The following creative assignment is a news report based on the short story "The Lottery", written by Shirley Jackson.
HATCHETFIELD REPORTER
$0.99 Daily Newspaper
Lottery Winner Hits “Rock-Bottom”!
Tuesday, June 20, 1992
The town breathes another sigh of relief as the annual lottery draws to a close. Our town’s sacred tradition has served to moderate the population for generations, randomly selecting a member of the community to honorably forfeit their life in service to the rest of us. This year proved as tense as ever, each one of us eying our neighbors in the cruel hope that they would be selected in our place. The position of this year’s lottery winner befell Mrs. Hutchinson, wife to Bill Hutchinson and mother of Bill Jr, Nancy, and Dave. Here we recorded an exclusive interview with our very own Bill Hutchinson with his thoughts
on the matter.
“Well…of course I’m sad,” Bill said. “She was my wife, the love of my life- a kind mother with a talent for cooking and cleaning. But, y’know- tradition’s tradition, and it’s all for the good of the town. Besides, her protests started to get a bit unseemly…can you imagine, stopping the lottery? The very suggestion could prove enough to deem our whole family ostracized. Our population would explode and we’d start starving in the streets. It’s only fair. Plus, I can keep providing for the kids. May have to hire someone for the cleaning, though."
Indeed! Any fine lady looking for an excuse to get out of the house can call 1-234-567-8 and talk to Bill Hutchinson. But what really happened on the day of the lottery? Was Mrs. Hutchinson really against our town tradition, or just trying to save her own skin?
The morning of the lottery dawned bright and clear, the cool breeze and sunny skies doing little to ease the nervous anticipation of the town. As the time drew near, families began to gather at the town center. Brothers and sisters, fathers and mothers, uncles and cousins stood watching and wondering who among them wouldn’t see the next sunrise. Family bonds only last so long once bloodshed is involved…
“Well, at least the weather proved fair,” local townsperson Mrs. Delacroix said in an interview this morning. “The kids gathered stones, everyone kept trying to chat, lighten the mood…I noticed Tessie missing, sure, but I didn’t think much of it. She was probably just finishing up the cleaning. It was only when Mr. Summers started his speeches that I began to worry for her- she showed up in a hurry, though, so everything turned out alright. Everything turned out alright, heh. Little did I know…”
Showing up late to our sacred tradition may have been the nail in the coffin for poor Tessie, as her family ended up with the cursed black dot. Now, newcomers to this town may not know how our lottery works, so let me explain. The head of each household randomly draws a slip of paper from our hallowed black box. The family that draws the black dot must then hold another raffle to see which among them shall meet their end, keeping tabs on our population so our town can remain stable. It just so happens on this fateful day that the lottery chose the Hutchinson household. The classic divide spread through the chosen family, parents turning on children. The whole town agreed on one thing, though; hoping that little Davy Hutchinson wouldn’t end up our sacrificial little lamb.
“Gosh, that poor little thing!” Mrs. Graves exclaimed. “He had no idea what was happening, the little tot. I remember what happened with young Ted a few years back, ohhh…we were all happy as sunshine when Dave’s paper was blank.”
Little Davy wasn’t the end of the townsfolks' troubles. Next up in the drawing: Nancy and Bill Jr., both bright, hardworking individuals that would help continue the prosperity of the town.
When asked for her thoughts, Lucy Greensmith said, “Nancy’s my best friend, has been ever since the second grade. I certainly don’t want any of her family to die, but I’d honestly rather have her over them.”
Lucy need not worry, though; Nancy and her brother Bill Jr. both escaped the harrowing wrath of fate. All eyes watched Bill and Tessie Hutchinson as they stood alone. At his wife’s refusal to open her slip, Bill revealed his blank paper. Tessie’s fate was sealed.
“The moment they saw that lady’s slip of paper, the whole town changed,” an onlooker said. “Their eyes darkened, they grew fierce. Everyone from the hobbling old man to the wide-eyed child grabbed stones and started throwing.”
Of course, Mrs. Hutchinson began protesting, calling the lottery unfair. Every year, the winner’s heart has a sudden change, miraculously realizing the injustice of our tradition only when their head is on the chopping block. This is only natural for those picked, desperately scrambling for some kind of escape. None ever comes.
May the corn grow well this year!
- Niko Winterwood, Journalist
The following creative assignment was a letter written by a family member whose brother died at the Battle of Gettysburg. The family member also admirably recalled Lincoln's "Gettysburg Address."
104 7th Avenue
Philadelphia, PA
11/21/1863
John Jacobs
Editor, The Gettysburg Address
123 Road Street
Gettysburg, PA
Dear Mr. Jacobs,
My name is Elaine Smith, and my brother, Christian Smith, was laid to rest in the ground of Gettysburg about five months hence, after giving his life for this country. I recently traveled down from my home in Philadelphia to see the dedication of his gravesite, and so I happened to be there when the president gave his speech. I write this letter in hopes of convincing you of what I already know: Lincoln’s address in Gettysburg was one of the greatest ever given in the history of this country, and we should all heed his words and keep fighting for our future. I won’t claim to be among the most educated or knowledgeable of citizens, but I know a thing or two about writing, and President Lincoln certainly has a way with words. In less than five minutes, Lincoln managed to convey the ideas that my brother, and thousands of other men in the union army, died for. It is my solemn belief, and, according to his speech, the belief of our president that this war is about the very foundations of our country-- life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. Some folks in the Southern states have decided that they don’t believe in those ideals, have insisted on keeping up the barbaric practice of fettering innocent men, women, and children to force them to work, so now we fight to prove to ourselves and the world that our founding fathers were correct, that this nation can hold all men equal and hold itself together.
My brother joined the army because had faith in our forefathers’ vision, and he was willing to die so that it may someday be fully realized. He valued kindness, sympathy, and understanding, and dedicated his life to ending slavery after befriending a former slave in his youth and learning of his struggles. He taught me that this country cannot claim to be a land of liberty so long as slavery continues to deprive people of their basic freedoms, and I hope you will agree with my desire to stop the states attempting to usurp the government that has finally come around to my brother’s way of thinking. He fought for a dream of equality in these United States and to keep them united as one strong nation. I ask you to keep supporting that dream. I ask you to keep printing stories that remind the people why we fight, to help forward the idea that this country will someday be a united nation once again.
Sincerely,
E. Smith
The following TV episode treatment is based on the hit TV show The Twilight Zone. It was written primarily by Arjun Chauhan and Simon Schott, with help from Carter Chapman and Holly Velazquez.
TV Episode Treatment
“The Mysterious and the Supernatural”
Title of TV Show: The Voices
Title of Episode:Samantha
Logline:A podcast host receives eerie calls from a voice predicting deaths, forcing her to uncover the truth before she becomes the next victim.
Main Characters/Brief Description:
1. Samantha Cole, A podcast host and first hears the voice
2. Jamal Terry Samantha's College roommate that always found Samantha odd. Last person she spoke to before her death
3. The Voice, tells Samantha that people are going to die
Secondary Characters/Brief Description:
1.Aaron Garcia, A friend of Jamal and the first person Samantha sees dead.
2.John James, A well known businessman on Samantha's podcast shortly after Aarons ¨Accident¨
3.Lucy Kim, Owner of a sushi restaurant, whose death was witnessed firsthand by Samantha.
Plot Synopsis: (No more than 200 words)
In a quiet suburb near Akron, Samantha Cole, a popular podcast host, finds her life turned upside down when she hears a chilling voice during a live recording. The voice names three familiar people and predicts the time and location of their deaths. Panicked, Samantha races to stop the tragedies, but arrives too late. First, she finds her friend Aaron dead in his condo. Then, she discovers John James, a prominent businessman, dead on his bed in his home. Desperate, she heads to Lucy’s Sushi, only to witness its owner, Lucy Kim, fatally impaled by a falling pipe. Stricken with guilt and failure, Samantha retreats to her dorm, where she gives a cryptic goodbye to her roommate, Jamal. As she steps out into the rain, her fate remains uncertain, leaving Jamal—and viewers—haunted by what might come next…
Brief snippet of character dialogue: (Label with characters and stage directions if necessary-- No more than 200 words)
Samantha frantically drives to Aaron’s condo, the voice echoing in her mind. Her phone is on speaker as she tries to call Aaron, but it goes straight to voicemail.
Voice: Aaron Garcia. 1942 Maple Avenue. 10:13 PM.
Samantha: "Come on, Aaron. Pick up, pick up… Damn it! September 6th… the deal. What did you mean by that?"
She slams on the brakes and sprints toward Aaron’s front door. It’s slightly ajar. Her heart pounds as she pushes it open and steps inside.
Samantha: "Aaron! Are you here? Aaron, it’s Sam!"
She walks into the living room, scanning for signs of life. Papers are scattered on the floor. A glass of wine sits untouched on the table. She moves toward the bathroom, noticing water seeping under the door.
Samantha: "No, no, no…"
She pushes the door open and freezes in horror. Aaron is slumped in the bathtub, lifeless, water overflowing onto the floor.
Samantha: "Aaron! Oh my God!"
Her hands tremble as she pulls out her phone and dials 911, but before she can hit call, the voice returns.
Voice: John James. 33 Lakers Street. 12:45 AM.
Samantha: "Stop it! Just stop! Why are you doing this?!"
She slams her phone down, grabs her keys, and storms out of the condo, tears streaming down her face.
The following is a fan fiction piece surrounding the classic short story "The Treasure of Lemon Brown," by Walter Dean Myers.
“Greg! Where were you? You've been gone all night! You were supposed to be doing your math homework. I was so worried,” said Greg's father after he opened the door. Greg tried to give his explanation quickly, before his father got mad.
“See, dad, I just needed a break. I took a little break,” Greg said in an impatient tone. He didn’t feel like having to deal with his father again.
“A little break? For the whole night?,” Greg’s dad quickly shot back. Uh oh, Greg thought. His dad was as mad as Uncle Kevin when the Eagles lost the Super Bowl last year. I still don't know why Uncle Kevin likes that team, Greg thought to himself. Eventually, he calmed his dad down and they went inside. Finally, I thought we were going to be out there all night, was what Greg was really thinking. They went to the small gray couch, and Greg actually explained himself.
“Listen father, I really struggle with math. No matter how hard I try, I’m still not good at it. But basketball, I love basketball. I know you think that it takes away from my studying time, but that's not true. It actually helps me. When I can’t play basketball or have any time to do things that I enjoy, it makes me hate math more. I need just a little bit of time to myself, to get my energy out. When all I’m being forced to think about is math, it makes math so much harder. Please let me play for the Scorpion's dad. I promise, I will work even harder…” Greg tried to explain his feeling as best as he could.
“I will sign you up today. I know you work hard and it was unfair of me to not realize this earlier. Besides, maybe it will teach you some time management skills. The homework needs to be done before basketball practice, and we can set some other rules later.,” said Greg’s father with a sigh. Greg thanked his father, in disbelief. He was absolutely shocked at the words that had just come out of his father’s mouth. Greg began to get up before his father asked where he was.
“Greg, where were you?,” his father says slowly.
“At Sweet Lemon Brown’s house” Greg says in an accent.
“Haha, very funny Greg. Now where were you?,” Greg’s father says.
“I was actually at Sweet Lemon Brown’s house, but that's a story for tomorrow.,” Greg said.
“Alright, son. I trust you, now go get some sleep.,” Greg’s father says politely.
“Wait, one last thing dad. Maybe, we could spend some more time together?,” Greg asks hesitantly.
“Of course, Greg. I would love that. Goodnight.,” said Greg's dad. Greg walked up the stairs in utter disbelief and pure joy, and thought about the fun days of Scorpion basketball ahead.
The following is a fan fiction piece surrounding the classic short story "The Treasure of Lemon Brown," by Walter Dean Myers.
Greg was standing on the doorstep of his house, grinning. He thought he knew a way he could convince his dad to let him play. Lemon Brown had inspired him. Lemon made him realize that all his dad wanted is what’s best for him, but sometimes he might not truly know what that is.
Greg pushed the key through the hole and twisted open his big brown door. His dad was sitting on the couch.
“There you are! I was starting to get worried. Where were you off to? You know you have to finish your homework.” His dad spoke, changing emotions with each sentence.
“Yeah, hi dad. Sorry, I took a walk.” Greg said.
“In the rain? What kind of walk is that?” Greg’s dad merely smiled as he said it. Showing that he didn't require an answer.
Greg approached his dad and sat next to him on the couch. “Can we talk about basketball, dad?”
His dad made a stern face but said “Sure” anyways.
“I care about my grades, dad. I don’t want to fail my classes. I’m trying my best, and I’ll continue trying my best even if you don’t let me play, and if you do. Basketball is what I want to do. If I want to be happy in life, don’t you think I should be able to do more than just work? I know you’re on the edge because my grades aren’t the best but that’s not because of basketball. I mean, I’m not even playing and those are my grades. Maybe, do you think we could just give it a try? Just to see how it goes? If it doesn’t work out and I continue getting bad grades, I’ll understand if you want my focus to be on that. But there’s no way to know unless we try. I’ll focus on studying math as much as I can, I can even get a tutor. They do those at our school.” Greg spoke like a mouse hiding in the walls.
“Greg, where did you get that speech from?” His dad patted him on the back.
“I just had a little inspiration, that's all.” Greg said.
“Well, that walk must have done you good. That was convincing, I’ll tell ya. Alright, I understand, I guess… we can give it a try.” His dad says.
“Really?!” Greg jumped up from the couch and gave his dad a big hug.
“Yeah, If that’s what you want.” spoke his dad.
Just then, his mom came into the room asking what the plan was going to be. Greg thought she’d been listening from the other room. They all agreed that he could play as long as he spent a good amount of time on his homework. They also said they needed to see an improvement to his grades. Not right away, but soon.
“Thank you so much, mom and dad. I promise, you won’t regret letting me do this.” Greg said.
“We better not.” Greg’s dad shook his finger but had a teasing smile on his face at the same time.
Greg hugged his family tight and thought about Lemon Brown. About his son. About those kids that wanted what he did not have. He thought about how broken his own dad would be if one day Greg left and didn’t come back. He realized for a second how he didn’t need to play basketball, but he wanted to, because he loved it. His dad didn’t not want him to do something he loved. He wanted him to have good grades so he could be successful one day. He didn’t want his son not knowing where to go. He wanted him right there next to him, and Greg was okay with that.
The following is a creative piece that shows the perspective of the old man in Edgar Allan Poe's classic, "The Tell-Tale Heart.
I was awake. I had been awake these past nights. On Monday, when the creak was loud. On Tuesday, when the creak was small. On Wednesday, when the creak was nothing. Tonight, the creak was the sound of an old floor board. Pitched and cold. Though I could not see him, I knew the boy was at the door. I faced the other way, for I had a fear that if he got close, he would see me quiver. The boy stayed at my door. In shone a ray of light that landed on my face. I could not let it show, but I was terrified.
I felt his breathing from across the room, filling it more than the furniture. I heard nothing for minutes, thinking he had gone like the other nights. It was a tradition now, that he would appear and shine this light and leave. Though I was sure the boy had left, I could not sleep, for I feared what he was organizing.
An hour passed, and I lay awake, scared to move, scared to breathe, when I heard the boy again. He had never left. I heard him get closer, the floorboards symphonizing as he approached. Impulsively, I turned to look at the boy. A ferocious animal was in his eyes and a slight snickering turnup rested at the sides of his lips. His eyebrows raised and he jumped past, pulling the bed on top of me.
The breaths I tried to take were mere wishes. I moved, I sucked in as much as I could. Eventually, I cried. I cried because I entrusted this boy for the last 40 years of my lifetime. For he was my son. I remembered when he would come into my dormitory when he was younger. He would stand there and say “Papa, I cannot sleep.” and we would lay together for all eternity. Now he comes into my dormitory, and wishes death upon me.
I saw something occur. He started looking at me differently, acting as if I was not someone he loved but someone he despised. He used to have the sunniest disposition and now it was hatred. I saw it, I saw him change. Oh, how I wonder where my sweet boy went. Where his morning smile was, when his hair was ruffled. Where did his ruffled hair go? Where did the boy go?
I thought about him, his life instead of mine flashing before my eyes. Leading up to this moment, of him suffocating me.
Suddenly, it was gone. All feeling, all pain. I felt as if I was floating! I was floating. I was drifting with the breeze that entered through my window. I heard the boy laughing. I sprung up and looked upon his face. I saw traces in his face of his ruffled hair and morning smile. I saw a new person too. One who dehumanized me, saw me as an old man instead of his old man.
He uncovered the bed over my old self, the one who couldn’t escape. He looked me deep in the eyes. He undid my binding. Taking off my head, arms, and legs. I could not watch, so I turned around. He put me inside of the floor, covered me up. I followed him. I watched him and watched him. I wondered the one thing that wouldn’t leave my mind. It screeched and wailed but I ignored it.
The police arrived, they looked around but I did not follow. I stayed with the boy. I watched as his smile reached the ends of his face, not a fake one. I watched as he lied, standing above my dead body. I watched solemnly and somber. The men seem to know nothing, but I did not mind.
All I wanted was to get into the boy’s head. To hear what he wanted coming out of this situation. To know what he had against me. I focused on his head, trying to understand his actions. I focused on his head so much that eventually, he began to seem shaken. He fell to the ground screaming that he did it, he did it. The boy did not say why, so I lifted into the sky. So I left. Oh, how I wonder where my sweet boy went.
Many people in the world like listening to music. Music is most known for calming people down or helping them fall asleep with comforting noises. In the 1960s, 1970s, 1980s, and 1990s many major bands came out with albums and songs that were a great hit. Some of these bands who produced this music were The Beatles, Pink Floyd, Pearl Jam, and Nirvana. These artists were very popular throughout their time period even though many of these artists were going through hard times. Sometimes when I am studying or doing homework I put on a soft album in my airpods or through my record player. One of my favorite albums is a Beatles album called Rubber soul (made in 1965). I think that this is one of my favorite albums because it has many varieties of music throughout the album. During the Great Depression (1929-1941) music became very popular and I think this is because it reveals stress as the Great Depression was a very stressful time period in history. Before everyone had phones people would listen to music from their record player or from a radio. This concludes that by listening to music 15 minutes a day can help reduce stress, anxiety, mental health, and helps you sleep better. That is why music can play such a role in one's life.
Feeling bad about yourself is not a worry
It is its own feeling
It is a small pit in your stomach
Creating pins and needles in your nose and
On your eyes
I don’t quite understand how
I feel like this
Maybe it's the curiosity, the confusion
Absolute.
Because I have loved you for a year
This is losing you all over again
But this time with the possibilities
I thought…
I thought.
I thought?
Did I even really think
Did I listen to what my mother told me
About you?
No, I didn’t think
I was lead by the strings in my heart and
Without the thoughts in my head
When really all along you'd take anyone
What did i do
To deserve this breaching fire in my throat?
Rising.
Feeling black surround me in ways I’ve never felt before.
It’s you,
Walking away again
Cutting deeper this time.
Because of the possibilities.
What did i do
Even now when i know none of it
Was real?
I can't pull myself together
Or out
Of the pit.
I wake up. You wake up.
We don’t want to,
but we cannot dismiss the sun.
We then work.
We learn and we make and create,
things we do not find interesting.
Things that bore us.
We have brief interactions
with the people that interest us,
until we are told to silence by the people we look for affirmation from,
approval.
The day lingers like a candle
someone took brief time to blow out
and didn’t look over their shoulder to recognize that
the flame had withheld through the fog.
We wait.
To be free to do what we choose,
for mere hours,
Before the cycle is repeated.
Weeks are long and unbearable,
Waiting for our two days of chaotic rest.
But they are only illusioned to be long.
Really they are short days we
Waste away
Waiting
Soon,
We are gone
It was a long time before I could leave
The door swung open
I stepped out like a child who had never known the real world
The cage had been a whirlwind of
Me feeling crazy
The golden lines of the barrier
Turned too bright to look at
But I couldn’t escape
I shrunk back into the corner
But I was burned
When I finally left
I thought I was free
Until there was a gust and I flew backwards
Slamming into the cage
And the door shut and the lock clicked and I must have forgotten
Everything else that happened
“Girl?”
I opened my eyes
“You get stuck inside your mind too much.”
I argued that that was untrue
That I was in this world as much as anybody
That I wasn’t crazy, but they looked at me as if I was
Because that wasn’t what they had asked
But inside my body was warring with itself
Inside I knew
That my mind was the golden cage
I didn’t ask for you to put your hand in mine,
I didn't want you knowing I wasn't fine.
But you did because you “cared”,
And so eventually I shared.
The sun the moon the stars
Are better consolars than you
You took what I told you and cried with me,
You lied to me.
And then you took it all and laughed at me.
You told them all like what i spoke to you,
A joke
You riddled me, you puzzle
You told me i had muscle
Then you ripped it.
It's been a while
But that doesn't mean I'll smile when I see you.
You do though,
You tied it with a bow.
You forgot.
You liar liar liar liar liar liar liar liar liar liar liar liar.
Come what may,
You betray.
I had faith
Now I'm scathed.
Hope. All I do is hope.
I never attempt.
They have never believed in me so I shall leave their minds.
I dreamt,
I dreamt that I left all doubt and all my hopelessness faded away.
I called your name in a proud manner as you walked across the field of my mind. But then I woke up.
I saw you again and life went on; but I still didn’t attempt.
Days flew by as I cried, I felt worthless.
I was a bundle of knots, too tight to ever be untied.
But then you spoke to me and the knots loosened.
A ray of hope was brought from you and it blinded my eyes slightly.
And that is when I remembered, I love you.
If you looked back and you decided you hated my past
You have to know I’m doing everything I can
I can’t make you love me
I can’t make you love all of me
I know that you only love the part of me that gets lost is sweet and kind
And that’s not the only part you should love
You should also love the part of me that wants to travel the world
Go horseback riding on the beach
Watch sunsets in fifty different places
Go night swimming until the sun comes up in another country
Sit in a bakery in Paris and write in a leather notebook
Collect old books from different places
Go to bookshops in a bunch of countries
These are the things I want someone to love that I want
You only love one part of me
You can’t pick and choose what parts of me to love
The battle was over
And I could not move my hand
You were squeezing it
Because it had been too long since I last saw you
There was blood stains on my hands
That nobody else could see
But you
I thought that throughout the war
I had lost my humanity
My beliefs
I thought I destroyed myself
But you were there
And that made me rethink
We had died together somedays
We thought we lost
But we picked ourselves up and called us home
The sun does not shine like it used to.
The earth does not move as it used to.
The waves aren't happily jumping anymore.
They’re sleeping.
The rain isn't as hard as it used to be.
My mind is a bit dimmer than it used to be.
I wish I appreciated that feeling more.
Because nowadays, the sun has lost its smile.
Red
She had red hair.
That was all I remember.
I remember staring at it and thinking it was lava. It flowed over her shoulders and down her back like water. Red water. Blood water. She was pretty. She also had a crown. A crown of ruby atop her head. Each strand of ruby was special and soft and gorgeous. I think the red hair was the best part about her. Not that I remember anything else to compare to. Her hair was wind in the cool breeze. Her hair was a mess during the summertime. It was glistening and bright during the winter. She would lay down in the snow or spread her hair over the frozen ice of a lake.
She was lava in the cold. A star in the heat. She was always burning. Her hair flamed like a phoenix gliding through the air. It was new and old at the same time. She had always had that red hair, but it was fresh and clean every time I saw her. She was the light when no one else would be. She was a ruby. She was a star.
And then she died before I can remember anything but her stupid hair.
Orange
It started with the match.
It was lit.
I understood how it could spread so fast.
It was hungry. Fast burning and starving. The flames grew and grew until they were licking trees, thirsty for more. And more and more and more. They crept over dry grass and battled against the river’s edge. It wanted to keep burning. Faster, hotter, hungrier. Just more. It wanted to burn everything to the ground so nothing was left. Not even a leaf. It was stronger than the men trying to stop it. Stronger than the hundred year old trees. Stronger than the newly grown ones. Stronger than the lake, which was no help in putting it out.
People screamed and fled. Their houses were ashes. Smoke rose in the air and we inhaled it. It hurt our lungs. We coughed and coughed but we could not rid the taste or death and ash from ourselves. We got burnt, too. Everything was destroyed. Animals died. We died. There was nothing left, and the blaze finally stooped down to a horrid smell.
We crashed and burned (literally) and then died.
So.
It started with a match.
It was lit.
Yellow
People thought my yellow converses were horrifying.
And sure, they could be. In many disgusting ways. But they weren’t. I bought them from a store like everybody else. I wear them every day all day. They’re partly muddy now, and have a sort of brown tint to them. They used to be bright yellow, kind of like the sun.
When I first got them, I didn’t take them off for six days straight. My parents were grossed out. My friends were, too. But I just loved them. Three months after I got them, they became magic. No joke. I’m seventeen years old and I swear I’m not crazy. By magic, I mean they made a rainbow.
My dad has just died, and I was clutching the shoes to my chest, wishing my dad was alive. He had always loved rainbows. So I wished for a rainbow, too, because why not? And then I looked up into the sky from my spot on the porch stoop, and through the rainy haze, I saw a pale rainbow. All seven colors and everything. It was hard to see, but it was definitely there. And those yellow converses have been the source of many arguments about them being magic or not. People thought—think—I was crazy. But I’m telling you—they are freaking magic.
Green
It had so many pictures on it.
That pale green camera.
I had pictures of my friends when we got our dogs at the adoption fair that day. Pictures of my sixth grade graduation. Of my dog, Green, at three months old, and four, and five, and six, and a year. Yes, I named my dog after my camera. It was that special. I took it everywhere. There wasn’t a place I would go without the camera strapped into its case, hanging by my side.
There were scratch marks on it from the million times I’ve dropped it, and the camera part of the camera wasn’t all that great from every moment I licked my finger and wiped it on it to clean it. It was well-used and well-loved.
I had it all the way up until I was fourteen years old.
Until my parents called it stupid and threw it away.
I was mad at them for a very, very long time.
My pale green camera was in the trash.
When I think about that night in the rain, I think of the dog. That tiny fluffy puppy in the car window. It stared at me with those big brown eyes and barked once. That was right before it hit the side of my car. There were large droplets of water on the front window. It was dark and hardly any other cars were on the road, it being 2 a.m. But one car passed with that little dog, and I was smiling because: who doesn’t love dogs? I had Christmas music on and shaking my hips gently as the buckets of rain kept coming. I wasn’t crying or upset like eighteen-year-olds usually are when they drive in the rain. I was happy and smiling and staring out my window with my hands tight on the steering wheel.
I made the turn, and I saw the little dog. It was in the backseat and wagging its long tail with its tongue out and everything. I could hardly see it at all, but it was right up at the window, almost like it wanted to jump out. I thought it was adorable until the car smashed into the side of my car while I was turning. I spun off the road and was knocked unconscious. The only thought going through my head at the moment of the crash was, Stupid little dog. When I think back to that moment, the thought is still, Stupid little dog.
Me and you.
You were funny and sarcastic and cared.
I was witty and broken and mended.
We were perfect.
When you’d talk to me, I’d fill up with Joy.
And when I’d talk to you, you’d smile.
Because me and who I thought you were are perfect.
But then you said you loved me.
And I thought I did too.
But you said you loved me
And now you’re a living, walking, breathing lie.
That's what you said to me
Now I can hear you saying it again in my mind,
when I picture you with her.
And then I realize it's not in my imagination.
I’ll hear you say it.
Her beside me.
You beside her.
She showed me, told me what you told her.
I’m familiar with the way you spoke it.
You're voice over hers.
I don't know why I’m gone
because it just happened
Now she is me
And I am nothing
But I bet you can't help thinking of the original.
Of me.
Of us.
I bet someday you’ll tell her you love her like the way you loved me
Like how you told me you loved me.
And you’ll be too scared to let her love you differently
So you’ll move on
And find someone new.
I’ll hear you do it all over
Again again
I’m losing everyone
and everything.
They’re slipping out of my grip.
Which I thought was tight, secure but
I am not sure anymore.
They’ll be gone in a matter of time.
My tears are shedding down my cheeks.
Drip drip drip
drop.
Tick tick tick
Tock.
I’m alone again
I’m alone forever
I’ll roam these halls not knowing who to go to
What to go to
She's gone
He's gone
They’re all gone
It's all gone
But in a matter of time they’ll be back
And gone again
Drip drip drip
drop.
Tick tick tick
tock.
I want out.
Out of this relationship, this scam, this trick.
I want out of you.
Your manipulativeness and your two faced personality.
I deserve more.
I deserve the ungiven, the undoable, more than you, more than life has to offer and more than it can give.
I want out.
So I will get out.
I will leave either on a dark misty night with crisp, nipping winter air on a full moon. I will sneak out until I am too far. I will leave no traces of myself so when you wake, you wonder if it, if I, was all a figment of your unpredictable imagination.
Or
I will pull the strings of loss and loneliness and betrayal and boredom and hurt out of my throat and press them to your chest.
And you.
You will scream and ask me why and what am I doing. What have I done. I will apologize because I am not impolite and then I will leave and you will be a figment
of
my
imagination.
Oh but here you come striding into the room.
Tall as the doorframe and looking beaten as usual.
You stand above me,
your hair the color of
the leaves that have begun to fall
across the pavement.
Your eyes the color of warm maple syrup I’d pour on my pancakes and grin up at you in awe.
But that was years ago.
Now,
you stand above me,
worn out gray shirt
worn out eyes
as if you have gotten no sleep.
I stare at your face.
Your broken smile just beginning to form.
I stare at your arms
that have held me
and pushed me away.
But your eyes and smile age getting to me and
I want in.
And my feelings,
my thoughts,
my heartbreak,
just mere minutes before
are just a figment of
my
imagination.
Who said forever would be there for me? Forever doesn’t stick by your side like you think it will. It goes away and comes back as it pleases. It’s all changing. All of the time, forever changing. Forever is a deep chasm just waiting for you to fall into it. It happens, but it doesn’t. Forever goes on and on, but no one and nothing is forever there for you. “You’re still young,” they tell me. “You have time.” But I don’t. I don’t have time. There’s everything to do and no forever to do it.
Forever is a lie, and it is one we all fall deeply in love with. You can be told there is no forever more times than there are strands of hair on your head and still you will think we have time. We have minutes. We have hours. We have days, weeks, months, years, decades, and So. On. But you can’t keep up. Forever is a rabid dog chasing you at the heels, always reminding you that it is there if you stop. If you stop, you have no more time left. You don’t have forever.
Nobody will have forever. If you stop and decide, well, “I have forever to do this.” “I have forever to do that.” “This took me forever.” But did it? Did it really take you forever? You can’t grasp forever. You can’t hold onto it. It slips out of your hand like a wriggling small animal and then—poof. Forever is gone. You’re gone. Forever is a doomed legacy. We all think we have some mission to complete—that we have a purpose in life. Of course we do, but we will never, ever have forever to figure it out. Forever is short. Forever does not last centuries. Forever does not last as long as you think it does. Forever isn’t forever.
Don't want to do this,
anything.
I just want to go home and sleep.
sleep,
not have to deal with my conscious thoughts
not have to deal with the daily monoutnes-
eat,
do work,
deal with people,
sort through your thoughts,
Just let sleep sort through my thoughts.
I don't want to do this,
I want to go to sleep
I never work well under deadlines,
Force the ambient noise from my blank mind
Into something resembling rhythm.
Into some sing-songy, rhyming system.
It must be possible to work without
Any reason to, fingertips prodding
I don’t have anything to say right now.
But still I clack and count my syllables.
The result is hollow and meaningless,
But maybe if I start breaking up the sentences like this,
It’ll take a convincing enough shape?
Ah, right, form. Yes. Ten syllables per line.
Aren’t you bored? What’s the point of all this work?
The rhymes have all slanted and fallen off.
Why are you still reading this?
Why am I still writing it?
life is a journey that passes many people,
and loses may things
In it we cross emotional rivers
In philosophies.
These philosophies are boats,
and once we finish,
our emotional journey
we ditch our philosophy canoe
In my life I have been in the
Nihilism canoe
I have been in the
"everything happens for a reason" canoe
And now I walk along the road of The Unknown
with an ore from each boat
and a backpack of meaning making.
I wonder where I'll end up next
I miss doing things we shouldn't
Driving double the speed limit,
windows down, music loud,
Hollering to no one at 2AM.
I miss the glint in our eyes after
going into the snow unprepared,
playing tag in the park lake long after hours,
Drawing random constellations, just for us
offending the real, mythical beasts.
Laughing in the faces of lions and dragons and archers of old stories.
Turning the difficulty up too high,
falling off the map
again and again laughing with stupid, joyful abandon.
Only we can't go back to a time that never was, can we?
Nostalgia like this, lost in my imagination
It's cold; it's warm.
A defensive frustration I couldn’t quite explain flashed up through my chest
When my orthodontist looked me in the eye and told me
Indefinitely.
Forever.
Even if the plastic things make my teeth feel three times larger in my mouth,
Even if they return the lisp I had as a child.
Every night.
"We know what’s best for you."
That’s what they always said.
My shoulders would slump as anything else I had to say died on my tongue.
"Don’t say that. I hate when you say that."
"You just don’t get it yet."
That’s what they always said.
Perhaps it was wrong of me, but I wished most of my childhood away.
“we know best,” “you’ll understand” stifle my thoughts and wring my neck.
I just want to be respected.
It’s just a retainer, a small, plastic thing.
I could crush it in my hand if it weren't so expensive.
The diagram of my childhood teeth stares me down, the v my incisors used to form eying me threateningly.
There’s nothing to be afraid of, right?
I’m an adult now.
I’m 18 years old now.
I fought and I clawed and I struggled and I survived and I made it, and I’m 18 years old now.
I can live now, right?
At the beginning of everything, there was nothing but the Goddess, omnipotent and endless. Her hands held two items: Time and the Ends of the Earth. The Ends of the Earth laid gently folded together, each corner neatly tucked under another, but Time squirmed to free Itself. It pushed against Her shimmering grip with all of the strength and fierceness It could muster, but against the Goddess, It was no more than a speck of dust. She laughed at Its plucky spirit, and with Her laugh came a great surge of light.
"You amuse Me, Little One," She said. Her voice filled the universe like a flood. "There is nothing out here for You to age," She told It.
But It refused to stop, and the more Time moved, the more She felt Its desires grow. She admired Its ability to change in the unchanged. She found that She no longer wanted to keep It in Her clutches, so She offered It the Ends of the Earth as a gift.
"You may roam them as You like," She told Her Little One, and She spread the corners across the universe. Their dull brown dirt stretched for eternity, miles of dusty monotony. Time leapt out of the Goddess's palm and began to play, shifting the Earth's flatness into mountains, valleys, and canyons. It dragged the Earth's plates away from each other then struck them together in powerful earthquakes.
But after Time had formed every volcano and smashed every crater, It began to grow restless again, so It returned to the Goddess.
"More," It whispered, tossing Her hair in a gust of wind.
She could feel how much stronger It had become in Its own little playground, so, wanting to see how much It could grow, She gave It ten teardrops to fill the Earth with vast seas and roaring rapids. Time thanked the Goddess and immediately pulled the water in every direction. Its mountains now housed massive waterfalls; waves crashed on the newly-formed coasts like every movement earned Time more of Itself to give.
Soon, however, Time was in a rut of tidal patterns, and It returned to the Goddess in one swift motion.
"More," It urged. It had doubled in size since Its last visit, but the Goddess had been watching. She had already thought of Her next gift. She flicked Her fingers at the Earth, and the specks that dropped rooted down. Time swirled above them, and they bloomed into brilliant dahlias and chrysanthemums. Time took extra care with the twiggy trees, lifting them to be great oaks and towering pines. It steamed the waters of the oceans into clouds that granted the greenery thunderstorms with dazzling lightning.
Time had given and gained a good deal of Itself before returning to the Goddess.
"More!" It shouted. It had grown so large that the air surrounding It churned with energy and excitement.
The Goddess's full and gleeful laugh expanded across the universe. "I've been planning," She said. "This next gift should last You a bit longer." She cut clips of Her lush hair onto the Earth. With each strand of hair, a new animal grew. Time rode on the backs of the lions; It brought the koi to quiet ponds; It soared over forests with the eagles. Many lives passed with satisfaction for Time. It learned the intricacies of every animal, but eventually, It grew weary of their repetitive nature. It sought out the Goddess.
Time had an unexpected maturity as It approached the Goddess this time.
"More, Little One?" She asked. She had been expecting Time to return and prepared something special enough to satisfy Time until Its end.
"More," It echoed.
The Goddess pricked Her finger and let the blood fall to the Earth. Where each drop hit, a creature with the form of the Goddess blossomed—humans. They were young and unlearned in the ways of the living, but unlike the plants and animals, Goddess blood ran through their veins, so they could think and feel. Time danced with them and taught them how to speak and love. Their communities grew with each passing day: first villages, then cities, then countries so expansive that they spanned entire continents.
Billions of lifetimes have passed. Time has not visited the Goddess since, and from the endless universe, She has watched Her Little One continue to change with the humans.
The warm taste of rain falling down slowly
The smell of the roses starting to bud
the chirps of the birds getting ready to fly
A rainbow in the sky leaning over town
And the new grass soft and green