Many seeds were planted once
In my fertile heart anew.
Stretched down their hungry roots
And in the dirt they grew.
Through many rainy seasons
(And the ones full of a sun)
They grew and stood firm stanced
And moved all but none.
Tried and tested they remained
With courage, did these seeds,
Their never moving twisted roots
Shot them into trees.
They fought against the weather
Their leaves convulsed in wind,
But through every strong tempest,
These trees did not give in.
Years had passed, these trees grew large,
But then one faithful day,
The stubborn trees had sadly died
Their life well lived to fade.
What good were these old dead trees?
Their healthy soil drained
And the space they once produced a life
Now was dead as they.
But then as all preventions failed,
A fiery match burned through!
And ablaze went the old dead trees
Their old lives giving new.
You fickle thing of code and error!
You wretched spawn of Delilah,
You odious mass of numbers,
You virus, you deserter,
You worse than senseless thing!
You, who I trusted with all
You, who I took care to know
Who I backed-up to make our time light
You, who I relied on to cradle my musings
Like a fragile nesting bird.
You are a traitor to your purpose!
A blight among your kind.
An unsightly lump upon fair skin
You have dishonored all you stood for,
Brought shame to the house of Gates.
The pain you brought me is not micro,
Nor is the reparation soft.
There simply are no words.
You have thrown an ugly stone
Through my nearly perfect window.
I'll pick up the broken pieces
But I don’t want your help
You've done quite enough.
I'll move my ship to safer waters
And stay close to sturdy docks.
Thank heaven I don’t rely on you for salvation
I have a system that never crashes.
A backup that never goes to dust
All I have is securely stored
With the fail-safe Living Word.
I just know it’s her.
It’s not her height that sets her apart.
It’s not the bright red glow of her hair.
It’s not the dimple on her cheek as she smiles.
It’s not her undeniable beauty.
It’s not the headband in her hair that carries her scent.
It’s not even the shine from the ring on her finger.
Then what is it?
How do you know it's her?
It’s the butterflies I get in my stomach as she gets closer.
It’s is the way she encourages me like no other.
It’s how she looks in awe at creation.
It’s the way she pursues the Lord.
It’s the tears that well up in my eyes thinking about our future.
It’s the strength she brings to my weaknesses.
I just know it’s her.
She is my wife.
And I know it’s her.
In the ocean sky above me,
capped with clouds of foamy white,
I can see birds gently surfing
over wind and sparkling light.
And I sit here and I wonder
what that feeling must be like,
soaring higher and free-floating
on the raptured wings of flight.
Now, out of the blue, a prayer
like I’ve never known before
lifts my spirit like a surging
wave that seeks to find the shore.
In its wake I am just glimpsing
all the good God has in store,
leaving my soul ever reaching
and my heart longing for more.
Mountains of failures
Shadow over me.
They stand and mock
As I run and fall down again.
"You'll never make it out.
You're stuck here,
Forever trapped in fear.
You don't matter at all."
The voices swirl and swirl,
Penetrating my mind
Until I cannot distinguish
Their voices from mine.
"Please, pause!"
I exclaim in grief,
"Give me a second
To remember what I believe!
"I believe in freedom.
I believe in love.
All that happened yesterday
Has passed and gone away."
I breathe.
The mountains scream
And crumble
Into piles of dust.
He’s a warrior.
Seen things you never want to,
Come back
And faced monsters
Your nightmares
Never dreamed of.
He’s a bounty hunter.
Chasing down
The very convict
Set on his life.
Turned the price
On cancer’s head;
Refuses to be the victim.
He’s a hero.
Combating with boldness
Beyond imagining
A foe bent on his life;
The stakes are high.
At every turn,
Terrorized,
Tortured;
No promise of tomorrow.
He’s a survivor.
He has a story
Meant to be told.
He is bold
And brave and golden.
He’s my best friend.
I’m forever thankful
That he is a warrior.