Reading
I read A Swim in a Pond in the Rain, by George Saunders, with my friend and fellow student Mayla. It is a book on writing (specifically short stories), and while we read the book we each were working on our own short stories (Night). We met and discussed each chapter, sharing our ideas on the story and reflecting on how the book related to our own writing. I learned alot from this book, and I came away with a lot of ideas to think about as I edit my short story.
Bird by Bird
This is another book on writing and I read it with mayla. We met, dicussed, and took notes on the chapters each week.
Notes on Bird by Bird discussions
Feb. 13, from Introduction to Dialogue
she likes to talk about the negative stuff and all of her annoying bad author friends
we should do more short assignments, that is a good idea
“‘Writing a novel is like driving a car at night. You can see only as far as your headlights, but you can make the whole trip that way.’” Mentioned in the book, quote from E. L. Doctorow
perfectionism chapter:
“Tidiness suggests that something is as good as it is going to get” - example for why first drafts should be very drafty, otherwise we think we don’t have to edit
they wrote so much about school lunches! (in the school lunches chapter)
but that would be a fun project, we should try it
the characters chapter would be a good one to re-read
it mentioned how you can base characters on people you know, or yourself, like what we were talking about with Max
it’s good to think about characters as people not just pawns to fulfill the plot (Ella quote)
give characters a thing to identify them - “give him a cigar, give her piggy little alcoholic eyes”
don’t make your characters fake
in the plot chapter, it was talking about just writing about your characters and letting them tell you the plot
Ella is good at making drafty drafts, Mayla is not
Feb 24, Dialogue to Broccoli
read your dialogue out loud, make sure its good dialogue
set design: imagine a scene in your story as a set for a play or movie, ask others for help designing your sets if they know what something looks like and you don’t, seek others who know what you’re writing about and have experienced it, to get help if you haven’t experienced what you’re writing about
sometimes stories go in a different direction than you originally expected, but that's okay and it ultimately helps you discover more about the characters and the story
plot treatment: sometimes you have to change around the order of events in your plot, you have to workshop it if you don't like it, also sometimes it is helpful to write an outline of what happens in each chapter of the story, to outline the plot
you know when you're done when you’re done :)
looking around: pay attention!
the moral point of view: you write about what you care about, so you have to care about what you write about
Feb 17, Broccoli to Calling Around
Broccoli:
listen to your inner broccoli, it will tell you what to do
Ella says that broccoli isn’t good steamed, so she is calling her intuition cauliflower (which isn’t good steamed either, but it's good baked) (the book says that broccoli is is your intuition)
“Writing is about hypnotizing yourself into believing in yourself, getting some work done, then unhypnotizing yourself and going over the material coldly.” -page 114
Radio Station KFKD
turn off the radio station noise in your head so that you can actually write
the author’s suggestions for how to do that: prayer, small-animal sacrifice, breathing (Ella will choose to sacrifice a ladybug or a tick, Mayla would sacrifice a mosquito)
Jealousy
Ella is jealous a lot and that helps her write!
you should laugh about your jealousy
everyone is jealous, unless they have no aspirations and no friends (Ella quote)
Anne Lammott must have no friends, especially after the publishing of this book - she’s always insulting them and talking about how horrible they are
“the only things to help ease or transform it (jealousy) are (a) getting older, (b) talking about it until the fever breaks, and (c) using it as material.” - page 124
Index Cards:
We forgot what we were going to discuss about this chapter, we should have written it down on index cards (the chapter was about writing stuff down on index cards so you don’t forget it)
It mentioned time passing - that is a good writing skill that we need to work on
Ella writes index cards about random thoughts, lyrics for songs, and ideas for art - most of which happens late at night
March 24, Calling Around to Writing a Present
Calling Around:
if you don’t know about something, call someone who actually knows about it
Ella observed that she doesn’t write about something if she doesn’t know about it, that is why Calling Around is helpful
this is why Mayla has not written about water pollution in her story yet, because she doesn’t know about it and she doesn’t want to research :)
Writing Groups:
writing groups are good for getting feedback on your work
also they help to pressure you to actually write!
we have a writing group but we don’t meet very often
Someone to Read Your Drafts:
get someone to read your drafts who can give you real honest feedback (so like not your parents)
“writing is about filling up, filling up when you are empty, letting images and ideas and smells run down like water - just as writing is also about dealing with the emptiness.” - page 170 - 171
it is good to get someone to read your work to see what makes sense and what doesn’t and what parts are good and what parts are shitty
criticism is hard but helpful
Letters:
if you write in the form of a letter sometimes that helps you start writing without trying to be so perfect
especially a letter to someone you love or one of the characters in your writing
“The letter’s informality just might free you from the tyranny of perfectionism.” - page 172
Anne Lamott was saying that she wrote a lot by starting the writing as a letter
we should write some stuff in letter format!
Writer’s Block:
thinking of writer’s block as BLOCK makes you get writer’s block
just accept that you are struggling to find inspiration in this moment, and go and get inspired
if you don’t know what to write just set a word-count goal and once you achieve that goal, take a break
Writing a Present
this chapter was about how your writing can be a present for someone you love
all of Anne Lamott’s examples of when she did this was for dying people, but you can also just write something as a gift for someone even if they’re not dying
Ella has been thinking about writing a short story as a Christmas present for someone
Mayla once tried to write a short story as a Christmas present for someone, but then she never finished it
another way that your writing can be a present for someone is if you are writing about your memories with them
April 5, Finding Your Voice through The Last Class
Finding Your Voice
write about the bad stuff that other people don’t talk about
don’t try to write like someone else, just try to write like yourself
Giving
if you write like you only have a certain amount of writing and inspiration supply, then you won’t be able to write anything good
instead, you need to write like you have an endless supply of inspiration
give all that you can to your writing
Publication
don’t be like Ella and think that publication is the best part of writing
it is about the experience of telling stories
and if you let your publishedness get to your ego that’s bad
but publishing can also be cool sometimes because you get to share your story with more people
The Last Class
write about real people (especially ones you don’t like), but disguise them so you don’t get sued (Anne Lamott says the trick is to give them small penises)
use real experiences from your life, that makes the writing more real
write about what you know about with real emotion
“writing and reading decrease our sense of isolation.” (page 237)
“we are given a shot at dancing with, or at least clapping along with, the absurdity of life, instead of being squashed by it over and over again” (page 237)
The Handmaid's Tale
I read this book and took notes on it for prooof of reading. It was really intense but also very good.
Notes on The Handmaid's Tale
Questions for The Handmaid’s Tale by Margaret Atwood
The old sexist society was said to reduce women to mere physical objects. Has this changed?
Perhaps they are seen less as sexual objects, but they are still seen as objects nonetheless. They are things to cook and clean, or to have children, or to play the role of a docile happy wife. The handmaid’s are not thought of as people with real emotions or feelings or past lives. Their whole being is judged on whether they can become pregnant.
Why does she lie about her reaction when the Commander asks her to kiss him?
Offered shows herself rebellious, thinking about a way to use the commander's desire against him, maybe she wishes she were strong enough to actually kill him. Then she shows herself as passive but still strong in herself, defiant, she doesn’t kiss the commander “As if you mean it”. Maybe she really did something she is not proud of and ashamed to tell.
What power does Offred have over men, powerless as she is?
“As we walk away I know they’re watching, these two men who aren't yet permitted to touch women. They touch me with their eyes instead and I move my hips a little, feeling the full red skirtsway around me.” - page 22
She teases the men. With little media, those guardians rarely see other women. Offred tortures them in her own little way. She finds the small scraps of power and holds onto them.
Has the elimination of pornography stopped women from being regarded as sex objects?
Theoretically, it would help, but pornography isn’t the only way to make a woman a sex object. And there are still places like Jezebel’s, they are still sex objects, it is just kept quiet.
How are the Japanese women different from the women of Gilead? Is Atwood idealizing them? What do you think the point of the contrast is?
They wear “short” skirts, which aren’t even very short, nail polish and high heels. They are not treated as only things to cook or have babies. Their presence captures just how controlled the women of Gilead are, but it also highlights that not everywhere is like it. In other countries women have much more freedom. Other countries also know what’s happening and they haven’t seemed to do anything about it.
They are somewhat idealized, but I think this makes sense. They are seen and described from the perspective of Offred who has none of what they have, but remembers having such freedoms once.
What is the function of the Wall?
The Wall is used as something to invoke fear. It shows the people of Gilead what will happen if they misbehave. It’s a sort of grimm warning, like a gruesome bedtime story for children to get them to behave.
“They have committed atrocities and must be made into examples for the rest.”- page 33
Offred uses it as a way to have some knowledge of her loved ones. She checks to make sure Luke is not on the Wall and is revived, for a moment at least, that he could still be alive.
Why does Offred envy Rita her access to the knife?
Any weapon to hurt oneself or others is power. In her room anything that could be used to commit suicide has been removed. Even if Offred didn’t plan on hurting herself, the possession of a knife, the knowledge that she could if she wished, that would be power for her.
What hope keeps Offred alive?
“I also believe that they didn’t catch him or catch up with him after all, that he made it,” - page 105
Offred believes many things about Luke, she believes that he is dead, or captured, but she also still hopes that maybe he is alive somewhere and he will send her a message or rescue her and their daughter, and in some far off someday they could be a happy family again.
Thoughts on the ending:
Offred's story ends with the unknown. She is taken away in a van with unfamiliar people. She doesn't know if they are enemies or friends. So maybe she will be punished or maybe she will be rescued. This seems like a fitting ending for her story, throughout the whole book she has not been rebellious or stronger or luckier than the other handmaids, so why would she have a miraculous happy ending? Although it very well could be, it is not the kind of book with a big revolution, an uprising of the oppressed, a hero. It is just the story of one person living in that time. There is not much of a climax, or a build up, so I think it is the most satisfying ending that it is left to the unknown.
In the “historical notes'' the reader is given a new perspective on Offred and her time period. It is framed as a professor giving a talk about her story. It was found in a foot locker, her story hidden in cassette tapes. This suggests that she survived at least long enough to write and hide her tale, but it leaves me wondering whether she actually escaped, if she ever found her family, how did her story end. I think this ending also works well with the story. The whole world has been made to seem somewhat plausible, and the historical note makes it feel even more so. It implies that she could’ve made it out of Gilead, but it still leaves me with questions.