plague-torn world, and more specifically, that of Florence, where they’ve seen families and friends, servants and lords alike fall victim to the merciless hands of death. “How can it be wrong, provided no one is harmed, for us or for anyone else to use whatever remedies we can find in order to preserve our lives?” Pampinea, one of the ladies, cries out before they set off on their journey. “[We should be] having as much fun as possible, feasting and making merry, without ever overstepping the bounds of reason in any way” (Day 1 Introduction, Boccaccio). Thus begins their ten days of storytelling, in which they exchange tales related to love, betrayal, deceit, death, life, and honor, to name a few.
To the brigata, such a departure is meant to provide them an escape from reality, both physically and emotionally. Not only do they leave behind their city and surround themselves with opulent nature and the remains of their once lush lives, but they dream up worlds in which they can better process and understand aspects of their humanity that at the present have been dashed by the collapse of reason and order. At the supposed loss of their Sicilian hierarchy, they create their own miniature political structure, which Professor Shemek outlines in her first lecture as a rotational, daily monarchy, wherein all members of the group are equal (Shemek, "World in a Frame").
Depiction of Florence during the Black Death.
What they are attempting to do by fleeing Florence is, at the forefront, not a method of processing, but rather chosen ignorance. They wish to ignore what is happening at home, even requesting that their servants and maids not relay any information about the “outside” world unless it is positive (Day 1 Introduction, Boccaccio). Yet, as the days progress, and they come closer and closer to the understanding that their locus amoenus ("pleasant place") cannot last forever, it becomes clearer that their efforts at forgetting have only made the tragedy more central to their lives. This realization that they must return to Florence is not one doused in blood, however, but hope. As Professor Shemek puts it, “the brigata’s mental journey to re-create [the] compassion and humanity [lost during the pandemic] is a physical journey,” a fact that arguably only becomes clear to the brigata themselves after their endeavors to forget (Shemek, "World in a Frame"). Their journey was never meant to help them forget and restart, but rather become perhaps subconsciously intimate with all that makes us human.
Various depictions of lovesickness.
after before love journey locus amoenus after lovesick illness disease love after return heal return revelation love after
Comparatively, the “author” of The Decameron voices his desire to comfort those who are lovesick, a mission that comes about due to his own experience with love and the conversations with friends that ultimately “healed” him (Day 1 Introduction, Boccaccio). In some ways, the author represents what happens to the brigata after (in the sense that they’ve retired to Florence) their journey has ended: the author isn’t actively escaping something, but is at the point where he has lived through it and wishes to impart his knowledge on those still suffering.
If we assume, as Professor Shemek has, that the brigata and the author are warped reflections of each other, one existing in the present and the other in the near future, it is also reasonable to argue that lovesickness is not something that ever truly goes away, that pain is not something that ever truly goes away, but merely something that we come to touch like chilled fingertips to a bruise. I say this because the brigata presumably returns to Florence vulnerable, susceptible to illness. They are not invincible. They have not found a miraculous cure. They have simply–through storytelling, through experiencing their miniature, cloistered world–reframed their outlook on life, on death, on humanity, and wish to preserve and protect that understanding with all of their ability; wish to share this understanding with all those willing to listen. Just as the brigata returns blindly to a city once loved–still love–we, too, must eventually face our tragedies and learn how to live alongside them. There is nowhere to flee, because you cannot flee. You cannot hide from what makes you human.
Oh, you know, you realize that grief is perhaps the last and / final translation of love. And I think, you know, this is the / last act of loving someone. And you realize that it will never / end. You get to do this to translate this last act of love for the / rest of your life.
Time Is a Mother, Ocean Vuong
A collection of nameless pictures taken in transit
I WALK FAST, but this doesn’t mean I don’t take time to appreciate what is around me. I think this is the best comparison I can make to how I experience UCI. To me, it is largely a liminal space; even all of the photos I take are in transit. The paths feel transitory, and I rarely see people lounging somewhere between classes outside. Just rushing back and forth. The park is nowhere near as filled as it would be compared to, say, the East Coast, which is ironic considering we are definitely much more fast-paced over there.
Maybe it’s exactly that: maybe it’s because I’m from the opposite side of the country and Irvine especially feels so artificial, so pre-planned, compared to the rugged outline of New York City when driving up the I95. Here, even the sky doesn’t seem to want to cry. But I don’t think that’s it. I don’t think it’s the distance. I don’t think it’s the culture. I think it’s simply that I’ve departed from home.
irvine to new york
home, where it rains
I went through something similar in high school, when I was six hours and four states away for the majority of the year: I’d come home and the things that I experienced at school felt very brief, condensed into minutes of memories as though I’d had them uploaded from a drive from Best Buy. I wouldn’t wear anything that reminded me of school because I didn’t want to think about it, didn’t want to make it feel real or long lasting. I even refused to decorate my room for the first year or so, because I didn’t want to make it feel permanent. I had boxes stacked under beds and my walls were white like an asylum. My dormmates joked that I was perpetually in a state of moving out or in, or somewhere oddly in between.
But overtime, the walls filled. The abrasive ceiling lights shut off and I lit my room in blues. I wore school merchandise (heck, I wear it all of the time here) and in September, returning to school to drop off my brother, I felt just as I did returning home. All of this to say that right now, as I move through UCI, everything feels very brief to me. But I assume that when I leave, this will change.
dorm room, senior year
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My dorm room (pictured to the left) is the only place that I’m able to physically make my own. I can decorate it however I want and I have the ability to determine who enters and who cannot. It’s a very selective place which makes it excellent for retreating and reflecting, both in solitude and with others. Letting someone enter your room feels very exposing and I don’t do it often–but I have been generously let into a number of other peoples’ rooms, and even the physical act of being let inside has prompted slews of internal reflection about relationships and platonic intimacy.
Most of the other spaces I’ve felt strongly about have ties to the arts, which makes sense considering they are entrenched with stories. The open spaces sprawled across campus are especially inviting, often occupied during chilled nights by dance teams soaked in sweat and enthusiasm. These are places that are all about retreating, critiquing, and creating something as a collective. Though largely motivated by the people, the physical architecture, the empty plazas, the cavernous parking structures, loudly call to be filled by the masses.
Artist, Unknown. Erasistratus, a Physician, Realising That Antiochus’s (Son of Seleucus I) Illness Is Love-Sickness for His Stepmother Stratonice, by Observing That Antiochus’s Pulse Rose Whenever He Saw Her.
Baker, Josh Alex. "Death Wish."
Boccaccio, Giovanni, and Wayne A. Rebhorn. The Decameron: A New Translation, Contexts, Criticism: A Norton Critical Edition. W.W. Norton et Company, 2016.
Chang, Zoë. Collection of Nameless Pictures in Transit.
“Florence before and after the Black Death.” The Short Course, www.theshortcourse.org/florence-before-and-after-the-black-death. Accessed 15 Nov. 2023.
Lynch, David, director. Mulholland Drive.
Millais, John Everett. Ophelia.
Millais, John Everett. The Death of Romeo and Juliet. 1848.
Oliver, Lauren. Delirium. Harper, 2016.
Park, Chan-wook, director. The Handmaiden.
Postiglione, Salvatore. Scene of the Narration of the Decameron.
Sabatelli, Luigi. The Plague of Florence in 1348.
Shemek, Deanna. “The Decameron’s World in a Frame.”
Steen, Jan. A Physician Taking the Pulse of a Lovesick Girl.
Östlund, Ruben, director. Triangle of Sadness.
Vuong, Ocean. Time Is a Mother. Jonathan Cape, 2023.
Waterhouse, John William. Echo and Narcissus.