The In Between
By Ryland McGinniss & Julianna Reidell
Oh, Summer:
This death for me is only fading,
because I have always been stiff. Silent.
and untameable.
Oh Winter, it’s ironic, because I feel like this life, this life in which I give only as way to receive, is getting
stronger.
with its breaths of love and hate - it’s getting stronger
I can’t fade when the rays of the sun shine
illuminating, even elongating, the smiles and scowls of
people
people passing by
while i sit here waiting for the life
to be sucked back into the limbo between stiffness and beauty
beauty that i can’t maintain, only burn
just as i continue to try to burn the bridge in-between us
spring.
I
am eerie
build beauty-
my landscapes swirl, the
aurora borealis my flare, my skirts, the
icicles fingernails, that break and grow again.
I am devastation
wrapped and shattered, raw and muffled, I
do not accept compromises,
but others have learned to live with me
and thrive
and manage to survive.
And you, you were never willing
to try.
I
am
deliberate
actions speak louder than
existence.
the sun, just there
does nothing
but the eagerness to give just to see
see something, anything
is loud,
very loud
the sunburn, people peel, only for it to start again
i do not accept finite things, anything
but i thought you of all people, Winter,
would understand that others don’t just learn to live with me
they want to do more than just see the sunrise
they want to feel like they have control
and even, maybe, feel interested in any disconnect or element of surprise.
This death for me it feels like melting.
Water in the limbs, the dissolution
of cold snaps, life-blood.
I breathe ice
only for you to break.
This life for me, it feels like burning
But careful burning, the limbo, the fear of
losing my control
Becoming like Icarus
Too untamed,
But I’m sucked way too deep in your brain.
Sick of bringing light
only for your air to erase
More reasons than stars
why we shouldn’t be together.
You, a tempest, and me, a tyrant,
You took everything from me.
You reign while I lie, unmoored, unmourned, out
of sight, ready myself
for another blood-draw,
remind myself how your damn light
licks away all of my most delicate constructions
pantheons, my monuments.
All testaments
to crisp
and clear –
not dead
but cold.
You bend, and I break
we play this little game
wherein you taunt me with your almost half embrace
and then you dominate, force me to succumb
we swore we’d never fantasize
hoped with our rationale, we’d rationalize
But here we are
And already you make me crumble, you make me less
than liquid, I sink
just for a taste of your touch.
Hating you, holding me,
Are we both wishing for a moment for lesser extremes?
A twilit in-between, lips
brush lips,
and we do daffodils, we
become hyacinthus,
forsythia.
Breaths
stop, eyes
drop, you let me
go
And the last thing I see before undoing
is not you, Summer,
but us: spring.
About the Authors
Ryland McGinniss is a first year History and English major with a minor in Gender and Sexuality Studies. He loves to do advocacy work whenever he can, and honestly you'll probably see some of that reflected in his writing. When he's not busy with writing, he listens to music and one of his most prized possessions is his concert t-shirt collection.
Julianna Reidell is a first-year English and French major at Arcadia University. She has received gold and silver medals for her humor writing and poetry at the national level of the Scholastic Art and Writing Awards. Her work can also be found in the magazines Teen Ink and Stone Soup, as well as on the teen comedy site The Milking Cat. One day, she'll write a novel.