This piece is a stand alone piece that came to me at work kind of out of no where. Recently I've been struggling with my own self image and self worth and in the end I wrote this piece to share those emotions and let people know that they're not alone if they are feeling this way.
You think you’re not strong. But you are.
You think you’re not pretty. But you are.
You think you’re not smart. But you are.
You think you’re not seen. But you are.
You think you’re not wanted. But you are.
You think you’re not loved. But you are.
You are so much.
Even looking into this mirror right now you can’t see it. All you see is darkness and disgust and that’s because you’re missing pieces so you must, be broken.
A hard word to be spoken but it’s all you’ll ever see because your eyes won’t let you believe reality.
No matter how many times you hear them tell you how strong smart attractive seen wanted and loved you are you’ll never believe who you really are. Why? Because the reflection you see is tainted by your thoughts painting the tragic truth that you’ll never see you because your mind doesn’t want you to.
It’s toxic. Consuming you. Second by second you sink deeper into the abyss because you can’t resist.
You close your eyes and beg yourself why you can’t see yourself through their eyes. It’s because of this damn disguise. It’s the cause of your cries and the fire in your mind. You’re not at the top never been on top wanna make it stop and drop down the pit down because you’re done with this shit and you wanna quit cuz this constant battle with depression your tryin to suppress and you’re not winning.
They call you friend but they choose where and when and that all depends on who’s around. You can’t take it, their fakin' every picture you’ve ever taken.
They beg you no, stay please don’t go we’ll change but it never changes it’s always the damn same and the place you call home is where you feel most alone.
You try to stay sane but it’s all in vain Cuz you can’t mask the pain now you’re going insane it’s all the same
Stuck in this cell haunted by that smell because you can’t escape your mind’s spell that’s trapped you in this hell
The hell of your thoughts and feelings that brought you this grief that taught you nothing but the ones you love always leave
Leave you forgotten to rot and marinate in this toxic spot that tells you you’re not everything you are and you try to escape but this is your fate...
And now it’s too late.
I really hope you all enjoyed my piece and if you'd like more performances like this please head over to my YouTube and I will gladly create more content like this. This project was so fun for me because it combined two of my biggest passions: acting and writing.