POEMS
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AT THE NIGHT’S END
Profiles in the crimson sunset
Meet for the first time
When the dormant desires are ignited
In the long night to start
To explore the human geography
Both inner and outer
To probe into the mysteries of love
To discover a new relationship
Which will continue from birth to birth
Or may end, the next morning.
In those critical moments
Sometimes, total strangers put together
Fail miserably after a strenuous day.
Occasionally an animal springs on its prey
And that trauma remains forever
For a lucky few, it is just a beginning
Many more nights await with eternal moonlight
To build another Taj Mahal
Not with marble, but with flesh and blood.
FOREVER RAINY DAYS
You shall daydream
Of times begone
Of bonds broken
Of opportunities lost
Of life wasted.
It is a curse
As well as a blessing.
You shall re-live every moment
Subtracting the sorrows
Adding spices here and there
And multiplying the joys.
You shall brood over
The benumbing insensitivity of imposed restrictions
The influence of boiling rage.
You shall murder,
Time
Second by second
On a lazy bed.
For my part
I shall stand
As blind witness
At the door.
For you,
It will be
Forever rainy days.
FLAMES BURN FOREVER
Sweet memories linger on like islands
Allow not the waves of sorrow to submerge.
A sharp pain bursts out deep inside my heart
Whenever I think of you.
Those days:
The world stood still
Clocks never moved
Roads were paved with roses
Eternal spring was everywhere
You were forever young and innocent
And we played like children.
Time has changed
Along with it you too.
Against the ticking seconds nothing is static
And spring is but a season
There are summers and winters to follow
Paths strewn with stones and thorns
Lead you nowhere.
I feel for that lost innocence
For that joy of togetherness we had
Holding hands for hours forgetting everything.
You gave those most beautiful moments in my life
And I was the happiest man on earth.
That magic mirror lies shattered to pieces.
You are not the same one I met sometime ago
You look at me as if
I am a stranger whom you saw a
At a crowded bus stand on a busy day.
But there is a flame burning
In my heart of hearts
However feeble it may be
It will die only with me.
It gives me warmth during the coldest winter
And light in the darkest of nights.
Even if you can’t make it burn brighter
For heaven sake don’t extinguish it.
Let the flame burn forever.
SLAVES AND MASTERS IN SEARCH OF MASTERS AND SLAVES
My friend
I shall narrate
In words with out meanings
Fairy tales and nightmares
Along with the silence between heartbeats
And the long silence after the heart stops.
Never mind the way I say
For understanding is a matter of choice
And the choice is yours.
In the foreboding night
Over the borders of insanity
Nostalgic bloodhounds
Hunt memories nailed to the cross of time.
Trapped time encapsulated in icebergs
Await summer currents
To explode in magical swaying pendulums.
My desires,
I shall bury under the rainbow trees,
To blossom in the electric spring
In multicoloured splendours
Swaying with the grace of a first kiss
The creamy mist of an aftertaste
Lingering long, melting paler lips.
Over the satin smooth surfaces,
Longing fingers trace
Contours of a fading dream
Clinging at the extremities of hope
To have a look before it vanishes
To feel before it disappears.
As Eden garden scenes re-enacted
Adolescent autoerotic fantasies
Revolve around regions
Above and below the mid-riff
Release a primordial libido
For the propagation of the species
Burning holes in trouser tops.
Between conception and contraception
Stands the Creator
Between the tree and the seed
Stands the sower
The land just stares skyward
Wondering who is omnipotent.
Once I ploughed through
Receding waters of the ocean
Chasing giant turtles holding up worlds aloft
To reach the very foundations
Of our existence.
Even if you dare not join,
I shall proceed alone,
For, I came here lone
And shall leave so.
My burdens, I bequeath
To those who come after.
When festivals are over
Only garbage remain.
When wars are over
Only ashes remain.
I am the garbage
I am the ashes
I shall inherit the dirt of the world.
Out of dirt, shall grow
Grains, the poor shall relish
Fodder, for the beasts of burden.
Everyday, I invent reasons
For not committing suicide.
Everyday, I issue statements
Why I shouldn’t be hanged.
Everyday, I produce evidence
That I am still alive.
Everyday I battle death
Though the end is well known.
From that moment
My diary will remain blank.
Those unwritten pages
Shall stand in testimony
For the futility of life,
Of wasted years, of lost hopes,
A vain game played in time and space,
How in the crippling hold of senility
Lost youth decayed, like rotting fish
Until sealed in a coffin.
What for you were born
What for you lived
What for you died
What for, what for?
Those are unanswered questions
And shall remain so, for long.
But nothing stays on forever
Even pyramids crumble to powder
And permanence is no proof of greatness.
What if, you were still remembered
After a million years –
NOTHING
Another million years
And no trace of a memory even.
What you think you have done
Has no value.
Whatever you do
Has no meaning.
What you hope to do
Has no purpose.
Then why do it?
Why all this toil, you galley slave?
Why pace the floors of this prison?
Blast the doors and get out fast.
Find yourselves a Master.
If you have none
Realize you are one.
Where are your slaves
They shall labour for you
They shall tend the gardens
And bring the fruits to you
They shall care for the worlds
Created by you
They shall build temples
In honour of you.
What if, one day
All of a sudden you discover your Master
You know not his nature
Everyone wishes for good Masters,
Sing praises, offer gifts
Humble themselves before
Images of what they think he looks like –
What if, he is nothing like
Anybody’s wildest imaginations –
Terrific, That’s terrific……
Is every slave born
To search for his Master?
If all slaves go on searching
Who will do the labour?
Surely Masters won’t like it.
But what if, all Masters
Think themselves as slaves
And wander in search of Masters?
Then they must be mad, and mad Masters are more dangerous.
Either way it is foolish.
I go my own way
I think I am the Master
If you think you are also a Master
Join me, recruiting slaves.
In case you think yourself a slave
Then, serve Me.
FRIENDS AND NOT LOVERS
Your love was my fantasy
And mine was an illusion
When we were together
It was pages from a fairy-tale
Your dreams and my dreams
Mix in the maze of images
To form unrecognizable shapes
On blank screens of the mind.
Remember forever
Our days together
In my sunset days
I will think of those moonlit nights
Those soft whispers
That glitter in your eyes
And that faint smile
At the corner of your mouth.
Cherished memories stored
In fragile chambers
Shatters when struck with indifference.
Pieces can be joined, emotions can’t be restored
Time may heal, but scars remain forever
And bitterness linger on longer –
We may still hold hands, there is no thrill
We are friends and not lovers.