I cannot write lists they make me anxious I am so buzzing at this moment that I believe punctuation will be neglected for the entirety of this post I want to want and I want everything I see myself distinctly in one place then another and still even yet everywhere I catch glimpse of a fastforward five year I have continued trying my hand as an artist and have been holding the bow of my archer's arm increasingly steady I still move with the same momentum as before the same velocity and I have been to two more continents and several more countries seeing and remembering everything unfolding before me Germany Italy Iceland I have been accepted into a couple graduate schools and stand before a great decision here or there I have been more on my own and less in a permanent home I have given much of my time to sleeplessness and the realities of the world serving people and meeting needs with all the humanity I can give I have gathered infinite memories of the things and people and places I have seen in my travels and they are scattered and pinned in a space that can only be mine I have never stopped moving and have completely the less staggering of my desires I have read more and spent less of my time and eyes gazing upon computers and ten years still ahead I am breathing more fully and fighting to seize that which I have dreamt knowledge consumes hours days months and I still manage to find time for my art myself and the world.
Suffice it to say, I want the world
For sake of the practice, I will place my answers in organized structures as well:
Five years from now
embarking on the journey and struggle that is post-graduate studies
living on my own
have greater knowledge of African history and culture
traveling, seeing, giving, and remembering it all in film and memories
expanded body of work
overseas missionary work
Ten years
tackling the responsibilities of growing older
beginning a career
extended missions work
vast library of books and knowledge
This is how I see myself. I cannot say I am practical, only real and not wholly realistic. To see the things I want broken down is almost too much and never quite enough.
Soon:
taking additional art classes to branch out more artistically
learning the entirety of the human body, in a scientist's as well as artist's eyes
resuming swimming on a regular basis
finding a psychiatric hospital to volunteer at
experimenting on my own with different media and new techniques, etc.
attaining a healthy routine that is not entirely predictable
learning more African history
learning a new language (to read, preferably German)
applying for more scholarships to study abroad and save up for future
writing more, reading more
more piano
Later:
spending several weeks serving in another country
learning a new language (to speak)
applying for graduate school
leaving Florida
finding the means to travel more
creating a space to call my own
adopting a child from overseas