Dear Diary,

It was another meeting with the hearts, and Kevin had fought with the demon of gluttony once more... 

we were stationed at the Medical office with accommodations provided... but this included that Kevin and Winthro would meet more with Kevin seeing Sinool for the time of our stay. I kept my smile, stayed calmed, and kept my eye on Kevin... watching him, as he looked not at me, but at Sinool. his eyes filled with such affection and life as if seeing life in them once more. despite Sinool already with someone, Kevin still looked at him with hope and devotion to protect the poor thing despite the terms of their relationship... 

as for me, I tried to joke about how Kevin shouldn't bother with affairs of another, but his hatred for demons and his heart for the boy in question was clouding his judgement... as my own heart clouds mine, for not seeing that Kevin only longs for another... 

once night fell upon the home, everyone asleep, I snuck out of my room to the cafeteria... my steps sharp and quiet as to not awake anyone... I made it to the kitchen and looked around for something. anything to quench my burning heart that was hurting once more from Kevin's emotions of another... I had spotted the grape juice and poured a glass... than another... pouring many and drinking them one by one... soon the bottle was emptied just like my heart...

I grabbed another bottle... drinking it straight from the bottle as my vision got blurry from over consumption of many fluids... but my heart was still hurting, still aching, as I just... may temperance but both a curse and blessing as I have broken mine countless times with using juice to cleanse my sorrows and may temperance help Kevin... find his happiness while I... I...

I soon passed out and can't well remember what happened... all I remember was slumping to the kitchen floor with a glass in hand... and my vision blurring into black... but once I woke up, I was back in my room?... I looked around thinking it was a dream but... then I saw what covered my body... Kevin's cape?... did he?... I feared if he saw me in such a state but?... when I saw him, he never questioned me, never asked me about my drinking habits... or why his cape was upon me when I woke up?... I did return it, but was only met with silence... 

I still question that moment as yes... I still drink alone... just hoping dionysus juice could help me fill the hole in my heart while I keep waiting... waiting for the moment for his heart to change for me... waiting to be chosen... waiting with my patience as both a blessing... and a curse...