If at any time you want to speak to an adult, here are some options that are available to everyone at any time! No cost at all!
Integrated Family Services: Online Chat! http://www.integratedfamilyservices.net/
Crisis Text Line: https://www.crisistextline.org/
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
Phone number: 1-800-273-8255