I learned a lot about gothic that I didn't before, and that was one of my overall goals with this project. I was able to read these books that I've been dying to read for a really long time and I even got to see how my own imagination of the books I read were translated to film so I really do feel like I got to know a lot. I also did not know much about gothic's history until this project, since I focused on the gothic revival period it was interesting to research how that era was characterized and what effect the literature I was looking at affected the atmosphere of the time. I was also able to learn more about stats through this, mainly on what you can not do a statistical analysis on. In class we are only ever given problems that you can statistically analyze or else what would we do, but it's nice to get a good example of when it doesn't. 

When it comes to implicating the content I've learned later on, I'm not exactly sure what that looks like? At the beginning of the year I wanted to do something more focused on my career but instead just decided to explore another one of my interests. I would love to delve deeper into gothic and horror genres as well but I currently have no clue what future comes for me and gothic. 

There is no such thing as too much preperation! When it came to my presentation I really wished I had been able to get more feedback about what I had, specifically from Ms. Dobos and Mr. McBride, but I was only able to get it once. As much as I appreciate my friends input, and it did help me a lot, I know there were still parts I was lacking in my presentation and it's hard to notice as a fellow student trying to give feedback. ESPECIALLY on the oral response questions, as I think I felt more prepared for them then I actually did in the end. Not to use brain rot in a blog post, but my friends really glazed me I definitely had more I needed to focus on in my presentation that I did not make clear enough. 

I think I was able to tie it back pretty well when getting to my paper, but I can be very humbled when I get my score back on it. I'm so annoyed at myself for procrastinating my paper as much as I did, as I was already at 4,500 and I still had more I wanted to add but I wasn't sure where to lessen to make it fit? It was challenging to say the least but I did submit it and it was in the word count and I think I had everything I needed (if I didn't then this will be so awkward to look back at). Overall I do hope I was able to make up for my faults in my presentation with my paper, if I didn't, well then this is a huge learning moment of what I need to change in my academic life because holy crap how have I made it this far and I still messed it up. But that is yet to be seen, so currently in a blissful ignorance. 

I've learned that regardless how toxic or how nice of motivation I try to give myself, I will always procrastinate, probably til the day I die. But sometimes you gotta work with the person you are, because somehow I still managed to pull it all together!

I think something more major I learned about myself is that I try to bite off more than I can chew? My resaerch itself wasn't unmanageable but I was trying to do way more than I should've been, like I couldn't just focus on what part I had to add more little parts to my research question and it just became a mess, like I thin kit was obvious that I lost the plot a little and I definetly need to work on that in the future. My lesson is, sometimes less is more, becuase more deosn't always make sense in the context of what you are doing. I can say this all now, but the hindsight bias I feel regarding it all is so bad, like wish I could do it over and change things, but I'm trying to think of it as a learning opportunity for the future! Better to have this when I'm younger than when I'm old and have less time to correct it. So I think that there are ways that this project will both haunt and guide me in the future but sometimes that is the perfect mix!