My First Broken Heart

For 16 years I thought that love is just an average mood that people have for someone. As humans, our feelings tend to change, and I think it’s something I should never focus. The reason why I never focus on it is that I never had it. But not until it was my Junior year of high school. At the beginning of my junior year of high school, I was an ordinary person just attending classes and getting ready to learn. But one day this girl was in my class, and I realize that we have the same schedule but yet I never have the chance to say hello. So as a gentleman I wanted to say hello and that we had the same classes together and soon she realized that we do have levels together. Therefore, started a long journey of how I found my First Heart.

Day by day, she and I were inseparable because every day we had classes together. Every time a class end we begin walking along talking about whatever we think of, and it was credible. More time I spoke to her the more I progress on how I feel about her. Like I love how she smells like flowers being blossom for the first time, how she always punch me for every time I make fun of her, how I love hearing her beautiful voice, and how she nudges me for saying a compliment. The most memorable thing I remember is that even though we see each other in every class, she ends up saying" What are you doing?" it was sometimes annoying, but I liked it.Even though we talk at school, we also had a chance to speak more through text.

As I progressed in My First Heart, she and I were getting along pretty close because from school until night time we ended up talking as if it was 24/7. I wouldn't say it wasn't romantic, but we were just trying to get to know each other more. For example, she would say something random like, " what's your favorite color." I would think that would be weird, but instead, it was cute. Also, when we text it's like we don't pay attention to time because we just like to talk to each other a lot. Since I've been talking to her for a long time, things have been changing inside me. The way I think, the way I feel, the way I see things, and yet it feels good. I guess my emotions are transforming into something exciting.

Frequently, my First Heart appears to be changing me because my emotions are changing in this type of way. It was hard to describe it because I never felt this way in my entire life. In my head, I was like " what's happening to me?!" like if I'm going crazy. For example, this one day as we were walking together trying to go to a different class my heart was beating faster, louder, and more substantial and I didn't know why. I didn't know if I had to go to the nurse's office or I was supposed to rest. But for a moment of time, everything became clear to me because the reason I'm feeling this type of way is that I'm admitting that I am feeling My First Heart. It was hard to deal with it at first but realizing something comes along the way, and possibly it turns out for the best.

For the first time in my life, I have genuinely admitted to myself that I do feel about someone and that is my First Heart. At first, I didn't know what to do; I was always thinking how can I express what I feel about someone for someone who doesn't know yet. I kept thinking to myself " tell the truth, let your heart speak, or do something." I tried many ways to show her how I felt, but when she found out, it became a nightmare for me. Once I told her the truth, she stared at me, and she told me these words, " I think of you as a friend." once I heard the word friend everything just became blank. From my, First Heart became my First Broken Heart.

As I had felt my First Broken Heart, things have been different in a terrible way. For example, one day class was over, and we were supposed to go to our next period and, so I wanted to walk with her like we used to do but instead she had already left making me walk by myself. Also, I tried to text her like we used to but it was different now because we didn't know what to talk about without having the conversation about being in a relationship for so what. However, I've tried my best to put aside my feelings, but it was tough for me to do that because she was once my First Heart. Later in the year there was an endpoint to this situation, and then it led to stop talking to one another, and that was the most painful experience I've had for my First Broken heart.

My First Broken Heart is got to be the worst I have ever felt because at that point we have never talked ever again even until today and for me, that was a tragedy. I remember the time when my class was supposed to make a group conversation then my teacher decided to group her and me. It was hard to talk to her, and I could tell that it was also hard for her to speak to me, but we just made a small conversation, and then it was only complete silence.

The story is about how someone could fall in love and then has his heart broken, but the one thing you should always remember is that you should still be thankful for that most enjoyable moment you had with them. So that one day you'll find someone that could be here Forever Heart.