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This is My Sea
Antecedent: Completely originated from deep thoughts based on real experiences of how I felt I was being treated at the time. All of these pieces wouldn't have been possible without the experiences throughout my life but especially during this investigation where I really studied my own life, finding my way of expressing it through art. April 2024 (and the last 2 days of March) were especially horrid, however this was written before then. Not just taking from recent events, but the paradoxes and problems with my entire life.
What emotions would you like to see, from the sea of emotions I have for thee?
All for free! At the expense of me.
What do you want from me?
(let me be)
What do you want me to be?
(let me be)
I'll be whatever you need to see
At the expense of me
The only thing you'll never see from me is the end of me, no end to the sea I've made for thee.
Feel free to plunder my sea
As I bend my knees to serving thee I promise it doesn't bother me
Inspired or helped develop the following pieces directly: Refract [5], Point and View [6], Reflection Hurt [8], Drown [9]
Indirectly inspired or developed the following pieces: Hide[7]
Related Pieces: The Jester & The Puppet [4]
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Who Put a Stake in My Heart
I got that flame in me that won't shake so I'll never catch a break. My head aches and I'm afraid I'll never escape. I felt this was a mistake, this neglect no matter how far I knelt. Feels like I'm gonna melt, but I never fell, then I felt it'd never end. never getting help. Then I'm awake, took a stake to my root, while they take. Isn't it heartfelt knowing my sacrifice is not felt?
Maybe its just my fate. Not knowing what accompanies them in their quest for consultation, my charity comes with no expense except-
I wanna build your foundation, get you back on two feet, get you back to eating.
My destination is forever, settling my reputation. There is no wait, there is never too few for my plate just ignore the tape, I promise it cant break.
Your mind will misconstrue that if I withdrew, I'd be through. Done and be able to start something new but this is far from true. It's only your view and the reality is I'm screwed.
I'm not too smart but I know if i try to depart that I'm holding up a wall. I don't want it to fall, its gonna smash my heart. It's all a piece of art that's all gonna come apart.
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Wildfire
Antecedent: I'm like a tree I don't feel hurt. but people always take from me. and maybe I'm getting hurt. but I cant tell.
I left my heart out but you took from it in the wrong way. Now I'm bleeding and you set a fire in my roots. Charred up, this situations getting dire. Plumes of ash elevating higher. It's the sequel to a wildfire. The one that you kindled right where it shatters the hardest.