Biography

My skills and experience

I would say that my life experience is mostly nature. I am one with it, I care about it deeply and taking care of it is the highest priority in my life. It gave me strenght and security when nothing else did, it is my ultimate friend and lover. It is what I live and die for. This strong relationship creates the only idea that managed to move me by the heart when I did not know what the fuck do we all (humanity) live for - save it. What would we live for if not this?

I was studying horticulture. I have chosen it because my current boyfriend was studying on the same university and I like plants. Besides my grandmonther and grandfather are horticultural scientists, so I got exposed to the plant knowledge from the very early stage. I was working sometimes for my grandmother in laboratories during the summer holiday - gathering and putting together data for various researches. I like the laboratory and scientific work. Still very very miss my classes from biochemistry and plant physiology. These were my favorite subjects along with botanics and soil science. I wanted to go deeper into medicinal plants, but when I got this idea that I can actually do something for the planet (after reading about urban farms) I decided to learn about hydroponics, aquaponics and vegetables. I was very good at it! I was spending all my free time reading researches about aquaponics, how to make artificial lighting efficient etc. I was on an internship in Switzerland with UrbanFarmer. It was one of the best times in my life! 2 months of immersing into something that was my passion, great people, beautiful city, fresh tomatoes, salad and fishes. I love the city of Basel.

After graduation I wrote to them, ready to work, but they didn't have any vacancy at the moment (I think they would if I would speak german). So, not knowing what else to do, I followed my current beloved one to London, lured by his stories about what a great city it is. I did find few urban farms there to volunteer in as well, so it was a step in the right direction. I was very proud of myself how I get around in a new city, new country, almost on my own, getting what I wanted. I did got the internship, I was exhilirated. And then, I got weaker and I gave up this dream for the boyfriend who was quite good and emotional blackmailing and I was quite weak. After giving up on the only thing that gace me the strenght to keep on living in a meaningful way, I was struggling in London to find something different.

I was working as a gardener. I liked working in gardens. With flowers, outsife, physically, in different places. I didn't learn much about gardening though, becuase these were the rich english gardens - everything must be clean and tidy, death does not exist and the most beautiful thing in the world is a bare soil. When the season was over, for a few months I was working in a store with indoor growing supplies, I was hoping to go back into hydroponics. For me it was very interesting in terms of acquiring more and more knowledge to be able to advice our customers, but the "store" part of it was completely not for me - I was advising them according to what I believed was best, not what would make us more money. That was still in London and I was learning about what our clients needed, so now I am an expert in hydroponic cultivation of cannabis.

Further working in gardening as fun until I finished my first PDC. Garden maintenance became killing routine and I was getting into trouble with my supervisors for not turning the soil over everytime when visiting the garden and moaning about weeding.

On this PDC I have learned about Holistic Grazing and this is the thing I was looking for after giving up on urban farms.

Where I am in life & How I got here

Right now I am in a very exciting, beautiful, intense place.

I am among people with whom I have really close relationships, and they are getting closer. I really cherish their existence, it keeps me inspired, curious, evolving, challenged. I feel supported in every way and I support them as much as I can, I feel that I thrive thanks to our love!

Nature around me is astonishing. It comforts me and makes me spontaneously burst with laughter. I can feel the presence of joyful ocean that sometimes calls me and I can just go and play with him. I can feel the sun caressing me so often! Wind in here is so alive - unpredictable, strong, and when I'm woken up by it's intensity, I feel as if I'm flying with it. The stars are just exquisite. In the summer I can sleep outside, in the embrace of nature. It feels so good, so right to be so close.

My work is really exciting! Everything I do have a grand purpose. Every little thing serves to introduce our big vision that never fails to inspire me. There is a lot to do, so it can be challenging - finding enough time and energy, keeping up with everything, doing things well enough - with so much work, it feels like I should be doing everything perfectly - with maximum efficiency, because I want to see the big vision realised already - it's all so exciting! And yes - challenging.

I feel challenged every day in different ways. A lot of emotional work - that is really exhausting and confusing but I have always been seeing that as the most important thing to do, so I really appreciate the situations that make me constantly move forward and the resources I have here to deal with them.

What brought me here was the decision to try to listen to my gut feelings (this was very difficult and that time but I knew that this was what I needed) and pushing myself to do the things I was feeling uncomfortable with. Even though I was in a very difficult emotional state, I decided that there is nothing I couldn't do. And I was right!

Where I want to be

My Big vision :

that I stay here for the rest of my life & am contributing a lot what helps us to create a beautiful ecovillage & engage in the social life of the island & transform it into Transition Island. I am free of my patterns & a really good leader & activist with lots of initiatives, that I have and am part of a really great support group & thanks to my brilliant intelligence it's all going really well.

My community is made out of people who are very very close to me and each other & we are constantly working on supporting each other & improving ourselves, we are focused on the common good.

And we live in an amazing, beautiful abundant place where the soil is very rich and gives life to a huge biodiversity, and the rivers flow again.

We create a permanent culture based on true stories, freedom for all living beings and connection with spirit.

My path in Permaculture

I was coming across permaculture for quite a while but never giving it much interest - that was because I was really engaged in urban farming and aquaponics and I wanted to learn only about this. When the "shit hit the fan" in my life and I was wondering around trying to find my purpose again, I have found out that my friend from elementary school is organizing PDC - in the village that I have missed ever since I left it. So I went for it. It inspired me greatly and did show me my purpose again - in Holistic Grazing. People present on this PDC inspired me to follow my heart, just try to do little things that will make me happy and trust in life. And that was what I did and that was how I ended up where I am now.

I have found out about what Integral Permaculture is only recently really. I was involved with PeDreTea for few months before realising what is the difference that makes it "Integral". I am really interested in this course because I believe that it contains the basics of living well. Everyone should take it or at least be exposed to the ideas and models that it contains - it can saves lives! Not only of the ones of the students but of all living beings, when students apply the knowledge! During the course I hope to get a lot of clarity and knowledge. Right now I am learning and making notes, but I feel that the knowledge doesn't manage to sit in, so I hope that will happen with time. I hope to start and develop few designs that will help me to move forward with my big vision. I want to understand the material well enough to be a mentor and teacher myself - this is really the thing that needs to be spread! I also want to be in touch with other students, so we can inspire each other and work together to develop the network of integral people, passionate about changing the world!

Right now I am dedicating saturdays to studying - which means reading the forums, doing T&L's, updating designs and spending more time on them. Classes I want to do once a week on my days off - wednesdays or thursdays. I hope that thanks to that I will have possibility to really dive deeper into it.