15.1.16 Well, thus far I have had a most trying time 2016: too many sleepless nights through no fault of my own putting my recovery in jeopardy, my car damaged. A young cousin broke her arm over the holiday. Other mishaps to folk I know. I've never known it like this in less than a month. Well, all I can say is - where there is life, life continues. I mean, what else is there?
It has been a struggle to keep writing but I raise my pen every now and then. Some say the pen is mighty but I know the thought comes first. Rearing to get up and go but I need to take it easy because of current symptoms. I'm still breathing. Yah's Blessings!!!
3.3.16 It has been hard because I am barely functioning on many levels, though I try to keep a finger in - has to be a passionate thing for me. Coming back from surgery and treatment has been draining and got a while to go. Times I've felt like so abandoned ... Another story but that's all in the hand one's dealt overall.
EU Brexit, US primaries and JA's had an election that's left the new government hanging on a string. All a bit much for the electorates who have to wade through these warring political factions and this time around there really is so much more at stake for the world at large with so many people in direct danger.
I have a long way to go healthwise, body and mind. So hey ... Folks have to fight for their freedoms already fought for and to maintain those freedoms. The inequalities remain ...
19.4.16 I turn around and already it is April and all I seem to be doing is being in a state of permanent recovery management and so exhausted, though a touch less tired today without really knowing why. Probably the tonic I'm taking. Been so sore of late too. A load of form filling and what not ... What I would really like to do is to get back to being creative and to finish all the work I have started. Just going from one health issue to another currently. I like looking at pictures because they're inspiring for me as some of you already know. I like writing stories around pictures I see sometimes. I don't mind writing to themes that challenge me - out of my comfort zone. I can find that fun when I'm not dealing with aches and pains. I like to write as much as I can when I'm experiencing a good patch. Well, over past few months not been too many spots like that but I have tried. Really like to get out and about more for things not related to my health but ... Little by little.
Actually made it to a theatre invite - only just. Wasn't feeling too great as usual but made it and concentrating on what was going on made my symptoms recede a little for a time which was good. Next day wasn't so good but I got out there.
Giving thanks always. Blessings
2.8.16 Well I see from above that the form filling thing is still with me. Hits you when it involves you and a lot of people I don't really know asking about my mortality. Not exactly an inspiring jaw dropping topic. It just seems endless at present and getting my head around new terms etc. Also lets me know it is about time I lived my life the way I'd like without dictates from all and sundry. Been in this malaise for months and until I see the last form despatched it is hard to feel free to simply live because all forms come with a time restraint. Time ... Yeh that's the one and I am so aware now about my relationship with time. Like to make better use of mine if that is at all possible. World is so VR these days, so unnatural too.
17.11.16 Well finally got back on here. And would you know I've managed to write a little as well. Getting back into my creative self, the uncommon good weather is keeping the seasonal pain at bay.
US has had the most bizarre election I have ever seen play out. Like the world stepping into reverse mode for people of colour but folks are not about to let that happen, when they have a right to thrive like anyone else and we now know the importance of history that alerts the present. So I wrote a little poem - which I read to my group yesterday and will share with you here just to prove I am taking the pulse of things.
SYZYGY
Timings orbit alignment
Disrupt the waves of chance
Alter streams of things to come
This game remains the same
Only players are replaced
As nights engulf high tower
Gloaters revel in new grey dawn
Above rising anguish squawks
Supermoon glares, tidings warn
Unrest trumps uncertainty
So er, that's what I feel about a new presidency that is set to impact the world as we know it. The way this all played out in a democracy by blocking voters in key areas as a strategy ... This is not democratic and really sickening in the 21st Century for a country that claims to lead the world - obviously not when it comes to equality by a long shot. Also looking at how our UK Parliament is playing out and remembering a female MP was so brutally murdered in the summer in this country in broad daylight.
A big wake up call for the people of the world. If you don't define the sort of world you want to live in from here on, someone else most certainly is willing to impose their world on you and they've been doing so for generations in fact.